IMPORTANT NOTE! This is an alternate universe of the mange Naruto with EXTREME out-of-character characters. It is a hardcore yaoi-based fanfiction that may include the following: shota-con, raped, non-con, and anal sex. Profanity Alerts! Please be warned before you proceed further.

Chapter 1: Holding onto Happiness

On the south of our $9.6 million estate was the most precious place to me in the world; a place very dear to my heart. This place was a shelter; one built for my mother and the monster in me. It was a holy place built to capture the happiness that will eventually fade away as memories would. Outside of this shelter was a Sakura tree. Across from this shelter was a flower garden, one my mother never tended to but loved very dearly. Further in the garden was a greenhouse; around the greenhouse were more plants and flowers. In the spring, plants would sprout and Sakura petals would dance around this shelter as if to celebrate the coming year. In the summer, cicadas would cry and red maple leaves would cover the whole ground in the fall. In the winter, snow would pile up so high to the point of blindness. This was a place of memories. This was a place of happiness. This was the place of the beginning.

In the summer of 1998 when I was 8 years old, my father brought home a woman and two kids. My father was holding onto the woman's hand in such a way that I had never seen him held onto my mother's hand before. They both stopped by the main stairway when they saw me looking down on them from the top of the stair. Father just gazed at me like he usually did without any word. I noticed that two boys were holding onto the woman's other hand. Those two boys were observing the situation while the woman observed my father's reaction to me. After a while, she kindly forced a smile at me and spoke in a very gentle voice, "Hi" she said. I nodded as if to acknowledge her presence. There was a subtle quietness in the air. The silence after that seemed like eternity until one of the little boy who looked my age waved to me. Again, I just nodded.

"Naruto?" my mother called me. I turned behind to find my mother standing speechless. She was shocked. Mother was just staring at father, waiting for an explanation. I could see: tears in her eyes, redness in her face, and anger in her fists.

"What have you done!" she yelled for the first time in my life. Startled, I moved away from my beloved mother.

"Don't tell me, you – you are taking your whore into this estate?" she choked as she forced herself to stutter the word whore. My mother, who grew up in a good upbringing could not contain the rage inside of her, dared to utter words she never did before. The woman released my father's hand. Shameful, she hid her two sons behind her as if to cover them from this situation.

"I can't believe you! When we got marry, I knew that you were seeing someone else BUT THIS!" mother continued throwing her anger at father.

My father shook his head, "We were married for the sake of both the Uzumaki family and my family, not for love. You knew that I would be bringing my real wife into this estate someday" father said.

"Why? I thought at least you would have come to love me after having Naruto…why?" mother cried as she buried her face inside both of her hands. Through the gaps of her hands, I could see the sadness she felt slipping through. 'Ah' I realized. 'Is this how it feels like to have the happiness you held onto escaped through the gaps of your finger?'

"Just like how water eventually escapes through the gaps in between your fingers, one day, happiness will eventually slip through the gaps of your hands" my mother told me this a few days after that fateful day.

Two years later, my mother passed away leaving the rightful ownership of this $9.6 million estate to me along with her last request: "Hate them"

'My dear beautiful and most beloved mother, how could I not hate them? They who destroy you will never live their life in happiness. They must bathe in sadness and solitude, cry rivers of bloods, and never see the light of happiness. I detest them to the core of my very being. This is something I promise you, my precious mother."

Father took in his two bastards and the whore to live in the main estate. Although father could not claim the whore as his legal wife, he did claim his two bastards. The older bastard was supposedly my elder brother, Itachi and the younger bastard, Sasuke, was the same age as me. During my mother funeral, father was busy tending to his whore and bastards. I never spoke a word to father, the whore, or to her two bastards since the day my mother passed away.

Spring 2002, Naruto (12 years old)

"Hahh—" the maid gasped as she dropped Naruto's breakfast on the floor, "What are you doing young master?" the maid asked. She was shocked to see little 12 years old Naruto dressed in girl clothes. Naruto had on a simple dress with little pink ribbons tied on both sides of the dress.

"I hate being the same gender as those two bastards so from now on I am going to be a girl" Naruto said with a-matter-of-fact kind of attitude. "I'm throwing away all my boy clothes so go buy me some girl clothes" he continued as he scattered all the boy clothes he had.

"Oh dear" the maid commented as she picked up the boy clothes scattered all over the floor. "Young master Naruto, I know you are very fair and beautiful like your mother but to dress in girl clothes? Are you going to school dress like that?" the maid continued.

"Baka, I'm quitting school. I'll study from home from now on so get me the best tutor you can get. Understand, Tsunade?" Naruto demanded.

"What?" the maid, Tsunade, gasped in shock. "Have you confirmed this with the master yet or not?" Tsunade asked Naruto.

Naruto glared back at Tsunade, "You know I hate him. He doesn't care what I do anyway. Just do what I told you to!" Naruto commanded. Tsunade knew she could not change the young master mind so she quietly obey and as she was about to leave the room she asked, "Oh, what about breakfast? I know you usually eat in your room to avoid seeing your father and brothers but—"

"I don't have any brothers!" Naruto slammed the door on Tsunade.

'Oh dear, I've got to at least talk to the master about the young master quitting school and wearing girl clothes.' Tsunade thought as she hurried down the stair to the main breakfast table.

Naruto's father, Minato, along with his mistress Wakana and their two sons Itachi (16 years old) and Sasuke (12 years old) were having breakfast together outside in the garden, bathing in the morning sunlight and spring breeze as they enjoyed their toasts and eggs.

Tsunade rushed to where they were, "Young master—master…haa..haa" Tsunade struggled to find her breath. Minato stopped eating and stared at Tsunade, "slow down...what is the problem here?" Minato asked. Wakana and her two sons also stopped eating to listen to what Tsunade was trying to tell them.

"Young master Naruto…said he will…will stop being a boy and become a girl! He will stop attending school too!" Tsunade exclaimed.

"What?!" Wakana dropped her fork. Itachi and Sasuke were also in awe to this very decision Naruto made. However, Minato was in a-matter-of-fact kind of attitude.

"So how did he come to this conclusion?" Minato asked with little concern in his tone of voice. Tsunade glanced at both Itachi and Sasuke, then lower her voice and answered, "Young master Naruto said he doesn't want to be the same gender as both Young master Itachi and Young master Sasuke."

Minato sighed, "I knew it was something stupid like this" Minato muttered. "Let him do whatever he wants. Get him a tutor if he desires it" Minato said and then continued to eat his toasts.

"But dear—" Wakana tried to talk Minato into putting some senses to Naruto's decision.

"It's alright Wakana. Naruto can do what he wants. He'll calm down soon since I plan to send both Itachi and Sasuke to study abroad in America soon" Minato said.

Sasuke dropped his fork, "Abroad?" he questioned, "I have never heard of this before mother."

"Sasuke—uhm, this is something your father wants and it's for the future of you two…" Wakana stopped as she noticed Sasuke's expression of insecurity.

"Sasuke, I'll be going too. Don't cause mother and father trouble by acting like a child" Itachi said without much feeling. He had known about the study abroad decision from his parents. Sasuke did not want to leave Japan, his homeland, to live at another place without his parents. Mad and confused, Sasuke left the breakfast table and headed to the greenhouse.

"Sasuke…" Wakana whispered as if not to disturb Sasuke's thoughts.

"It's okay mother. Let he think for himself" Itachi said.

In the greenhouse was little Naruto who tried to ease his loneliness in the big estate by playing by himself with muds and plants. As Sasuke closed the door behind him, he spotted Naruto building a mud castle with flower petals and stems. Naruto was in his cute dress all dirty with dirts. Sasuke walked closer behind to peek on Naruto but accidently stepped on a rose stem on the ground. The thorn from the rose stem pricked his small feet and he uttered a small cry. Startled, Naruto turned to see Sasuke behind him.

Naruto opened his mouth as if to say something and then stopped himself, stood up and quickly ran away from the greenhouse. Sasuke wanted to stop Naruto and talk to Naruto but he dared not to because he knew how much Naruto hated him.

'Will he ever talk to us? I don't think I've ever heard a word from him since we met that day. I wonder what his voice sound like? There's so much about him I want to know' thought a sad little Sasuke.

To be continued…