A/N: Just cause…
He watched as she opened her door with shaky hands. She had invited him over before, but not for this, never for this and the thought of what he was here for, made the atmosphere tense. She pushed open the door and threw a shy smile over her shoulder at him, inviting him inside. He stepped past her, his fingers lightly brushing her thigh and he could feel the electricity that charged through him at the contact. She shut the door and turned to him, her eyes flicking all over the room.
"So?" She gestured to her kitchen, "Coffee?"
He shook his head, his eyes trained on her, "Water is fine." He responded, watching as she walked over to her kitchen.
When did things get so awkward between them? They had just done what they both had so badly wanted for the longest while and it was amazing and now, was she regretting it?
He turned to her, analysing her movements. He knew her, he spent years watching her and how she moved and he could associate a meaning with any twitch of a muscle and the way she was moving now, she looked formal and forced. He didn't want that, he wanted casual and free, he wanted the Kate he knows, not this one who looked so uncomfortable and didn't know what to do with herself.
"Here." She said, coming over to him, handing him a glass of water. Their fingers brushed and she took in a sharp breath, looking up into his eyes.
"Kate," He whispered.
She smiled and dipped her head, moving away from him. He sighed, placing his glass down on the table and following her as she went to go sit on her couch.
"Kate what's going on?" He asked, getting right to the point.
"What do you mean?" She asked, still avoiding his eyes.
"Do you want me to go?" He asked. He definitely did not want to leave, but he never wanted to push her and if she was uncomfortable with this, it would hurt like hell, but he wouldn't push her.
He released a long, mental sigh as she shook her head immediately.
"No! No, don't – don't leave, I just." She started, wrapping her hands together in her lap, staring down at them.
"Kate," He said softly, waiting until she slowly turned her head to him.
"Do you regret what we did?" He asked.
She stared at him for a while and he began to feel like this whole thing was a mistake. Not her, but the timing might have been.
She turned her full body to him then, covering his hands with hers, "God, no Castle, I could never regret any of that." She told him, her eyes trying to convey to him how serious she is, but she could see the hurt in his features that he tried to hide.
"But?" He continued, sounding dejected.
She took a breath and took his hands in hers, squeezing them, "If we do this, there's no turning back."
"I know."
"Are you sure you want this? All of this?" She whispered.
Could she really think he only wants the sex and not all of her? Could she really think he follows her around, puts himself in harm's way for her, just for the sex?
"Kate, I swear, there is nothing more in this world I want than you, every last bit of you." He told her, his heart racing in his chest.
She smiled and looked down to their joint hands, "Are you sure?" She asked again.
"Positively." He paused, "But Kate, if this isn't what you want, that's fine, we don't have to do anything."
He was giving her an out and she knew it. It was her decision, whether they forget about what had just happened and move on with their lives. He would show up in the precinct tomorrow, a smile on his face and a coffee in his hands and everything would go back to normal, or they could stay here and take this to a new level, giving in to what they both so desired.
He was such an amazing man, as she'd come to realize over the last few years. He wore his heart on his sleeve and loved fiercely, she witnessed the way he would protect anyone he cared about and the love and adoration he had for his family and she had so badly wanted to allow herself to have that. She knew he wasn't what the media made him out to be, that he was more than that , he was kind and funny, protective and passionate, he was loving and sensitive and he was in love with her and as much as she tried to deny it, she was in love with him too.
She pulled a hand free from his lap where she had tangled their hands together and brought it up to his face, trailing the back of her hand down his cheek and over the light stubble he had there. She turned her hand and cradled his jaw, he leaned into in slightly and she just loved how right this felt, how natural it was.
He was still staring at her, his eyes holding back his emotion, waiting for an answer.
Right.
He was waiting for an answer.
Words were his thing, she was never good at those. Actions, she was better at, so she acted.
She leaned closer, stopping inches away from his parted lips and looked up to his eyes. He was holding back, she could tell, giving her control and she appreciated that. This was a big moment for her and she could imagine how hard it was for him, she could see the love and yes, the lust in his eyes and she was sure it was the same in hers as she focused on his lips and softly pressed her lips to his.
She remained still for a moment, before sliding closer and moving her lips over his, waiting for him to come to and react. It wasn't long before he started moving, his lips moving sweetly and slowly over hers. He cupped her face with one hand and broke away.
His breathing was coming out in pants as he rested his forehead against hers, his eyes closed.
"I want this." She spoke, before he could give her an out again.
"Castle, I want you." She said, slipping her hand around the back of his head and pulling him against her.
She kissed him hard this time and she wanted him to stop holding back, she was giving him to opportunity to touch her, to make love to her and there he was, barely participating.
"Castle." She breathed, sounding slightly frustrated, "Do you not want this?"
His eyes flew open, "More than anything."
"Then," She wrapped her arms around his neck, her fingers playing in the hair at his neck, "Kiss me."
He was on her then, crushing her lips with his and pushing her back in the couch, positioning themselves so he was hovering over her, holding his weight up on his left hand.
She fisted her hands in his shirt, pulling him closer to her, moaning as his tongue entered her mouth.
This was even more sensual than their kisses in the elevator and oh, the things his mouth was doing to her. He moved from her lips, to her jaw, trailing wet kisses, making her shiver and her arousal increase. She thrust her hips up against him, smiling as he moaned against her throat, sending vibrations all throughout her body.
She began unbuttoning his shirt, needing to feel the defined planes of his chest underneath her hands and pressed up against her body. She slid his shirt off of his shoulders and ran her hands all over him, raking her nails gently over him and he sucked on her neck, intent on leaving his mark and she didn't care.
His hands skimmed down her side and toyed with the hem of her blouse, easing off of her slightly to pull the shirt off of her, reaching around to unclasp her bra and then she was pulling him to her. Pressing her bare chest against his and kissing his jaw, moaning at the sensation caused between them.
Her mouth fell open as he rolled her nipple between his fingers, leaning down to suck one into his mouth, biting down on it lightly, making her arch up into him. She tangled her legs with his, thrusting against him, enjoying the friction, but she needed more.
"Your pants, I need them off." She gasped.
In no time, he rolled off of her and pulled his pants off, slowly peeling off her own and tossing their shoes aside and then he was back on her. He kissed his way from her jaw down, pausing to suck on her breasts before continuing down, swirling his tongue around her belly button.
She lifted her head to watch his descent as she felt his hot mouth so close to where he wanted it, but then he was gone, kissing down her long legs, kneading her thighs and she couldn't take it. Her head fell back and her mouth fell open as he slowly made his way back up, fusing their lips together. She wrapped her legs around his waist, biting down on his lip when she felt his arousal against her heat and it was perfect, she rolled her hips and tangled her hands in his hair, holding him closer to her.
She began kissing him frantically, their soft and tender kissing over and now she was desperate and she wanted to taste him, every inch of him.
She gasped as she felt his thick fingers over, through the thin lace of her panties. She was completely aroused and wanted to feel him against her, inside of her, something and he was teasing. He continued running a finger over her, driving her crazy, smiling as he did so.
He resumed his work on her neck, sucking the skin hard and she drew her nails down his back, arching into him, desperate for him to put more pressure on her and he did. He slid the fabric to the side and parted her wet lips with his finger, smearing her wetness over her, his thumb circled gently over her clit causing her to cry out in pleasure and him to but down on her collarbone.
"Oh my God Castle," She panted.
His finger circled her clit again and her hips began moving with him, pressing against him, chasing her release. He slid one finger inside of her, pumping in and out, the erratic sound of her breathing spurring him on.
She was moving faster with him and she was close, she could feel it in the way that familiar coil presented itself in the pit of her stomach. He must've sensed it too because he was removing his hand and moving down her body and oh god.
He removed his fingers, but replaced them with the heat of his mouth and began sucking on her. He flicked her clit with his tongue, holding her hips as she rolled into his face, he sucked hard on her and she was crying out in pleasure.
Elevator sex may be breath taking and extremely erotic, but this was even better. The way his mouth was sucking on her and his tongue flicking over her clit over and over again, causing her to jerk wildly against him, she had never experienced this before and she knew that she definitely wanted more, she wanted it all.
Her breathing came out in quick pants as her body tensed, feeling her release coming. She grabbed handfuls of his hair as her body jerked wildly.
"Oh my God – Oh my – "She panted.
His tongue plunged inside of her, pumping in and out of her, creating sensations she never thought possible, her body was quaking with ecstasy.
"Oh my God Castle, yes, don't stop, right there." She encouraged him, squeezing her eyes shut.
His only response was a low moan that caused vibrations on her clit and she was arching up into him as his tongue plunged deep within her.
"Keep – don't stop – oh my God, Castle, yes, please. " Her mouth hung open, a low moan tumbling from her as she felt her release.
"Yes! Oh God – right there, oh my God." She breathed, her body spazzing with her release as Castle continued to suck on her, carrying her through bliss and back down to earth.
When she came back down, she dropped her head against the couch, catching her breath as Castle moved up her body again, kissing every inch of skin he passed. He paused over her mouth and she could smell herself on him and it was completely arousing, she tugged on him, pulling him closer and pressing their lips together. She growled against his lips when she tasted herself and her hand snaked down his torso and palmed his through his boxers.
He broke away on a moan and she smiled up at him wickedly. Before he knew it she was hovering over him, looking like the sexiest goddess he has ever seen. She pressed herself against him, kissing down his chest, teasing him with the light grazing of her teeth over his nipples, she dug her nails into his sides as his hands roamed over her bare back.
She reached his boxers and tugged them down, smiling as she released him. She grabbed him in her hand and began pumping slowly, before she raised herself and placed him at her entrance.
He was staring up at her, with those sexy half lidded dark eyes and his swollen red lips hanging open. She slid over him, eyes snapping shut as she felt him slid into her. She buried him deep inside of her, pausing to let herself get used to the feel of him inside of herself.
His hands came to rest on her hips, waiting for her to move and she did, she rolled her hips slowly, torturously, smiling as his eyes fell shut and his head fell back on a moan.
She circled her hips a little faster and he thrust up to meet her, meeting her rhythm and they moved together, before the slow pace became too much for them. She let him take control then, grabbing her hips and raising her, before slamming her back against him as he thrust up into her.
The sounds of low moans and skin slapping against skin filled the air. The smell of sex and sweat mingling in the atmosphere.
He raised his hands to cup her breasts and she leaned forward, close enough to allow him to suck her breast into his mouth, biting down on her nipple as she reached down to cup his balls.
She screamed out as his hand slid down and circled her clit hard, sending a fresh wave of sensations through her and then she was coming. Their screams filled the air as their orgasms hit them, he thrust wildly up into her, spilling himself inside of her and she tensed over him, digging her nails into his shoulder and she fused her mouth to his, swallowing his moans as they came down from their high.
She collapsed against him, resting her head against his chest, listening to the erratic breath of his heart and his unsteady breath.
"Amazing." He said when they had calmed down.
She turned her head to kiss his chest, before sliding off of him, but remained draped over his body, tucking herself against him. He wrapped his arms around her and held her against him, kissing the top of her head.
"I love you." She whispered, listening to his heart pick up speed again, feeling when she stopped breathing.
She smiled against his chest, knowing how her words must have taken him by surprise and knowing just how much they would mean to him at this moment.
"I love you so much Castle." She said again, feeling the happiest and the lightest she had felt in a long time and it was thanks to him.
She shut her eyes and felt herself drifting off to sleep. The last thing she heard before sleep took her was the quiet whisper of, "I love you too."