A/N: Hey everyone! Thanks for taking the time to read this fanfic! This was a way for me to let out all of my bottled up emotions from reading Allegaint. This is basically a letter that Tobias wrote to Tris sometime after the epilogue. I've decided that he sends it to her by burning it, since she was cremated. Thank you to my beta itsalreadybeendone for the positive feedback and help with rewording some impersonal stuff! Now for the boring disclaimer: I OWN NOTHING! ALL RIGHTS AND CHARACTERS BELONG TO VERONICA ROTH. I have used a few songs as inspiration including: "Titanium" by David Guetta, "A Year without Rain" by Selena Gomez & The Scene, and I've based the story on the song "The Way I Loved You" By Selena Gomez & The Scene. All of my quotes are from that song. Please R & R!

Dear Beatrice,

It's been so hard to live without you by my side. A day without you is like a year without rain, but I know I'm going to be ok. I'm strong and bullet proof. I have nothing to lose. I've already lost the one thing that mattered most to me, which was you. There's this song I once heard called "The Way I Loved You" that describes what I feel every day and how much you mean to me. It says,"I'm tangled up inside. My heart is on my sleeve. Tomorrow is a mystery to me. I'm a wreck inside. My tongue is tied and my whole body feels so weak. The future may be all I really need. I loved you like you loved me. Like something pure and holy. Like something that can never be replaced. And it was wonderful, it was magical, it was everything I've waited for, a miracle." It's true. What we had was so powerful. You made me a better person; you brought out the real me; you taught me to be brave; you taught me to be selfless; you taught me that selflessness and bravery really aren't that different; you taught me what selflessness and bravery really is; you taught me to love and to trust; you showed me that I'm worth loving; you loved me the way I loved you; you are a part of me, and always will be. You made me whole and I am forever grateful. The song also says,"If I should ever fall in love again with someone new it could never be the way, no, It will never be the way I loved you." I know you want me to move on and love again, but I don't think I will. I can't. I belong to you, and you belong to me. I will not give myself to anyone else except you. I know this is not what you want from me, but I can't see myself with anyone but you. Someday, we will be together again. In a way, we still are because you will always be a part of me. For now, we are separated by life and death, but I will return to you and hold you in my arms again someday. However, I will be patient. I will live my life like I should, minus loving someone else. I will grit my teeth and make myself the life I deserve because I know that is what you want me to do, and I know that it is right. I deserve to live. I will let death take me when I'm supposed to leave this earth, and not when I want to. I know its going to be hard, but I can be mended, and I know, that in the end, I will be with you again. We will be together again someday, but for now, I shall continue to live knowing that you are always with me. I love you Beatrice; always have; always will. I'll see you soon.

Love,

Tobias "Four" Eaton