I am honestly so, so sorry that I've made you all wait so long for yet another chapter without a word. I feel awful about it, really. I hate making you guys wait forever between chapters, especially when some of you might start to wonder if I'll ever be updating again.

That being said, I most certainly will. This story is so very special to me and has helped me deal without a lot of my own emotions while I've been writing it. It came from a pretty dark part of me and it's been a way for me to express that part and feel like it's not as bad as it seems by writing it was worse than it actually is for me, if that makes any sense.

I WILL CONTINUE IT. And I'm not going to make you wait a year or anything like that for that to happen, especially since we're so close to the end already here.

However, I'm unable to write you guys the next chapter right now. I've tried multiple times, but have ended up deleting it all every time because there is no way I could give you guys something I wasn't at least 70% happy with and feel good about it.

Another problem is that my depression and anxiety have both only been getting worse and worse for the past year and now I can barely bring myself to even go to school once every two weeks. I've relapsed into having suicidal thoughts a few times recently, too, which is something I'd hoped never to have to deal with again after last year. So yeah, I'm not doing so great over here.

Usually, bad days were easier to write on because I'm in a frame of mind where I could easily get out the emotions, since they were ones that were reflected within my own life. For some reason now, though, I can't write this story on any day, good or bad. It's been the same with BTDT as well, for those of you reading that.

That being said, I would very much appreciate it if any of you wanted to help me out here so I could be able to update at some point soon. Maybe function kind of as a beta, though I'd really just want someone to help me figure out what to write and where to start and possibly read it over when I'm done. If you think you could help, let me know. I'd appreciate it and I'm sure anyone else waiting for another chapter would too.

So no, this is not a new chapter and I'm really, really, sorry about that. I feel awful for how long I always take to update both this and BTDT. But at least now you kind of have an explanation.

All that being said, no I haven't stopped writing completely right now. I'm still writing just as much as before, in fact, it's just mostly been other things. I'll continue to bombard you guys with one-shots like I have been and I've also recently started a new multi-chap called The Chronicles Of You And I that I'm actually very happy with, if you'd like to check it out. Also, if you know what Troyler is and happen to ship it, you can check out my Wattpad at TrxyesOakley, where I'll be continuing to post fanfiction for them.

This is not the end. I'm not giving up on this story. I'm not announcing that it'll never be finished and you guys are just going to have live with awful cliffhangers.

This is just me coming forward to explain why the updates have been practically non-existent for the past few months and asking if any of you would like to help me out here.

I still love this story and I love every single one of you even more. I'm sorry I'm struggling so much right now and I'm sorry that both this and BTDT have had to suffer because of it. I'm also sorry this sounds so morbid, like Jesus Christ.

Anyway, yeah. I love you all to Idris and back and I sincerely hope I'll be able to give you the chapter you've all been asking for soon (you can't see it, but there's a heart here).