You don't remember do you?

Of course you don't. If you did, you'd try to patch things up, the way I'M trying to.

Things were different back then. Better, fun, exciting.

We would race all day and all night, sometimes falling asleep in our cars making not effort to get back home before a race.

You remember the time….

…..

Of course you don't. If you did, you'd talk to me about them but you don't any more. You don't have time for me anymore. You don't have time for us.

We're in the past, we're in the dust.

Now its all about heroes and battles. Heroes and battles.

You're a hero.

I'm just a bully.

I wasn't like this. You know I wasn't like this. You never thought I was like this.

But now things are different.

I know what I did. I know what I did was wrong. I can never make up for that.

But you don't care.

No one cares.

No one cares about us.

They see us as bullies.

They see ME as a bully.

I want to change. I want to be good again. I want to be like I was before all of this.

I wished things had reset all the way back. I wish our memories were wiped completely.

That way I wouldn't be bothered by the word bully and you would still have time for me.

I want things to change. I want to change but people don't want me to.

They see me as a bully and that's all I can be to them.

But then they tell me I'm bad, that I'm horrible.

They ask me why I can't be more like you.

Why I can't be perfect, why I can't be loved.

I try to be perfect, I try to be loved but they jeer me, telling me its an act.

They want me to be a bully because if I weren't they wouldn't have anything to feel good about themselves for.

I am lower than you. I am lower than them. They can feel good about being better than me.

I try, I try, all I do is try.

But I can never be you.

I don't want to be you but everyone holds me against you. They pull me so hard, they pull me so tight.

They want to break me, they want to see me snap.

They want to see me down so they can laugh.

They point and laugh, point and laugh, point and laugh.

I can only be a bully to them.

I don't want to be a bully.

I want to be me.

Is there anyone here that will see that I am more than just a bully?

Or am I alone?

It doesn't bother me anymore. I'm used to it.