ZOE'S POV

"Hi." I feel awkward and there's a blush creeping on my cheeks still. I feel so embarrassed and I would prefer to lock myself in the bathroom then come out and greet them but that's not an option.

Takuya looks at me with sorry eyes. It is partly his fault. All he needed to do was text me! I look away from him and look at his friends. Kouji is there too and he looks away.

"Umm...I feel sorry for making you guys see that." I'm red as a tomato.

"Don't worry it was a pleasure!" The guy who said that, I recognize since high school. I don't know his name though but he introduces himself shortly.

"My name is JP." He grins. The rest follow.

"I'm Tommy." He looks younger than the others and is handsome. "Nice to meet you."

"You too." I smile back. The next person is Tai. I had him in a class during high school but we never talked.

"Tai." He bows with his head and I smile doing the same. The last person, I know. It's Koichi.

We were never really close but he was Kouji's twin brother. He waves at me and a friendly, "Hello, do you remember me?" Comes out of his mouth.

I nod and grin back. "Of course I remember you!" We high five each other and ask if we've been well. We obviously have been. Kouji doesn't introduce himself, why would he? He just nods his head towards me in acknowledgement while at the same time glancing at Takuya.

Takuya stands by my side and grabs my hand. "They really wanted to meet you so I brought them along but it's a bad timing, isn't it?"

I flush red and the guys chuckle under their breath. That makes me blush harder. I clear my throat to get their attention.

"It was a really bad timing." I mumble before speaking clear and loud. "But Anyway, it doesn't matter as long as you promise never to bring it up EVER again!"

The guys laugh and nod, "agree!"

I glance at Takuya and he's smiling. "Okay what do we do now?" I ask.

Kouji steps up this time. "I brought movies? Maybe we could watch them together?" He looks at all the guys and stops at Takuya, as if he has the last word.

But Takuya doesn't answer yet, he looks at me because apparently I have the last word? I think it's sweet that he needs my confirmation.

"Do you want to watch it together?"

I don't think twice and just nod. "Sure, we actually even have some popcorn if you want but a microwave..."

JP jumps at my words. "I have a microwave at my dorm!" He smiles. We all are a bit surprised by this. Sure, having a mini fridge is normal but a microwave...not so much.

"What? He asks. "I cook all the time."

We laugh a little and then go inside the dorm. It's clean and neat and not thanks to Takuya, that's for sure. I hand JP two packets of popcorn and he says he'll be back in five minutes with them done. He rushes out of the dorm with that promise and I watch as the guys make themselves comfortable on the small couch that is meant for like, two to three people. Kouji and Takuya set up the movie and I stand there and watch. I'm glad they're still friends.

After they set the movie up, JP comes in. "Hot! Hot! Hot!" He says cringing and throwing the bags of popcorn at Tai. The latter catches them both and then lets out a yelp, grabbing it with his fingernails. "It's hot..." He pouts. I run to them with two bowls and put the popcorn in them then throw the empty bags away.

"Thanks..." Tai says sucking on his apparently burned finger. I smile. "No problem.."

Everyone gets ready when Kouji yells, "Movie is going to start soon!"

I sit on the couch and the guys follow. I am basically squeezed against the armchair thingy and JP, who is just smiling at me.

"Hi." He grins very sexually and...creepy.

I stand up. "How about I seat on the floor..." I mumble and place myself on the rug, next to Tommy's legs. Takuya sits next to me. He looks worried. "You okay so far?" I nod and lean my head against his shoulder. God, he smells divine.

The movie starts playing and everyone stays quiet. I don't even know what movie we're watching.

"What movie is this?" I ask to no one in particular as I take a handful of popcorn. Takuya shrugs and I frown because it hurts my head since I'm still leaning on his shoulder. "Sorry, babe." He mumbles sending me a smile. At the word babe my cheeks turn red as hell. Reason? He has never called me that before and it sounds so freaking sexy.

"It's called Red. This is the second movie though. It's Red 2." Kouji answers. "I've never watched it before."

"Me neither." We all answer in unison. It's a foreign movie. I don't know how long we watched but then this dude comes out and I basically died in Takuya's arm. Hiro Mizushima, the actor.

"How can he be so perfect?!" I don't know how many times I've said that but it looks like the guys are annoyed.

"Stop it!" Tommy says. "Why are you fangirling?!"

I glare at him. "You got a problem, buddy?" I retort. "Deal with it."

"Yes, ma'am." He shrieks. The guys stare at me as if I have murdered somebody and I hear Takuya chuckle.

"That's my girl." he smiles and sits me on his lap. I pull away in embarrasement. I blush like crazy and he chuckles.

"At first I thought you guys were so different..." JP says with a deep frown. "But now that I think about it you guys are perfect for each other. You're both bullies!"

"I'm a good person." I pout and Takuya grabs my lower lip, sticking out. "Don't act cute!" He declares and I shove him away playfully.

"Guys! I can't hear!" Koichi and Tai say in unison and we both shut up. The movie goes on well, I squeal once in a while when Hiro comes on the screen. The guys hush me, I threaten them and we proceed. It's fun yet relaxing. A comfortable silence floats over us and when Takuya's hands intertwine with mine suddenly, my heart starts beating so fast I have to hold on to my chest and wonder if I'm dying. I look at him and realize that he's the one causing this. I look away. This is embarrassing but I love him. Too much and it's scary.

The movie ends and we cheer. "It was good." I say. The guys agree. Nobody moves and I go on a scavenger hunt to check if there is any more popcorn but the bowls are empty. "You guys are fatasses..." I grumble pointing at the empty bowls.

"You figure that out until now ?" Kouji says stretching his limbs. Takuya and Tommy take out the movie from the DVD player.

"So..let's talk." JP says. I look at him with a "What?" Expression. He smirks. "What do you like about Takuya?"

"What?" Takuya turns around with a glare. I giggle. "I like everything about Takuya. Even his hideous flaws." I make a face and Takuya shoves me on the arm. I chuckle.

"Is that so..." Kouji says . "Did you know he likes to beat up old ladies?"

I gape at him. "That was a joke right?"

The guys burst into laughter and Takuya groans. "You're kidding?" I look at him. "You really beat up an old lady?!"

Takuya shakes his head furiously. "It was an accident-"

"He just likes to beat up the elderly." Tai jokes and Takuya begins to throw a tantrum. "I told you guys to never talk about it! It was an accident. We were coming out of the bus station and I didn't know she was standing behind me! It was an accident!"

I can't help but laugh. He looks like a little boy trying to convince his mom that he didn't do it.

"We're just joking." Koichi says and Takuya just glares.

"How about you, Takuya." Tommy says. "What do you like about Zoe?"

"What is there not to like." He says and I blush furiously. The guys coo in a teasing manner but I like it.

"Good point." JP says.

Takuya holds my hand tightly and even plays with my hair.

We talk about random things and laughter is filling up the room 95% of the time.

Then me and Takuya bring up the time during 5th grade that we accidentally broke my moms window and the guys freeze.

"5th grade? You guys knew each other as kids..." JP stares in confusion. Takuya explains.

"Zoe and I know each other for a long time."

"Yeah." Tai says. "We knew that but we didn't know it was that long! That's crazy.."

"We were practically raised together." I chuckle and Kouji lets out his thoughts.

"You guys never told me that. Why did you guys ignore each other?" He sounds offended but not in a bad way, more like in a 'how dare you! I thought we were friends' kind of way.

"We grew apart..." I sighed glaring at Takuya. He rubs his neck.

"Why?" Tommy asks. "Family problems? Or you moved?"

"It was my fault." Takuya says and I smile because I appreciate the fact that he recognizes his mistakes. "I ignored her and hid things from her and she hated that. I stop telling her about my life and because of that she couldn't help me with my problems. And then I might have began doing bad stuff until we basically became strangers." He looks at me. "Sorry."

I smile. "Whatever. It's in the past."

JP cringes. "Ah! This is so cheesy it hurts!"

We laugh.

"I'm glad you guys are together." Tommy smiles then looks at Kouji. "Sorry dude."

Kouji turns red but still chuckles. He then looks at me for a hard second and it's awkward but not intense. I don't like him, and damn does it feel good knowing that.

It feels good knowing he can't make me feel the way Takuya does. Now that I think about it, he never did make me feel like that. Sure, when we were dating I was happy but it wouldn't be call love, more like a crush. Takuya on the other hand, it's all butterflies and sweaty palms and when he leans in to kiss me I get dizzy and wonder if I'm sick or if it's his cologne. When he touches me, my body burns with want.

How could I be so stupid and not realize that he was always there?

"Honestly," Tai says. "You two being a couple is not unexpected,"

My attention goes to him, completely.

He continues. "Back in high school, his number one priority was Zoe." The guys all laugh, except for Kouji who just listens. "He made us watch you 24/7 and then report to him. He wanted to get your attention all the time and everywhere you went we were forced to pretend we were going too. It was awful!"

I stare wide eyed and look at Takuya. He's red in embarrassment. I chuckle.

"Really?"

Takuya looks away. "When are you guys leaving?" He asks the guys ignoring my question.

The guys coo in a teasing manner.

"Come on! Tell her! You know you liked her since forever!"

He blushes even more.

"Come on, you have to tell her everything before you leave anyway." JP laughs. "You don't have much time, let her know how you feel before it's too late."

I freeze and even though I'm smiling, it's so forced and confusing that I probably look horrible. My smile eventually turns into a frown.

JP stands up as if he realized he did something wrong. Tai and Tommy join him.

Tai kicks JP on the shin and then Tommy shoves him.

I look at Takuya. "You're leaving? Where?"

I'm confuse but not in panic. Why would I be? Can't be a big deal since he hasn't told me. If if was, he would have talked to me first.

But then, Takuya lets go of my hand and he stands up and his face tells me a different story and so does the awkward tension in the room. This situation stings a little. If our hands hadn't been separated maybe it wouldn't hurt as much.

"What?" I ask standing up too. Takuya looks at his feet and plays with his fingers.

My fingers twitches in horrible anticipation. Not only is this killing my curiosity but it's also very embarrassing. But it looks serious.

My frown becomes deeper. "It's serious, isn't it?" I ask and Takuya meets my eyes. His are so dark and it's like he's apologizing. It reminds me of the time back when we were kids and he accidentally killed my pet bird.

The fact that he doesn't tell me anything irritates me. He looks away from me and even dares to take a couple of steps away from me.

"Tell me." I ask irritated at Takuya. "Where are you leaving? Is it far?" I lean in to grab his hand but he suddenly shoves me away, lightly but I still manage to move back. His action stings. "Let's talk tomorrow." He says and I feel frustrated. He always does that, he never wants to talk about his problems. This is the reason why we stopped talking, because he doesn't want to talk things out. But this time we need to talk, because apparently this one involves me.

I wish he would grab my hand and tell me what's going on but he just stands away from me looking anywhere but my eyes.

"We'll leave." Tai says and before I can speak, they just make their way to the door.

Kouji smiles at me and he stops in front of me to pat my head and his fingers graze across my face until they're gone. The action is unexpected and shocking. I freeze under his familiar touch, it's awkward. Strange, even.

But in a way i'm glad he did, because Takuya automatically grabs my hand and pulls me close. Then I see something flash on Kouji's eyes. It's nothing negative. Looks like he's glad and then I wonder if he touched me on purpose so Takuya would come to my side.

Kouji glances at Takuya, smiles and then leaves with the rest of the guys.

The dorm is empty and quiet. I look at Takuya.

"Mind telling me what that's about?" I ask. "Where are you going?"

Takuya lets go of my hand and looks around him, as if the walls will give him an answer.

I don't want to make the situation a big deal so I try to speak with a cheerful tone.

"Come on, tell me." I smile. "It can't be that bad. Just tell me, I'll understand."

Takuya looks at me and his eyes flicker to my smile before meeting my eyes again.

"It's New York, with my dad."

As soon as the words leave his lips a lump grows on my throat. "Oh." I mutter.

He grabs my hand again. "But it's not decided yet!" He urges himself to speak. "I haven't decided yet. I couldn't decide."

My eyes water and I probably look pathetic. "Can you tell me how this happened?"

Takuya sits down and I follow. It's a two hour conversation and by the end of it I'm sobbing like an idiot. We go through his dad's proposition to him going back home and not finding his mother. Until he came back to the dorm and cried. I remember how he didn't want to talk about it. His story breaks my heart but at the same time I'm angry.

"Why didn't you tell me first?! We could have talked!"

"But I knew you would be upset and I didn't want that...I'm so sorry. I don't know how I could leave you, I though I could solve this out but now..."

"Takuya." I cut him off. "It's okay. It shouldn't be a hard decision. If you think about it, you're studying here in the first place because of that job, because of your dad...and I'm just a girl."

Takuya gasps at that and for a second I feel like he'll slap me but I can't help but let my thoughts out, even if I am crying like a little bitch.

"How could you say that? Don't you know how much I love you?! How can you even doubt my feelings?!"

I hiccup. "Me too but this is your job! It's a huge opportunity! And I'm just a normal gi-"

"Shut up. You're not just a normal girl. You're my girlfriend and best friend-"

"A guy can have tons of girlfriends if he wants to. Takuya you've had a bunch of ex's. You never know, maybe I'll be one of them-"

"Shut up! You're making me mad! Are you stupid! Why would you think that?! I like you! No, more! I love the fuck out of you! You mean everything to me and I've always liked you! Always! How could you think you'll be one of my ex's. That's ridiculous! I don't want to leave you, I'd rather die! Don't think like that..."

My crying has stopped but I'm blushing like crazy. My heart is doing summersaults in my chest. Gosh, do I love this kid...

"Say something?" He mumbles staring at me. "Please...just tell me to stay and I will. It's as easy as that."

I know what to say. Everyone knows what to say in this situation. Im not selfish enough.

"Go." I say.

He gapes at me. "You're serious? You're fucking kidding me right?! Are you fucking serious?!"

I hold back my tears and bite my lip so hard I taste blood. "I'm serious."

Takuya stares at me and it feels like an eternity. "Huh?"

"Go. I'm fine. Go."

"Zoe." That's it. He just says my name.

I frown. "I swear I'm fine. It's okay. Just go..."

"You don't mean that." He says. "Tell me the truth, you don't want me to go, do you?"

I force a smile and taste more blood from my lip. "I don't but this is important so I'll be fine. When is it that you need to go?"

"When this semester ends basically. Around summer..." He mumbles and keeps looking at my eyes searching for something.

I almost screamed when he says that. It's too soon. My lips part in a silent gasp. My eyes water again. He must be talking shit. He can't leave me so soon.

"O-okay." I curse my self for stuttering. "But...wow, that's soon..."

Takuya frowns. "You're not serious are you?"

I nod. "I am."

"Why?" He grabs my hand and leans in close. I want to lean even closer and pin him to the couch.

"Because...you should never put a person first. You loose people, Takuya. Not everybody is going to be by your side forever. Maybe one day we'll hate each other-"

"You're being stupid."

I frown. "I'm not, I'm being realistic. Not all things last forever."

"Maybe but not us. We're doing good, Zoe. I don't want to take this offer just because of 'ifs'. I like you since I can barely remember! I don't want to leave you when you're finally mine!"

"You're yelling..."

"I know I am! But it's because you're making me angry!"

"Takuya, I'm just a girl. Don't let your life and future go to waste because of me."

"You're not a waste, dammit!"

"How the hell do you even know that?! Maybe I'll be bad for you...you don't know. Maybe in the future I won't be good for you, trust me. I could end up being those annoying, bitchy and selfish girlfriends who you'll want to leave because I won't care about you."

"You're being pathetic. I know you're not a waste because I've know you since forever. The fact that you're telling me to go, when we both god damn know that you want me to stay proves it all. Zoe, you want me. You love me just as much as I love you but here you are telling me to go...don't make things complicated."

I stare at him. He knows me so well.

"Tell me. Do you want me to go?" He leans in close and his left hand rests on my thigh while the other holds my hand tightly.

But I'm still not going to change my mind. He's committing a mistake.

"Go. You'll get over me and I'll get over you."

"I'll repeat myself," he sighs. "Do you want me to go?"

My eyes water, my vision blurry but I still nod.

"I'm not going to change my mind-"

He kisses me. It's so strong that I am pushed back and gasp when our teeth clash together. I try to push him away but he pulls me closer and it is so damn hard to let go because everything about the moment is so perfect, feels too good and too right.

"What are you doing?" I gasp out and try to push him away. His arms still wrap around me, though. He looks straight into my eyes and licks his lips. I gulp at the sight.

"Tell me the truth, tell me you want me to stay."

"No, Takuya-"

He kisses me again, this time pinning me down against the arm of the couch. I try to speak in between but his lips suck harder and I feel out of breath. His hands grab my thighs and I automatically wrap my legs on his hips.

"Tell me you don't want me to go.." Takuya whispers against my ear and I bite my lip, trying to keep myself from letting out embarrassing noises.

"Stop.." I gasp. We should be talking not passionately making out, while he touches me.

He dips his head down and my neck is suddenly attacked with kisses. I bite my lip harder and once again begin to taste blood.

"Takuya stop...we should talk not-" my words go back my throat when he begins to suck on my collarbones.

"No, I don't want to stop. You want me and I know you don't want me to go but you're being stubborn." His hand grabs on my thigh so hard I feel like I'm bruised.

I feel Takuya's hardness on my exposed thigh and when his hands start unbuttoning my shorts, I let out an encouraging moan.

"You want me?" His voice breaks my thoughts and I forget about his hand pulling down my shorts.

"Yes but I-"

"Then tell me to stay."

I'm going to protest but I realize my lower body is exposed to him and I blush. My head turns right and I see my shorts on the floor. When I look back at Takuya, he's getting rid of his shirt and then he continues to suck on my neck. Pleasure is dripping out of me and when he throws my T-shirt over my head, I stop thinking. His hands work fast, I arch my back and my bra is taken off in a flash. He sucks on my chest almost at the same moments my nipples harden because of the cold air. I moan shamelessly and grind myself against him. He lets out a moan and bites my left nipple. I scream but he swallows it with a kiss. My legs don't leave his torso, instead they tighten around him. I don't want him to go.

"Shorts, off." I say and trail my hands on his torso while he pushes against me to get rid of his shorts. I let out a moan and feel him smile.

"You want me...do you know if I stay I could make you feel like this every night..."

I don't have time to answer because he kisses me and his hand somehow travels between our bodies until they reach the area no other man has touched. He moves my underwear aside. I gasp and my eyes open in shock.

"Takuya!" My hands grip on his biceps and Takuya bites down my earlobe.

"You're so beautiful and breathtaking." He whispers against my ears. His fingers slowly rub me before they enter me. "Does it hurt?"

I shake me head. It feels foreign and uncomfortable.

"I'm okay but-" something snaps inside me. He touches something that makes me moan and my body archs.

He kisses my cheek. I moan again, the sensation taking over me.

"Scream louder. I wanna hear you, louder. Moan for me." His index and middle finger are inside me while his thumb rubs my clit. I breath hard against his ear.

"Why all of a sudden?" My eyes close tight and I grip onto him tighter, my mouth open in pleasure. His fingers feel good, too good and I feel anticipation on the tip of my stomach. A feeling I have only felt once with him before.

"Because I want to pleasure you and make you feel like you can't live without me..." His fingers curl inside me while his lips suck on my neck.

"Ahh! Fuck, please! Don't stop!" My moans get louder and feeling his hard member on my thigh doesn't make me feel any less aroused.

"You want me..." He whispers against my ear and I bite down on his neck when he slightly tilts his head. He grunts and before I know it, our mouths are join together once again. He adds another finger and it hurts for a second before I feel the familiar pleasure. My toes curl and I spread my legs wider for him. I need him to go faster and harder.

"You're so tight..." He kisses me on the cheek. "Lets end this." He mumbles before his fingers move faster against my walls and his other hand plays with my breast. The pleasure feels too unreal, too good. I begin to moan loudly and he watches my face while I scream his name, begging him to go faster and harder. His eyes are so dark and they don't leave my face for a second.

He slows down when I'm on the edge of my orgasm. I frown and whine because i'm so damn close to that breaking point.

"Please, don't stop...go faster! Please! Harder!"

He smirks to my begging and his fingers pump up again. I don't make a sound when my orgasm hits me. I can't. My words get stuck on my throat and all I could do is open my mouth, my eyes rolling back while I shake uncontrollably. This feeling is amazing.

Takuya kneels in front of my legs and watches me shake and I haven't even gotten down from my orgasm when he takes off my panties, opens my legs and bites down on my lower lips. This is too much for me and I finally scream. I ride out my orgasm only to feel pressure on my lower stomach again. I look down and see Takuya's mouth attached to my womanhood. I arch my back and automatically try to close my legs but he holds them open and groans, sending vibrations through out my body.

I bite my lip, holding in a scream. His tongue is inside me before I even realize it. Soon, I climax for the second time. I feel numb and dizzy but my body is burning with want. I look at Takuya.

He's bending down, his forehead against my stomach and his hands against my sides. He's breathing hard.

My chest heaves up and down.

"You taste sweet.." He whispers against my navel. I try to take a normal breath but it comes out rigid.

I don't know why we did what we just did. It wasn't sex but...why? Was it a desperate approach to stop me from what? Telling him not to go? Is my opinion so important. Does he need me that bad? As much as I need him?

"Takuya-"

"I don't want to leave you," his voice cuts my words off before I can even say a full sentence. He doesn't look at me. He's still facing my stomach, breathing hotly against it.

"I won't deny that I was always attracted to you," he continues and I listen. "Since we stopped talking I always wanted you back. Just friends, I would tell myself but when I saw you in High school with other boys I would get angry. When you were dating Kouji, I would get jealous and I was desperate to make you mine. I always liked you, I guess. There was a lot of attraction," He takes a deep breath. "But in a way, I knew that us being together was ridiculous. I was too bad and too little for you. You deserved so much better. I though there was no chance of me being with you. You were too perfect, too gorgeous for me. Too far for me to reach."

He gets down from the couch, off me. He finds his T-shirt and puts it on top of my body and I'm covered. He sits against the couch, on the floor, back facing me.

"When you first came into the dorm, I was so surprised and I was extremely happy. I thought that maybe we could be together. That maybe I could make you mine. And I did. But I never thought that you would change me. I wasn't like this. I never cared about a girl as much as I care for you, I didn't want sex as much as I wanted to cuddle. I wanted to kiss you and hug you whenever I could. I wanted to hear about your day and I wanted to know everything about you," he chuckles as if it was the most hilarious thing he could have said. "It's ridiculous, really. I was never this kind of person. I was-"

"The bad boy." I chuckle at the amusing nickname. He laughs and whispers, "Yeah...the bad boy."

"I didn't know that you felt that way." I smile. His words making me warm and tingly inside.

"I love you." He suddenly says. The smile that breaks into my face that moment is huge.

"I love you more, trust me." I hug him from the back. My arms tangling around his neck. He laughs.

"I could hear your heart pounding," He says. "Seems like you have fallen for me badly?" He turns his head to send me a teasing smile. I laugh onto his shoulder.

"You're an idiot." I mumble.

"Maybe for you I am." He whispers. "If I leave, you're going to miss this idiot."

Silence seeps in and my eyes water.

"Zoe," my name sounds so beautiful coming out of his mouth.

"Hmm?" I mumble, snuggling into his back, his warmth. But then he speaks,

"I want to make love to you."