A/N: This one shot takes place after last night episode (100th). I wanted to write about this because Aria's guilt, the pain that we see in her eyes is just killing me. So I hope you enjoy it.

Out of reach

Ezra's POV

I was entering my apartment after a long working day when a white envelope caught my eye on the floor. I picked it up and on the top in black cursive was written "Ezra". I would now that writing from anywhere, it was Aria's. I wondered why she would just drop something like that on my apartment floor, she must have slide it under the door. But why? Last night was the best night of my life, sure it started with pain and Aria's fear of never being able to move on from Shana's death but it ended in the most perfect way. I knew now for sure that no matter what happen, Aria and I will love each other until death tears us apart.

So I removed my coat and put my bag along my desk before sitting on the couch. I opened the envelope and started reading it.

Dear Ezra,

(Know that this is probably the hardest thing that I ever had to do in my life.)

I've been thinking about what you said earlier and I think that you are right, I am afraid. Afraid because I know that eventually, one day you will break my heart either it's intentionally or not. I know that you are probably going to convince me once again that you love me more than anything and that I will believe because this is exactly how I feel about you. But then you are going to tell me that you will never break my heart because I'm "It" for you.

I know that you think that now but what about a month, a year from now when my guilt and my conscience will have consumed me, when all the cracks, in the wall that I put up in front of me, will connect and break entirely. What about then, are you still going to want to be with me? No, of course not and I will not hold that against you because I would run away from myself if I could. That's why I need to leave, before you see all my imperfections and get dragged in my problems. Because I want you to remember me as the girl you fell in love with and not the girl who drove you away because of all her emotional baggage in that believe me when I say it's a pretty huge burden and I wouldn't want to impose it on anyone.

So yes I am afraid, afraid that you are going to see me as the broken girl that's been hurt before and that made other peoples life unbearable, as the girl that ended a life and broke so many others, and not as the joyful girl you fell in love with. I am going to drive you away because that's what I do and this is why I don't deserve you. I am sorry, my fears and the voices in my head are not only going to break my heart but it will break yours in the process and for that I am deeply sorry. I know that last night you told me that you never wanted to hear me say that I was sorry again but I am. This isn't fair to you. I don't deserve your love but you give it to me anyway, but when I walk away you are going to take of running and come right after me but I won't look back, I won't have the courage to.

You deserve so much more than a girl afraid that you'll leave her, afraid that you will realize that I am not a good person, that I am a murderer, because that's who I am. You probably have no idea of how much I love and this is why I need to leave now. I am really sorry but hopefully one day I'll find a way to come back to you healed and unbroken. Until then, don't wait for me and know that I have been loving you since the day our eyes met.

I love you… Always

Aria

Tears were running down my face. I didn't what to do… Aria, the love of my life had just left… I read the letters 3 more times to make sure that I wasn't dreaming or making things up. But I wasn't, she had really in some way give up on us, but more certainly she had give up on herself. I tried to call her at least a dozen of times but she never answered. I went to her house, but she was nowhere to be found. On her desk was simply written on a tears stained paper "I love you –Aria".

That's the very moment where I promised her and vowed to myself that I would wait for her, no matter how long it would take for her to come back to me. I would wait for her, even if this meant never seeing her again and living my life waiting for a love that will never come back, I would wait for her…. I would wait for her…

A/N: I know it's a really short One shot but I hope you enjoyed it! I'd like to hear what you thought about it.

Reviews are always welcome!

Always

Eléonore