When I was a little girl, I always thought my life was going to end up like a Disney Princess movie. I was gonna find that one guy that would slip me off my feet and take me off far far away and we would live happily ever after. Those fucking movies should come with a warning label.

When I was 13 years old, I met the guy that I knew I was going to marry. He was three years older than me and walked around like he was God's gift to women but I instantly knew he was the guy for me. Even though I wasn't really his type since I knew how to keep my clothes on, the more time we spent together showed that we were perfect for one another. He was the bad boy that my parents forbidden me to see and I was the good girl who was a member of the honor society and the president of the debate club. We were complete opposites but that's how we kept things interesting. As time went on, our feelings got deeper and life got a bit more complicated. Since I was younger than Jax and looking forward to getting out of Charming, I was accepted to the University of Washington and planned to attend in the fall. My parents were ecstatic that I was getting out of town but the person I cared about most was less than happy. We fought about it the whole summer and when the time came for me to confirm enrollment, I declined and decided to stay in Charming. My parents were disappointed in me. My family was disappointed in me. And I was disappointed in myself for staying because my love for Jackson Teller got in the way. He promised me that I was making the right decision and that everything was going to be taken care of. Like a typical lovesick teenage girl I believed every word he said.

Jax was working at his family's auto body shop and also a member of the Sons of Anarchy so it wasn't like we were on our own. All the guys and their old ladies were more than happy to help out whenever we needed something and Gemma was always there whenever I needed her. As time went on and people came and went, the SAMCRO men became more dangerous. Jax became the vice president and that meant he was second in command next to Clay. He would go off on runs and I wouldn't know whether or not he was gonna come back on his motorcycle or in a body bag. The shit really hit the fan when I found out I was pregnant. The guys were getting involved in some bad stuff that I wasn't supposed to know about. Everyone knew what was going on except me. The hang-arounds knew, the croweaters knew, the rest of the old ladies knew, but I was the only one out of the loop. I would ask Jax to just tell me something but he would fight me tooth and nail, telling me that it was nothing that I needed to worry about. If it wasn't something for me to worry about then why did I have some prospect on my tail everywhere I went. All I wanted was to bring my daughter up in an environment that was loving, caring and most of all safe. She didn't deserve to be surrounded by people that could hurt in her in the long run. The thing that I didn't realize then was that these dangerous people were my family. From the time I was a teenager, these people were the ones that accepted me into their lives. Everyone knew that these men didn't trust easily and wouldn't accept just anyone into their group. I didn't have anyone else besides Jax and they were the ones I could count of the most. They were there when things were going good and they were there when things were going all to hell. These men were there when I gave birth to Gracelynn 10 weeks early. These men were there when her little heart needed to be repaired. These men watched her grow stronger and stronger everyday inside the incubator. These men were there when Jax and I were finally able to bring her home. These guys were there for every birthday party that Gracelynn got to celebrate. These men were there for everything and I was truly thankful for that.

As I watched my daughter grow up in front of me, I also watched my husband fall apart. He gained the top position of becoming president after he found out what really happened to his father and things just began to get worse. He wasn't the Jax that I had fallen in love with anymore. This new Jax was ruthless, sinister, and almost evil. His once blue eyes were almost dull now and all the life that he had before just exited his body. It was almost as if I was sharing my bed with another man. He didn't have time to waste with Grace and I anymore. It was all about the club and the croweaters that inhabited the clubhouse. The warnings that people had given me all those years ago were starting to make sense as I saw my life falling apart. I went from being married to the man of my dreams to the devil himself….

A/N: So I already have one SOA in progress but the idea for this story kept buzzing around in my head and I had to post it. As you noticed this story is an AU story but there will be elements that Kurt Sutter created. I do not own anything related to the workings of Mr. Sutter. I switched up the story a bit since it is an AU work of fiction. Instead of Kathryn giving birth to Abel, I decided to change it up and have her give birth to a baby girl instead. The direction I want to go with the story will make Jax having a little girl more complicated. Tara will not be apart of this story. She's an awesome character but her role just doesn't go go with the story. I hope you all enjoyed the little background information that the first chapter has provided. I just wanted to give you all an inside look on how Kathryn's life has been seeing as she's Jax Teller's old lady. Please remember to review, follow, or favorite!

P.S. I also have a link to the pictures of the characters on my profile if you want to see how I imagined Kathryn and Gracelynn. I may add miscellaneous pictures as well to show different people or places depicted in the story.