My first multi chapter fanfic. It takes place about two weeks after Lissa's coronation. Hope you enjoy!

"Good afternoon, my love." Dimitri's smooth voice drifted over from the chair he was currently draped across, and I closed the door softly behind me, giving him a small smile. Dimitri closed his western as I walked over to him, and reached out his arms, I settled myself into them and gave him a soft kiss on the lips. "Good afternoon Comrade."

"How'd the meeting with Hans go?" He asked.

"It was fine, we were just going over some extra security protocols and Hans and I actually managed to agree on some of them."

"That's good." He said as he softly kissed down my neck.

I turned to face him, and gave him a wistful smile. "Not yet Comrade, we have to meet Christian and Lissa in fifteen minutes."

"Fine." He said, pouting softly, only recently had this soft side of Dimitri come out, and I loved that he was so prepared to reveal his inner self to me.

"Later." I said moving to get out of my guardian uniform, and changing into jeans and a soft red shirt. Dimitri moved behind me and undid my hair, and I shook it over my shoulders. Suddenly nausea sprung into my stomach, and I had to swallow deeply to get rid of the lump in my throat.

"Are you okay?" Dimitri asked, his eyebrows dipping with concern.

"Perfect." I answered, not wanting to worry him. Dimitri had been overly concerned about my recovery from the bullet wound, and telling him I'd been feeling nauseous all day was bound to worry him. "Actually do you think you could go get me some donuts? I'd go but I just want to phone my mum. I forgot earlier." I was feeling increasingly sick and was eager to get Dimitri out.

"I can stay, and we can go together."
"No please go, I'm so hungry."

"Okay my Roza, anything for you and your stomach. I'll meet you in the south hallway, okay?"

"Of course." I said giving him a quick kiss, before shoving him out the door. I hurried to the bathroom and leaned over the toilet, retching. Nothing came out, but my nausea went away. I'd been feeling slightly nauseous all day, and as I'd skipped breakfast I knew it wasn't anything to do with what I had eaten. I quickly contemplated visiting the doctor, before dismissing it. I wanted no more interaction with medical staff, and I knew my visit would just lead to more medical testing, and more pointless hospital visits. Taking a glance at my watch, I realised I was running late to meet up with Dimitri, and told myself I would talk it over with Lissa later. I hurriedly got a glass of water, and applying a new layer of lipgloss, went out the door to meet him. The corridor my room was situated on was very quiet and I moved quickly, making my way to the South hallway. Cutting through Court, I walked into a small courtyard that separated the residential areas of court. As I moved through I noticed it was deserted, and scanning my surroundings, my instincts were telling me something was wrong. I continued forward anxious to get out of this strangely deserted place. Suddenly all the doors and window shutters slammed shut, and I whirled around running to the nearest exit and frantically rattling the door.

"You're Rosemarie Hathaway." A voice spoke out of the nowhere, and I whirled round searching for where the voice was coming from.

"Yes I am, who's asking?" I said slowly scanning my eyes round the deserted garden, the wind blowing softly in my ear the only sound, and the floating leaves the only movement I could discern.

"It wasn't a question. I know who you are."

"Well then who are you?" I asked listening carefully to where the voice was coming from.

"I'm afraid I can't tell you that." I edged my way towards a large tree I thought the voice may have appeared from, when the voice spoke again but from the other side of the courtyard.

"Don't bother looking, I'm not actually here, what you're hearing is coming from the many speakers positioned around this courtyard."

"What do you want?" I asked, my anger seeping out from my tone.

"Straight to the point, just like I knew you would be. My spies have informed me well." His voice echoed around the courtyard, it showed no emotion nor variation.

"Spies?" I frantically cast my eyes around the garden, the pure detachment in his voice getting to me.

"Oh I've been watching you- and Dimitri of course."

"Dimitri? Why? Why would you watch him?" I asked panicking.

"It's natural for a Father to want to watch his son grow up."

"Well if you're his bastard father, then I want nothing to do with you." I said. My voice didn't waver but inside I was quivering with fear and anger.

"Don't bother trying the doors, they're all locked." He said, the only emotion coming through now, was a faintly smug tone that came from catching me.

"What do you want with me?" I asked.

"I want you to leave my son alone."

"I can't believe you, I would never do that! I love him!"

"You didn't let me finish." The voice boomed. " It is not a question of you leaving him, but a statement. You will leave him and you will leave court."

"What. NO! Why?" I yelled, my face going red and my hands balling into fists.

"Dimitri took my family away, he beat me up and he kicked me out, and I never saw Olena again. From then on I raised myself up, until I was able to take my revenge. Now it's his turn to feel my pain."

"You abused Olena,you didn't love her."

"Don't you dare tell me if I loved her or not, little girl. She was my inferior and I was improving her and I" He paused " Did love her."

"You're sick." I screamed. "Who the hell do you think you are? I will never leave him, I love him."

"And that's what I'm counting on. You will leave court, or I will kill him, and your little friend Lissa too." Now I was furious. He couldn't kill them, I was right here in Court, protecting them, and no one would hurt my family. Plus Lissa had more guardians than anyone in Court, and Dimitri was nearly impossible to beat. No one is powerful enough to do all Dimitri's Father is claiming to, and get away with it. He was just using scare tactics, and I was sick of it. I was running late to meet up with Dimitri, and enough was enough. No one threatened my friends and got away with it.

"You couldn't do that. Lissa's Queen. She has more protection than anyone, and I'd tell them who you are, and what you're planning. It would never work."

" I realise you don't know who I am, but I should have you know I am more powerful than anyone you know. I control most of Moroi world. Victor Dashkov was just one of my many pawns in my game." He paused, as I looked frantically around the garden. "Oh yes, I know you killed him. I know everything. I know you had sex in the cabin, before my son turned Strigoi, I know you hunted him down, after staying with my family. I know your little friend Lissa turned him back with a silver spirit infused stake. I knew why you kidnapped Jill, before anyone else knew, I know you slept with Dimitri before returning to court. I know everything." His voice boomed, and I backed into the wall looking desperately for an escape route. "I know everything and I can do everything. There is no way for you to escape."

Now I was scared. It was impossible to know all that, and not have serious connections. He was no longer a man in way too deep, using scare techniques to get me to flee Court. He was all knowing and a real threat. My heart jumped into my throat, and I had to lock my knees to keep them from shaking. I took several breaths, all the while scanning for an escape route. Slowly my heart rate returned to normal and my fright passed, and I realised I was furious. No one could get me to leave my family. No one. This man may seem powerful, but I was Rose Hathaway. Who did he think he was to try drive me out of court? I looked up defiantly, the famous Hathaway impulsiveness kicking in, and took a step forward. "I'm leaving right now!" I yelled, moving to kick the door in.

He let out a dry chuckle, and the grass around me burst into fire, surrounding me in a circle of flames. "I can do ANYTHING." He boomed. I looked down at the burning grass, the heat burning my eyes, and the small cinders flying around stinging my skin. I knew I was defeated. The fire had removed my bravado, and I was stuck with just my thoughts. I loved Dimitri too much to let anyone hurt him, and Lissa as well. I could feel my heart breaking in two, and my nausea started to reemerge. If anything happened to them I couldn't handle it, let alone knowing it was my fault. There was nothing else I could do. My only viable option was to leave Court, it was all I could do to protect them, and I would do anything to protect my family.

"Fine." I whispered miserably.

"I knew you'd make the right decision."

"When do you want me gone?" I asked.

"You need to be gone in the next hour, and you are never to return. You can do whatever you want, but you are not to have any contact with court. Am I understood?"

"Yes."

"Then you may leave." The doors all flicked open, the window shutters also creaking open. I walked quickly out of the garden, trying desperately to hold myself together. I ran to my room, and threw myself on my bed, finally letting myself lose control. My pillow quickly becoming wet with tears, as I realised all I would lose, and how many I would hurt. I checked the alarm on the side of the bed, and was shocked to see 10 minutes had passed. I was running out of time. Quickly I threw my clothes into my bag, taking both silver stakes, and my nazar. Looking around the room, I gathered my toiletries, and took the framed photo from the side of the bed. It was a photo of Lissa, Christian, Dimitri, and I, taken immediately after Lissa's coronation. I took the photo of Lissa and I dressed as fairies from when we were on the run, and placed that in the frame with the other photo. I took a last look around the room and seeing Dimitri's favourite western by the bed I snatched that up, and put that in as well. Slinging the bag onto my shoulder, I left the room I had shared with Dimitri and slammed the door behind me. It was like I was trying to slam closed all my feelings and emotions, but while the room door closed, my heart refused to, steadily pumping out memories and emotions of times I had shared with my little family. I strode purposefully along the corridor, wiping away my tears as I went. My first goal was to go to Lissa, I knew she was with Christian in the lounge doing paperwork, and my heart pounded in my chest as I realised the damage I was about to inflict. It took all my strength to walk through the doorway to the lounge, and the joyful smile Lissa gave me nearly took away all my words.

"Rose! How are you? Where's Dimitri?"

"He's not with me. I came to talk to you and Christian." I said trying to put enough ice into my voice so they wouldn't notice it wavering.

"Is something wrong?" Christian asked.

"Look Lissa, we've been friends for so long. And there have been some great times, but I've been thinking and well we might have been friends too long."

"What?" Lissa gasped, her eyes widening.

"I can't handle all this royal crap, and frankly I don't want to devote my life to just you and end up nearly dying again because you make a bad choice." Lissa's eyes filled with tears, and I kept talking, holding back my own tears. "So I'm leaving, for good. Don't look for me, you won't find me. Just move on, you'll find other friends."

"What about Dimitri?" Christian asked his eyes hardening.

"That's my business." I said staring him down. "Just do one thing for me." Lissa nodded mutely. "Stay safe." With that I pivoted on my heel, and walked out of the room, slamming the door behind. I paused only briefly as I heard Lissa collapse into tears and Christian's murmured comforts, and I whispered a faint "Sorry" into the air. Blinking back my own tears I walked towards the hallway where Dimitri was waiting for me, I didn't give myself time to think about any of it, knowing if I did I wouldn't be able to do this. And I needed to, Dimitri and Lissa needed to live, and if I had to leave them to do so, I would.

Dimitri broke into a large smile as he saw me approaching, and walked towards me trying to gather me in his arms, for one moment I relaxed, trying to memorise the feel of his arms around me, his delicious scent, his smooth chest. Then I stiffened and stepped back, I could see Dimitri looking confused and then worried as he saw my tear stained face.

"Roza?" He asked, a plea for me to tell him what was wrong. His eyes studied my face, and his hand reached out to caress my cheek.

"Please don't Dimitri, I need to tell you something." I said sharply taking another step back.

"Anything."

"I can't do this anymore, I can't be with you anymore, I just don't love you like I thought I did." His eyes went dark with pain, and it cut into my heart, knowing I was causing this pain. " I'm leaving, and I'm asking you not to follow me."

"Roza, you can't leave me. We can work together, I can change, just don't leave me." He begged. I looked at him studying his perfect face and looking deeper into his perfect soul. I knew he would never let me go. I only had one more option and that was to hurt him so badly he would have to let me go.

"I can't do this Dimitri, all I can remember is you as a Strigoi. You frighten me, I can't be with someone who frightens me. Who abused me. And I can't change that, I thought I could forget, but I can't, it's in the past but I can't pass it. You need to stay, protect Lissa and Christian, and move on, and I'm going to leave court. Forever."

"Roza." He gasped. I couldn't stay, I couldn't look at the pain I caused in the man I would love for eternity. I was doing this for him, I reminded myself, and I turned away not allowing myself one look at the wreck I had left behind. But in my head I spoke words that I would now always have to keep to myself- I will always love you, Dimitri Belikov, always have and always will.

I strode out of court, stopping briefly at the gates, giving a lie about a security risk outside the wards that Hans had sent me to check out. The guards let me go and I walked out of court, making my way quickly down the road. I had no plan, I only knew I had to leave. I started jogging, then running, my heart rising into my throat, as I thought of the damage I had left behind. I ran faster and faster passing through miles of farmland and countryside. My eyesight blurred as my eyes filled with tears, and finally I stumbled, falling into a ditch in the side of the road. I lay there shaking, then quickly sat up as I vomited. After the vomiting had subsided, I curled into a ball, my head in my knees, with tears running down my face, shivering with cold, and shaking whenever I thought about about those I had left behind. After hours I fell into a uneasy sleep, plagued with dreams of those I had left behind, but not daring to wake up and face the reality of what I had just done. I would never see Dimitri, never kiss his beautiful lips, never see Lissa smile, never have another family dinner. My old life was over, and there was nothing I could do.

I hope you liked the premise of the story, please review if you would like me to continue. I have lots more in store for this story. So please follow, favourite, and review and whatever else you want to do.