Warning: Full of... disturbing things and character death. Tearjerker.

Disclaimer: I do not own Fairy Tail... unless Hiro decides to give it to me, which I would gladly accept. c:

(Lucy POV)

What's the point of anything anymore... My 'friends' abandoned me, the whole guild doesn't even acknowledge my existence and I spend all my money on having shelter over my head so I barely eat. I don't even have electricity, just cold running water in my dirty apartment. Razors, old trash, and papers were everywhere. The only thing in my fridge was a leek and some expired milk, which was not safe for consumption. My only friends were my spirits and i'm too depressed to even call them out when there isn't a fight. Loke comes out every once in a while but I just force close him back. My attitude went from bubbly, happy, and optimistic, to dark, depressed, and utterly given up on life. Might as well end it all...

(FLASHBACK: LUCY POV)

We all came back from Edolas, Lisanna with us.

"Is that.."

"No way!"

"LISANNA!" Guild members charged for their ,supposedly dead, Fairy Tail mage.

My pupils dilated as they came too close for comfort. Members at my every left and right, bumping and pushing me. I tried to cry out but I lost my balance and fell on my butt. Nobody saw me fall so next thing I knew, I felt an intense pain in my left leg. Then in my right upper arm. Then right on my stomach. My 'nakama' were trampling me, reducing me to a doormat. I screamed and let out cries of pain with every blow to my body. I swear I broke more bones than I could count. Red, thick liquid started to seep from my wounds and white bone jutting out from my skin. Tears exploded from my eyes from the extreme pain. My vision started to get darker and everything was tinted red. I started to cry more when I saw a familiar shoe head towards my neck. "Nat... su..." I managed to croak out before he permenantly damaged my voice. I coughed up blood and gave out the last scream that would ever leave my throat. My vision was blurred, red, and dark at the same time. The only thing I could see was a flash of blue and black and my bleeding ears could only hear a muffled, "LUCY- NEE!" "Bu-"The world went dark.

(NATSU POV)

I rushed to hug Lisanna when I stepped on something squishy and the smell of blood ravaged my nose. I couldn't really focus on that right now, LISANNA WAS BACK! I heard a faint voice call my name. I thought I was imagining things and gave Lisanna a huge hug.

(WENDY POV)

I heard them. I heard the screams and cries of my older sister. I pushed through the crowd. The sound of her cracking bones were like broken glass to my ears and my nose burned with the smell of her blood. I shoved people like they were nothing but I didn't care. LUCY WAS IN TROUBLE. I couldn't believe my eyes. There I saw a broken, bleeding Lucy. "LUCY-NEE!" I cried. Her arms were not supposed to bend that way, OH MY GOD HER NECK! AHHHH! Her legs! It was overwelming. I screamed.

(GAJEEL POV)

'Who da hell is this girl?' I saw bunny girl fall down. HAHA. I was about to laugh out loud when I heard a pained scream followed by the smell of her blood. I could hear the sound of cracking bones and the scent of her tears were too much. I rushed through the crowd pushing people down. I saw Wendy doing the same thing. Where was Natsu, he's a dragon slayer. He should be able to tell that his best friend was in grave danger. I finally pushed through and people gathered around us. 'LUCY-NEE!" Wendy cried. 'Bunny Girl..." The sight was unbearable. Everything was wrong with this picture. Her legs, her arm, her neck, blood was spilling out of her eyes, mouth and nose. I heard the other guild members gasp and some screamed. I wasn't sure if she would make it out alive.

(PRESENT TIME)

I am now mute. My throat was damaged to severely, Wendy couldn't heal me and neither could Porlyushica. I trudged into the guild reluctantly. It's been 2 months since that horrible incident. Followed by Natsu kicking me off the team, my 'best friends' Natsu and Levy are too busy doing other things to even say 'hello' to me much less look at me. The guild treats me like a ghost.

Gajeel was pissed off at Levy for treating me coldy and acting like nothing happened when she trampled me along with the others. She got mad and screamed at me, blaming me for Gajeel being mad at her and calling my writing trash. My heart broke.

Soon later, other guild members started spreading rumors about me, calling me weak, useless, and stupid. So they could talk ABOUT me but not TO me, huh? Real nice.

Gray still acknowledges me though, sometimes I even get a hello!

(Gray POV)

Lucy isn't looking so good these days. I remember when she was kicked off the team, I never even wanted it to happen. I was the only one against it, even Happy didn't care. Now, she looks horrible. Her hair it darker than it was before, like a dirty blonde, and she has constant bags and dark circles under her eyes, like she cries herself to sleep everyday and at the same time, doesn't sleep at all. Her clothes are always stained with red and she never wears her usual cheery skirt like before. It's like her whole attitude has changed. She's always depressed, tired-looking, and quiet. Its like she can't speak. (A/N: He doesn't even know she's mute now. Ignorant doofus. T^T)

Since Lisanna came back, it's like nobody even speaks to her anymore. Their attitudes towards her totally changed. Even Mirajane isn't kind to her and she's kind to EVERYBODY. People started spreading rumors about her and I wanted to comfort her so much. I was afraid to be bullied like her for hanging out with her so I just watched her suffer. It hurt me as much as it hurt her, maybe even more. I drowned in my own self-loathing and shame.

I remember the day she was trampled, the day I saw her broken, bleeding body. I glanced at Natsu and he was too busy with Lisanna to notice. Lisanna saw too and horror was written on every feature of her face but Natsu eyes were just fixed on Lisanna. Flame-ass bastard.

I'm so sorry Lucy, I'm such a coward.

(Lisanna POV)

NATSU IS SO CLINGY! Gosh i'm here now, who said I was going to leave again. I can't even go to the bathroom without him almost going in with me. Whatever happened to that Lucy girl? I remember them in Edolas. It was like to two were joined at the hip but now he rarely looks at her. The last time he ever spoke to her was when Natsu kicked her off the team for me.

(FLASHBACK: LISANNA POV)

"Lucy we're kicking you off Team Natsu." Natsu spat out rudely. I was astonished, 2 weeks ago in Edolas, they were like 2 peas in a pod! WHAT HAPPENED!?

Lucy didn't even care to look up. "..."

"You're weak and useless when you lose your keys." Erza added in.

"..."

"You can take this time to get stronger, b-but I'm not calling you weak or anything Lucy! Now, you can get more money to pay for your rent!" Gray blurted out. He was so nice to her, I wonder if he has a crush on her...

"Actually yeah, she is weak, and she complains too much Popsicle." Natsu blurted out. Gray glared at him. "Shut up Flame Retard."

"..."A tear rolled down her face.

"Lisanna will be taking your place, she's stronger, more useful, and she's prettier." his goofy signature smile planted on his face.

"..." Can she not talk? I remember the mark on her neck the day I came back. When she was trampled. Did that mess up her vocal chords? My eyes widened.

"What now, are you dumb too?" Erza crossed her arms and put an annoyed look on her face. "Why aren't you speaking?"

Lucy put a hand to her throat and opened her mouth over and over. It was like she was trying to speak. Her eyes became glossy and disappointment showed on her face.

"Oh..." Erza's eyes went wide. "Well... bye Lucy..." She walked away a puzzled look on her face.

"Bye Lucy!" Natsu ran off and Gray gave her a sympathetic look.

"..." She isn't even giving any emotion… was it the accident that did this? Somehow, I feel like this is all my fault…

"I'm sorry about this Lucy…" I spoke to her.

She looked at me and mouthed, "It's okay." This girl is an amazing person. But I know its not okay.

(Lucy POV)

That was it. They just topped it off. I've already given up on life, I guess it's time to end it, right? All this on my birthday, the of my mother's death...

(Present Time: Lucy POV)

I take one last glance at the guild. They're all so happy, drinking, partying, fighting... all without me.

Mirajane, at the bar serving up drinks for other guild members. One day she started being cold to me, I don't know why...

(Flashback)

"Ohayo Mirajane!" I greeted her. She didn't even glance my way, her eyes fixed on the glass that she was drying.

"Uh, Mirajane?" I tried to get her attention.

No response but I could feel negative vibes coming from her.

"Mirajane?" I said a little louder. I got a response but not the one I wanted.

'WHAT NOW!? CAN'T YOU SEE I'M BUSY! You fat, dumb, bitch, maybe you should lay off the milkshakes. Go bother somebody else." THAT WAS NOT MIRAJANE. I felt my throat go dry and tears sting at the corner of my eyes. "Okay bye then..." I walked off.

"Good riddence." She retorted. I could hear guild members agreeing with her and making mean comments about me.

"Mira's right. She looks like a bloated horse."

"Maybe all her fat goes to her chest and that why she looks like a slut."

"Or she got implants because she's just that desperate."

My heart shattered more and I ran. I ran and ran until I reached the end of Magnolia. I broke down and cried on my knees.

(Present)

Then Levy... Laughing with Jet and Droy. Gajeel stopped hanging out with her after she insulted and bullied me. Some best friend.

(Flashback)

"Hi Levy-chan! I finished a new chapter from my novel, wanna read?" I grinned.

"Ugh no."

I was shocked. Did that just come from Levy? "E-exuse me Levy-chan... What?" I asked nervously.

"I said no. After a while, I finally realized that your writing is shit. Don't even bother asking me again, you call yourself an author." She spat out angrily. There it was again. The guild was siding with her and putting me down...

"Haha, I bet she can barely even read, Let alone write."

"I doubt she could even get it finished. She's such a quitter, did you hear about all the jobs she abandoned?" That was a lie, a Fairy Tail mage never flees from a mission.

"Dumb blonde."

I ran out of the guild back to my apartment. I took my story and gave it a dirty look. I took the leaves of paper and my hands and in one swift movement, I tore it apart. Page after page, cutting my fingers in the process but I didn't care. I took out all my rage on my papers. I kicked over my desk, knocking my pencils all over the floor. The chair slammed into the mirror across the room shattering it. I looked at my reflection in the dangerous shards of glass on the floor. Disgusting. I took a shard and with no hesitation, dragged it across my skin, opening it allowing blood to slowly ooze out. I continued that for 15 minutes or so before falling asleep on my now red, splotchy carpet. A single tear cascaded down my face and as I whispered incoherently the word, "Pointless."

(Present)

Then there was Team Natsu... The people who said they care all about nakama, who would never hurt their nakama. Anybody in Fairy Tail is their nakama as they say. Apparently, I don't belong in Fairy Tail... I turn away from the massive wood guild doors my blonde hair flowing behind me.

I go to my apartment and dig through the tornado disaster that is my apartment. I walk across the floor of broken glass, razors, dry blood, trash, bits of splintery wood and tears. I walk over to my closet which I haven't touched in quite a while. I take out my most beautiful white dress. It is a simple plain sleeveless white dress that ties at the neck, leaving my back exposed and goes down to my knees. I slip it on and not dare step foot in my bathroom.

I smashed all the mirrors in my house, ashamed of looking at myself. There is blood in the shower, tub, sink, even the toilet. It looks like a murder scene. On the walls are all the words said about me, of course, written in blood. 'Worthless', 'Bitch', 'Stupid', 'Slut', 'Weak', 'Dumb', 'Useless', 'Poor Lucky Lucy Heartfillia of Fairy Tail 3'. And lets not forget the ceiling. There is only 1 thing written up there and don't ask how I did it. In crimson letters there shows 4 words: 'NAKAMA IS A LIE."

In 4 months, this is the first time I'm brushing my hair. If I'm going to die, I have no look nice. Oh wait I didn't make that really clear did I? Today is the day I, Lucy Heartfillia are going to live with my parents. Up in heaven with my mama and papa, just like old times. No more torment, no more gossip, no more hate, no more despair. No more feeling. I thought it would be nice leaving my cut up arms and legs exposed for the whole world to see, what Fairy Tail has done.

I grab a pencil from the ground and begin to write letters to the guild members. I doubt they'll ever find them, nobody's come to my apartment in months. After I do so, I reach under my bed to grab the device that will relieve me of my misery. I take out a rope, about 3 feet and tie it to a hook on my ceiling. I get what's left of my broken chair, which is now a LOT shorter due to its constant abuse. I step on the broken, destroyed chair. Looks just like me. I reach up and stick my head through the hole of the rope and tug twice to make sure its secure. I kick the chair one last time and a crack is heard. It's not from the chair.

Goodbye.

o00o

(3 days later: Gajeel POV)

I haven't seen Bunny Girl around the guild as often... She's been looking pretty depressed lately, and acting like the world was her enemy. Everytime, she came she reeked of blood. I guess I'll go check on her. As I get up, I glance at the Bitch Shrimp. She's there laughing with her two bozo cheerleaders, they don't even know that shes just playing them like tools. What did I ever see in her? I remember the day she was saying all those horrible things to Lucy. Actually, the whole guild has been abusing her verbally, and sometimes physically. I walk out of the guild and get to her apartment. I couldn't believe it. What I saw. What I smelled. EVERYTHING.

The walls and floor were stained in blood, shards of glass, trash, and the walls were peeling. Her stuff was everywhere, razors were scattered along with pencils, shreds of paper and her desk. I believe I saw on the floor over there was a chair leg.

I panicked and rushed into her kitchen. A mess just like her living room. I had to pinch my nose at the smell of dirty plates which were piled up at the sink, filled with a red liquid, and alcohol. Broken bottles of liquor were spread across the floor, very little still intact. This only made me more worried.

I checked her bathroom. I nearly puked and fainted right there. The blood... It was everywhere, in everything. The scent made my nose burn and my head dizzy. On the walls were a lot of the insults I heard them call her at the guild. And on the ceiling were the very words 'NAKAMA IS A LIE.' Oh no... I scrambled out and headed to the bathroom hoping what I thought wasn't true. Tears were already forming in my eyes as I broke the door down with my shoulder.

I broke.

Bunnygirl... Little sister... LUCY. She was there hanging from a dirty rope, eyes dull and lifeless but a smile on her face. I wailed and screamed, I didn't care who heard. MY LITTLE SISTER WAS DEAD. I screamed what felt for minutes, crying my eyes out until my throat became raspy. Right under her dangling feet were 5 letters, addressed to the people of the guild. With no hesitance, I grabbed them and let out another sob. Letters were for me, Levy, Team Natsu, Wendy Carla and Lisanna, then for the whole guild. I untangled my lifeless sister from the rope and held her in my arms. I took the letters and rushed to the guild, not caring about the horrified, distraught faces.

I kicked down the guild doors with a 'BANG!' and stood there tears still running down my face. The guild members looked shocked, some covering their mouths and others just frozen.

"YOU SEE WHAT YOU ALL DID!? LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID TO MY SISTER!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. "You tortured her with the horrible words and gossip thinking she wouldn't hear, BUT SHE DID! YOU ALL BETRAYED HER AND NOW SHE DEAD! YOU KILLED HER!" Bits and chunks of minerals and started to swirl around the guild making clacking and the unbearable sound of metal grinding against eachother. My skin was now scales and it looked like I had no pupils. Rage was the only thing I felt.

"YOU!" I stomped up to Mirajane. "You BITCH. YOU WERE SO NICE TO EVERYBODY BUT ONCE SHE ASKED YOU FOR ONE SIMPLE THING, YOU CALLED HER A FAT BITCH. SOME SWEET NICE BARTENDER OF FAIRY TAIL. SHE WAS NOTHING BUT KIND TO YOU!" I punched her in the face and sent her flying into a guild wall. She let out a cry of pain and coughed up blood.

I turned to Levy. 'YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO BE HER BEST FRIEND. YOU JUST INSULTED AND HER PASSION. SHE LOVED WRITING. YOU KNOW WHAT I SAW WHEN I WENT TO HER APARTMENT!? In her living room, HER STORY. The one she spent MONTHS ON IN SHREDS! IN HER BATHROOM, THE EXACT WORDS YOU CALLED HER. THE EXACT WORDS THE ENTIRE GUILD CALLED HERR! Written in her own blood." I kicked her in the stomach.

"Lu-chan…" She whispered before passing out.

"And you." I spat out angrily. Actually I was BEYOND ANGRY. "TEAM NATSU! THE PEOPLE WHO SAY NAKAMA IS EVERYTHING AND THEY WOULD NEVER HURT THEM! LIES! IN HER BATHROOM, On the ceiling she wrote these exact words. NAKAMA IS A LIE. and I am starting to believe her." I held up my lifeless sister by her shoulders and her head bobbed up and down before resting in a bowing position thanks to gravity. "LOOK WHAT YOU DID! YOU MURDERERS!" I shot and Iron Dragon Roar at all of them.

"ERZA. She looked up to you, thought of you as an older sister. You just thought of her as WEAK and USELESS. She WASN'T." I gave her and Iron Dragon's Pillar to the stomach.

"GRAY. YOU WERE LIKE HER OLDER BROTHER. But. You didn't insult her and break her like the others. You were only looking out for her. You actually paid SOME attention to her unlike the rest. But it is shameful how you tried to be like the others and ignore her. YOU SHOULD HAVE KNOWN BETTER THAN TO BE LIKE THEM!" I gave him and Iron Dragon's Fist to the face.

"NATSU!" My power went out of control. Guild members were crying out from the massive shards of glass imbedding themselves in their skin. "SHE LOVED YOU! MORE THAN ANYONE! YOU WENT AND STEPPED ON HER HEART AND SPAT ON IT! YOU ALWAYS TALK ABOUT NAKAMA AND LOOK AT WHAT HAPPENED BECAUSE OF YOU!" I shoved the dead Lucy in his face. Her cold, dull eyes met his. In his eyes were denial, fear, regret, sadness, self-loathing."You bastard." I delivered the final blow. "IRON DRAGON'S ROOAARRRR!"

The only words I heard out of him was, "I'm sorry Luce…" He's a little late don't cha think?

"Wendy..."I calmed down a bit and handed Lucy to her. "She always loved you like a little sister. You never ignored nor disrespected her. I- We are proud of you." I patted her head as a tear went down my scaly, metallic skin. "Lucy...neechan..." she breathed out tears bursting from her eyes like rockets. Carla did the same. "LUUCCCYYYY!" She shouted. "I WASN'T THERE! I COULDN'T HELP! I'M SORRRYYY!" She wailed. Pantherlily was even crying his eyes out. Happy was there next to Lily, hugging Lucy as well. "Lusshhhiiieee... Please come back... I'll give y-yhu fishh... pleeaaassseee... LUUSSHHIIEEEE!" He sobbed. It hurt seeing the little cat cry.

One by one the guild members started to get it.

"What have we done...'

"I can't believe it..."

"I'm a horrible person."

"I didn't treasure my nakama like I promised..."

They all started to break out in tears.

"Lucy..." A soft, fragile voice whispered out. "LUCYYY!" She screamed. "MIRA-NEE! ELF-NEE! WHYYY!?" She rushed over to Lucy's inanimate body and hugged it tightly. "You were supposed to be nice to Lucy-chan! SHE WAS THE BEST PERSON I EVER MET! The first person I met in Edolas was Lucy Ashley... She cared for me like a sister and friend. This Lucy did the same. EXCEPT OVER THERE, EVERYBODY ACTUALLY TREASURED EACHOTHER AND NEVER DID SOMETHING LIKE THIS! THEY WERE A DARK GUILD BUT THEY WERE STILL BETTER THAN THIS! THIS ISN'T THE FAIRY TAIL I ONCE KNEEEWWWWWW!" She bawled clutching Lucy like she would disappear any minute.

"Lucy left these letters." I had finally calmed down all the way and my magic level was back to normal. I handed them to the small man in front of me. Makarov.

The master of this now utterly pitiful excuse for a guild. He had tears running down his face and snot in his moustache. Gross.

"I'll hand them out individually later to the selected guild members." Master's voice was raspy and dry, probably from crying so much. Why wouldn't he? One of his favorite children just committed suicide because of the other guild members and he failed to notice. The guilt must be unbearable.

"Probably when the rest wake up. They have to hear her words. And maybe take a little field trip to her apartment and see what they caused." My voice was hoarse and strained from all the crying and screaming I did not too long ago.

Some guild members were already gaining consciousness and almost immediately overcome with regret while other burst into tears. They knew it was their fault but what was the point of crying over it now? They're too late now, she's dead. AND ITS ALL THEIR FAULT.

(1 hour later. Be derpa derp. All the members are conscious. o3o: GENERAL POV)

The guild was a deathly silent. Nobody was talking the only sounds were the occasional cough or sniffle. Somebody would drag a fork across their plate absentmindedly and a few sobs resounded through the guild.

Master came out of his office, eyes red accompanied by gray bags making him look even older. He looked like shit. "Words can't even express how angry and disappointed in you all I am." He gave this children a look that showed how infuriated and disappointed he was with them. "Anyway, Lucy left us these letters. Gajeel found them at when…" He choked on a sob. "You all will see later. You will see exactly what you have done. This guild was supposed to be a place where everybody treats their nakama with love and compassion. We are supposed to take down who insult or put down our nakama. You all are a bunch of hypocrites. I am ashamed to own a guild who has fallen this low because of lack of strength and spread rumors that will certainly change the way one looks at a person." Tears started to run down his wrinkled face again. "Lucy loved us all, cared for us, and always found a way to help any of us anyway she could with any problem. Some thank-you."

He shuffled the envelopes still stained encrusted in dry blood. As he spotted the one for the whole guild he quickly, but gently, opened it. He scanned the paper for about three seconds before reading it aloud the the guild.

Dear Fairy Tail, (A/N: I'm just merging all the letters. -3-)

I was brought to Fairy Tail told that this was a place where people cherish their nakama and everybody is accepted. Liars. NAKAMA IS A LIE. FAIRY TAIL IS A LIE. I CAME FOR A PLACE TO FINALLY BE TREATED LIKE A PERSON! Do you know how it feels, bein abused, raped, and neglected by your own father who blamed you for your own mother's death? Since I was 6, every day, he would do those exact things to me, mostly drunk. This place was just pouring salt on a wound. You fooled me, telling me you would protect me and care for me, that all would be accepted. Wrong.

For months, you started to ignore me, but I got through it with the help of my real friends. The day that Lisanna came back, I was right in front of her. You know what happened then? I literally became a doormat. You all crushed my heart along with many other bones in my body. What hurt worst of all wasn't the fact that Natsu stepped right on my throat, thus making me dumb, unable to speak. It was the fact that nobody cared but Wendy, Gajeel, Laxus, The Exceeds, and Master. No matter how much I screamed and cried out, nobody cared until Wendy and Gajeel came to help me.

Then when Gajeel got mad at Levy for not helping me, she became cold and horrible to me. Levy, If you're there, you were supposed to be my best friend, through thick and thin. My hopes as an author were destroyed hearing you call my novel shit and me a horrible author... I just couldn't do it anymore. So now my story is in shreds. Just like my hopes and dreams. Thanks sooo much Levy. I bet the other guild members thought I couldn't hear their insults behind my back. You are really bad a whispering. More lies shattering my already damaged heart. It was punctured by my broken ribs when I was trampled. Thanks for that guys.

Then Mirajane, I don't even know what I did wrong. I only asked for a milkshake and you called me a fat bitch. I bet you didn't even notice that every time I called for you, you ignored me. And since I was ignored by Team Natsu, I had to ask MASTER for permission to go on missions. I spent so much money on having a roof over my head, that I didn't have any money for food. That was going to be the first thing I've had in 3 months. Wendy then shared her food with me but it was hard to keep it down knowing I was eating HER food. I didn't want her to not get enough nutrients to go, she's only a little girl. But seeing her plead for me to eat, I had to. Without her, I would be dead. Now please... Why? What did I ever do to you?

Gajeel. THANK YOU SO MUCH. You are the best big brother ever. I always wanted to be a little sister. But it kinda scary when you threaten everybody for me... But that's what makes you you! ^-^ Who knew you were such a softie. Sorry for this unexpected departure. I'll be visiting often and watching over you okay? But mostly in your dreams. Please look after Wendy, The Exceeds, and my Keys. I'll miss you.

And now Team Natsu. Lies. Lies. And more lies.

You Erza, I thought of you as my role model, my big sister, and one of my best friends. All you thought of me was weak and useless. Do you know how that feels? Getting called a burden and weak by the people you thought were your friends? YOUR FAMILY? When I entered the guild, you never even acknowledged me. When I tried to talk to you, you would just brush me off, call me annoying, and forcefully push me away. The pain in my heart was almost unbearable.

Happy. You were always a cute sweet neko. Even though you teased and annoyed me quite a bit, that's what I loved about you. Please don't cry, and thank you for trying to help me when the guild was bullying me. I never got to get you that fish I promised Happy... I'm so sorry. I guess this Celestial Mage just broke her promise. In my apartment are my keys. I want you, Wendy, Gajeel, and Charles to get that after this, okay? Please don't freak out or scream when you go in. Just grab the keys and come back to the guild. Then let the whole guild come. Let them see what they've done.

Wendy and Charle, I will NEVER forget you. Right now, I'm with Mama and Papa, and probably watching over you now. I want to see you grow up and get strong. Stronger than anybody because I believe in you like you did to me. Don't cry anymore, I wouldn't want to see you cry. I can't rest in peace seeing you cry all the time okay? Please tell my spirits i'm sorry... I couldn't handle it anymore. Please keep them so that no other mages may hurt them. Most Celestial mages abuse and don't love their spirits at all. I can't let them go through that torture. Please keep them safe.

Gray, I know you didn't mean it. I could see it in your eyes. Out of all of Team Natsu, you actually acted like I existed. You shouldn't try to be like the others if they are trying to bring someone down. You have a good heart and you should keep it good. You were afraid weren't you? Afraid that If you try to stand up for me, they might bully you too or get embarrassed. Well as my final wish to you, I say that you never do that again. Never doubt yourself or your actions. Never be afraid to stand up for your friends. I'll miss you Gray-niisan, please take care of my keys as well.

And finally NATSU. You can go suck a melon and choke on it for all I care. I loved you and you call me a weak, useless, replacement for Lisanna? You said you were my best friend and would protect me no matter what. LIES LIES LIES LIES. I HATE YOU TO THE CORE. I will never forget what you have done and the things you have said. How you deceived me bringing me to the guild only to be a replacement for a dead childhood friend. Then once she's back, you toss me to the side like rotten liver. So that's all I was huh? You just toyed with me until what you wanted all along came back and you abandoned me. Every fight, you talk about protecting your nakama. Spouting lies like the idiot you are. Have a nice life Dragneel.

Lisanna, THIS IS NOT YOUR FAULT. You never wanted to hurt me and you didn't. It was Team Natsu. Well, you can have them for as long as you want. You are a sweet girl and honestly, you deserve better. I wish you good luck and happiness for the rest of your life Lisa-chan. Please don't blame yourself, It will only make me feel worse about all of this. I will be watching over you, guiding and protecting you when necessary. Never forget me.

The ironic thing is... My parents named me after their old guild 'Love and Lucky'. One day, while my mom was pregnant with me, the 'k' to the sign fell off and it spelled 'Lucy' instead of 'Lucky'. So I was named after a broken signed and known as 'Lucky Lucy Heartfillia'. Isn't that funny? Because my whole life has been nothing close to lucky and full of lies filled with more lies topped with a serving of betrayal and deceit. My whole childhood my father said the same thing to me everyday. "YOUR NOT ALLOWED TO BE HAPPY! EVER!" I guess he was right.

Love and Hate,

Lucky Lucy Heartfillia, the Girl Forbidden to be Happy.

Tear drops hit the page repeatedly. Master couldn't control it. He fell to his knees and sobbed.

(Mirajane POV)

I dropped the glass in my hands in shock of what Lucy wrote to me. Lucy wouldn't do that... she's too much of a nice girl. But I took advantage of that fact and broke her. What was I thinking? I fell to my knees. HOW DID I BECOME SUCH A PERSON? WHY!? I always remembered her trying to talk to me but I didn't want to deal with her. I broke her... I ruined her... I sobbed.

(Levy POV)

Lu-chan i'm sorry... I don't know what got into me... I- I just really liked Gajeel and when he yelled at me because of you I just... I couldn't help myself. I thought he had a crush on you and I was jealous of the attention he gave to you. I took out my anger on you without a purpose! I'm a horrible person. I threw my book across the guild hall and slammed my head on the table I was sitting at. Then I let it all out. All the sadness, regret, shame, and self-loathing out in one single cry. The other sobs were for all the other times I hurt her.

(Erza POV)

Oh Mavis... what have I done... I didn't mean to... Now she hates... Lucy... I cried my eyes out right there not caring who was watching. The guild members just grew more shocked when I swung my arm across the table, swiping my cake with it. I watched the sweet, piece of strawberry heaven fall on the floor splattering and breaking. It laid there abandoned and broken pitifully. 'Just like Lucy...' I thought. I let out an even louder cry.

(Gray POV)

Lucy I'm so sorry. I promise, I will uphold your final wish. Tears flowed down my face uncontrollably and not because I just got brother-zoned. I let her down. I let US down. I will never let that happen again Lucy, I promise. I will protect your keys with my life.

(The Exceeds)

Pantherlily: Lucy-san, I will never forget you. You were brave and beautiful, strong in heart and soul. You get the true meaning of nakama unlike these people. I can't stop the tears... You will be missed.

Charle: 'Lucy...' Tears streamed down my face like no tomorrow. I will stay happy for you, I will continue your doings. I will no longer be naggy and cold. I will be sweet, forgiving, and thoughtful. I will be just like you Lucy.

Happy: 'Lushie isn't dead... She's right here next to me. She will always be with me. All the time. She is my mama and will always be.

(Wendy POV)

Yes Lucy-neechan... I love you too. I will get strong and never forget you. No matter how many tears are shed, I will remain strong for you. I will train and protect your keys from any sadistic mages who want to get their dirty mitts on your spirits. I will always look up to you nee-chan.

(Natsu POV)

Luce... Lucy... Oh my god. I really messed up. Actually, this was more than a mess up. I hurt my best friend so bad. And now that I realize I love her, she's DEAD? First Igneel, Then Lisanna, and now LUCY. I guess I deserve this... The tears, the name calling, the shame. It's all my fault.

(Normal POV)

"HEY BRATS. There's and attachment to the letters." He took out a small pale box out of envelope. "Its a lacrima... and there's a note!" 'Here's a little bit of me left. The song that I listened to almost everyday. The one that actually gets me.' He read aloud.

He gave the lacrima to Mira and she set it down on the bar and a narrow light shone out of it. The light then widened and revealed a screen with none other than Lucy on it. She was wearing a beautiful white dress and in her hair, a white rose. She had streaks of blood and cuts all over her arms.

"Hey guys. This is just a little memo of me. Sorry if you don't like it." The screen changed showed the number 3 then began a countdown to 0.

Everyone is incompetent, and everything is useless.

What are 'connections'?

What is 'affection'?

And 'Not hurting'?

Ah... Smiling in public, That's my boundary line.

Absolute Refusal, a thick boarder that won't disappear.

Chronic, abnormal rejection.

Don't come in,

Don't violate me.

I don't need anything like kindness.

The conceited paranoia of one with no family, a human phobia harmless to people and animals.

Don't touch me, saying you won't change.

Facing downwards, crawling and crying.

No, I don't want this... no more.

I look up at the inversed world.

A bundled up past, now making

Only the destructive noises and discord resonate.

What is 'warmth'?

What is 'Kindness'?

A distrust born from fear.

I imagine and become despicable.

I delude myself and become unpleasant.

I seclude myself and become wounded.

I'll tear all that away once I return to life.

Paranoia going back and forth, a human phobia of delusional hypertrophy.

Running from place to place, Running from place to place.

Please, try and touch me more gently.

No..., I don't... want this... no more.

I look down on this world of mistakes.

If this conspiracy, I've gotten used to doesn't change,

Then it'd be better if nobody else was here.

Ah...,

Since birth,

My heart has been...

Loving, cutting, affixing, envying.

"Even tiresome things are wonderful"

"I know." "I know."

Now its discommunication.

"All I want to do is something crazy"

Running away from only delusions,

I get entangled, I get entangled,

Facing above, and standing up and laughing.

The truth is that

I only want you,

a cable that connects our hearts.

Circulating voices

spin in a chord,

since I knew I wasn't alone.

What are 'connections'?

What is 'affection'?

Right now, I feel that

I've come to not understand anything at all.

I jump out from there,

I'll run away from here.

After all, I'm not that bad,

I am not bad,

I am not bad,

I am not bad,

I am not bad,

because I should be able to change.

The song was over and there stood Lucy, a tear running down her cheek.

Song is 'Remote Paranoia' by IA(best song ever), these are just the english lyrics though. Next chapter will be about their reactions and going to Lucy's... 'apartment'. I DO NOT OWN THIS SONG.

~Le Magic Taco.