Author: Zierra

Title: Never Before 2 (the sequel)

Starring: Squall, Seifer and special guest star: Zell

Rating: R

Disclaimer: Look elsewhere, there's nothing to collect here!

Story: Squall and Seifer is celebrating their two years anniversary in Esthar, but it doesn't go as well as they'd thought with Zell's memory haunting their minds. And maybe it's more that just the memory…

A/N: This story is dedication to my beloved boyfriend Daniel. He has sort of inspired me at times, and if he reads it really careful, he may recognise certain dialogs…

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Oh, and one thing before you start to read. If the weather in Esthar is not what you have expected, I apologize, it has to do with another story I have… Hope it won't ruin the story for you!

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Two years later

" Come one, Squall! We're gonna miss the train! What are you doing in there?"

Squall glared at the bathroom door from the inside, trying to force his irritation trough it, so Seifer could feel it. He didn't like to be rushed.

" Nothing!"

" Why does it have to take such a fucking time!?"

" Oh, shut up!" Squall said, opening the door. " I've been finished with it for a while now."

Eyes rolling, Seifer took Squall by the arm.

" Now get you cute ass in the car, I'm gonna lock up!"

" Let me go, Seifer, I can walk on my own!"
" Maybe, but it takes you forever to do it!"
" Listen, you…!"
Seifer silenced him with a kiss.

" Now baby please, get. In. The damn. Car!"

" Alright!"

Turing from Seifer, Squall smiled walking as slowly as he could without standing still. He could hear the taller man sigh and walking back to the door. Squall had just recently found out how fun it was teasing Seifer. The man had absolutely no temper. And not much of a clue either.

" And that's why I love you."

" You better be talking to me, or I'll kick your ass, puberty-boy." Seifer hugged Squall from behind kissing him lightly on the neck
" Bite me."
" Really?!"

" No."
" …"
" Ouch! Damn it, Seifer!"

The train to Esthar was already standing at the station when Seifer and Squall arrived.

" A few more seconds in that bathroom, and we'd be running to Esthar!"
Squall sighed. The downside to having a boyfriend was the constant whining, and not being able to speak his mind. But he figured that the message would be lost on Seifer anyway.

Squall looked over on his side, looking affectionately at the sleeping Seifer. As soon as they'd found their seats, Seifer had fallen asleep. Half his face pressed to the window.

´As long as he's not drooling`, Squall thought, leaning back into his seat.

He and Seifer had been together for two years now, without any serious interventions. Sure, they fought, they were ex-enemies after all, disagreeing on everything just for the sake of it. But they always made up. It seemed like they just couldn't let go of each other, no matter how tough the ride was.

Two years. It was a damn long time. 24 months, 104 weeks, 730 days. Two years with Seifer. Two years without Zell.

Something stung somewhere inside Squall, and he would spend his birthday with two pregnant t-rexuars if it wasn't his heart aching.

He and Seifer had barely talked about Squalls dead ex boyfriend, but everything they fought about seemed to go back to the mention of his name. Squall had said to Seifer when they got together that he would be forced to accept his feelings for Zell, but it seemed to be the constant thorn in his side. Squall was incapable of forgetting about Zell. He'd learned how to love, but not to let go.

He knew he had to move on completely some day, it wouldn't be fair to Seifer otherwise. And with that in thought, he drifted of to sleep.

Esthar was as beautiful as he remembered it. They were there to celebrate their second anniversary, the place where they had gotten together. Seifer looked back at Squall, who was still partly in dream land. Hair messy and his eyes dazed with sleep.

" Hey Sweet-thing! You coming or not?"

" Please, Seifer. Don't call me so many silly things. I have a name and it's not like you can't pronounce it."
Seifer smiled. It was amazing how much Squall had opened up to him. Shown him sides he'd never seen before. Shown him more of the real Squall. Their two years together had been almost like a dream, and Seifer considered himself damn lucky.

They stayed at the same hotel as last time, Selphies aunt greeting them in the lobby.

" So you're back now! I've gone here waiting. I'd forgotten what day it was you two… well, I guess you want your room now."
Selphies family was all the same.

When they finally were alone, Seifer moved up to Squall, kissing him tenderly down his face. Eyes closed, lips parted, breathing deep and hoarse, Squall was the sexiest thing Seifer had ever seen.

" Hyne, Squall. Do you have any idea what I'd like to do to you?"

" I have a pretty good idea", he breathed, pressing backward against Seifer. There was an immense amount of friction, and Seifer couldn't stop the moan.

" Just what I guessed", Squall teased, moving away from him, leaving Seifer with his imagination.

" What's the matter?" Seifer asked, his voice slightly broken.

" Nothing. I've just been thinking.

" About?"

" Life… Death… Like you said. I went here to deal, so I am. Every time I'm here."

" You mean, you think about Zell, every time we come here? Even though it's supposed to be about us?"
" That's not what I meant, Seifer."
" Then why did you say it?" He could feel that jealous flame start burning in his guts. It almost felt like cramps.

" It was the only way I could explain it. Please Seifer, don't start now!"

" I haven't started anything. You did. I thought you'd gone passed that!"
" It's not as easy as you might think! My feelings for him ran deep…"
" Oh please! I don't need to hear this right now, I came here to spend time with my boyfriend, to celebrate. And he wishes he was here with someone else."
" Seifer… I'm sorry, but I can't do what you're asking. I told you it was gonna take time, and for me, maybe two years isn't enough."
" It's enough for me. And I'm beginning to wonder if you're really trying to forget. Sometimes it seems like you'd rather have him there than me. I might not be the boyfriend that he was, but I'm fucking trying!"
Squall took a few steps towards Seifer who's eyes revealed his entire soul. His green eyes couldn't hold back the tears and he his lower lip was trembling, even though he tried to keep it still.

" Seifer…."
" I have to go for a walk. Alone."
" Ok…"
Walking to the door, Seifer stopped, hand on the handle.

" You know what bothers me the most?" he said without turning around. " The fact that you didn't even try to deny that you wished you were here with someone else." And with that, he hastily disappeared through the door.

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My, my… isn't Squall in deep shit now? And it's not gonna get better… Well, guess that depends on how you see it, and who you are and what couples you favour… ok, I'm blowing it here.

Seconds chapter is on the way! Return to see updates, since my stories don't seem to be posted…… =o(

Love, Zierra.

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