I stood there in silence. All that was heard was the wind blowing leaves all around in the autumn breeze. A tear rolled down my face and I wiped it away quickly. I didn't want to cry, even if I was alone I just didn't want them to fall. I stared at the stone in front of me, the words engraved into it were ' Johnny Cade' nothing else. I sat on my knees and just kept my eyes set on those words, ' Johnny Cade' the boy who was scared of his own shadow, who was beat up and yelled at by his parents, who killed a Soc and even saved children from a burning church. Johnny Cade... Johnny Cade... That name came into my head over and over making me feel sick. " Hey Johnny..." I reached my hand out and placed it down on the cold stone. " how ya been?" I held back my tears " I'm ok, my grades have gotten better lately... They kind of dropped after what happened. Darry and and I haven't been fighten as much as we used to either." I smiled as a tear escaped from my face and landed on the stone.

" how they treaten you up there? I wonder what it's like, shoot I'd give anything to see it. How's Dall doin? I wonder if he even made it up there...we've been pretty quiet since you and Dally left.. But we're doin good, Two-bits still Two-bit and Steve's bein his usual self to." I Wiped my teary face " shoot, I told my self I wouldn't cry." I looked up at the sky and noticed all the colors of orange and red as the sun set. I sighed. " if only you could see this now Johnny.." I stared at the sky until the sun finally set and all that was left was darkness. I laid on my back next to Johnny's grave. " I miss you Johnny... I miss your greasy hair an dark skin" I examined the starry sky " and your beautiful black eyes" I chucked at my self. Here I am talking to no one and sounding like a complete idiot. " the gang misses you to. We just can't live in with out you man...I can't live without you"

Oh great now what am I saying..

Tears came pouring out of my face as I turned over to lay on my side away from his grave. " why did you have to do this to me... I miss you so much it hurts... It was my fault I didn't help you out fast enough.. I should have been the one dead..oh Johnnycakes... You don't deserve to die...the one who deserves it is me.."

I tried to stop crying but it only got worse. I clenched my jacket and squeezed my eyes shut, more tears escaping. I took a few unsteady breaths and just laid there. The wind grew stronger and I could hear a clash of thunder strike not far. Soon after the rain was pouring strong and hard. I just laid there in the cold with my eyes shut and my shivering body turning pale. " Johnny..." I didn't even care about the rain. After what felt like hours I was trembling badly and the cold was making my whole body turn nearly purple. " I miss you so much..." Thunder struck again even louder this time, I sighed and kept my eyes closed imagining Johnny being ok, he was living with us now and we got a new house and everything. We were so happy together. I started crying again trying to hold back my sobs until I felt something on my shoulder. It felt like a hand. I froze, I couldn't move at all. The hand felt so warm and comforting. I smiled, my imagination running wild thinking it was Johnny who was there smiling over me and saying everything would be ok. The hand remained there and I felt someone breathing into my ear.

"I miss you to" my eyes shot open and I returned back to reality. I shot up and turned around. I didn't know what to think... I didn't know what to feel. What was before me was something impossible. Johnny Cade was sitting there on top of what was supposed to be his grave. He was smiling at me as the rain poured down on the two of us. I was frozen, unable to move or speak. " hey there Ponyboy"

( A/N): Just got bored and decided to wright this, hope you enjoyed and I you want me to continue then R&R see ya next time :)