I Do Not Own Inuyasha

Chapter 1

Were there any merits being in love?

No, she decided miserably as she waited to hand over her tickets, heartbroken, with her suitcase and the two tickets which were supposed to be for their week long trip. Perhaps she could get lucky and lightning would strike her putting her out of her misery, looking up at the raining sky she sighed. She could never be so lucky.

Six years! Six bloody years wasted! All because she was blind! Had there been signs? True they didn't have sex as often but she had thought it was because of their jobs. They didn't go to dinner or out on the town anymore, but they didn't have time. And he was always coming home late because of work. Now she understood.

He didn't need to have sex with her because he had the other woman. He didn't want to go out with her in public unless it was a formal event because he was too busy going on dates with her. And he came home late because he was too busy having sex with her.

God she was such a fool!

Rin felt like crying, screaming, and dying because of what a fool she had been. The three of them had been best friends since high school, and when Kohaku had asked her out Kanna had been the one to encourage her to go out with him. What was the harm, it'll be fun, you need to loosen up Rin, be happy he likes you, I'd never encourage this if he didn't love you; all of that had been a lie Kanna had spun. Now Rin felt like a laughing stock.

Today she had decided to surprise Kohaku by coming home early before they left for their vacation. Walking into her house she had stopped when she heard a woman screaming Kohaku's name, curious and puzzled Rin had walked up those stairs, turned the doorknob, and gaped in horror at what she was seeing. It was her best friend and her fiancé, locked together, naked, and screaming with pleasure then horror when they saw Rin. Kohaku was shouting at her too wait, as was Kanna but Rin had merely slammed the door, ran down the stairs, grabbed the cruise tickets, her suitcase and ran into the rain. All the while she had heard them shouting for her to slow down, wait, they could explain, it wasn't what she thought it was.

She slipped onto the train just as the doors slid shut, the train lurched and they were racing off. Rin couldn't wait, her heart was being sliced, slashed, hacked, stomped on, and lit a flame with pain at the sight she had just seen.

And how the hell did you explain that!?

'I'm sorry Rin, Kanna was helping me find a condom I lost in her?' There was no explanation that scenario which would make sense! As for what she thought it was, she was pretty certain it was her fiancé screwing her best friend while in her house in her bed a day before their trip. And unless she was stupider than she thought she was, she was relatively certain that's what had been happening when she walked in.

Rin handed the attendant her tickets, muttered something about accidentally buying two tickets then walked onto the ship to her little cabin. Her phone buzzed, again, looking at the screen she looked at Kohaku's number. She could answer it, perhaps there was an explanation. No! Her mind shouted at her as she turned off her phone. There was no explanations, there were no excuses, and there were no alternatives to the scenario she had walked in on. Numbly her fingers dropped her bag on the cabin floor and she fell onto the bed crying. The tears she had fought back for the past hours finally broke through as she lay there sobbing her heart out. Why did life hate her so much it took away the only two people she could rely on?

It didn't matter her life hated her. It would never get any better, in fact it seemed hell bent on getting worse for her. Rin had no doubt Kohaku would go about freezing her accounts. Somewhere in one of the billions of shattered pieces of her heart she recognized him as a total control freak but it hadn't stopped her from loving him. Suddenly Rin was glad all of the meals for this trip had been pre-bought as had this cabin, she wouldn't starve at least. And when she got back she'd figure out how to pick up her life again. Move, change her name, get a new job, and change her number and email. Rin laid there when all her tears were dried up then pulled herself off of the bed into the shower.

Perhaps she could get lucky and meet a guy who'd take her mind off of Kohaku and Kanna. Rin liked the thought of throwing caution to the wind and having wild hot sex with a different guy, she'd never been with anyone but Kohaku. Rin looked at herself in the mirror, sighed at the sight then began repairing her damage to the best of her limited ability and cosmetics. Wild hot sex with a stranger just might be the cure for her heartbreak on this trip but it was supposed to be a couple's cruise, she didn't get her hopes up on ignoring her shattered heart. Deciding she was just about as fixed up as she could get herself she quietly exited her cabin to hunt up the galley for food. Crying a lot made her hungry.

Walking into the galley Rin was dejected again at the sight of all the happy couples, young and old. It wasn't irritating it was just…painful. Yes painful was a good description of how this all looked to her. She picked up a plate and was shocked when an old couple smiled at her then continued with gathering up her meal. Looking around the eating area Rin felt like the new kid in school. Everyone had people to sit with, their significant other.

Humiliation swept through her again, she had come running to this ship to escape but it appeared she had just trapped herself in a different circle of hell. Sighing she picked up more food and decided it'd be for the best if she just hid in some corner and downed a whole gallon tub of ice cream, sob her heart out, then throw herself overboard. She'd save herself the humiliation of having to return to her home where Kohaku and Kanna were probably waiting for her.

Gods she was such a moron!

She could not believe this was how her life was turning out. After everything she had been through didn't she deserve a sliver of happiness!? Or was happiness an illusion as her crumbled around her again. It was as if the ground was crumbling beneath her sending her tumbling into some dark, never ending pit which would consume her again. Something silver caught her eye.

He was sitting there all alone, her shattered heart skipped a beat.

Something about the silver man sitting alone, while his gold eyes glared holes into his table, drew her. It wasn't as if there was anything left in her life to break, shatter, or disappear so why not go sit with the stranger who looked just as miserable as she. He'd either ignore her or tell her to go away, either way she wouldn't be alone for a moment.

Sesshomaru was between killing his family and diving off the ship. When his father had signed him up for this cruise he had neglected to tell Sesshomaru about two things: first, the cruise itself and second, it was a couples cruise. He had just ditched the gold digging leech who had attached herself to him and decided slipping off on a cruise would be a good idea since his father had already set it up. Bad idea, he decided. This was clearly a not too subtle hint from his father to get married, growling Sesshomaru sat a quiet table where he could relax and not be suffocated by the couple love engulfing this atmosphere. A small woman, who looked really miserable walked up to his table with a plate of food.

"Mind if I join you?" she asked, her voice was so pitiful for she sounded like she wanted to cry at the moment. But still, she was pretty by human standards and looking a little lost he couldn't outright turn her away. He didn't want her company but at the same time he didn't want her crying all over him.

"Wouldn't your boyfriend mind?" he asked, wrong question he decided when he caught the scent of tears and sorrow coming off of her.

"I don't think he has a say on any decisions I make anymore." The girl said firmly, more to herself than him. Sesshomaru assessed the girl carefully then.

"Do whatever you wish," he decided was the safest answer. He didn't want to outright tell the girl to get lost but at the same time he didn't want to be alone on this couples' cruise all the time. In his mind that could be very dangerous. Couples liked to fix what they saw as a problem: being single. He liked being single, he liked it very much. The girl sat beside him, she looked absolutely miserable. It was bugging him, nothing irritated him since he didn't care but this girl looking miserable was bothering him.

"Have you ever been on one of these cruises?" the girl asked.

"No."

"Oh, do you have a girlfriend?" she continued to asked in a dull voice as she played with the food she had put on her plate.

"No, do you want to tell me what's bothering you?" Sesshomaru tried, it wasn't that he cared or anything but he was curious what could make this girl look so miserable. Her chocolate colored eyes flicked up too him full of misery. "It's not as if I care or anything, I was just curious," he shrugged, then she laughed. The sound was music to his ears, her smile was beautiful and his frozen heart skipped a few beats at the sight.

"What about you, what's your name and why are you here dateless?" Rin asked smiling now, he decided her smile suited her better than her crying.

"I'm Sesshomaru, and I'm here dateless because I'm hiding." He admitted much to his irritation he had stated the truth of what he was doing. Rin laughed again, he was one hundred percent serious. But he hadn't caught his father's not so subtle hint until it was too late and he was here.

"Are you a fugitive on the run?" Rin teased.

"Perhaps," he retorted. It was shocking him at how relaxed with this girl he was. "What's your name and why are you dateless?"

"Oh, I'm Rin and I'm dateless because men never think with the right piece of anatomy." She grumbled out the last part and he resisted the desire to laugh. But she looked so disgruntled at what she had revealed it was amusing, and surprisingly attractive.

"So we're both stuck in couples' hell, dateless," he mused aloud to his shock.

"I have an idea, how about we pretend to be dates until this trip is over, the couples will leave us alone and we can part ways when the trip's over." She suggested, he thought this over, avoid the rabid couples and be with someone who's company wasn't annoying, he'd also have a 'date' for the few things he needed one for. Fine, he shook her hand in agreement. It wasn't like he'd like this human any better than the rest of them and she'd keep the rest of the humans at bay.

"I like your name, very unique." She admitted with a slight smile.

"Your name's common."

"Sadly, yes, it is," she sighed looking dejected again. "Perhaps I'm just too common."

"Not really," he muttered for if the girl was sitting very relaxed in his presence there was no way she was common or normal. He was an Inu Daiyōkai after all and few were comfortable around him. It also didn't help he didn't like others near him, but she seemed to be an exception.

"You don't talk much but you listen well, I like you." He just about fell out of his chair at the shock of what she had said, but managed to remain impassive to her statement.

"You don't recognize me, do you?" he asked, for if she did she'd know to hate him.

"Should I?" Rin asked.

"Depends," Yes! His mind shouted but he liked that she didn't, if she didn't recognize him then their little game would be just a little game. There would be no leeching or begging from her and he would not be viewed as a bank. He liked that she didn't recognize him. She smile, he smirked internally. This could be the start of some fun distractions.

As it turned out, Rin, was not that boring for a human. She was a graphic artist and writer, always too creative for her own good she said. Her company was not overly bubbly, but when she wasn't sulking she wasn't bad. He found himself enjoying his time listening to her as she describe to him the things she did for a living and how she loved it. Rin was very interesting, but he was careful not to ask about the reason she was dateless. Asking that, as he discovered the first time just about made her cry. Much to his surprise he didn't want her to cry, unless she was crying out his name. Years of celibacy and reawakening desires were creating hell on him as he walked with the human woman. They made it to her cabin before she genuinely shocked him, and thrilled him.

"Want to come in?" she murmured huskily, he looked down at a very vulnerable woman.

"Yes," his lips crashed down on hers' as he guided her into her room, slamming the door shut behind him. Damn him to hell but he'd pay the price for tonight tomorrow. Tonight he had plans to enjoy heaven, her scent was driving him insane.

She'd worry about the consequences of be reckless and impulsive tomorrow. Tonight she wanted to forget everything but Sesshomaru.