What have I done?

It wasn't long ago when I received a letter from Mary, stating that I need to meet her in a once beautiful but now hellish place called Silent Hill. I was obviously confused when I got the letter, seeing that Mary has been, sadly, deceases for some time now. But a surge of hope began to flow through me, seeing that she had to be alive. If now, how could she have written the letter? Of course, it could have been some horrible prank by someone that knew me. But I knew no one who truly hated me so much to give me false hope of my wife walking the Earth again. After lots of thought, I decided to travel to Silent Hill. I remember it being a gorgeous place, where Mary and I never wanted to leave. Of course, I was mistaken.

When I arrived, I was horrified. I looked around, and saw that I was in Hell. There was no mistake of that. There were demons and monsters everywhere. Everywhere I turned, there was death and despair. In Silent Hill, there was no happiness. There was only horror. There were many times that I decided to end my search for Mary. After all, she was dead, for Christ's sake! There was no possible way that she was alive. I went to the funeral myself. I saw her corpse, lifeless in the casket. I remember crying afterwards. I remember thinking of leaving town. I remember contemplating suicide. Without Mary, you see, I had nothing to live for.

But, even with these thoughts, I pressed on. Like I said before, I had nothing to live for. If there was a microscopic chance that Mary really was waiting for me, I had to take it. I didn't care if I died. I just wanted to see my wife again.

I met Maria on my journey through Hell. I did not know what to make of her at first. When I first laid eyes on her, I thought that she was Mary. Sadly, I was mistaken. I didn't hate Maria, you see. She was a pretty nice person. She never wronged me. I just hated the fact that she wasn't the one that I was looking for. Throughout my journey, I ignored her. She eventually got annoyed, and I apologized for my rudeness. Still, after that, nothing was really the same between us. She knew that I wished that she was Mary. Strangely, after Maria seemingly died, I lost it. I can't place my finger on it. Maybe it's because, since I lost Mary, I couldn't stand to lose anyone else. After I realized that Maria lived on, I was overjoyed.

Still, Maria was not Mary. We continued our search for what seemed an eternity. Eventually, I found the hotel that Mary talked about in her letter. After searching the hotel, running into a few…obstacles along the way, I found a TV. The video that played was a chilling one. Because of the video, I realized that I was a monster. There is no other way to describe it. I am no better than the demons that I've encountered on my journey. The thoughts of leaving my town and suicide suddenly made a reappearance in my mind. I couldn't fully process what I just watched. Laura, my "companion", looked at me in horror. I couldn't even meet her eyes. I was so ashamed.

So I decided to leave Silent Hill, which made me realize some important things. Sure, I was a monster. I deserved a fate far worse than Hell for my horrible crime. But I also realized another thing. Hating myself will not bring Mary back. In fact, nothing could bring Mary back. There's nothing that I can do to change that. I just have to learn to forget about everything. I need to visit Mary's grave and tell her how sorry I am. I have to tell her how much I love and miss her.

So, in a way, Silent Hill made me become a better person. The horrors that occurred there will never escape my mind. But after defeating my guilt, I realize that now I am free. Once I make amends with Mary, she too will be free.

Mary, I am coming soon…

Author's Note: Thanks for reading my first Silent Hill 2 one-shot! This is truly an amazing game, so get it if you are looking for a horror game with an outstanding story, but that can also be scary at some points. Of course, when I mentioned James defeating his "guilt", I mean him defeating Pyramid Head. Just in case you didn't know, which I think that everyone got it. I'm probably just overcomplicating things. So yeah…Silent Hill. Great game. Get it. Now. Bye.

Songs:

Run To The Hills – Iron Maiden

All Of My Love – Led Zeppelin

Falling Away From Me – Korn

Cycle Down – Skillet

Forsaken – Skillet

Collide – Skillet

Peace Sells – Megadeth

Song 2 – Blur

Electric Funeral – Black Sabbath

Faries Wear Boots – Black Sabbath

Sweet Leaf – Black Sabbath

Dazed and Confused – Led Zeppelin

Since I've Been Loving You – Led Zeppelin

~Alpha101