Hey guys, sorry for the long wait. I've been in a deep state of depression and anxiety the past few months, and I haven't been able to motivate myself to do anything, but I'm doing better now and will try to get back to writing on a regular schedule, hopefully updating every week to 2 weeks.

Just so you know here are my headcanons for the girls sexual orientation:

Weiss: Lesbian

Blake: Bisexual

Ruby: Pansexual

Ruby POV:

It hurts.

'How could she?'

My lungs are burning as I run, tears streaming down my face.

''Was it all just a lie?'

Why does it hurt so much?

'Did she ever even care about us?'

I can't breath.

'Why?'

I cant breath.

"Why?"

I can't!

Tears blue my vision and I stumble, crashing to the ground.

'Is this what dying feels like?'

"I hate you Blake!" I shake violently, heavy sobs wracking my body. I curl up as small as I can get, trying desperately to disappear. "I hate you! I hate you! I hate you!"

'I wish I could hate her...'

I don't know how long I spend curled up and crying, but by the time I finally look up the sun is on the horizon. I stand up shakily, knowing I have to go back to our room to get dressed for class. I don't want to see her.

I tentatively walk back into our room, the room I share with her and the other woman she claims to love. She's nowhere in sight and I let out a relieved sigh, quickly getting dressed and head to class. I spend the whole day in an anxious, miserable state, avoiding Blake at all costs. I steer clear from her regular hang outs, her classes, even skipping the classes we have together.

I think that I'm in the clear when I see her, talking to Weiss. An uncontrollable wave of rage rushes over me and I storm over to her, pulling Weiss away from Blake.

"Don't talk to her! You have no right to talk to either of us after what you did!" I scream.

"Ruby please let me explain, I was just telling Weiss what happened, what really happened." She tries to explain but I don't want to hear it, I don't want to hear lies, I just want to scream, want to yell, want to be angry!

"I don't want to hear it!" I scream. "You kissed another man! You betrayed us! Why should we trust you, why should we believe anything you say!?"

"I didn't kiss him he kissed me!" Blake hisses in irritation and another wave of anger hits. She's irritate with me!?

"Oh and that's such a big difference!?" My eyes widen as I get close to her face. A crowd has gathered and is watching our exchange. "I don't know why I trusted you! You're always keeping secrets, always lying to us! Do you even care about us at all!?"

"Of course I do!" Blake glares. "I love you and Weiss, I've been fighting do that we can be together! And then some guy, who I don't even care about kisses me, even though I don't want him to, and suddenly I'm a liar and a bad person!?"

"Shut up!" I shout. "You don't get to act innocent! You shouldn't have been meeting with him, you shouldn't have been talking to him! You-You-"

The first hit of sobs is hard and painful as Weiss wraps her arms around my shoulder and I lean into her. Blake moves to comfort me but I push her away.

"Don't touch me!" I scream.

"Ruby... Please..." Blake looks at me with pain in her eyes and for a second my anger wavers. Then I scowl at her.

"Stay away from me! I can't look at you without seeing you kiss him!"

"I didn't kiss him, he kissed me!" Blake growls. "Why can't you just believe me, why can't you just trust me!? After all we've been through, you're acting like a child!"

I feel the hot tears running down my cheeks and I look away. "I just can't stand to be around you... I need some time alone..."

I move away from Weiss and Blake.

"Let me talk to her..." I hear Weiss mumble to Blake, but I can hear the pain in her voice. This has upset her too.

"Ruby it was just a mistake, he doesn't mean anything to her." Weiss whispers to me as I nuzzle against her, tears still flowing heavily.

"Don't defend her... Not now..." I mumble.

"Ruby..."

"No!" I bark out, voice rough and hoarse. "I don't care about excuses or what she has to say! She kissed someone else, she keeps secrets from us, I just want to be angry!"

"You're being angry for no reason." Weiss tries to reason and I glare. "Ruby listen to me, I'm hurt to, but she explained what happened to me. She's done nothing wrong. Please, please, you should forgive her, she's done nothing wrong."

"..." I'm quiet and look down at the floor. "Maybe your right... But I just can't forgive her, not right now."

Weiss sighs softly and I look up to see the disappointment and sadness in her eyes. "I understand..."

"I just need more time." I mutter.

"That's okay... I think I do to..." Weiss nodded softly. "... I still love her though, I could never stop."

"... Me too." I nod and sigh softly. "As much as I wish I could hate her right now I can't... She means to much to me..."

Weiss chuckled softly and kisses my head softly. My tears have dried and I smile softly.

"I'm tired..." I mumble.

"Rest, you'll feel better when you wake up." Weiss smiled.

I nod and lay down in bed, easily falling asleep. Maybe things will be okay.