Rain pelts against my body with harsh rhythm, keeping time with the beat of my heart. The icy water streams down my face and blurs with my already limited sight. My tears team up with darkness to shroud my vision, I can only see a couple feet in front of me. The droplets smack into the ground with heavy pattering, forming rivers in the street. I keep moving, running through the puddles.

Where are my brothers?

A rough cry rips from my throat and I can definitely feel the tears now. They are hot against my freezing skin. My legs are numb but I continue to race forward into the glittering shadows. I have to keep going, I have to find them. My breath hitches and I am on the verge of a panic attack. I stop to slow my breathing and put my hands over my head. I can't panic; I need to keep a cool head. That's what Leo would do.

Leo. I need to find him.

Shaking off my anxiety, I step forward to take off into another run until my eye catches a glint of orange fabric on the pavement. I bend over to get a better look. My stomach plummets and turns over as my body feels the injection of fear. The piece of cloth is soaked, not just with rain, but with blood. I reach out to pick it up when I see dark red cover my own fingers. I look at both my hands and the crimson gleams against the dark. I don't remember being injured, yet my body is so frozen and numb so it doesn't surprise me that I can't feel it.

Shaking off my own personal health, I snatch the orange mask off the ground. I stare as it rests defeated in the palm of my hand.

Mikey.

The panic I tried so hard to fight down explodes through me again. What does this mean? Where is he? Why? Why is this happening? Anger courses my veins but I have no way to release it. I need to calm down, I need to hold it together...I need to find him. I have to protect my baby brother.

I wrap the mask around my wrist, the bloody orange glows through the rain. My gut has a sudden sunken feeling and a harsh truth pounds in my heart.

I know I will never see my littlest brother again.

I use the fire in me to increase my adrenaline. I grip both of my Sai firmly to bring me some type of comfort. The prongs stick through the cracks of my fingers as my breathing begins to pick up speed from the bitter emotions. I am soon at full sprint, rain hitting my face like sharp stinging bullets. The irate frustration flows through me and I use it to propel my feet forward.

Where are they!?

They can't be gone. They can't be.

My legs protest with exhaustion, I must have been running for hours but I have to keep going. I need to find them! Still, I come to a stop to reorient myself. I put my Sai back in my belt as I reach out to my side. My palm flattens against a sturdy brick wall of a building and I rest against it to cool my fear and my aching body. I need to stay calm. I freeze when I notice a color dancing under a pouncing puddle. I reach down slowly, my hand shaking from both the cold rain and my harsh emotion. I curl my fingers around the mask and gradually bring it up to my face. I open my hand hesitantly and the cloth glaring at me is a blinding purple.

Donnie.

No. I need to find him. Please don't mean what I think it means. I shakily wrap Donnie's mask around the wrist opposite of the orange and look at the two colors. My little brothers…I have failed them.

A mixture of a shout and sob release from me as I slam my fist against the wall. No! My wrist vibrate with instant throbbing but I ignore it. It doesn't matter. What matters right now are my brothers. Where are they?

I hear a soft voice crack through the thundering of raindrops and my head snaps up towards it.

"R-Raph?"

Leo! I move towards the direction of the voice, searching the darkened ground for his body. The blue strip around his head gives him away and I kneel down, relief spreads throughout my mind. I carefully lift his head and lay it in my lap, holding his face close to mine. My eyes widen as I examine him and the relief I felt is gone almost as quickly as it came. One of Leo's eyes is gruesomely cut and bleeding profusely. It is shut closed while the other deep blue eye is staring at me half delirious. Bruises scatter all over, making him black and purple. The back of his head is pooling with dark red blood that mixes with the puddles. Even the small little cuts make me cringe.

If this is just his face, I am glad I can't see the rest of him.

"Leo, I'm here! It's okay, you'll be okay." I say to him but I don't believe that, he is losing too much blood. He is dying and I know it. Leo tries to give me a sad smile because he knows it too. My mind is racing, what do I do? I need help. Leo what do I do?

"What happened? Where is Donnie and Mikey?" I ask quickly trying to get Leo to talk to me.

"G-Go-ne." Leo's voice is a whisper and it seems painful for him to try to speak.

My heart sinks into my stomach and I am frozen in place. My memories slam into my brain with sudden force and I see a smiling Mikey, always around to cheer me up even in my darkest moods. He brought me so much joy, so much love. The little things he did just to show affection, even when I didn't want it. I can't believe that he is gone. I will never see those mischievous blue eyes work with that innocent face. Never hear the joyous laughter and witty comments igniting the lair with happiness. He made something good out of the bad. He showed me the light when I thought there was none.I often treated him wrongly, but he loved me anyways. And no matter how much he got on my nerves, I loved him back. And in one tiny second, all of him is gone

Then Donnie flashes before my eyes, always so smart and calm. If he were here instead he'd know what to do, but he's not. He is gone. I will never again be able to rush into the lab at two in the morning for a late night talk. He was always there for us when we needed to vent to someone, not like I really did, I just sat in the room with him but it still felt nice. I will never again get to work on my motorcycle with him, sharing the love of the engine purring. I will never again hear his constant nagging whenever I got hurt just because he was worried. I will never again have the chance to smile and roll my eyes as he went off on tangents about things I could barely begin to understand. He has saved my life so many times and in so many ways; but I am the one who was too late to save his. He needed me but I wasn't there for him. I am a failure.

I failed them both.

"What? No…that can't be! They have to be alive! They have to!" My voice is shaky and tears start to fall, but I know they are dead. I can feel it in my heart. My brothers are gone.

"Leo what happened?" A new fierce fury screams out from my soul, "Who did this. I swear whoever did this is going to pay."

Leo's one good eye is gleaming and glazing. I know what is happening.

No. Not you too. Not all of you. I can't live without my brothers. I need them. I need you! Please don't die on me. I can't lose you!

"Leo! Stay with me! Come on bro, I can't do this without ya. I can't live on without ya." Tears are staining my face and they drip on Leo.

"Leo please! Who else is going to nag me all the time huh? Who else is going to push me to be a better ninja? A better brother?" I whisper.

"Who else is going to love me?" My voice cracks from trying to hold in my cries.

Leo opened his mouth to speak, obviously taking an amount of effort to even attempt it. His voice is broken and small,

"No pain."

"Wh-What?"

"It d-does…doesn't hurt." Leo's lips form into a mournful smile. I don't even know how to respond, I don't want this to be real. He seems to be at peace and it kills me. He is going to die. His life is draining out of his eyes and he is at peace with it. How could he? How could he be at peace knowing his two brothers are already dead? How could he be at peace when he is leaving one behind?

Leo how could you?

"Leo please, don't die. Don't leave me."

My eyes never leave his in fear that if I look away for just a second, he will be gone. I feel his body shift slightly and he winces in pain, but something is slowly moving. I realize his arm is reaching towards his face. I sit in shock and watch as he pulls on the back of his head. The blue mask comes loose and falls away.

No! Don't do this!

I can't take the sight of my beaten brother anymore and close my eyes, it pushes the tears down my face. I feel a hand brush my skin and I look at Leo who is still smiling at me, tears in his own eye shine but they refuse to fall. I grab his hand and close it tightly in my own.

"B-Be strong…little brother." He whispers with his last pained breath.

His body sags against mine and his good eye glazes over completely, staring up into the dark rainy sky. The tear that refused to fall is finally rolling down his lifeless cheek. His fingers unclench and I feel something soft brush against my hand. I grab onto it and squeeze it shut. I stare into that blue, empty eye, too shocked to move.

All the life is gone. All who he was, all who he was going to be; the leader, the laughter, the love, all of it is gone. He was Fearless, even in death. He is my leader, my friend, sometimes even my enemy, but he is most importantly my brother.

No, he was my brother.

I finally pry my fist open. His blue, blood beaten mask is bunched up in my hand, shimmering against the rain. My heart breaks completely.

Gone. All of them are gone.

I feel harsh pain rip down my body and I scream out, the sound rings through the downpour. I am sobbing uncontrollably now as I hug my brother securely in my arms and wail out my anger, my frustration, my hurt, and my sorrow. But no matter how hard I howl or lament, I can't get rid of the fear.

Gone. I am alone now. My brothers are gone, it's just me.

Just me.

What is a life without my brothers? Who am I without my brothers? It hurts. It hurts like nothing has ever hurt before. It feels as if someone has taken half of my soul and crushed it between their long lean fingers. Who I am is because of my brothers, how do I go on without that? How do I go on without them?

I feel everything now; every drop of rain that smacks against my skin, the soreness in my feet and legs, the freezing cold of the icy air, the anger vibrating through my bones, the fear and grief splitting my mind, and my heart tearing to pieces.

I wrap Leo's mask around my arm with the others and look at all my brothers, each color representing them.

Blue the Leader, Purple the Genius, and Orange the Heart.

It becomes unbearable. I get up and let Leo's body fall to the ground, splashing in the puddle. I have to get out of here. This can't be real. It can't be happening. I stumble and stagger through the storm as burning tears stream out of me. I see a lamp light and run towards it, teetering as I move.

My legs finally refuse to work anymore and I fall to my knees. I angrily grab both my Sai and hold them out from my body. Rage begins to pour through me, whoever did this will pay. Whoever did this will suffer. I let out a violent roar and look up at the sky, rain drums on my face.

My screams run out of air but my rage increases.

"Who did this" I whisper.

Hard truth slaps my brain and knocks me out of breath. I fall backwards as the knowledge slams me backwards without mercy. A loud ringing explodes in my ears as the darkness around me fills with a harsh voice.

YOU DID THIS.

What?

YOU DID THIS.

No I didn't…I couldn't have. I-I love my brothers. I would never hurt them…I couldn't have.

YOU KILLED THEM.

NO! I-I…

Then I remembered the blood on my hands.

My hands!

I look down at my bleeding arms, then I trace along my entire body. I am thoroughly covered in blood, how did I not notice before? I hastily check my body but I can't find any injuries. I look around my arms, legs, and chest, but nothing. I am fine. A dreaded truth ices over my soul. I freeze and gawk at all the dark red that soaks my body and glares through the stormy night. The stabbing knowledge pierces my heart.

This blood is not mine.

This blood is my brothers, I did this.

I killed them.

I think I just broke myself! what did I just do? OMG I am crying! OKay so I know that was emotional and suddenly sprung on you, BUT THERE IS MORE TO THE STORY. NOTHING IS OVER, It has only begun c: Don't worry, it's not what you think...but still heart wrenching right? Every time I edited I cried.

AGAIN NOT OVER YET

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