Sooooo I realised a little late that my filler chapter has kinda fucked the show chronology and I spent a lot of time figuring out how to fix it to kick the story straight again. My bad but lesson learned. So here we are back to the episodes again. We may dither off into other fillers later on, who knows. Also guys i've been wondering whether to cut this story off at the christmas ep like the show did or to just carry on all the way through. What'd you think? Dont wory, im gonna carry on into season 2&3 but yeah. You wannit in one big story or multiple ones? Somebody lemme know cos god knows I can't decide Dx
The music choice for today is Another Case by Uh Huh Her. And in response to all you reviewers demanding to know why I haven't had more reviews, I don't know! I'm just as clueless as you! :P Enjoy guys! Also I didnt edit!
"I wasnt lying when I said it was complicated.."
Her eyes watched me carefully, soft blue fixed permanently on me. I swallowed nervous. She was watching me so intensely. I felt if i lied she'd know. Like she'd see the crack it'd make inside me. And then she'd see everything else too. And that fucking scared me. She fucking scared me.
I wasnt so sure what this feeling taking me over was. It was too foreign to me. I wanted to tell her everything. Every little secret i knew. Clean and dirty. I'd never wanted that with anyone before.
I shifted on the spot with nerves and gave her a shy smile,
"I dont know all the rules" I told her honestly.
Pipers eyes looked down and I shivered when they studied me all over. She looked like she really enjoyed what she saw. I really really hoped she did. Because I couldn't handle not seeing her again if she was here to tell me goodbye.
She glanced up again and my heart drummed a war rhythm in my chest waiting for her to speak.
"Thats the problem, isn't it" she said slowly looking back at me, "Rules aren't any fun"
The music from the bar filled the silence that followed. I felt this magnetic pull again, pushing me towards her. I wanted to kiss her so fucking bad. I wanted to taste everything she had to give. Again. I wanted it all from her. Right now.
The rest room door opened on my step forward and I caught it in my hand with an impatient look for the girl that saw my expression and quickly inched her way out and around piper. I shut the door and leant back against the wall. I matched her eyes again and waited for her to say something.
Piper stood quiet a second before she took a step closer. My skin tingled with her eyes rolling over me. It felt like electric when she looked at me like that.
"Listen, I don't want to stand in the way of true love. I mean if that is your future wife out there then by all means, tell me to back off"
I wanted to laugh, picturing Sylvie as a wife was a gut busting joke. Piper waited for me to speak and when I didn't she carried on,
"But you pursued me. And I liked it. I- I've never felt.."
I slowly smiled at her, hoping she'd tell me she felt the same as me. Because this connection, this.. this fucking insane hot addictive chemistry I felt around her, it couldn't be one sided. It just couldn't.
Piper hesitated a second,
"You know, I've never thought of myself as a very sexual person but…Ever since.."
She trailed off, maybe she was shy talking about the other night. I waited again for her to speak, giving her the floor because I wasn't so sure what to say if she couldn't. I didn't trust myself not to beg her to stay.
She was quiet. Just silently watching me back while she tried to decide what to say. I worried what she would say. And what she wouldn't. My heart kept drumming inside my chest, anticipating the rejection, hoping for the acceptance, begging for a chance despite officially not being allowed one. I was both dizzied and intoxicated with the confusion of her. How did she make my whole world tip like this?
Piper looked down at my lips and my breath caught a second later when she leaned in. I trembled a little when she didn't kiss me but instead whispered in my ear
"I want to taste what you taste like" she husked deeply.
I closed my eyes and felt myself shudder under the weight of her whisper. It echoed in my head and I had to force myself to remember to breathe.
Jesus, what was she doing to me?!
She moved back again, eyes set solely on me. She waited for a response but there was only one reasonable one I could give.
I raised my hand to her neck and gave her a look to warn what i was doing. Leaning in I realised she didn't need it. She wanted this almost as much as I did.
I aimed for a gentle kiss. One that said I wanted everything she did. But the second pipers lips touched mine i couldn't help but lose my self control. She tasted perfect. All sweet and soft with a hint of salt and lime cased over the top. She'd been drinking margaritas again. I was smiling a little at the thought of her needing a little Dutch courage to come after me. I felt her breath catch as I licked it off.
My hand drifted down when she pushed herself into me. All secrecy for her actions thrown aside. It was totally obvious what we both wanted. But we couldn't want it here in the open where Sylvie could walk in again. But I'll be fucked if I had to wait for another chance to have piper again. I needed this. Now. Right now. And I could feel in the heavy handedness of her kiss that she did too.
Her lips pressed demanding on mine as my hand slipped down her side and reached for the door to the rest room beside us. It wasn't a classy move but my patience was too spread thin by her teasing tongue to care much about it.
I moved back as I opened the door and i grabbed her hand to lead her into the room. She grinned and let me pull her in. She brushed herself past me with a giggle and walked backwards to stand by the sink. I almost forgot to shut the door when she beckoned me over with that sexy smirk. Piper hooked her finger at me and I swore to myself as I turned back for the door to slam it shut.
The lock snapped shut and seconds later her lips were crashing back into mine again. My back slammed into the door with a dull thud and I managed a tiny groan before i pulled her tight against me.
"I want to taste you, Alex" she rushed pulling my shirt up and pressing her hand down my stomach. She looked down as she tugged my belt loose, looking up only to smirk at me as she knelt, "All of you. Right. Now"
"Fuck" I mumbled tipping my head back. She sounded so fucking hot right now. And her fucking eyes were trapping me in. I could feel it. And in that moment I knew I didn't want to be trapped by anybody else.
My eyes closed and I settled on listening to my heart beating crazy while she teasedi her mouth across my hip. Her teeth ground against it the same time she undid my zipper and I shook with a sharp breath feeling her mouth move down.
Her kisses peppered down my thigh as she slid my jeans down and I felt the warm blow of her breath on my skin before those damn lips stole my mind complet-
My sweet dreams cut off suddenly when something hard hit me in the stomach. I jerked under my blanket with a hard cough when it winded me.
"Yoo-hoo! Time to wake up, sleeping beauty!" a loud voice called harshly in my ear.
I opened my eyes and blinked around at the women stood over me. Their blurry faces were glaring me down unamused. The dorm was still dark so it confused me why I was being forced awake.
"Morning, beautiful"
I looked up when the voice spoke again and I groaned at Boo. She smiled sweetly and took a step forward crossing her arms threateningly.
My eyes glanced beside her at Gina and Norma and then back at that Andrews girl keeping watch by the edge of the cube. Leanne was up too sat watching everybody with tired curious eyes. When she looked at me her expression twisted annoyed. She was pissed she got woken up too. And her eyes meeting mine said I was going to pay for it.
I sat up and rubbed my eyes tiredly. I wasnt sure what time it was but obviously it was early. Nobody else was awake save the few women grumbling at boo to shut the hell up already.
I sighed to myself and stretched. I paused and jumped mid yawn when something wet touched my elbow. Little Boo panted back at me happily touching her nose to my arm again before she stretched out over my legs. I looked down at her unimpressed. That explained what had winded me.
Big Boo looked pretty pissed when I glanced back at her to demand she get her mutt off me. Guess she'd been expecting her dog to go into killer mode. Instead it was a pathetic puppy. I stroked its head. Anything that fucked Boo off was alright by me.
"Whats this about?" I sighed, twisting out from under the dog and off the bed unwillingly when Boo stepped forward again.
She grinned at me and moved forward to hook her arm around my neck. I wasn't stupid enough to pull her off me. I knew she could probably snap my neck like a twig if she wanted. Boo seemed happy with my compliance and began walking out of my cube, marching me with her. The other three women and the dog followed behind.
"We seem to have a problem we think you can help with" she told me cryptically.
I frowned at her and let my eyes drift into Nicky's bunk as we walked passed it. I was hoping she'd have woken up in the commotion and jump in to help me out. But she wasnt in her bed. In fact her cube was completely empty. And that worried me. I glanced down at Boo,
"What sort of problem?" I asked worrying what that edgy look she gave me was about.
She didn't answer, just frogmarched me through the prison to the cafeteria. I realised I should have seen it coming as we walked around the empty benches to the kitchens. This entire kidnapping had Red written all over it. And sure enough the Russian was leant against the freezers when we walked in. She stared sternly at me and nodded at the others.
Boo's arm tightened on me suddenly while Norma moved to a counter to grab something.
"Hey get off!" I growled trying to push Boo away.
She ignored my flailing about and pushed me down. I landed on a chair with a huff and quickly tried to get up again. Boo let out a sigh and grabbed me by the back of my shirt to haul me back. Gina and Andrews grabbed my arms and held them behind my back.
"Is all that really necessary?" Nicky was muttering watching me worried by the fridge, "You're all treating this like the fucking Godfather"
I looked up saw and Red ignore Nicky and walk forward. She flung something over to Boo. A couple seconds later my hands were tied.
I stopped struggling to get free and resigned myself to it. I wouldn't be getting anywhere before they talked. The dog walked round me and flopped down by my feet with a bored huff. I knew how she felt.
My eyes moved up and met Red's again.
"What's this about?" I demanded looking around at the women stood circling the chair.
They all had their arms folded. They all stared down at me silently. Red was directly in front of me. She looked disappointed and furious. It scared me shitless.
"Nobody gonna talk?" I asked sitting back in the chair bored. Five pairs of eyes flickered back to Red before Gina stepped forward with that serious mouse frown of hers.
"We know" she said sternly. I blinked at her. Was I supposed to know what the fuck she meant?
"You know... You know what? That today is Friday? That the jets are going to win the Super Bowl? Or maybe-"
"Vause" I shut up under Red's glare, "We know about the drugs"
My eyes met Nicky's guilty ones before I laughed despite myself, "What drugs?"
"There are girls walking about high as shit out there. Trish is down the hill. And-"
Boo cut over Gina, "And somebody's been supplying them. So Ms big shot importer..." Boo leant down and smiled sweetly at me, "Care to explain yourself? Or am I gonna have to break that pretty face first?"
The dog growled suddenly and everybody looked back at it raising itself to stand between me and Boo. She told the bitch to sit down but it ignored her completely to sit beside me. It licked my hand and I bit the urge to laugh at Boo's loss of backup.
"Well?" She growled at me, shunting the dog aside, "Gonna spill your shit?"
I scoffed at her. I wasn't scared off her at all, "I haven't been dealing" Boo looked at me disbelieving and I glared at her before I looked back at Red, "Do you honestly think I'd risk any freedom I could have left over getting a few girls fixed up? And for what? A candy bar from commissary?"
They all looked back at Red. The Russian may have been swayed by my response but nothing in her expression said so. She was studying me in silence. It made me nervous. If she didn't believe me I was probably about to die. Her old eyes stared at me unblinkingly. I looked away when she refused to.
Boo was frowning, "She kinda has a point" she told them. I rolled my eyes.
"Of course I do!" I snapped irritable. I was annoyed they'd interrupted my sleep for this. Especially when it was obvious it wasn't me doing it. Red studied me some more a moment.
"If it isn't Vause, who is it'?" Gina voiced looking suspiciously around at the others.
I rolled my eyes at their cluelessness. Why were they so fucking stupid? It didn't take a genius to know it was Pornstache!
"Can I just speak from experience here?" I asked shifting in my seat a little.
Boo snorted loudly, "This should be interesting"
"No offence, stretch, but we don't need your help" Gina growled turning her back on me to talk in private with the others. I just looked back at red. I didn't need their permission. I needed hers. She nodded at me.
"Let her speak" she husked.
Nicky was strongly shaking her head at me behind Red, her hazel eyes cutting into mine strongly like she knew what I was going to tell them. I took the hint and coughed before I sat up straighter and launched into it.
"These drugs, I'm assuming it's heroin and minor class pills?" None of them said anything so I guessed I was right, "Based on the look of most of the junkies in here I'll go ahead and also assume they're not loaded enough for the authentic shit. So you're looking for someone whose smart enough to resource the black market gear"
"Wow! Thank you for that really insightful lesson. We really wouldn't have known that. Red, just-" Red silenced Boo and waved me on. She looked fairly interested in what I had to say.
I paused a moment deciding how to play this. If I outed Pornstache they'd kill me for not telling them straight away. Nicky's eyes staring at me said that much. But if I didn't they'd kill me when they did find out I knew. It'd only take one chat with trish to know I knew everything already. So either way I was going to get hit with Red's fury.
"The girls in here, they don't want to get high. Most of them want to get home. Most of them are clean"
"State the obvious" Boo muttered. I rolled my eyes at her. In the corner Norma was tapping on a clipboard for attention.
"What is it Norma?" Red asked squinting at the handwriting.
"Says 'Nicky'" Gina read slowly and everybody looked back at her. I nodded, glad somebody was finally on my wave length. I turned back to Red.
"Think anybody's gonna deal when you've helped them out?"
Nicky stepped forward, "See ma, what'd I tell you"
Red let out a long breath and turned back to Boo, "Let her go. She didn't do it"
I filled with relief. Thank fucking Christ!
"But Red-" Boo stuttered to a silence when the Russian glanced back at her
"One more word Boo and I swear.." She gave the woman a long look of contempt and nodded at me impatiently. Boo was muttering under her breath as she bent to untie me.
"Looks like you got lucky, big shot" Boo breathed down my neck as she untied my hands.
I leant away from her and quickly stood up when I felt her fingers trace back up my wrist.
"A guard is behind it" I shared shaking Boo's breath off my hand. Nicky looked ready thump me one.
"Like a guard would do that" she laughed eyes set nervously on Red.
Red stared off at the walls in thought a second before she swore in Russian. The others fixed their attention on her straight away.
"Fucking asshole!" She snarled viscously. She waved Gina over to her.
The small woman bustled past me and over to reds side, Norma moved to join them too. They started whispering between themselves and I looked awkwardly back at Boo and Andrews.
"You can go now" Gina shooed us out of the dark kitchen before she turned her back on us.
I just scoffed and turned away shaking my head.
"Yeah, you're welcome" I husked at them.
Boo shrugged at me when the trio remained whispering. I just shook my head and started to leave. Nicky practically ran past me in a bid to get outta there. I tried calling out to her to ask what the fuck she was playing at and why I was getting dragged into her shit. But she was already out the gate before I could. I didn't get what her problem was. Why was I getting blamed for the drugs? Did she set me up? Would I have to worry about getting another wake up call from boo and her thugs?
I sighed with my shitty luck and decided to worry about it later. For now I was too tired to care too much.
"Hey, uh, Vause. Um.. I-" I looked beside me at Andrews stuttering and gave her a deep hateful look. She paled a little and mumbled an apology as she brushed past me. I didn't know what she expected from me. I was not gonna be her friend after this shit. No fucking way.
I followed her out and got as far as the front counters when somebody called out my name.
"Hold up!" Gina called me back.
I took a deep breath to calm myself and looked over my shoulder at her. She cautiously approached me knowing I was mad.
"What now?" I snapped moodily, "Wanna blame me for something else?"
She ignored me, "Red wants you to talk to the girls"
I crossed my arms, "No"
"You were a dealer"
"No" I repeated blandly
"You know how to get information"
I felt the anger boil up again, "Importer" I said slowly so she'd get it, "I was an importer"
Gina watched me blankly, "What's the difference?" She frowned and I rolled my eyes. Oh to be somewhere not surrounded by stupid bitches, "Look, Red said she'd stop starving you if you help.." she let me think about it a second, "I'll write you a list of junkies you can talk to" she told me walking back to red.
I laughed after her. Didn't she hear me?
"I already said no!"
"Whoa baby, no need to shout" I glared at Boo and she smiled, "One thing you gotta understand living here, Red gets what Red wants. So if Red wants you to talk to some girls that's what you do. You've seen what it's like when you don't what she says. And really she's doing you a favour here. You want to eat, she wants them to talk. So just shut up and get on with it. After all, it's just talking. Shit could be worse"
She left with that and Little Boo sniffed my hand before she followed. I hated to admit it but Boo did have a point. Of all the things Red could have done to me making me talk to some ex addicts would be a walk in the park. And if it stopped her starving me out all the time maybe it was worth the pain of talking to some stubborn women.
I clocked the time as I walked around the fencing to the cafeteria, and I swore to myself when I realised the morning alarm was about to go off. Everybody would be getting up for the showers. Which meant long fucking lines. I'd already lost my good sleep I didn't want to miss being able to wash Boo off my skin too. Besides I couldn't afford to be waiting around all morning. I had a meeting with Piper.
I ran out into the hall, slowing myself reluctantly when a guard saw me and barked at me to walk. I got a corridor away from my dorm when the alarm went and women started piling into the hall. I sighed. There went my shower slot.
I was thinking about maybe sneaking into one of the other bathrooms when a hand suddenly snagged mine and pulled me into the supply closet I'd stopped beside. I swung around immediately when the door shut behind us. I was expecting Boo or somebody to be stood there with a new threat from Red. So I pretty much leapt out of my skin when they kissed me.
Hands pressed into my front and slipped up to sweep my hair back away from my face. Lips pushed over mine, filling me with a sweet taste I knew only one person in the entire world owned.
"You are crazy!" I moaned slipping my hands up her back and pulling her closer.
Piper laughed sweetly back at me and nodded. She brushed her fingers along my cheek and smiled at me all innocent when she moved away
"I couldn't sleep much. I was sitting in bed thinking about Thanksgiving and everything and.." she looked up at me and bit her smile, "It made me miss you"
I smirked a little, "Sex dreams kept you up, right?"
She chuckled and brushed her mouth against mine. Her eyes fixed on me before she hushed a sexy little "maybe" my way. I just grinned back at her. I loved knowing I was on her mind.
"D'you wanna get breakfast together?" She asked raising my hand to her mouth. I watched her lips move over my fingertips and I took it back to yank her into me
"Breakfast sounds good" I muttered bending down to kiss her neck feverishly, "I wanna eat out today"
Pipers body rolled up against me and I just about caught her high pitched moan before we were stumbling backwards into an old desk. I pushed her into sitting of the edge of it and kissed her deeply as my fingers pinched the top of her pants. Her tongue was licking my lips trying to push past them into my mouth but I tipped my head away instead and licked my way down her neck, one hand pushing her pants down while the other snuck up her shirt. Piper arched up under my palm rolling up her front and I groaned at the warm feel of her rubbing me good.
My patience for her slipped inside the feel of her warm and ready beneath me. I didn't want to mess about with games anymore. I just wanted to taste her. I gently pushed her back away from me and pulled her pants down. I bent into her and kissed her lips briefly before I rolled my mouth down her neck and shirt.
I crouched in front of her.
And bent my head.
And parted my lips.
And kissed hers.
"Shhhhhit!" She gasp and moaned beneath my eager tongue, begging me for more. And I smirked as I gave it to her.
I looked back over at the girls while my tray was getting filled. They looked immersed in conversation. And from the way Nicky and morello were smirking at a smiling piper I could guess who they were talking about. I watched the redhead. At the secret worry in her tired eyes. What was going on with her? What had she done and then blamed on me to get Red to threaten me the way she did?
I turned when Nicky started a handsy demonstration and I choked a little on my laughter at Piper's reaction to it. We'd known she wouldn't drop it with her questions. Who would? It was totally obvious we were fucking. I was barely trying to keep it a secret.
"Somebody looks happy today" I looked up and caught Red watching me curiously, "Sweet dreams?" She added smirking slyly. I just shrugged at her. I was still pissed at her but I wasn't letting anything get me down today.
"Maybe I'm looking forward to your pancakes red" I told her smiling when her mouth twitched. It wasn't much but I'm pretty sure red was smiling at me. In her own way.
I took my tray off Norma and thanked them before turning back to the tables. Behind me I heard Gina wonder aloud who I'd fucked to get me this happy. I smirked to myself and walked over to the table where the girls were still grilling Piper for information on us. I rolled my eyes at them.
"Hey Morello," Nicky was saying looking across the table smirking, "You remember when we used to comfort each other?"
The Italian nodded, "Oh sure, you was very comforting"
Piper looked between them and told them again that nothing was going on. I kept my eyes on her back while she spoke. I wasn't really listening to what she said. Didn't need to. Nicky's expression cried bullshit. I decided to sit down when she looked ready to rip into Piper again.
"Hey, guys" I said sitting myself down next to Nicky, "Just barely made breakfast"
"Long shower line?" Nicky asked me in the voice that said she'd known that excuse would be coming. I looked up at her and then away with a pretend frown.
"Yeah, it was really awful today"
Nicky scoffed and stood up, "Your hair's dry" she told me walking off with her tray.
Morello gave us a smirk too before she followed after Nicky. I watched them go before returning my eyes to a smiling Piper. We both laughed at how lame we were with this
"I guess keeping it secret from the prison player wasn't the best idea" I said chuckling down at my tray. Piper sighed.
"I, uh.. I guess not. Although.." I glanced up at her and caught her grinning at me, eyes sparkling. I started smiling back with my heart bouncing
"Yeah?"
"You could have come up with a better excuse for being late. The shower line is such an old cop out"
"And you could come up with a better one?" I teased nudging her with my knee under the table. Her smile widened some more and she sat up a little to tell me. I bent my head forward to listen but she didn't get a chance to speak.
"Yo stretch, I need a word later" I kept my eyes on piper and nodded at Nicky. I felt her breath hit my neck when she leant down to whisper in my ear, "Seriously Vause, it's pretty important. Its about that lame excuse of a kidnap earlier and-"
"I got it" I told her waving her away. I didn't want to think about her shitty problems. Right now I wanted to focus entirely on those blue eyes watching mine.
Nicky mumbled something to herself about lesbians and disappeared again. Piper's eyes followed her out before they returned to me all warm and inviting.
"You were saying" I said taking a sip of my water. Piper blinked at me with a little jump like she'd been caught in a thought. I smiled at her some more.
"What?" she asked genuinely confused. I chuckled at her. She was too fucking cute.
I shook my head at her and tucked into my breakfast instead. Piper watched me all intently before she asked what I'd been doing earlier before her little sex jump. I glanced up at her and swallowed my food. If I told her about the red thing she'd try out her little wac routine, or worse get herself in trouble.
"Nothing, just trying to catch the showers"
Piper bought it and gave me a cute look again, "You wanna catch one after breakfast?" she grinned. My skin tingled at the very thought but I shook my head at her.
"Cant have you going Psycho on me, right?" I teased.
"Well I didn't catch you complaining last time" she threw back with a smug grin. I nodded at her.
"No, you're right. I wasn't complaining. Why was that again?" I looked around thoughtful before I clicked my fingers in elation, "Thats right. You probably didn't hear me complain because it was pretty hard talking with my mouth on your-"
"Anyway!" she rushed looking around to make sure nobody had heard me. I just smirked into my water with a mental high five for myself when she started blushing. I smiled admiringly at her. Fuck I loved it when she blushed like that.
"Hey I was wondering if you wanted to go to the rec room later after breakfast? We can play some games or something"
"You wanna play games with me?" I repeated looking at her all suspiciously. Piper nodded, "Kinda games?" I asked leaning closer in mock intrigue, eyes catching hers as I smiled suggestively. Piper smacked my hand
"Not those types of games" she warned smiling despite herself. I leant back with a laugh and nodded at her.
"Sure. I'm not working today so I'm ready when you are"
Piper beamed at me and tapped my tray, "Brilliant. You finished?"
I looked down at my barely touched food and then read the excitement in her eyes. I guess being hungry could wait.
"Hmm-mm" I said standing up.
We grabbed our trays and dumped them together before walking out of the cafeteria. Piper lead the way into the rec room which was surprisingly empty for once. We looked around and exchanged a nervous look, worrying we werent allowed in here.
"What do you think?" she whispered looking down the hall. I bent down to her ear and kissed it
"I think you're incredibly hot today" I whispered back. She couldn't help but smile.
Piper looked around again before taking my hand and pulling me into the room. I watched her kick the door shut and I grinned when she pulled on my hand. I moved into her and happily kissed her.
"Mm.. how do you taste this great all the time?" she wondered licking at my lips. I laughed and kissed her again, feeling a surge of tingles rinse through me when she pulled me into pushing her against the door.
"It must be this new diet I'm on" i told her kissing her cheek and neck feverishly.
Some inmates outside shouted to each other and Piper pushed on my shoulders to get me to stop. I groaned before I unwillingly took a step back. She readjusted her shirt with a small sorry smile for me. I nodded. I got it.
I moved over to the front table for the games box. It was a pitiful mouldy looking thing. A metaphor for fun in prison. I turned it upside down and checked out our options. Piper walked up behind me, hand moving across my back as she moved to stand beside me.
"Well, we have the fun option of cards or cludo"
Piper weighed out the options with a distasteful frown. I smiled at her thinking and watched her pick the cards up. I grinned but she shook her hand at me.
"No strip games and no black jack. I learnt your tricks in Vegas"
I laughed with the memory of it and I nodded. That was fair enough.
We sat down at a table and she got the deck out and started shuffling them. I watched her hands flick cards at me across the table and I couldn't help but smile at her the entire time. This felt crazy. Like we were together almost. How insane was that?
I raised my card to assess. Secretly I was hoping she'd bail out on her ban onstripping games. I'd just love to win a game of cards and get her naked in front of me at the same time. All in a mornings work.
I watched Piper still shuffling her cards and decided to play a little. I raised the cards to my nose and sniffed them.
"Oh, gosh!" I threw my arm back and looked at her in shock, "Am I crazy or do these cards smell faintly like urine? Smell that"
I shoved the cards under her nose and she squirmed away disgusted. I just laughed and flicked them in front of her, agitating her further.
"Ew! Stop it!" She whined grabbing my wrist "Get it away from my face!"
"What? Is it bringing back memories?"
Piper looked blankly back at me, "What?"
"Fifty Shades of Crazy Eyes!" I grinned waving the cards at her again. She pushed my hand away again
"Stop it" she snapped again. I just smiled and kept waving them at her, childishly winding her up
"Smell it!" I said laughing when she knocked my hand down so the cards were visible, "Why are you trying to look at my cards?" i teased
"Cut it out" she mumbled immediately averting her eyes. I grinned at her
"I know how you play" I told her chuckling, "Don't you look at my cards!"
Piper started smiling at me, "Stop it!" she cried when i tried making her sniff them again, "Cut it out!"
She batted my hand away and pinned it down against the table. I looked down at our hands and grinned happily at how perfect they looked together. Piper smiled and gently took her hands back
"It's weird how normal this feels" she said. I blinked at her. She felt it too?
"What?"
"I feel like I'm 23 and no time has passed"
I could understand that. Some times it felt like the last ten years hadn't happened. It was harder remembering what reality was when she made it seem like yesterday.
"Well, I think that when you have a connection with someone, it never really goes away, you know? You snap back to being important to each other because you still are"
Piper seemed surprised by my reply but she quickly got over it and shook her head at me.
"But I've changed so much since we were together. Haven't you?"
"No. No, not really. I'm pretty consistent" I chuckled picking my cards up again. Piper smiled at me like she hadn't been expecting any other answer.
"Can I ask you something?"
I looked up and smiled, "Yeah"
"Do you think it's odd I haven't heard from Larry since Thanksgiving?"
I rolled my eyes. There went my good mood. Piper didn't notice. Which didn't surprise me.
"You know, maybe he's mad at me that I wasn't able to see him while I was in SHU. But that would be totally fucked up, wouldn't it?"
"I'm not sure you're in the position to feel indignant right now, Piper" I told her shortly. Her expression fell a little.
"Do you think I'm a terrible person?" She asked meekly.
"No! I think that we do what we need to do to survive"
She gave me this look that clearly screamed that she knew just as well as I did that this wasn't survival. Because we could do it without each other. We did before after all. Prison didn't change anything. Because we didn't need. We just wanted.
Piper nodded though and I breathed relieved at avoided an argument over it. She went back to shuffling her cards and I went back to thinking about how fucked everything was.
"Hey!" We both looked up at Poussey striding angrily in with black Cindy behind her, "What the hell you think you're doing?"
"Nothing" piper mumbled avoiding their eyes. Poussey turned back to me
"You. Gimme your shoes"
I blinked back at her
"What?"
Cindy glared me down.
"You deaf or something? Take off your mother fucking shoes!" She barked viscously.
Piper leapt up, "Hey, back off, all right?" She snarled furiously.
Poussey didn't seem as surprised as I was. She stood tall and scoffed
"Oh, you about to step?"
I stood up behind piper and we squared off to the other women ready. The air crackled tensely while they glared at us waiting. I watched them closely for their move, readying myself to yank piper out of the way the second they moved.
Poussey glared at piper an extra moment before she cracked out smiling
"Oh! Your face, yo!" We both relaxed when it was clear they'd been joking. Piper turned back to her seat annoyed, I couldn't help but smile at her.
"You was like "Hey, back off!' You so gangsta" Poussey chuckled with Cindy and high-fived her.
Piper gave them an indignant look. I just smiled. She was too cute. I knocked her leg under the table to get her attention but she refused to look at me. Instead she played with her cards
"All right, inmates. Enough" Bell cut in walking into the room bored, "Save it for the kids"
"What's going on?" Piper asked voicing our joint confusion
"Yo, scared straight in the house, y'all, ya know? I'ma scare us some bad kids"
"I'ma go platinum up on them whippersnappers!" Cindy laughed. Piper exchange another confused look with me. What the fuck were they talking about?
"Yeah!" Flaca strutted in, smirking, "I'm gonna make them shit their little delinquent panties!"
"Hey. Ladies, this is serious" Bell said half heartedly to them, "These kids are going down a bad path. Your jobs are to deter them from making the same mistakes you did"
"But we can make them cry, right?" Poussey asked seriously like it was a deal breaker if she couldn't. Belle nodded.
"Yeah, you can make them cry" Bell relented smiling a little herself. I bet she couldn't wait for the kiddie tears.
"Yeah. I'ma make them cry all right" Poussey said, "Cry like they're going through a haunted house, haunted house called "life"
"I thought you said this was an acting opportunity" crazy eyes cried striding in and straight up to Bell. I scoffed to myself. If she was part of the fun I felt sorry for the kids. Nightmares were probably the nicest thing they were gonna gain from meeting her.
"You want to sign up?" Belle asked us completely ignoring Crazy. I shook my head. I wasn't really feeling the whole kid scare game.
"No, I don't" Piper muttered in agreement with me. Bell didn't look like she cared much about our lack of involvement. She looked down at the clipboard she was holding, beside her Crazy was gearing up to moan again.
"Other prisons get to do Shakespeare and shit. I want to play a role" Crazy Eyes complained, "Like Desdemona, or Ophelia, or Clair Huxtable"
I exchanged a quick glance with Piper and I knew we were thinking the same thing. Who knew Crazy Eyes knew Shakespeare?
"Tell you what" Belle sighed at her like a mother appeasing a child in tantrum, "You can play whatever character you want, so long as that character is the stuff of naughty brats' nightmares"
Crazy looked at her and started grinning that fucking mad grin.
"Yeah... I can do that" She wandered off to the corner and started reciting lines under her breath. I just rolled my eyes. Why bother with the others when you had that to let loose on the kids.
Bell started trying to organise the other inmates but she could barely get a word in over their excited chatter. I threw my cards down annoyed and stood up. Piper looked up at me confused.
"What are you doing?" She asked taking my hand when I held it out to her. I smiled at her and pulled her out of her seat.
"We are getting out of here. Before Crazy gives me nightmares and they give me a headache"
Piper chuckled softly at my reply and squeezed my hand.
We set off out of the room towards the yard. It was freezing outside but at least we'd be alone together. That's all I wanted.
"Fuck me that's cold!" she shivered hiding into my side when the wind blew her hair about. I chuckled and wrapped an arm around her
"Was that an invitation?" I teased kissing her head. Piper tucked herself into me some more and I hissed a little at her pressing her cold body against mine
"Forget that" I mumbled peeling her off me a little, "You're too cold. It'd be like fucking a snowman"
She laughed back at me, "Your loss"
We walked down to the track and started the big loop. A perfect silence settled around us while we walked. Nothing but the sounds of the wind picking leaves off the trees and the odd bird cawing broke the happy peace. I smiled happy to myself. Alone with piper like this made it seem like we weren't in prison. We were just together. And it was perfect.
"You think maybe Larry-"
I groaned at her, "Piper, please! I was enjoying it just being us. Can you not bring the other point of the triangle in?"
She looked up at me, "Alex we can't just pretend he doesn't exist"
"Why not? I think that works fine"
"Because-"
"Because if we did you'd have nothing to boost that insecure ego right?"
She stared at me.
"Is that why you think is going on? I'm stringing him along to make myself feel good? Fuck you"
She threw my arm off her and started to storm off. I thought about letting her. I was tired to hell with her damn complaints about her boyfriend. But I couldn't. Because I fucking loved her too much to see her in pain. I cursed myself and followed after her.
"Piper! Pipes, wait!"
I touched her shoulder and made her stop to face me. I have her a slight smile, "I'm sorry. You know I don't mean it. I'm a dick" she nodded and crossed her arms looking at me to carry on, "I just wanted it to be us for a while. No shitty prison drama and no fiancées. I wanted a little while to just be with you"
Piper studied me a moment. I felt my heart drum nervously in my chest. I didn't want to fight with her. When we fought it broke the illusion that we were together again. I hated the real reality.
Piper blew out a long breath and stepped forward into me. Her arms slipped around me and held me to her tightly. I smiled and kissed her head while I wrapped my arms around her. I still wasn't sure she was okay with me.
"Pipes?"
"I'm sorry I talk about him. I just worry"
I sighed and squeezed her, "It's okay.
"Hey! Lesbians!" I looked up over Piper's head and glared at Pennsatucky strutting down with her cronies. She looked all happy about something and I didn't trust it was a good thing.
Piper squeezed my hand, "Don't"
I nodded at her. I wasn't going to do anything that would get her in trouble. I was patient enough to handle Pennsatucky some other time. Piper stepped away from me and turned to face the newcomers with a bitter expression. I smiled at her. She was still pissed about them breaking my glasses.
"Hey lurch where're your glasses huh? Been watching you crawl around camp like a special trooper. Pathetic ain't it girls?" They all silently nodded. I rolled my eyes
"I thought I'd go without them today" I told her snagging Piper's shirt when she took one angry step forward.
"You ain't got them 'cause I broke 'em. Just like I'ma break you, and you" she pointed at Piper and I felt the anger build up inside me.
"Me? I haven't done anything" Piper said all innocent.
Pensatucky walked up to her all threateningly but I pulled piper behind me and faced her instead. Pensatucky laughed and called around me to Piper
"Lurch ain't gonna be around all the time. You're next blondie"
She and her gang of hillbillies strutted off smug with themselves. Piper scoffed after them. She wasn't scared of them. Neither was I. I just didn't trust that Pennsatucky bitch. I started up thinking ways to get her first. And I smiled with my ideas.
I loved playing long games.