The next morning Olivia woke up hoping Kendra was still there. It was only 6am. She could barely sleep last night as thought's shredded her apart from the inside out. She crept down the hallway and seen Kendra drinking a cup of coffee. "Morning how did you sleep, from the looks of it not very well." Olivia nodded and walked into the kitchen to grab herself a cup. After she made it just the way she like it she made her way out to the couch to sit next to Kendra. "That rough of a night huh?" All Olivia could do was nod. "I just can't get what I read out of my head. It's been permanently imprinted and burned to my brain. I just should have known. All those time's she called me and I knew something was wrong I could hear it in her voice." A hot tear began to fall and streak down her olive complexion skin. "Liv you can't go there. You can't do this to yourself there was no way of knowing. I had seen her for months and I didn't even know. I suspected something serious was going on but I didn't know."

Kendra was trying to comfort her the best she could. There really wasn't much you could say but to reassure her that it wasn't her fault. "Look why don't we get ready and we can both head to the hospital." Olivia nodded and finished off the last of her cup of coffee. She got up from the couch and walked back to the bedroom to get dressed. She was really feeling depressed. She grabbed a pair of jeans and an oversized shit and slipped on a pair of Toms. She walked into her restroom and brushed her teeth and threw her hair up into a messy bun. She gathered her purse and cell and walked out into the living room to find Kendra ready to go. They decided to take separate vehicles so they wouldn't draw attention. When they got to the hospital Olivia and Kendra walked about a foot apart from each other. Deep down Olivia hope this would be the day she could take Hayleigh home. Maybe she could convince Kendra to stay with them but of course in the guest bedroom.

She would pay her extra just so Hayleigh could have the best care that she needs and hopefully one day they could be more. She shook her head though to get them thoughts out. Right now it's about Hayleigh.

Olivia forced a smile onto her face before she walked into Hayleigh's room, "Good morning sweetie!"

"Hi Aunt Liv." Hayleigh said. She pushed food around her plate while she glared at the nurse sitting next to her.

"I'll sit with her now." Olivia said.

"Thank God!" The nurse said. She couldn't get out of the room fast enough.

Hayleigh wasn't their favorite patient in the ward.

"Hayleigh Rose..." Olivia said warningly.

"What?" Hayleigh snapped.

Olivia narrowed her eyes and reached into her bag and handed Hayleigh her journal. She almost wanted to snatch it back and confront her but she remembered what Kendra and she had talked about earlier.

"My journal! Thank you so much for bringing it to me Aunt Liv!" Hayleigh smiled the second she saw it. She was looking at it as if it was her best friend in the world. "Do you have a pen?" She asked flipping the book open and flipping to an empty page.

"Uh, sure..." Olivia said. She reached into her purse and handed Hayleigh a pen

Hayleigh immediately began to write. It flowed from her like never before. Just then they both looked up when there was knock on the door. "Im not eating this shit you and all these fat lazy fucking nurses can go fuck yourselves. I want out of here!" The nurses where starting to become more and more irritated with her. "Fine I will get the doctor and we will hook up your NG feeding tube. Your weight has dropped back down." Hayleigh rolled her eyes. "I don't care anymore I am not yall's prize heffa for the state fair. I'm pretty sure some you fat fucks can take that one." Olivia was becoming more irritated with Hayleigh as the swearing increased from her mouth. She stood up. "That's it young lady, you will stop this. Stop this right now or else you can kiss your social life goodbye for disrespect and swearing." Hayleigh could tell from the tone of her aunt's voice she was serious. When she got out of this hell whole she wanted to drop all the weight she had gained and then some as soon as possible. "Hayleigh come on lets go back to your room and we can talk." Her aunt tried the best she could in the most comforting voice. The doctor at the nurses station watched as Hayleigh walked by and let her know that they nurse would be in immediately to hook of her feeding tube that she desperately needed so her body didn't shut down and she lost her life, but to be honest she didn't care.

When they got to the room Kendra was there waiting for them to start a family session.

Hayleigh placed her hands on her hips. In a very Olivia Benson manner and glared at Kendra. "And what the hello kitty are you doing here?" She snapped. Her eyes were blazing and she was ready for a fight.

"I'm here for a family session with you and your Aunt." Kendra said. She was unfazed by Hayleigh's attitude.

"Ok, sweetie, let me speak retard so you can understand me ok?" Hayleigh started sarcastically. "If I didn't want to speak to you last night or back in Ohio that means I don't want to speak to you EVER!" Hayleigh spoke slowly. She rolled her eyes at the woman and headed towards her bed.

Olivia was fed up. She snatched her up by the back of her shirt. "Apologize right now Hayleigh Rose and drop the attitude." She said sternly.

Hayleigh struggled to get away from Olivia. "Fine! Let me go and I will!"

"Nope, you seem to forget that I'm running the show. Apologize and then I will let you go." Olivia said, clutching the shirt tighter the harder Hayleigh fought to get lose.

"Fine! I'm sorry I don't wanna talk to you ok?!" Hayleigh said.

Olivia let go. Not because Hayleigh's apology was acceptable but because she was really about to lose her patience. "Sit down." She said eerily calm.

Hayleigh sat down immediately.

Before they could get started they all heard a knock on the door it was the nurse to hook up her feeding tube. "I will leave you all to it and Kendra please keep an eye on her, we had an incident last night where she was trying to rip it out."

Olivia and Kendra both looked at her at the same time. Hayleigh knew she was going to be watched now. There was no way she was ever going to be able to take it out until she gets out of this damn hospital eating disorder unit.

Kendra cleared her throat. "Ok, let's get started..."

Hayleigh looked irritated as hell. "How about let's not and say we did. I think for today I will be on mute status." She crossed her arms.

Kendra looked irritated along with Olivia. Kendra just wanted to come out with it already. "Hayleigh why didn't you tell me you were being raped by your father."

Hayleigh's mouth dropped wide open. "Both of you get the fuck out right now!" Hayleigh was getting more ballistic. "Get the hell out, both of you, you had no right!"

"I can't speak for Kendra but I can speak for myself and I'm not going anywhere." Olivia said.

"YOU READ MY JOURNAL AND THEN YOU JUST BROUGHT IT TO ME LIKE NOTHING WAS WRONG! HOW COULD YOU?!" Hayleigh shouted. She started sobbing uncontrollably.

"You weren't talking to me Hayleigh and you used to tell me everything." Olivia said. The second she said it she knew it was lame. There was no excuse for invading Hayleigh's privacy but she did it out of a loving place.

"That is my safe place! The only place I feel safe!" Hayleigh snapped. She wrapped her arms around herself and walked to the other side of the room. Away from Kendra and Olivia.

"Were you going to tell me?" Olivia asks softly.

"Eventually! Yes, I would have told you." Hayleigh said. Her tone was matching Olivia's. If she were completely honest with herself, she would say how relieved she was not to be walking around with that huge secret on her shoulders.

"I don't think you would have told me." Olivia said. She walked over to where Hayleigh was standing, looking out the window. "I think that you would have took it to your grave, even if it killed you."

Hayleigh sighed and continued to look out the window. She leaned over and laid her head on Olivia's shoulder.

Olivia laid her head on top of Hayleigh's and wrapped an arm around her small waist.

Kendra cleared her throat. She decided since Olivia and Hayleigh were talking not to interfere. Now that they were quiet she wanted to dig a little deeper. "Hayleigh, I want to apologize for the way I approached it with you. It was completely unprofessional. We don't have to talk about it anymore today, I can see you're not ready. But I would like to know why you felt like you couldn't tell your Aunt..."

Hayleigh sighed and pulled away from Olivia. She needed a little distance for what she was about to say. "Ever since I can remember, Aunt Liv was the only Mom I ever knew. My childhood was bright and happy, bcause she made sure of it. I knew what she did for a living and I would see her just come home after a hard case and cry sometimes or she would hold me tightly for hours. And when it happened to me, I knew that it would destroy her and I never wanted to be the reason she was hurt or upset. So the second I stopped being scared I called her and asked her to come get me. I figured if I lived with her and she never had to find out about any of this that things would get better. But they didn't. I messed up! I was weak! I am a failure and a disappointment! I should have been stronger!" She was crying and becoming hot from the force of her tears by the time she finished talking.

Olivia had tears of her own falling from her eyes. Her heart was broken, knowing what had been done to Hayleigh and also knowing that the girl felt like she had to protect her.

Hayleigh was so exhausted from her own emotions that she hadn't felt in so long. That she was numbing out every single day. She had got to the point that she prayed that god would just take her from the hell she was living in. To her being dead was better than dealing with what she was going through. It was better than being raped on a daily basis. She tried to fall asleep and held on to her aunt for dear life. In that moment she felt safe. She hoped the nightmares wouldn't come. With that she fell asleep in her aunt's arm praying for a better day to come.