Amelia noticed Meredith going into the supply closet and decided this was a good time to confront her. She went into the closet and closed the door behind her.

"You shouldn't have pulled the plug on my brother. I could have saved him."

Meredith replied calmly, "There wasn't anything you could have done."

"How could you do it? I didn't get to tell him good-bye because of you."

"Amelia, I know you thought I didn't know what it was like to love the love of my life."

Amelia interrupted, "I'm sorry about that Meredith. I never wanted anything to happen to Derek." Her own words had played over and over in her mind for the past ten months ever since Meredith left. She had wondered whether she was to blame for Meredith's decision to flee until she learned about baby Ellis. She understood why Meredith would not want to spend her pregnancy among friends and family. She figured that Meredith did not want pity for carrying her dead husband's child, and she didn't want people hovering over her. But Meredith was luckier than Amelia at least in one regard; her baby was perfectly healthy.

"I know that. My point is that I do know what it's like to lose a sibling. I lost Lexie."

Amelia met her eyes. She remembered working with Lexie when she and Derek worked to save Mason's mother's life. She knew Lexie died in the plane crash, but she hadn't thought about Lexie for years.

"And I was spent four days in the wilderness with her dead body as we tried to protect her from wolves and other animals. And for more than a year whenever I thought of Lexie, all I could see was her dead body under that plane. That's what I remembered. Not the way she cared for Zola, not her photographic memory, not her job in working on impossible cases with Derek, not the fun we had together. I just remembered seeing her dead body under that plane. I still sometimes have nightmares about her death."

Meredith paused and looked at Amelia. "And Derek and I talked after Mark died. We spent thirty days waiting to see if he would recover. Derek told me that he didn't want that; he didn't want to be maintained by machines, and have people come and see his body when he was gone. I did what Derek wanted. I know that Derek wouldn't have wanted your last memory of him to be his brain-dead body hooked up to machines. You have lots of good memories of Derek. Focus on those and on Zola, Bailey, and Ellis. Zola and Bailey both miss their dad, especially Zola. And they're going to depend on us to share our memories with them because they have so few memories of their dead. Ellis will have none. And if you want to talk to Derek, do what I do and go to his grave. Or go to the cliff and look at his favorite view. "

Amelia stared at her, tears flowing down her cheeks.

"Derek knew you loved him, Amelia."

"I miss him so much."

"So do I, so do I." Meredith went over and hugged Amelia.