Disclaimer: I do not own these characters. They belong to Sons of Anarchy and Kurt Sutter. The only character that has been added is Grace.

This is my first fan fiction, so please let me know. I loved the show but I think because the show was only thirteen to fourteen episodes a season, a lot of things had to be looked over. I also think because the focus was about the club some of Tara and Jax's moments had to be cut short. This is how I would have like to see certain things play out. Tara was one of my favorite character and I always get mad when people say they don't like her, so here is my take.

Warning in my story: Tara, Jax, Bobby, Gemma don't die. I'm thinking opie will survive to but not sure how yet. And Tara does not have to make the deal, the club finds a way to clear her. Hope you like it.

Tara was sitting in the ambulance waiting to see if Jax was okay. Jax emerged out of the building bleeding from his arm. The guys greeted Jax as the police took his statement and the EMT bandage his arm. As the guys left, Tara walked over and thanked Jax for saving her.

Jax "Tara you don't have to thank me, what else would I have done I love you and we are having a baby. Tara looked at Jax in shock "How do you know that, Gemma promised me she wouldn't tell".

Jax "You should have told me Tara".

Tara " Would it have made a difference at the time, would you have stop pushing me away, stop you from sleep with the porn whore."

Jax " Tara I'm so sorry, please just let's just go to the hospital and make sure the baby is okay."

Tara "I don't know Jax, before all of this happened I made an appointment at a clinic, because I didn't know what we are, if we are anything anymore. You said I wasn't your family, I didn't belong with you and Able. You slept with that porn slut.

Medic: Dr. Knowles we have to go now

The ride to the hospital was short but it seem like a lifetime, you could cut the tension with a long double edge sword, the silence only made it worst. Jax looking at Tara the whole time wondering what to say, how would he apologize and make Tara see he was wrong. Tara could feel Jax staring at her, so she closed her eyes and tried to hold back the tears. She was worried about the baby, wanted to hold Abel in her arms, mad at Gemma, mad at Jax and grateful to him for saving her all at the same time. At the hospital Tara was triage in and take straight to ultrasound, Jax following closely behind.

Tara: you should really get officially checked out Jax, that bruise on your head is nasty.

Jax: I'm fine, I just want to make sure you and our baby is okay.

Tara: Can I see Abel, when we are done here, is he at Gemma's?

Jax: yes we can go and get him as soon as we are finished here. Silence fell over the room again, as Jax search for words to say Are you hungry is all he could think of without sounding stupid.

Jax: Are you hungry? We cant stop to get something to eat, after we get able on the way home. (hoping Tara would agree to go home with him and Abel).

Tara: I don't think that's a good idea Jax beside all my stuff is at my dad's now. I move it out when you left.

Jax: Tara please babe please, I'm sorry with Abel being kidnap it was all so much I thought pushing you away would be best for you. I was wrong. Please Tara come home, just let me hold you in my arms and protect you, Abel and our baby. Please

Just then Dr. McCall walked in. Hey Dr. Knowles, Margaret brought me up to speed lets check you out and make sure both of you are okay. Can't let our number one neonatal surgeon be lacking in any care. Dr MCcall places ultrasound jelly on Tara stomach and begins to look worried. OH MY, this can't be right, let me look further.

Tara: What Dr. tell me, is my baby gone, what's wrong Tara said frantically. Just then Jax grabbed Tara hands and told her to calm down.

Dr. Mccall: No nothing like that, let me check this again to make sure I'm right. It looks like I see two heart beats Dr. Knowles.

Tara and Jax: Jesus Christ, holy shit

Dr. McCall: see right there, there is a heartbeat and look right there, there is another. Congrats Mrs. Knowles you are having twins, the heartbeats are healthy and they look fine. But you need to start with prenatal, take some time off to rest from all you have been through and make an appointment to see me ASAP.

Tara: stunned and confused Tara didn't even realize she said okay. Oh my God Jax, what have you done to me, how will I take care of three kids least all under three. I wish I could drink right now. I need to go home and lay down. Where is Abel.

Jax was scared and relieve all the same, with Tara saying three kids Jax felt comfort in Tara not leaving him. And it didn't matter because there was no way in hell he would let her leave him again not pregnant with his kids.

Jax: Babe, Babe let's just get Abel and go home. There is so much going on, with these charges and the club. Please I just want to get my family home safe and sound… Please come home, just give me a chance to make this right. I promise I won't hurt you again. We are a family now. Let's go get OUR SON and go home.

Tara could help but tear up at the words OUR and family. She never really had a family before with her mom dying, her dad being a drunk for most of her life Tara had been alone, with the exception of Opie and Piney living across the street would be her surrogate family when things got real bad at home. But nothing like when she fell in love with Jax at 16, he made her feel like home. And Jax knew all too well her need and want for family.

Tara: (with tears rolling down her face and Jax whipping them away) she said okay.

On the ride to Gemma, Jax place his hand over Tara belly while driving trying to savor every moment because who knows what tomorrow will bring. He hated himself because he would probably miss all of Tara pregnancy, the birth of the twins, Abel first birthday. More importantly he would leave Tara all alone to pick up the slack. At Gemma's Tara hug Gemma and held Abel and begin to sob, jumping as Jax touched her.

Jax: Don't cry babe, it's over, you and Abel are safe and I promise nothing will ever happen to any of you again.

Tara and Abel both exhausted from the day fell asleep in the car. Jax pulled up to the house and quietly woke Tara and carried Abel into the house. Jax and Tara put Abel to bed. Tara stayed and stared at Abel in the bed as Jax brought bags in the house.

Jax: Come on Babe, he is fine, all the doors are locked, the guns are in place, and I'm here. Come on babe let's get you to bed. Jax slowly pulled Tara away from Abel bed side, Tara pleaded to stay a little longer every step. Jax took his time and undress Tara and placed her in a bath gently stroking her hair.

Tara: Jax, I'm pregnant not paralyzed I can wash myself.

Jax: Just let me do this, tomorrow is a new day full of a lot, I need to do this. Just give us tonight and then we can talk about the rest.

Tara: okay

Jax and Tara went to bed and over the next couple hours made love repeatedly. Both saying I love you,

Jax saying I'm sorry, I need you.

Tara woke in Jax's arms and overheard Abel crying, sliding out of bed and walked down the hall to Abel's room.

Tara: Hey Abel shhhhhh there there now, you're okay. Tara sat in the rocking chair talking to Abel as she rocked him back to sleep. Looking down at Abel, Tara stroked his hair and said Hey there baby boy, I'm so happy your home, I love you and I am going to be the best mother I can be, I promise but I'm going to need your help. Abel begin to smile right before he drifted back to sleep. Tara placed him in his crib and walked back to the room and got in bed with Jax. Not realizing Jax had woken up, Jax whispered is he okay. Tara shakes her head yes and kisses Jax and they begin to make love. Jax wakes up from a bad dream and immediately looks to his side at Tara.

Jax: Hey

Tara: Morning

Jax: Morning

Jax: I love you

Tara: I love you

Jax: What

Tara: Whatever happens today, I'm here.

Jax: I know

Jax and Tara begin to make love before going to breakfast at the club.

At the club house while everyone enjoyed breakfast and welcomed Abel back; Opie came in and announced he and Lyla were getting married and Gemma announced she was going to be a grandma again, everyone was overjoyed. As quickly as things were happy things changed later that day as Jax, Clay, Juice, Happy, Bobby, and Tig were taken to jail. Tara immediately begin to sob and Opie escorted her in the club house as Jax looked on feeling helpless, he knew this had to happen to protect the club and he made provision's in his letter to explain to his old lady and mom why it happened but in that moment watching Tara cry he felt horrible. Gemma walked in the club house and hug Tara.

Gemma: Hey baby, don't cry we are going to get through this. I will make Clay understand why Jax did what he did, he will understand, he has to. Come on now don't get yourself sick and hurt my future grandson.

Tara: Gemma, I am so scared at what will happen to Jax. What if he dies, how will I raise two kids alone.

Gemma: Don't talk like that, the club will see, come on I will take you home.

When Gemma and Tara arrived at Jax's house, Gemma insisted on taking Abel for the night to let Tara get some rest. Tara agreed and tried to go and lay down. Tara found it impossible to rest, so she got up and started cleaning. As started to clean the house, she discovered letters from JT to Maureen Ashbey in Abel's room in Jax's bag. As she begin to read the letters, Tara was mortified by what she read and just then there was a knock on the door. When Tara answered it was the prospect with a letter from Jax that read.

Dear Tara,

If you are reading this then Stahl is dead and the club will doing short time. I know you are worried and confused right now, but trust that I am safe and everything was all the plan. I am not my father Tara and I would never rat on my club. I want to apologize for everything that has happened to you and things that I have said and done lately. I was trying to protect you and never meant to hurt you. I am sorry I have to leave you and that you will be alone for the birth of our child. I will miss Abel's first birthday. Know that I love more than life itself and I promise things will be better when I get out. Know that I will think about you and our children every day. Know that I am grateful that you will be with Abel. Keep holding on baby til I get home. I love you

Jax

It was then and there that Tara decided to keep the letters from Maureen Ashby to herself, at least till Jax came home. She didn't want anything to jeopardize his safety and him coming back to her and the kids. The first three months had proven to be hard without Jax, as Tara missed him so much. They wrote, talked on the phone and visited on days the prison allowed. Tara kept herself busy with selling he dad 's house, making changes to Jax's home to make it more comfortable, Abel, trading the cutlass for a family friendly car, and work. Today was Tara's checkup and ultra sound, when she would find out the sex of the baby. Tara woke up early, dressed her and Abel and fixed breakfast as the two of them sung songs and watched Abel's favorite song. Just then Gemma walked in and said.

Gemma: Hey baby, today is your ultra sound right.

Tara: yes, I'm going to the hospital, follow up on patients, go to my ultra sound, then drive up to Stockton to see Jax and show him the ultra sound.

Gemma: Good baby, I'm ready when you are

Tara was taken back and said: Gemma, you coming with me

Gemma: you don't think I'm going to miss my grandbaby first ultra sound, plus I never got to see this with that crackwhore. Besides you need someone.

Tara smiled and secretly wished Jax and her mother could be here to experience this. At the hospital Gemma and Tara anxiously waited for the Doctor to come in.

Doctor West: Hey Tara you ready to see your baby

Tara: Yes Lexie, I can't wait

Doctor West: let's get started

As Dr. West begin the ultra-sound, Tara and Gemma looked on, as they looked Dr. West took some still of the baby and then blurted out OMG….at the same time Tara said holy shitttttttt…. Gemma got nervous and begin to ask what wrong Doc is, it the baby. Tara and Dr. West looked at one another and Tara shouted it can't be, no no no it can't be. Dr. West tell me I'm not seeing what I think I'm seeing. hemma yelling at both of them said would somebody tell me what the hell is going on, is there something wrong with my grandbaby. Dr. West said no Mrs. Morrow, look closely there is your healthy grandson and if you keep looking you will see your granddaughter as well. Shocked and surprised Gemma shouted WELL I BE DAMMED. Just then Tara begin to cry.

Gemma: what's wrong baby

Tara: Gemma how am I'm going to take care of three kids all by myself. Abel isn't two yet and is just learning how to potty and sleep through the night. Jax is away and I have to work. What if I leave one or forget to feed Abel because the twins are crying.

Gemma: Now you listen to me, that what the club is for, we are a family and we will take care of each other. Jax will come and everything will be okay. We can do this. Though I'm not sure how to handle a granddaughter, Hell Tellers have only ever made boys.

At Stockton, Tara sat down and waited for Jax to come out. Gemma went to another table to visit Clay. Tara and Abel played cars as Jax walked up and gave them hugs.

Jax: hey buddy, how are you, daddy misses you.

Abel: Hey dada, mommy help me, mis you dada. Gemma walked over and took Abel so he could see Clay and Jax and Tara could talk.

Jax: Hey babe, How are you feeling, how is Abel and the baby the ultra sound, are you tired. ( as Jax rubbed her belly in amazement at how her body was changing.)

Tara: I'm okay, Abel is great learning new things every day, he is getting the potty thing down better, pretty cool kid, and most kids don't go potty until they are two so he is doing great. About my appointment today.

Jax: WHAT! Something wrong with the baby, you, what's going on.

Tara: Jax calm down, the baby is okay, I'm okay, it's just

Jax: It's just what

Tara: here look at the picture. Everything is fine, right there is your son and over there is your daughter. Tara waited for Jax's reaction as Jax looked at the ultra sound stunned. Jax was speechless for about twenty seconds. Until he looked over at Tara's worried face.

Jax: Jesus Christ my sperm works good, two for the price of one babe, Jax tried to make a joke to lighten the mood. Look babe seriously we will work it out, Neeta can come more, I will have Opie keep a prospect at your side til I get out, we can do this. Tara I have always wanted you to be the mother of my children since I was sixteen and I thought when you left back then that chance was over and I almost blew it when Abel got kidnapped. Whatever happens we will face it. Just relax and take care of you and our kids. I love you

Tara: okay, I love you

The next few months proved even more trying then the ones before. Tara prepped for the babies while dealing with a busy toddler Abel. As she got bigger, she reduced her hours at the hospital to spend more time with Abel who was about to be thrown into big brotherhood quickly. Gemma would stay with her at times to help and because she was lonely and missed Clay. Jax and Tara had settled on the names Thomas and Grace Natalia for the twins. Tara was 8 months and 3 weeks and could go into labor at any time. She had been placed on bed rest for the remainder of her pregnancy. Chibbs and Opie would make daily rounds to the house to check on her. Neeta came in the day time and Gemma in the night. One morning while Tara was talking to Jax on the phone, watching Abel play with his cars, her water broke.

Tara: Oh my God, Jax my water just broke babe, I have to go and call the ambulance. Jax was scared on the other end of the phone screamed for Tara to call Gemma and the ambulance. Jax sat down feeling completely helpless to help his family. Tara was at home in labor and there was nothing he could do. He didn't know what was happening, who was there and most importantly he would miss the birth of all his children as he wasn't there for Abel. At the house Tara called Gemma and Opie. Neeta helped her and Abel to the car and drove her to the hospital. Gemma, Opie, Chibbs, Kozik, and Piney beat Tara to the hospital. Tara slowly breathed through each contraction as Gemma paced the room. The guys all in the waiting room keep updating Jax and the rest of the guys in Stockton. Gemma gave Tara ice chips, while Tara cursed the day she begin having sex.

Dr. West: well well Tara let's take a look and see if your ready

Tara: oh I'm ready, please West just make it stop, let me push, I think they are having a battle royallll in my body, they have to come out, they are no longer welcomed in there,

Gemma: Just stay strong baby, do you need anything

Tara: a bat, I need a bat, I need you to take that bat and knock me unconscious till this is over.

Dr. West: okay Tara on my count, you can begin to push.

An hour later Thomas Teller came into the world at 6lbs 12onces. 10 minutes later Grace Natalia Teller made her debut at 6lbs 8ounces. Gemma immediately came out and informed the guys, who called Jax.

After a few hours of rest Tara was sitting in her room, while Gemma brought Abel in to introduce Abel to his new little brother and sister.

Tara: Hey baby boy, come sit here next to mommy so you can meet your brother and sister. Abel this is Thomas and this is Grace and they are so happy to meet their new big brother. Abel laughed and smiled as Tara introduced his siblings. Tara looked over at Gemma with the worried face. Gemma said what's wrong sweetheart, do you need me to get a doctor. Tara replied I'm afraid Abel doesn't understand, he is only 15 months, what if I can't handle all three of them. Gemma said now you look at me, you are already a great mom, most chicks would have left Jax, but you stayed we will all get through this. At that moment the phone ranged and it was Jax on the other end.

Jax: hey babe, how are you, you in any pain, I'm so sorry I couldn't be there with you today. How are the babies? Jax tried his best to sound upbeat and happy on the phone with Tara but inside he was saddened that he was not there to see the birth of his children, he would not be there to bring them home, to help Tara. He missed them so much by the time he would come home Abel would be almost 2 and the twins 7 months. He would have missed so much, and God he missed Tara every moment of the day.

Tara: Hey, we are all okay, I'm a little sore but the hospital has been great. I just introduced Abel to the twins, He was delighted. How are you doing?

Jax: (Jax was taken back that Tara still worried about him even after given birth) I'm okay, don't worry about me. I love you so much Tara and I promise things will be better when I get out.

Tara: okay baby (as a single tear fell from Tara face). Hey, I'm busting out of here in a few days, I will bring the kids to see you. I think Thomas looks like you and Abel. Grace has your blue eyes. I love you Jackson.

Jax: I love you so much, thank you for staying with me.

After three days in the hospital Tara and the babies were coming home, Gemma and Neeta prepared the house for their arrival. And Opie went to the hospital to pick them up. Piney , Chibbs, Kozik and the prospects all waited at Jax's house for Tara and the twins. As Tara walked in Abel ran up to her screaming mommy. Tara hugged Abel and thanked everyone for being there. At Stockton the guys and Jax made a new deal with guns for when they came home. The first few days at home was completely exhausting for Tara. Taking care of three kids was a lot, Abel was running around, when Thomas was sleep Grace was up and when Grace was sleep Thomas was up. Tara was glad she had help, between diaper changes, feedings, her breast aching; she barely had time to wash the spit up out of her hair. Everyone at the club took turns stopping by. Tara had successfully gotten Abel, Thomas, Grace and herself fed and dress in preparation for the visit to Jax. Tara thought to herself I can really do this, as Tara sat down to catch a quick nap before Gemma arrived to take them to Stockton because by the grace of God all the kids were sleeping her door bell ranged. Tara jumped up quickly not wanted the bell to wake any of the kids. At the door, it was Lyla checking on her and needing to talk. Tara invited Lyla in, telling her to be quiet.

Tara: Hey Lyla, what's up, is something wrong

Lyla: Hey Tara, how are you feeling, came by to check on you and the kids and to ask you something.

Tara: What's up?

Lyla: well, I don't have many friends, Ope and I are planning to get married when the guys get out. I was hoping you wouldn't mind being my maid of honor. You don't have to worry about helping with the wedding planning, Gemma doing all of that.

Tara: Lyla are you sure.

Lyla: yes

Tara: okay sure I would love to be your maid of honor. Just then Gemma walked in and said how you ladies doing today. Lyla said fine, Tara has agreed to be my maid of honor for the wedding. Gemma looked at Tara with a proud and stunned face and said that's great. Okay ladies, Tara and I should be going, visiting hours are beginning for Jax and Clay and we need to get on the road. Just then Lyla begin to cry. Tara grabbed her hand and ran into the bathroom as Gemma followed not wanting to wake the kids. Tara said please Lyla don't cry, tell us what's wrong but please stop crying because you're going to make my milk come. Just as Tara said those words, stains begin to fill her shirt and all three ladies begin to laugh. Lyla said Tara I am so sorry, but I am scared I won't be a good wife, I can't live up to Donna's expectations. Gemma immediately said you're not supposed to, just be the wife and old lady you know how to be and the rest will come. Just then a knock on the door came, it was Neeta coming to baby sit Abel, who had develop a little cold that week, so Tara decided it was best to leave him home to rest. Tara walked into the boys' room and sat on Abel's bed, Tara leaned over and kissed Abel forehead and told him to be good for Neeta, and she would be back soon. At that Tara changed her shirt and everyone left the house. Tara caught a quick nap on the way to Stockton.

Tara sat in the visiting area anxiously waiting for Jax while looking at the twins.