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Hey this is my first fanfiction so please tell me what you think, but please don't be too harsh.

Levy.

It's cold. Everything hurts, and aches. I wanted to stop the pain and just created more, but I don't care, it doesn't matter anymore and it will end soon. I will no longer exist, but that's okay. It's what I want. I won't get on others nerves, or in the way. I will no longer be weak and have to count on others to protected me or rescue me. I don't understand how the others can even look at me. I'm short and slow. I'm weak and I'm far from pretty.

Fairy tail. The strongest guild in fiore. That may be but they would be stronger still without the likes of me weighing them down. That's why I decided to end it, now, once and for all. These cuts and scars on my arms and body have haunted me for months. I'm useless and fragile and weak and worthless. I've worn long sleeves for too long now and I'm tired of this pain, this hurt that I have no control over. Suppose that's why I started cutting, so that I had a pain I could control.

Levy was in a clearing in a forest. She was lead on the floor with a razor at her feet. She had deep gashes that covered her body. It was raining and blood was seeping out of her wounds and mixed with the wet earth. She had a deep cut on the left side of her neck below her ear, which was about ten centimetres in length. She also had one on each arm that ran diagonal from her wrist to her elbow. She had two on each of her hips which made an X on either side, and she had one on each of her thighs that ran from the outside of her thigh to the inside of her knees.

Her eyes sight started to dim and loose focuses. She couldn't move she was too weak. Her clothes were soaked through and covered in earth and blood. Her now numb body was starting to shut down, and if she could of she would have made a sad smile. Her vision went blurry and suddenly a person's shadow loomed over her but she couldn't make out who it was.

Really could she have no peace in which to finally rest.

She heard them say something but her ears weren't working so she couldn't understand it. Then she felt herself being lifted and a painful moan escaped her mouth before she faded completely into the blackness.

Gajeel

"God damn rain!" he ran a hand over his eyes to wipe the rain from them. The job had took longer than expected too complete and now he and pantherlily where taking the short cut back to the guild through the forest, only problem was it is raining and it had flooded most of the paths. Lily was hiding beneath gajeels coat as he stumbled about the trees.

He stumbled into a clearing ad stopped dead. Someone was in the middle of the clearing on the floor. It was a female, blue hair covered her face and her pale skin was matted in fresh blood, mud and water. Gajeel recognised her straight away and it made his blood run cold. She wasn't moving. "LILY! GO SEE WHERE WE ARE! NOW!" his voice wavered dangerously.

The confused cat emerged from his coat. Upon seeing the girl raced up to see where they were. Gajeel ran to her and sank, slowly, landed on his knees by her side. "Le-levy?!" he reached out a shaky hand and hesitated before gently moved hair out of her face. "Jesus Christ levy what the fuck happened!" his voice shook worriedly. He quickly ripped his shirt into strips and used them as bandages to stop the bleeding. After a while he manage to stop it almost completely but she was incredibly pale from loss of blood.

He noticed something at her feet and reached forward to pick it up. As soon as he realise what it was his hand visibly shook. He knew it was her, he could smell her sent on it. He realise what had happened here now, but he couldn't believe it. Not her. Not his bookworm. His eyes clenched shut and he tilted his head to the side letting the rain wash over it. He put his hands on her shoulders and gently shook.

"Shrimp. Shrimp! Common please wake up. Come on levy PLEASE!" relief washed over him as he saw her slowly open her eyes which was then immediately replaced but dread as he saw how unfocused her eyes were and how they had glazed over. Her eyes started to shut again. "No. no. no! NO! Levy please stay with me. PLEASE LEVY" he quickly pulled her closed to him and lifted her. A painful moan escaped from her mouth when he lifted her. The sound pulled at his heart, and forced him to breathe deeply before managing to continue.

Lily landed on his shoulder. "We're 10 miles from the nearest hospital Gajeel. I can get us there in 15 minutes."

"Well she aint gunna last 15 fucking minutes!"

Pantherlily looked shocked and slightly taken back. Well our house is 2 miles from here but I thought you would have wanted her to have professional help for her."

"Professional help won't be any help if she's dead lily! Take us home now!" he said angrily and then the whispered very quietly "Please lily. Please."

Upon hearing that last bit quickly transformed in to his larger form and flew off with both of them to his and Gajeels house. Lily felt sympathetic for the dragon slayer who he knew was trying to hide his emotions. He also knew that he wasn't actually supposed to of hear him pleading with him to take him home so he pretended to not have heard it and took the home as quickly as he could.

Lily soon landed on the steps in front of the door and released Gajeel from his grasp. Gajeel with levy in his arms kicked the door open and rushed to the kitchen where he deposited the contented of the table onto the floor in one arm sweep then gently place levy onto the table. Lily quickly got a first aid kit and put it by Gajeel on the table. He then got a bowl of warm water at put it next to the first aid kit. Gajeel quickly washed, stitched and dressed each wound individually, but as gently as he could so he wouldn't have to hear that painful moan of hers again. He didn't want to hear it EVER again. When he was dressing her wounded arms he saw other cuts and scars that confirmed what he had feared. She had indeed been hurting herself, lily had seen it also, and it had broken their hearts slightly to not of realise that their friend was so badly broken, and they got angry with themselves for not noticing that she was hurting in the first place.

Levy was still wet and cover in earth and blood but there was nothing they could do at the moment with her so badly injured. So Gajeel just took her and placed her into his bed as carefully as he could before pulling the covers over her. Smiling sadly, he looked at the girl before him, pale, covered in scars and hurting. He didn't know what he was going to do but he sure as hell wasn't going to give up on her. She was so kind and clever. So forgiving and always tries to help others. She was one of the first people to forgive him when he joined fairy tail even though he had hurt her and her comrade badly. She had always tried to make him feel like he belonged and she stood up for him. She was so unlike anyone that he had ever met. She was unique and was amazing. She didn't act scared around him when he had join and almost forgiven his straight after the Laxus incident when he had taken the bolt for levy. He had never even known her to get annoyed very much with people other than him on Tenrou Island.

He left the room silently and walked back to the kitchen to talk to pantherlily how was replacing the items Gajeel threw on the floor back on the table. He sat down at the table with a heavy thump and rested his head on the table. He let out a grown.

"Ahhhh. What do we do lily?"

Mabey we should go tell the guild?" lily suggested.

"No we don't know what her reasons, it could just make her worse. We should wait till she wakes up." 'Till she wakes up' it hung in the air. Neither of them voiced their thoughts 'IF she wakes'. Gajeel lifted his head and looked at lily. "I'll take the couch." He stated simply before rising and heading in the direction of the couch. He collapsed on the couch exorcized and feel asleep with worried thoughts for a certain bluenette.

Hey guys this was my first fanfiction. Please tell me what you think of it. In not very good at spelling so if I have made any mistakes please tell me. Helpful criticism is wanted to tell me what you guys think I need to improve on or any ideas you have. Tell me if you want me to write another chapter, I would like to but want to know what people think first. I made Gajeel kind of soft, this wasn't my intention ill try make him more like Gajeel next time. Promise. ^.^

GaLe4ever. xxx