Chapter 1

He swirled her around holding her tightly not afraid he would drop her, but afraid she wasn't real. He knew his strength it occurred to him then that he may be hurting her.

"Livvie?" he said, looking up at her to see those brown eyes he loved so much. So much fear was in the question. Apparently Olivia could sense it.

"I'm here Fitz, I'm really here. It is me Livvie."

Fitz shakes his head as if to clear it and says, "Did I squeeze you too tightly? I was so afraid that I might have been dreaming. I was afraid to let go. I have dreamed of you so much. You just do not know Liv."

"But I do know. Fitz everyday has been a nightmare without you. My dreams were all I had. They kept me sane. God I can't go back Fitz. I can't go back to a life without you. I can't."

"You won't have to Liv, because this shit is done. I am never letting you go. I don't intend to spend one more night without you beside me. I know you said Charlotte told you some things, I don't know what you know. But Mellie and I are finished we cannot even be friends it seems. We will work out the child custody issue and we are done! I am filing for divorce tomorrow. And don't bring up the Presidency. If I cannot remain President and have you, that is finished too. I will not lose you again."

He is looking at her intently ready for any resistance ready to fight for what is his. He is a determined man. Olivia Pope gives him one of her most brilliant smiles and says, "Good because I have no intention of losing you again either. I love you Fitz only you. And I want a lifetime. I want a future with you. I intend to fight as hard as you to see that it happens."

He kissed her then with all the bent up passion of a man without the love of his life for over a year. It had been brutal a nightmare that he wanted behind him. God she is in his arms so warm so soft so inviting. His erection is rampant. Remembering all the lovemaking they have shared is searing his brain. Get a grip Fitz. She has been through hell with that kidnapping. He still wanted her to see someone professionally. Maybe Dr. Kendrick who had helped him back to sanity after Jerry's death and Olivia leaving him. Dr. Kendrick had finally gotten him to realize he had to fight his own way back. They both have been through so much but as of tonight they were in this thing together and no more. No more separations and no more hindrances. Passion could wait. They would have a lifetime of it he would see to it.

She could feel him right through her clothing. He was hard as stone. He was just as she remembered him, long thick and oh so hard. She could remember every blood-filled vein every ridge. God she had missed him and the way he made love to her. The others, no matter how she tried to get into them to just go with the flow she could never feel what she felt with him. It was always so intense with him. Fitz could make her come just by talking. Oh god and what he did to her with his mouth! She felt her panties dampened. She knew he wanted her too, his ears were bright red. But she sensed his hesitation. He was concerned that she might not be ready for intimacy. They definitely had unresolved issues but she wanted this man, the only man she has ever truly loved, deep inside her tonight. And she intended to have him. She broke off the kiss and looked up at him.

"Fitz I know what you are thinking. I am fragile I admit it. I have been through things. I have done things that I should not have done. I have used people trying not to remember how much I love you. I had convinced myself that we had no future and I was roaming aimlessly trying to deny us. But I won't do anymore. I am taking my life back. Jake said."

Fitz began to shake his head and held up his hand to cut her off. Goddammit he would not listen to shit about Jake. That son of a bitch had tried to take what was his. He had touched her. The thought of it nearly killed him. He didn't give a shit what Jake said. He would not fucking listen to it!

"Hear me out Fitz, she pleaded. Jake knew his role in my life. He knew who my heart was beating for, only you. Jake made me lift the fog. I love you more than anything, it has always been you. So many times I just wanted to walk right over here to 1600 Pennsylvania Avenue and just say he's mine, I have come for him. But I was afraid of circumstances, convention, Mellie, my father so many things. But I realized I had to claim my destiny Fitz, I had to claim you if I wanted you. Jake made me see what I had to do. And I do want you so much in every way. I want you to make love to me tonight no waiting. There are kinks in our armor but we are in this thing together. We will work them out."

Fitz took a calming breath. He knew she loved him, only him. The Jake thing had almost broken him though. He had to let it go. "Sorry babe, the green-eyed monster, forgive me. Livvie you know how much I love you. I have loved you since the moment I first saw you. I tried to get you fired remember. My attraction to you hit me so hard. I wanted to kiss you right in that hallway. I knew you were my true soul mate but I was married. It terrified me that I would have to let you go. I tried to fight it but it was too strong. That night on the campaign trail when you chose me, when you chose to go to my room with me, you brought light back into my life. You brought love into my life. Our love has been some of the happiest moments of my life and some of the saddest. Like you I have done things I have said things that I can only hope you have forgiven me for. As for you my darling Livvie there is absolutely nothing I would not forgive. I love you so much. I love you with a passion I had not thought possible. I know you can feel how much I want you how much I need you. But I can wait for you; we can wait for each other to heal a bit more."

"No Fitz, don't you see. Us loving each other tonight is all part of the healing process. I want to feel your skin next to mine. I want your mouth on mine, your mouth all over me." She stops talking to find his hardness and caress him lovingly. He hisses between his teeth and mouths "Livvie." She starts to speak again as she strokes him. "I want this moving deep inside me bringing me the pleasure only you can bring. I want you above me, below me, and behind me. All of me wants all of you. I need you Fitz."

"Oh god Livvie I want you so much. I need you so much. This past year has been Hell. I have had dreams of you so vivid so real I could not stop myself from coming Liv & I didn't want to. My dreams were all I had. But they weren't enough. You are my woman the only woman I want. I have prayed for another chance so hard. I want everything to be right for you. No rushing. No pressure. Whatever you want, whatever you need. And by the way you are touching the ruler I take it you believe you are ready," he gasps.

Olivia has never taken her hand off of the "ruler." It was one of her pet name for it. It wasn't actually twelve inches, but she had thought it was the first time she saw it. So long, thick, rippled with veins and the blue tinged head staring her right in the face. Her man had the full package and she intended to have it inside her tonight. "Oh I am ready. When I said whatever we want I meant starting now tonight and I want you Fitz. Don't you want me too? Don't you want to be with me?"

"Do I want to be with you? I want to bury myself so deep in you baby we can't tell where I stop and you begin. I want to spread you open and just look at you. I want to taste you. Livvie I have been pleasuring myself for over a year all the while wanting no one but you. Hell yes I want you sweet baby. Come with me. Come with me and let me show you how much I want you."

He takes her hand and leads her from the balcony to his suite of rooms. The huge super king-sized bed stood in the middle of the room. The room was decorated beautifully and yet very presidential. Fitz stood Liv in front of the dresser and said "Don't move." He closed the outside door locked it and closed the curtains. He then walked to the other bedroom door and opened it. Liv could hear him talking. "I don't want to be disturbed tonight unless World War III breaks out, Am I clear? No one is to cross either one of these thresholds"

She stood there waiting almost giddy her eyes closed. She was with the man she loved more than life. They were together and they were going to stay together. They were going to get their shot. They were going to Vermont to make babies and jam. She placed her hand on her stomach, babies! She was smiling like she had stolen something. She stood there waiting for her future, waiting for Fitzgerald Thomas Grant III leader of the free world, and she had claimed him for herself.