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Warnings: Look to the first chapter.

The years before she reached the start of the story flew by. Between trying to get used to her body and gender, while forcing herself to act like a relatively normal child she was constantly on edge.

In her past life she never had a problem knowing who she was, she was a mother, a wife of a loving husband and that's all there was to it. Now though, now she was completely different.

Ren was a male, twin to a character in a yaoi manga and stuck in a young body while having the mind of an adult. Most of the time she yearned to get away from the overwhelming presence of two parents she never felt a connection to, she wanted to be independent, have a job and make her own rules.

It took about a year, but eventually she got used to it and just accepted her situation. It wasn't all too bad, Ritsu's presence was soothing and they got along despite the fact she wasn't actually his brother. He was more of a bookworm then she was, that was obvious after she witnessed him go through three books within a weeks time. He ate them up like she did oranges showing that he too was more mentally intelligent but not on the level that people noticed.

Five years passed and went and before she knew it she was nearly a completely different person.

Age eleven

Shopping for clothes was the first huge problem she came upon in regards to accepting her gender. They went to some random, but obviously high-end, clothing store full of cute dresses, nice skirts and gorgeous shoes that she had to pass in favor of looking in the boys section.

It didn't feel right to her, the pants were too baggy and the shirts usually had some cartoon character aimed toward the male population. She didn't say anything though, with her mother being so stern and the fact that she didn't want to say anything she forced herself to try and find something she liked.

"How about this one?"

She shook her head and Akiko put the shirt back on the rack with a thoughtful expression. "You aren't usually this hard to find clothes for Ren, is something the matter?"

"I'm just not into this sort of style anymore." She replied, glancing over the clothes surrounding her. "Is there something more...punk?"

Her mother furrowed her brows. "Punk?"

"You know like ripped jeans, sarcastic shirts and spiky jewelry?"

The older woman didn't seem to like the thought of her son wearing such clothing. Ren wasn't too surprised, Akiko and her husband were formal people who liked wearing black and white clothing. Heck even Ritsu was rather into that more 'grown-up' style then she was, but she honestly just wanted something a little bit feminine. To her places like Hot-topic and such weren't really focused on one gender, a male or female could walk in the store and buy the same exact clothing without thinking it didn't fit to their gender.

Akiko pursed her lips. "Why on earth would you want to wear that sort of clothing?"

"I just thought it was interesting." She murmured not liking the disapproving look she was earning. "I'm not into the type of clothing you and father are."

From the looks of it Ren was going to have to deal with the white shirts and black pants until she grew old enough to get a job. Which she could survive, just because she preferred a certain style didn't mean she wasn't going to be open to other ideas.

She looked at the white button-up shirt her mother had placed down and stared at it, she was good at adapting. "Never-mind, I think this clothing is fine."

The older woman didn't seem to believe her in the least but grabbed up a few shirts of the same style and some other things without another word. Apparently pretending to like the style was enough for Akiko to just forget what she said and act like it never happened.

"Are you okay Nii-san?"

Ren looked back at her brother who was looking at her in concern and nodded her head. "Yeah, everything's fine."

Ritsu huffed and grabbed her hand before following their mother deeper into the store. "Liar."

She looked down at their intwined hands and allowed a small smile to form on her face, Ritsu always comforted her without having to know why she was upset. It was like he had an instinct ingrained in him just for her, in some ways it made her feel special. Besides her husband Ritsu was the only one who knew her well enough to tell things like that and that made her miss her past life a little less. With Ritsu around she was sure to survive until she got old enough to go out on her own.

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When it came to her father their relationship was nearly nonexistent. Most of the time he was gone and when he was home he usually locked himself in his office for the whole day. If she find happen to see him for more then a few moments she could easily tell despite being busy their father was much more accepting of her and Ritsu's own decisions. Like the both of them he had green eyes but that was where the similarities ended, with his dark hair and just aura of 'don't mess with me' many people ended up becoming intimidated by his mere presence.

"You're mother was telling me you've been acting odd lately Ren."

She sighed from her spot standing in front of his desk, of course Akiko told her husband about how she was acting odd. Though she and the past Ren were similar, they weren't the same person so there was bound to be confusion for the next few months. "I've just been thinking lately, that's all."

Noboru, her father, hummed thoughtfully as he continued to stare at her. "Any particular reason why? From what Akiko told me you've become more distant and have gained interest in a very different style then you usually wear."

How could she explain this to him without sounding insane? She couldn't very well tell him she wasn't his son and was in fact a grown woman stuck in a child's body. "I just started to mature I suppose."

The older man nodded and intertwined his fingers, for a moment he gazed at her without allowing any emotion to pass across his face. She refused to allow herself to squirm under his gaze, for some reason she felt like he was analyzing her and if she showed any weakness he'd title her as weak.

"I'll talk to Akiko tonight, just don't go too crazy with the satanic symbols and leather."

She held back a retort knowing better then to look a gift horse in the mouth, not all people that were into that sort of look wore stuff like that but Noboru didn't know that. For whatever reason he was allowing her to do as she wanted and that removed a heavy weight off of her shoulders. Maybe her situation was as bad as she first thought.

Age twelve

As usual school was her worst enemy, though the children were a lot more well-behaved then when she was back in High School it was still school. Many times the teachers would mix her and Ritsu up since they were identical and the girls would coo about how cute they were together. Though she didn't care it drove Ritsu mad, unlike the cannon he almost seemed more confident then she had seen him be as a child. It was probably to do with the fact that he had a brother instead of being mostly secluded from the rest of the students because he had his nose in a book all the time.

Of course Ristu still read, but not as often as one would expect him to. She expected he'd get more interested once he met Takano which would activate his stalking, that always amused her when she read the Manga. Their love had been so adorable.

Despite the students saying they wished to have an identical twin as well, she and Ritsu didn't socialize with anyone very much. Mostly because the teachers were aware of who Noboru was which made them act more formal which in turn made the students keep their distance. Ritsu wasn't too bothered though, in fact he seemed perfectly content with ignoring them in favor of doing work or talking to her.

Sometimes that worried her since children needed to make friends, sure she and Ritsu were twins but that didn't mean they were the same person. As much as she adored him she wished he'd try and branch out before completely dismissing everyone.

Ren wasn't in control of what he did though, so she could only observe and make sure she wasn't unintentionally forcing him to hang out with only her.

Out of the two of them she had the higher grades, which only came from her not wanting to seem like and idiot but at the same time trying to level down her intelligence. Being seen as a genius wasn't something she intended to achieve, people would set higher standards and she'd have to be constantly worrying about meeting them or risk disappointing a lot of people. So on the tests she purposely got things wrong but made it so she answered just enough questions to be seen as smart. There was only so much she could hold back after all.

Ritsu was smart in his own way, the only problem he had was with math which set his average slightly lower than hers. But that was easily changed once she started to help him with his homework and explain the problem in a way he'd understand better. They had a lot of expectations due to the fact that their father was so important so she made sure to keep Ritsu happy, at his age he didn't need to be weighed down by something as extreme as that quite yet.

Because of this, she and Ritsu became even closer and in turn he became surprisingly protective.

But she never knew how much until a boy decided to pick on the geek of the class when everyone had already left to head home.

"You know being all smart and all I think you should help out your classmates." A boy with gelled hair spoke as he leaned against her desk.

She rose a brow. "Is that so?"

He smiled. "Yeah, it isn't fair that you keep on getting good grades while the some of us are hardly passing."

Ren was tempted to say he should try to study instead of goofing off but decided against it. "I wouldn't be a very good teacher."

"I think you're lying," He shook his finger mockingly in her face. "A friend of mine was telling me how your brothers grades in math suddenly rocketed about a month ago, I wonder who could have helped him."

She held back a sigh, was this so necessary? Just because she was smart people saw her as a 'geek' and instantly saw her as the weak link. "Look just ask someone else, I don't have time for your childishness." Now she was getting annoyed by this whole situation and that made her placid personality to turn harsh.

The boy 'tched and suddenly she was grabbed by her collar and forced to stand so their faces were nearly touching. "Here's how it's going to go, you're going to do my homework for the rest of the year and I'll hold back from beating you to a pulp, okay?"

She gazed at his malicious face coldly. "No."

His face darkened dangerously and she could almost hear a 'snap' go off. His arm cocked back and his hand formed into a fist but her gaze didn't waver from staring him directly in the eyes. She had been a few fights before, she wasn't afraid to take a hit.

The boy hesitated when she didn't so much as move, confusion crossing his features.

Before either of them could say anything a fist slammed into the side of the boy's face making his grip slip from her uniform as he staggered back with a yelp of pain.

Ren turned to look at her savior, eyes widening slightly when she saw Ritsu with a severely pissed off expression on his face. "If you so much as touch my brother again I'll kill you."

The boy stared at her brother with a hand covering his cheek and took a few steps back, she spotted tears gathering in his eyes for a moment before he was racing out of the room and down the hallway. She wasn't too surprised since the boy was only twelve after all, he probably didn't expect to be the one who was hit.

"Are you okay?" Ritsu asked, eyes blazing with anger as he took a few deep breaths to calm himself down.

Ren nodded, watching the small boy in wonder. She had no idea that her brother had that in him, sure Ritsu had always been hot tempered but she never imagined him going as far as to hit someone. Though she didn't condone violence, having someone do something so courageous so they could protect her made a soft smile form on her face. Slowly she walked forward and embraced the other boy, snuggling her face into his neck as his arms wrapped around her as well.

"Thanks Ritsu."

Neither of them said a word to their parents about that day and whenever she happened to pass by the boy he always made sure to avoid her eyes, it was safe to say no one dared to try and bully either of them again.

Age thirteen

His third year of being a boy was when Ren finally started to accept who he was. The constant conflict he was having with his inner-self and the fact that he had changed genders was wearing on him mentally and he knew it would lead to something bad if he continued to fight it. The fact was though, he didn't fully transform into a different person, he was still the mother who missed her family, but at the same time he was Ren.

It was honestly a little confusing, but eventually Ren accepted the changes and saw them as good. This was a new chance at life, he was given another try with his memories of everyone he loved from his past life and that was more then what he could ask for. Being able to remember his daughter and husband was something he cherished but never lingered on, eventually he was going to have to move on with his own life no matter how painful it was.

He didn't get rid of who he had been completely though, in fact little things such as joining the art and swimming club was one of the things she had wanted to do when she got old enough. It was something to keep his mind off the mind-numbing boredom of school and a way to exercise without getting too smelly.

Many people saw him as feminine since the girl inside of him still lingered, and that was fine. After being what he had been through Ren wasn't one care what people thought when in regards to how he acted. He was Ren with a twist and that was all there was to it.

His mother still thought his style was atrocious even if he didn't go full out and people still called him a geek, but otherwise everything was okay.

That was until he started puberty.

Then all Hell broke lose.

Having been a girl in his past life Ren knew about what males went through during puberty, but only to a small extent. Most of his knowledge was obviously focused on girls and what they went through, so it was easy for him to be shocked when he woke up to sore bones and well...that. All of his talk about accepting who he was turned meaningless when it came to the lower part of his body, still he had a hard time looking at it not to mention touching it. So to see it so eager was well, shocking.

He could only stare at blanket, or one place in particular, in confusion and panic. What was he supposed to do?! Beside him Ritsu stirred making his blood turn cold, images of his brothers reactions ran through his mind was enough of a motivation for him to scramble off the bed and topple onto the floor.

His brother yelped in shock and sat upright, eyes wide and alert as his gaze darted around the room. "What's happening?! Are you okay Ren?!"

Ren nodded from his place on the floor and stayed perfectly still. "Just dandy."

Ritsu groaned and he heard a soft 'thump' signifying that the other boy had laid back down. "Why are you on the floor?"

"It's comfortable."

An awkward silence.

Ren shifted uncomfortably on the floor but stilled when the movement sent a warm sensation down his spine. How in the world was that so sensitive?! What in the world was he going to do until it calmed down, just pretend he really was comfortable and wait it out or something?

"I'm going to go to the bathroom." He announced, making sure to keep his back facing his brother. "I need to use the toilet."

Ritsu snorted. "Isn't that what people usually go to the bathroom for?"

Yeah but he didn't want his brother thinking he was doing something suspicious in there or anything, that'd be so embarrassing if Ritsu knew what he was going to try and accomplish.

Forcing himself to not walk like a duck Ren quickly made his way out of the room and headed toward the bathroom, hands nearly shaking as he fumbled with the door nob. He sighed when the door opened and quickly closed and locked it with a loud 'bang'. Hesitantly he looked down and eyed it, cheeks flushing hotly as he finally saw how happy it looked.

Okay so this couldn't be so hard, right? This was his body, he could do this.

...Maybe.

After that embarrassing freak-out he only experienced a few more of those moments but nothing too intense which made him relax, his bones ached from growing nearly two inches within a year but it wasn't anything too bad so he was able to deal. He held back from talking to either of his parents about it since he didn't trust them enough to converse about something so personal, but he was sure his mother suspected something. Akiko was stern, but a good mother who took care of her children and knew when they were going through some major changes.

Ren wasn't able to tell if Ritsu had went through anything yet, since his brother never said anything about it, but he expected that Ritsu was more of a late bloomer then he was and had yet to experienced anything. Which was good and bad, bad since Ren had no one to talk to about it but good since he could help the other boy out when he went through those certain changes.

Not like that, but like try to explain things and such.

Ah God he was so doomed.

Age fifteen

Ren's second stage of puberty started sometime after his fourteenth birthday, which resulted in him shooting up to a shocking 5' 11'' far taller then he had been in his past life. Thankfully he seemed to settle for a little while which allowed his bones to finally relax, but with that came more moments and frequent bathroom visits. It also seemed that Ritsu started his puberty as well since he grew a good couple inches within the time they turned fifteen and more then once Ren spotted him racing toward the bathroom and couldn't help but snicker.

He was proud to say though, he had master it.

Unfortunately though the changes started again and gained in speed near to his fifteenth birthday. His body started to show how his constant swimming was affecting his overall physique started to slim down. It was startling, that much was for sure, but he was actually very interested in what was happening. Ren took to constantly visiting the library and reading about the changes of Puberty and how long it would last since he wanted to get to know his body better. It was actually very interesting to him since his body was going to be changing so much that he couldn't help but be in awe. His voice was going to change, he'd probably grow a few inches taller, and he'd actually be able to grow a beard.

Though there were moments he'd freak out, Ren was slowly getting used to dealing with his body. In some ways it was easier then a females, he didn't have to deal with crying over ridiculous things every month, but in the same case he had to deal with it constantly.

Like, it just wouldn't calm down.

Besides that though Ren had a peaceful life. He and Ritsu started up High School in the spring, it was a surprisingly large building with a rather impressive library that Ren took advantage of to read up on Puberty. It was free so why not?

Then well...he bumped into someone.

Ren grunted as he took a few steps back and rubbed his nose while looking up at the taller male. "Sorry I wasn't looking where I was going."

"It's fine."

He blinked a few times and then narrowed his eyes, taking in the dark hair covering the strange males face and over all looks. The boy was very tall and obviously older then him so he assumed that he was at least two years older.

The boy just passed by him without saying another word, and Ren watched him, trying to remember where in the world he had seen him from. Maybe he was in one of his classes?

"Ren did you find what you were looking for?"

He turned toward Ritsu who had a book in his hand and nodded and raised his own book. "Yeah."

Ritsu smiled and motioned toward librarian. "Then let's go, you have swimming in thirty minutes right?"

"Right."

Ren shot one last glance over his shoulder, eyebrow raising when he saw the same boy looking their direction. Though he couldn't see the strangers eyes he could feel that the student was looking at him. He wasn't too surprised since people looked at them often, for some reason everyone loved staring at them and trying to see the differences between them, but he didn't think the other male was looking for that reason.

Just who was he?

AN: A lot of people where saying they wanted Ren paired with Mino, and I actually had no idea who you were talking about until I looked him up lol. I'll definitely think about it. Anyways I hope you liked the chapter and I apologize for any mistakes.