WARNING HEAVY HEAVY ABUSE. MAY BE TRIGGERING. PLEASE LEAVE IF YOU CANNOT HANDLE THIS.

Fem!Tsuna

Abused!Tsuna

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Four year old Tsuna ran into her room slamming the door. She slid down to the floor with tears in her eyes. She slammed her hands to her ears to try and block out the screaming down stairs.

Papa had started hitting mama again.

She had tried to help mama, but papa had smacked her away. Mama had scoffed at him and yelled at him again. He quickly turned on mama. Tsuna had run up the stairs to get to her room before he noticed.

She didn't know why papa did these things. Why papa hit mama and her. She didn't know why mama got mad at her either. She loved her mama and papa. So why did they hurt her?

Tsuna let her hands sink from her ears and instead buried her face in them. Her face hurt where he had smacked her.

She walked over to climb into her bed. She covered herself up and rubbed her cheek. She sniffled as she started to fall asleep to the yelling down stairs.

Tomorrow would be better.

–

Six year old Tsuna walked past her papa quietly, trying not to wake him up. He had passed out on the couch with a bottle in his hand. He was still in is police uniform so she figured he just got off work. She walked into the kitchen and poured herself a glass of water. She was hungry, but didn't want to risk making to much noise. She went to exit the kitchen but the glass slipped from her hand and the glass shattered on the floor.

She heard cursing as she stood in shock. She started tearing up as she heard him stomping into the kitchen. He stopped in front of her and started screaming at her for the mess she made.

"You piece of shit! Look at what you did! I paid for that, and you ungrateful bitch just has to go and break it!" He slapped her and she fell to the floor. She yelped in pain as pieces of glass entered the palms of her hand.

"Papa, I'm sorry I didn't mean too. I'm sorry. I'm sorry." She whimpered as he pressed his steel-toe boot on top of her hand causing the glass to go deeper. He sneered at her and lifted his boot from her and only to kick her in the side.

"Pick up the mess. Your just like your mother, you stupid ungrateful brat." She felt a small scream slip through her lips as he kicked her again before leaving the room. Tsuna lifted her hands and started pulling out pieces of glass. She stood and grabbed the broom and mop to clean up the glass, blood, and water that covered the floor.

When she entered her room she lifted her shirt and moaned at the movement. Her whole side was bruised. She went to her bathroom and tried to bandage her hands. There where still a few small pieces of glass she had to dig out before she could wrap them.

After that, she climbed in bed and had to sleep on the non-bruised side. She closed her teary eyes and fell asleep.

Tomorrow would be better.

–

Eight year old Tsuna had walked in on her mama. Mama had a cigarette in her mouth and had a bunch of powder on the table and was moving into a straight line. "Mama, whats that?" She pointed toward the powder. Her mother turned and scowled at her daughter.

"None of your business. Now get." She shooed her off and flicked her ashes. Tsuna stayed where she was as she watched her mother get a straw. She wondered what her mama was doing. "Are you going to suck up powder mama? Is it a powdered liquid? That so cool!"

Her mother glanced at her and got a sly grin on her face. "Wanna try something Tsuna? Come 'ere." She grabbed Tuna's shoulder in a bruising grip. Tsuna winced as she was roughly put in the chair her mother was in.

"Now grab that straw and instead of sucking it up, your going to breath it in through your nose. Here." She separated a small but of powder and made it into a smaller line. She took another straw from the table. Okay so put in up to your nose and watch mommy." She inhaled through her nose.

Tsuna watched excitedly. Her mother had never shown her anything before. She was so happy her mother was paying attention to her! After her mother finished she watched concerned as her mother coughed and started sniffing repeatedly. Her mother then turned to her and in a rough voice said, "Okay your turn." Tsuna did what her mother did before. It burned, but she didn't was to disappoint her mother, so she continued. When finished she fell out of her chair hacking.

Her mother smiled and took a puff of her cigarette. She looked amused. "Good girl. Now get the hell out of here" She grabbed her daughter by her shirt and dragged her away. Tsuna whimpered as her back hit the floor. She landed on her bruises.

She then looked up at her mother and smiled slightly. "Thank you mama! Love you." She giggled and curled up on her side on the floor. Her mother scoffed and kicked her slightly. "Shut up."

She then leaned down and cupped her daughters face, bringing it up. She looked into her daughters brown eyes. "I will never love you. I never even wanted you." Tsuna smiled at her mother with a few tears running down her face. "I know mama. I know." Her mama looked satisfied and let her child's head fall back to the ground.

Tsuna giggled as her mother walked away. The shadows in the room where moving. They seemed to come at her. She stared at the shadowed claws wondering if they would beat her too. "Brat, what the hell are you doing? Get out of my way and go up to your fucking room." A big shadow preached her and she felt a sharp pain in her side. She curled up into a tight ball on the floor.

She then felt her hair being pulled and sharp pains along her back. She thinks the shadow was dragging her up the stairs. She groaned at the pain. She was thrown into her room.

Her father scowled at her. She looked high. Did that bitch give her his shit? He thundered down the stairs screaming.

Tsuna stayed in her position on the floor listening to screaming down stairs. She let tears fall down her faces she closed her eyes.

Tomorrow would be better….right?

Papa was in a bad mood.

He grabbed ten year old Tsuna's hair and threw her across the room. Her mother just sneered at the sight and left the room.

"Stupid ungrateful pig. You didn't even wash your plate. I shouldn't even feed that stupid mouth of yours. Both you and your mother cost me money. I don't know why I don't just get rid of both of you."

Tsuna whimpered and sat up from the floor.

He grinned at her. "You know what? Why should I feed you? Waste of space." He walked over and grabbed her by the hair and dragged her across the floor. He walked over to a door and opened it after undoing the lock. He looked down the stairs into the basement. He flicked on the light and dragged her down the stairs behind him. She screamed and tried to get away.

He threw her down the last few steps. "This is your new room. You annoy me, plus I hate looking at that ugly face." She Stood up slowly with a fear stricken face. She was scared of the dark. He smirked at her face and started back up the stairs. She started to run up the stairs, but he was already out the door and he had the door locked. She screamed and beat on the door.

"Papa please! Papa, I'll be good! I promise! I'm sorry I eat to much, I'm sorry I take up to much space, I'm sorry I'm a no good piece of trash! Papa please open the door! Papa! Papa! PAPA! PLEASE PAPA, PLEASE! I'LL BE A GOOD GIRL! PAPA!" she screamed at the top of her lungs as the lights turned off. She realized the light switch was on the outside of the door.

She felt herself slid down to the top step. She shut her eyes when she started seeing scary things in the dark. Forcing her back against the door she started humming."

Tomorrow might be better….

–

Tsuna felt a something bite her leg. She swatted at hit weakly. She couldn't see it, but she figured it was another rat. There where a lot down here. Bugs too. She had eaten a couple bugs that where crawling in her skin. She was starving. She lifted her hand to her side. If she wanted, she could count the number of ribs on her side. Tsuna winced as the lights suddenly turned on, causing he bugs and mice around her to scatter. She had grown used to the pitch black darkness.

Papa was fixing to come in. She learned that he always turned on the lights before he opened the door. She squinted at the dim light. She wondered how long she's been in here. It feel's like forever.

Papa came stomping down the steps. He carried a couple bottles of water and a sandwich down the steps. At the last step he threw the sandwich down on the floor along with the bottles of water. Tsuna scrambled over to the food.

He sneered and watched as his daughter stuffed her face like a disgusting pig. "Your just like a wild animal." She looked up with scared eyes as she shrunk away from the food and him. She was covered in filth and dirt. She was practically skin and bones.

"You know. It's been two years since you where first put here," Her eyes widen. That long? She wiped her nose with her hand. He wrinkled his nose in disgust. "To tell you the truth I almost forgot about you down here. Last time I came in was a couple weeks ago. Good thing you had two water bottles. Or not. After all, it would have been better if you went without. Other people need that stuff. Not disgusting pigs like you."

She looked away from him. "I'm sorry papa." It came out rough and cracked. She used to sing in here, but it had started to hurt her throat. He sneered and started to approach her. "Your voice pisses me off." He reached into his back pocket and pulled out a pocket knife.

She felt her eyes widen. He had only used a knife on her a few times. She still had scars from those times. She hated the knife. She backed up against the wall.

He Grabbed her neck and forced her face-down on the nasty floor. He lifted the back of her torn up shirt and sneered. Taking the knife he started to cut away at her back. She screamed and wiggled while trying to get away. He ignored her and started carving words into her back.

Ungrateful

worthless

waste of space

stupid

failure

unwanted

dumb

hated

piece of shit

He spent hours carving hateful words into her skin. Blood was everywhere. It was a miracle she hadn't died of blood loss. Instead she passed out from pain as he carved even as she lie asleep.

He had obviously planned this, because he took out a bunch of bandages from his pocket and wrapped the wounds. He wanted them to scar.

He left the room whistling.

A little while later Tsuna blearily opened her eyes, She couldn't move an inch. It hurt. She felt light headed even though she was laying down. She felt the bandages hug her small frame. She let out a weak laugh. It hurt. "Why papa? Why…." She cried no tears. They seemed to have all dried up.

Tomorrow wouldn't be better. It would never be.

–

'Whats wrong with you?'

Tsuna had started hearing little voices. They where almost always talking. They could be whispering across the room and then suddenly right it her ear. It gave her headaches. She had started talking to them. They never yell, just whisper. She had learned that they completely stopped when papa or mama came down. She guessed they didn't like other people.

She had been terrified at first, like she was of the dark, but then, like the dark, grew to like them. Even though most of them are really mean to her. Like the one that was whispering now.

"I don't know."

'You should. You've been told your whole life.'

Tsuna petted a small mouse that was near her side. It turned and nipped her fingers. She was probably bleeding. "I know. Papa and mama let me know. They just want me to get better."

'Why would they want you to get better? They never wanted you in the first place.'

She scratched the back of her hand. It was raw and scabbed up from her bad habit of scratching at it. "I don't know."

'Maybe you should just kill yourself. Since they don't want you.'

She flicked off a bug crawling on her leg. "I always wanted papa and mama to want me. But I doubt they ever will. I wonder if when I'm older I can be let out? Then I might find someone to want me."

'They will never let you out. Besides, no one will want you. Your a disgusting, ugly, ungrateful, pig remember? Who would want that?'

Tsuna caught a bug on her arm. It had just bit her. This one was big fat one. She put it in her mouth. With a crunch, it died. "Maybe they will. You never know. I like baby pigs. They're cute."

'Baby pigs are cute. Not fat ugly ones who can eat everything and anything they see.'

She frowned. "But I've gotten better! I've only eaten five bu- six bugs for the last three weeks. I ran out of water about three days ago. Plus, the rats stole half of my bread the last time he came down. That's why I try to eat the bugs. All the big ones bite and its hard to not knock them away."

'That's disgusting. Pig. No normal people eat bugs.'

She pouted at the voice. "Oh shut up. I'm going to sleep." Se plopped down on her side, startling a few mice and bugs. She started humming really loud to make the voice shut up.

'Maybe if you stopped being worthless, papa would love you.'

'Maybe if you stopped being a waste of space, mama would want you.'

She hummed louder.

She didn't know when tomorrow was.

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