This has been in my head for a while so I decided to finally get it written. Possibly a full story, depending on reviews and how you all feel about it. Enjoy and let me know what you think. :)

It had been a few months since she's seen him and she was nervous to be back. She didn't want to run but when she looked down and saw a positive pregnancy test she knew she had to, he just turned 18 and go patched into the club, he wouldn't want a baby and she didn't want to burden him with one.

She was now five months along and showing. After running to San Diego and living with her aunt Lucy, for a while Tara thought she'd be fine. She thought she'd raise the baby out there and go on with life with a little piece of Jax forever. That was before Josh Kohn came into her life and turned it upside down in the worst way possible.

They had started hanging out a month after she went down there and shortly after that he'd asked her if she'd be his girl. He knew she was pregnant and said he was going to be with her through it all. Tara found it strange but she didn't think too much about it.

He was sweet and caring at first, as time went on that changed too. As the months passed, Josh became demanding and controlling, when he saw her crow he asked what it was. Tara really didn't want to talk about it, it was hard enough going day by day missing the only guy she's ever loved. She missed him but knew she couldn't go back. "I don't wanna talk about it, it's in the past."

She never saw the slap coming, "You whore, whoever he is, is dead to us now. This is our family!" After that Tara told him it was over and avoided any contact with him. She couldn't believe he actually put his hands on her, what did she get herself into?

Josh was relentless and wouldn't leave her alone, one night when her aunt was at work and she was alone he had gotten into the house. "Josh?! What the fuck are you doing here?" she stared wide eyed at him. He walked closer to her side by the couch and reached out.

"I'm sorry TarTar. I know I scared you and I shouldn't have put my hands on you, forgive me please. We can be a family, the three of us."

She looked at him with disgust, "Leave, now. We're done Joshua. I'm sorry but we can't, I don't want to be with yo-" he shoved her down on the couch and covered her mouth with his hands.

"Shh, you're going to listen to me." he took his hands away and Tara let out a scream, only to have his fist connect with her mouth. "You bitch!" he yelled as he started beating her.

Tara woke up in a hospital bed with IV's in her. She looked over and saw her aunt sitting in the chair. She tried moving but the pain was too much, she groaned which woke her aunt up. Walking over she placed a hand on Tara's head, "How you feeling baby girl?"

"Pained." she all but whispered, her throat breathed a sigh of relief that she was up and talking.

Tara's hand went to her small bump, oh my god, the baby. She looked at her aunt with tears in her eyes, "The b...baby? Is the baby okay?"

"The baby's fine, sweetheart. How about you? What the hell happened Tara?"

Taking a deep breathe Tara told her aunt everything she remembered, from Josh coming in to beating her unconscious. Hearing her aunts gasps of horror broke her heart.

"You have to go back. He has a right to know about his baby, to be apart of its life. You've got to get out of here." Tara nodded at her aunt's words.

It felt strange but nice to be back to the only place she ever called home. She stayed at her dads house since he'd disappeared years ago. Setting everything up inside, she hopped in the cutlass and drove over to the local grocery store needing some supplies and food for the house.

After grabbing everything she needed she checked out and headed back to the car.

"Tara? Tara is that you?" she turned around to see a stunned Gemma looking at her, her eyes growing even bigger as she landed in Tara's growing belly. "Hi Gem." She braced herself for the wrath of the queen, which is why she was surprised when instead she got pulled in a hug.

"Oh sweetie, where the hell have you been?" The matriarch seemed genuinely concerned for her, Gemma didn't always like Tara but she came around.

Tara pulled back and looked at her, "Come with me to the house? I've got to get this stuff put away and it's hot out here." Gemma nodded and they went in their separate cars back to Tara's father's house, where Tara let everything out. Why she left, where she went, why she's back, everything. When she was done she took off the sunglasses and showed Gemma her bruised face, then her back and legs.

Gemma gasped, "I'm so sorry honey. That scumbag needs to be fucking shit through the head...Wait, that would mean.."

"It's Jax's baby." Tara said right away. "I know I shouldn't have left without telling him but I didn't think he'd want the burden of all this. He just got patched, the clubs something he's always wanted."

Gemma nodded her head, "He's been a mess. He doesn't understand what happened to make you leave."

"Has he been...?" she couldn't finish the sentence but she didn't have to, Gemma knew what she was asking. "Drowning himself in weed, alcohol, and work. Occasional pussy but he can't stop thinking about you."

Tears welled in her eyes, "I missed him everyday since I've been gone. I don't think he'd want to see me. I just need some time before I can face him, can you please hold back on telling him I'm back?"

After contemplating a minute Gemma sighed, "Sure thing baby. If you need anything let me know, and make sure you're taking care of me grandbaby." she smiled as she rubbed Tara's bump.

"Will do, Grandma." She smirked.

Gemma smiled, "Asshole." with a quick kiss on the cheek and a goodbye, Gemma was on her way. Tara sat back on the couch with her head thrown back. If she could muster up the courage to face Jax, it'd be a lot easier than hiding out from him.

She spent a majority of the day unpacking and fixing up the house before laying down in bed, which was useless because she couldn't sleep. Her stomach was in knots about Jax. After finally falling into a troubled sleep, her alarm went off several hours later.

Getting up and dressed she grabbed the keys to the cutlass and took a breath, "You could do this. It's just Jax." she muttered to herself.

She smiled as she rode over to the clubhouse, passing all her favorite little shops and places she'd sneak off to with Jax. As she pulled into the parking lot, the baby started kicking. Tara smiled, "I'm nervous too." she talked down to her belly.

Parking the car, she jumped out and looked around. John Teller was looking at her first, with a surprised but pleased look, he smiled at her from the garage. The rest of guys smiled and waved at her, easing her nerves a bit. The next pair of eyes she saw on her belonged to Jax's best friend, Opie, who was like a big brother to her.

He brisk walked over to her and pulled her into his arms, as far as the baby bump would allow her to go anyway. "Jesus Christ, where have you been?" he pulled back and his eyes went to her stomach, "And what have you been up to?"

"Don't give me that look Winston, it's Jax's." she shot him a look to which he smirked at. "Glad to hear. We'll be talking later but I gotta get back to work." He kissed her forehead, knocking off the glasses and exposing her bruises, "Tara?" his face went cold and hard.

She didn't need this, not right now, she needed to talk to Jax first. "Later Ope, I promise." begrudgingly, he nodded and went back to the car on the lot.

She sighed to herself as she walked towards the clubhouse, stopping dead in her tracks when she looked up and saw Jackson Teller gaping at her. He looked better than she remembered, he was shirtless and sweaty. A look she loved.

"Tara? Tara, is that you?"

There was no going back now, this was going to happen.

Even though she was nervous, she was also relieved. She finally felt safe again just being near him. They stood there a while, looking at each other, drinking each other in. Jax made the first move, he grabbed her by the neck and pulled her lips to his. Both pouring everything they had been feeling into the kiss, the pain, the love, the lust.

This is where she belonged, in his arms. When he finally pulled back to look at her she smiled, she had tears in her eyes but they were hidden away by the sunglasses.

"Hey Jax."