I know I've been dormant for a while, but I finally found a prompt that I like enough to actually follow through with the story! :D Sorry people that are waiting on something Grimm/Ichi, but I just had some Blue Exorcist in mind with this one, gotta mix it up every now and then, ya know? And for those that have read my other Ao no Exorcist fic, you know I love Bon/Rin, so obviously be ready for that~ ;) But yeah prompt from otpprompts on tumblr~

PS: I screwed with canon so the whole Ukobach thing happened after Rin's big reveal and resurrection… I'm lazy so that's how canon works~ *jazz hands*

PPS: You guys… I literally didn't have a title for this and I just listened to a song that is literally like a freaking mirror of what I was going for… I forgot I even knew the song and I'm just in awe….I'm freaking majyk~~~ If you wanna know the song it's Bleed Like Me by Trapt and it's beautiful and heartfelt and it's rock which automatically makes it awesome~

You guys all know by now that I own nothing, if I did I wouldn't be living like a stressed teen….

"Damn it, Kuro!" Rin's voice echoed through the kitchen as he clutched his bleeding thumb, blood slipping through his fingers and making small puddles around his feet.

The demon glared at the cat who was rubbing at the back of his head with a paw, a mental 'Sorry, Rin' passing through his head. Rin sighed and moved towards the sink, running water over the slowly healing skin and watching as nary a mark was left.

"Nii-san! Are you alright?" Yukio burst through the door to the kitchen, one hand holding his gun as the other held the door open.

Rin only waved him off, bending down to pick the knife off the floor and continue with dinner. Ukobach watched quietly from the top of the fridge, his tail flicking lazily as he watched Rin move around his domain.

It had been a few days since their initial fallout, but they had reached a calm point- Ukobach taking breakfast and occasionally lunches and Rin being in charge of dinner, if he had the time that is.

"I feel bad for your soulmate, who knows how many scars they have thanks to you." Yukio chuckled at the slight jab, but caught the way Rin tensed, his grip on the knife tightening minutely. He immediately stopped and pushed away from the counter, approaching his twin and placing a hand on his shoulder. "Rin it was just a joke, you'll find them one day. Just be patient."

Rin sighed as he loosened his grip on the knife and continued to chop at the meat, putting it in the pan unconsciously before moving on to the vegetables.

"I know, Yukio. It's just….it feels like everyone's already found theirs and I'm still looking. What's worse is they could be from either realm. What am I supposed to do if they're a demon?" Rin's voice steadily decreased in volume, the demon setting down the knife as he leaned on the counter.

It sucks to know that everyone in his family had found their soulmates already- screw the fact that Yukio found his the first day of class. It surprised them all when Renzo cried out in shock at the same time Yukio hissed from a papercut of all things- now that was a fun day.

Yukio squeezed his brother's shoulder comfortingly before pushing him away from the kitchen, he obviously wasn't in the right mind to be cooking right now. Yukio nodded his thanks as Ukobach jumped from the fridge and took Rin's place by the counter, the demon nodding in return before continuing his job.

Dinner was a quiet affair that night, Rin having drawn into himself after that conversation in the kitchen. Yukio knew the importance of one's soulmate, it took the pressure away from everything, left you feeling more at peace even as the world seemed to fall apart around you.

And Rin needed his. Yukio knew his brother never had time to properly mourn their 'father's' death, never had time to fully adapt to his powers, never had time to better understand this new world he was now a part of, so it hurt to see the usually tough twin withering day by day under the strain of school, his powers, and loneliness.

"I'm turnin' in early, Yukio. Night."

Yukio watched his brother walk away with pain in his eyes, hoping to whatever god was out there that Rin would find his happiness soon.

"Bon ya know the answer to number 12?" Renzo rolled onto his stomach as he looked at his roommate, the brunet staring at his hand while biting his lip. Renzo quirked a brow as he pushed his notebook away, moving into a sitting position as he stared at his friend. "Bon? You alright, man?"

The brunet finally tore his gaze away from his hand, wincing as he tried to move his thumb. Renzo's expression morphed into one of worry as he approached the taller teen, sitting beside him as he watched a thin line mar the skin along his thumb and palm. The pinket sighed as he watched Bon run his fingers over the new scar, one of many.

"How have you not found your soulmate yet? I mean seriously they get hurt enough for the both of you." Bon sighed as he flopped back on his bed, wincing as a pencil poked him in the back.

"Hell if I know, but I'm getting sick of this shit…." Bon threw an arm over his eyes while the other rested on his stomach, rubbing over past scars (none of which were his) that marred his once flawless flesh. "I'm gonna finish my homework in the morning, you can use what I finished if you need it."

Bon stood and began changing as Renzo grabbed his notebook and returned to his bed. He raised his eyes from the homework when Bon removed his shirt, Renzo flinching at the many scars- some pink and jagged, some so faded they almost blended with the skin- that littered the other's torso.

"This doesn't make any sense, Bon. At the rate this is going, you're gonna end up dead before you find them." Bon barely spared his roommate a glance, turning to face the wall as he shut his eyes.

"I know."

Renzo didn't comment. Bon had already fallen asleep.

"Stupid, fucking soulmate. Stupid, fucking Satan. Stupid, fucking everything."

Rin hissed as his nails dragged along his wrist, blood rising along the parallel cuts before they sealed themselves a few moments later. He didn't know what possessed him to take his anger out on his skin, only that the sight of unmarred flesh left him feeling angry- furious even!

He had locked himself in the bathroom after dinner, his quick shower turning into the aggressive assault of his wrist with too long nails, too sharp. He ignored the pain that spread along his red forearm, the only sign of his continued slashing. It always disappeared a moment later.

It took him a moment to stop, breathing heavily as he glared at his wrist, the skin reverting back to its usual pale, the blood swirling down the drain.

Rin finally seemed to realize what he'd done after the last of the blood was washed away, eyes widening as he hurriedly shut off the water and left the stall.

He dried and dressed quickly, returning to his and Yukio's shared room and collapsing into his bed with damp hair. He ignored the fact that his pillow would be soaked through the night and shut his eyes, willing consciousness away if only to escape the knowledge of what he'd just done.

Bon groaned as the sun shined in his eyes, rolling over only to hiss and sit up. He looked at his arm in confusion only for his expression to morph into that of horror.

Those….weren't scars. Bon raised a tentative hand and lightly ran his fingers over the angry red marks, hissing as pain shot up his forearm.

"Renzo wake the hell up!" The pinket squeaked as he rolled off of his bed, glaring at his roommate as he rubbed at the growing bump on his head.

"Jeez, Bon, why can't ya be quiet. Class don't start for another two hours." Renzo groaned at the ungodly hour, the sun barely illuminating the room with its orange glow.

Bon growled as he kicked his sheet away and crouched before the prone teen, holding his arm up while keeping himself upright with the other.

"Ya want me to be quiet about this?" Renzo's eyes widened at the marks that trailed along Bon's forearm, surprised to see them squeezing out pearls of blood.

This wasn't normal.

"Oh my god…."

Bon sighed as he fell on his behind, setting his injured arm gingerly in his lap. While those past injuries had been accidents- that much was obvious by the placement and random pattern- this was done on purpose.

He felt the different depths of the cuts, the jagged lines from when whatever was used got caught and tore more than slices.

What surprised him was the anger behind the cuts. He knew cutters, knew that most of them did them cleanly and precisely, knew that a single mistake could be the difference between an escape and an ending. These were done clumsily, uneven, sure to cause maximum pain with enough bleeding to make a person pass out, even die if they were unlucky.

But he didn't feel that empty feeling that accompanied the loss of one's soulmate, just pain.

"Bon, you need to find them. This isn't good…."

Bon returned to the world around him, determined eyes latching onto the shifting form of Renzo, the pinket wringing his hands together while worrying his bottom lip. The teen always did care too much about other people's problems, regardless of the fact that he didn't know half the people he worried about.

"I'll talk to Okumura-sensei about going on leave for a while, but I doubt I'll find them." Bon sighed as he pushed himself off the floor, sitting on his bed as he stared at his injured arm.

"And if he doesn't say yes?" Renzo tossed Bon a roll of bandages, the brunet catching them and nodding in thanks as he began wrapping his arm.

"Pray they find me."

"Yuki-chan!"

Rin watched as his brother was tackled from the back, Renzo wrapping his arms and legs around his waist while laughing. He chuckled as he watched the spectacle, one that had become commonplace in the last few weeks.

"Yo, Okumura." Rin turned to see Bon walking towards him, a hand raised lazily in greeting. What really caught the demon's eyes was the bandages wrapped around the brunet's forearm, the stark white standing out against his tanned skin.

"What happened to you?" Rin couldn't stop himself from running his fingers over his own forearm, the skin as unblemished as the day he was born.

Rin found it weird that Bon kept his arm close at the question, his other hand unconsciously rubbing the bandages. "More like what happened to somebody else…."

Though the words were mumbled, Rin heard them clearly, freezing up as he connected the pieces.

No. Not Bon. He didn't show signs of being Rin's soulmate, the bandages just had to be coincidence. So why did Rin feel like a rock had settled into his gut, his mouth twisting as he tried to hold back his growing nausea.

"Okumura? You alright?" Bon was staring at Rin with barely concealed worry, not used to the raven showing signs of illness. Rin nodded his head mutely, mumbling a quick apology before turning and walking in the direction Bon had approached from- the entrance of the school. Bon quirked a brow as Rin disappeared behind a corner, shrugging his shoulders as he returned his attention to the two teens before him. "Weirdo."

He was sick. He was going to be sick. He was scared.

So many emotions were raging a war inside one Rin Okumura, the teen breathing heavily as he leaned against the front door of his dorm. He heard Kuro ask if he was okay, but ignored it as another wave of nausea passed through him, his knees buckling as he fell to the floor in an undignified heap.

This was wrong. He was wrong. All this time and his soulmate had been under his nose.

He had always disregarded that calm that overcame him when Bon was near, thought it strange that the feeling seemed to magnify with every verbal war they had- a daily occurrence at this point.

Rin's eyes fogged over as he remembered those few times that he and Bon had just sat, silence surrounding them and yet neither made to break it. A small smile pulled at his lips as the memory morphed to another, Bon's strong proclamation of never fearing him regardless of the cursed blood that ran through his veins. The warmth that invaded his body after the thought left him feeling light headed and airy, able to face any foe with energy to spare.

Rin's mind then drifted to the teen's injured arm, the injuries he inflicted on himself the night prior. He pulled slowly at the buttons of his uniform, blue eyes taking in his unmarred chest and darkening when he remembered the many scars he should have.

A pale hand ran over the skin of his collarbone, imagining the jagged scar that should be there from an accident from his childhood. It moved next to a spot about an inch from his navel, where a group of kids had gotten daring during one of their attacks and used a knife on him.

His hand traced the entirety of his chest and yet he knew he only covered a portion of the scars he should have, his hand clenching in his lap at the thought.

Bon had the scars, all of them. All marring skin that should be as unblemished as his own, a patchwork of past injuries that were never inflicted on him.

Rin's head fell into his knees, his arms wrapping loosely around the appendages as he wallowed in self pity.

Great, he found his soulmate and had been hurting him for years.

Good job, Rin….

"Okumura! Your brother's said he's gonna kick your ass if you don't come to class now!" Rin raised his head from his knees with a chuckle- like Yukio would ever say that- as he heard Bon shout through the door, he felt it shake a moment later from his banging. "I know you're there asshole! The door's barely moving so open up!"

Rin sighed as he rebuttoned his shirt, standing while running a hand through his hair. He took a deep breath before gripping the door handle, turning and opening it enough to peek through at the angry brunet.

"What do you want, Bon?" Rin's voice was low, the raven almost smiling as he saw Bon's features visibly soften at his tone.

He did care.

"Like I said, Okumura-sensei wants you in class now." His voice was rough. Rin frowned as he closed his eyes, opening them a moment later with a bit more clarity.

"I'm not feelin' so great. Tell him for me will ya?" Rin moved to shut the door, eyes widening in confusion when it didn't budge.

He opened the door to see a foot caught between it and the wall, trailing up the leg and chest to the irritated expression of Bon, the brunet glaring at him with a hint of malice. Rin was unprepared when Bon pushed on the door, stumbling backwards as the brunet moved into the dorm and shut the door.

Blue eyes connected with brown, both glaring and yet neither moving.

"What's the deal asshole? I said I wasn't feelin' great!" Rin felt his flames push against the surface of his skin, wanting to join the inferno that was his emotions, burn through everything that left him feeling confused and frustrated.

"And I call bullshit. You don't get sick and we both know that. So what's the real reason, Okumura?" Rin growled as he turned on his heel and strode from the room, the rumbling in the back of his throat growing in volume as Bon followed a few steps behind.

He didn't speak as he climbed the stairs, pushing into his and Yukio's shared bedroom with barely concealed rage. He heard the clatter of Kurikara, the blade resting on the wall beside his bed- forgotten in his haste to leave earlier that morning. The raven moved towards his bed and fell face down on the mattress, pulling his pillow over his head to hopefully drown out the coming lecture.

"Wanna tell me what's wrong now or ya gonna keep actin' like a child?"

Sadly it was not meant to be, Bon's voice filtering through the pillow like liquid. Rin cursed his over sensitive ears for ruining his pathetic escape.

He mumbled into his mattress, pillow held tighter as he burrowed into his blankets. He felt Bon's penetrating gaze on his pillow-covered head. Hard not to really, his eyes always hardened like diamonds when he found something that caught his interest.

Rin blinked in his feathery cave. How long had he been noticing these minute details about the other teen? Long enough to delude himself into believing it was a healthy rivalry/friendship apparently….

Rin blinked as light assaulted his eyes, fingers gripping air as they fumbled above his head. He slowly turned to see Bon standing there with his pillow held loosely in his right hand, the other holding Kurikara.

"Gonna talk now? While I don't have a problem missing school since I can easily make up my work, you do."

Rin sat up and turned away from the brunet, crossing his arms over his chest as he glared at the wall. He ignored the way his bed dipped as Bon sat down, ignored the pillow that was replaced at the head of his bed, ignored the eyes that were burning holes in the back of his head.

Yup, didn't feel them at all. That shiver was from the room being cold, definitely not because those eyes were killing him inside. He wasn't even thinking of them- unmoving, unblinking, hardened.

"The fuck do you want from me!" He definitely handled that well, kept his frustrations to himself. Good job, Rin.

It irritated the raven that Bon had such control over him, could make him lose his cool with just a simple gaze- no matter how disconcerting it may be.

Bon's eyes narrowed at Rin, the demon closing in on himself as his tail curled around his ankle. Rin cursed himself for allowing his emotions to run rampant like this, cursed the teen before him for starting it all. "Tell me what's wrong with you and I'll leave you alone."

Bon's tone left no room for argument, Rin growling at the even baritone before sighing. His eyes dulled as he gazed at the other's face, blue eyes focusing on a miniscule mark on Bon's chin- the thin line of skin slightly paler than the rest of his face.

"When I was four, I fell and cut my chin. I was running and tripped at the park." Rin noticed Bon's obvious confusion, eyes instead trailing to the teen's exposed arm, namely the slightly distorted skin of his elbow. "When I was eight, I got into my first fight. Messed up my left elbow pretty bad when I fell." Rin rubbed at the joints as phantom pains made themselves known.

"The fuck you goin' on about, Okumura?" Rin fixed the irritated teen with sorrowful eyes, looking down as his legs as he continued.

"When I was nine, I fell out of a tree and landed wrong, fucked up my legs for a bit." Rin saw Bon flinch through his bangs, choosing not to look up as he raised a hand to his clothed chest, fingers caressing a patch of skin below his ribs. "When I was twelve I got in a fight with those same kids from when I was eight, the bastards pulled a knife."

Rin finally looked up when he heard Bon's breath hitch, the brunet's eyes wide as they darted from Rin to his bandaged arm.

Time ticked by slowly, Rin having explained his disappearance and Bon at a loss of words. It was when a minute finally ticked by that Bon reacted, furious brown eyes fixing on the silent teen with barely concealed rage.

"Are you fucking kidding me? Are you fucking kidding me!?" Rin didn't react as Bon wrapped his hand around his throat, slamming his head into the wall behind him. He only watched as a multitude of emotions flashed through those expressive orbs, ignoring his slowly fogging head as Bon continued his rant. "How could you? I thought you were stronger than that you stupid fucking idiot! Why the fuck would you hurt yourself like that?"

That...was not what he expected to hear.

Rin expected rage at the fact that he and Bon were soulmates, rage at the fact that Bon had to live with scars that weren't his own, rage at everything but the one self-inflicted injury that started this whole mess. 'Huh, maybe I should pay attention to his attitude more.'

"I'm sorry?" Rin gasped as the hand fell from his throat, coughing slightly to refill his abused lungs and wincing at the slight sting in his throat.

"What the hell, Rin?" The demon turned guilty eyes to the teen next to him, Bon's face covered by his hands, his elbows resting on his knees. The brunet's tone was so...dead? Well, maybe not that bad, but it was bad enough for Rin to feel physical pain at causing the teen so much anguish.

Crawling closer to his classmate, Rin sat petulantly on his knees, hands twining together in his lap. "I...I was hopeless, you know?" The demon saw the slight shift of the other through the corner of his eye, could feel those eyes practically burning holes into the side of his head. Taking a deep breath, Rin continued.

"You know what's hard? Watching everyone you know find their soulmates with relative ease while you're stuck there with nobody. Hell, before I got my powers, I thought I would only have to worry about finding my dream girl/guy and then I have to worry about demons too?" Rin sighed as he ran a hand through his hair. "Yukio said when he and Renzo 'found' each other, it was like something just clicked and he was suddenly feeling like he could do anything without having to worry of the outcome. He said Renzo took his fears away…"

Both teens were silent as Rin's words hung in the air, the demon's tail curling loosely around his wrist. "I wanted that so bad, I just...I don't know. I didn't know what I'd done till all the cuts were healed up and I was getting out the shower." Rin looked at his unblemished forearm, feeling those penetrating eyes moving along the pale skin. "I was mad, Bon...I was so angry at myself and my freaking powers and just… everything."

The room again descended into silence, Rin surprised to feel something drop on his arm. A closer look showed a drop of water sliding down the skin and soaking into the material of his jeans, a second quickly joining it and followed by a third and fourth. It was a startling realization for the demon to know he was crying, tears sliding silently and elegantly down his cheeks. The demon couldn't bring himself to care that he was crying before his enemy turned soulmate, sniffling pitifully and rubbing at his eyes with his palms.

The demon jumped when he felt careful fingers pull his hands away from his eyes, blue orbs wide as he gazed into caring brown. It could've been the fact that Bon was connected to him on a spiritual level or maybe because his emotions were out of whack, but whatever the reason, Rin began to cry harder at the sudden calm that overcame him.

This was messed up. Bon shouldn't be here comforting him while he bawled his eyes out like a child, the teen should be in class keeping his grades at the top of the class as usual, not even sparing him a glance. Rin's thoughts came to a screeching halt at Bon's soothing voice.

"Look at me." Blue eyes slowly slipped open, Rin wondering when they had closed to begin with. Bon's expression was soft, a slight upward tilt to his lips. "I don't blame you, but I'll be damned if I let you hurt yourself like this again."

Rin couldn't stop the broken chuckle from escaping, tears slowing until they stopped completely. The demon nearly purred as he leant further into the warm hand that was suddenly cupping his cheek, eyes slipping closed in contentment. So imagine his surprise when a sudden pain flared in the back of his skull, the demon cursing loudly as his hands raised to rub the ache away.

Teary eyes turned towards the smirking brunet who only shrugged, "That's for fucking up my body and yours." Rin pouted at the words but accepted them, mumbling a few obscenities under his breath as his hands dropped back to the mattress.

"Fine, I deserved it. Still hurts though." Rin grumbled pitifully as he flicked at a loose string on his sheet. He nearly jumped at the fingers that were suddenly carding through his hair, looking at the brunet with wide eyes.

"I'm not gonna start actin' all mushy like your brother and Renzou so don't expect that, but I will ease up on the headshots."

Rin smiled at the words, reaching up to tangle his fingers with Bon's. "Fine, just know I'm clingy with people close to me."

Bon's grin was enough to put whatever worries Rin had to rest.

This is the ending and it could've gone better, but man can I not bring myself to care! :D Screw grammar checks!