She sat in the silence of her own dark bedroom, sitting with her legs crossed. She had lost her baby. Her baby, it all seemed so real now. Having to give birth to it was the worst. The labour was painful, her screams where still clear in her head. The baby slipped out and she hoped the doctors had been wrong. Maybe her baby was fine. The little bundle just looked like it was sleeping. The baby was placed on her chest. She didn't want to look, it was like a horror film.

"Look at our baby" He said. She slowly lowered her head. It just made it so real, the baby looked asleep, motionless but just asleep. She took a deep breath and a funny feeling washed over her. It was the like the feeling she felt when she looked at Kush, expect this was even stronger. She knew now that this was love.

She mind was simply on the baby, the whole time from delivery to the baby being taken to mortuary. She thought about nothing else. She cried as she held the baby. She cried as she washed the baby. She cried as they took the baby's hand and feet prints. She stayed with the baby for 3 hours and 53 minutes before the baby was taken from her. She cried even more then, it was so really. She had to stay in overnight for observation. This hurt the most, seeing people with their babies and she couldn't get hers.

The next day, she was allowed home to where she was now. Sitting alone, in her room in the dark thinking about the baby. Now back home, that baby wasn't her only thoughts. She was now thinking about her other baby. Her 7 year old daughter that was sick. For the first time ever, she thought about the girl in a different way. She didn't think about Dean, she thought about a scared little girl who wanted her mummy.

The young girl sat in her bed in the dark in the exact same position as her mom across town. She wished she had a parent that loved her. She stared with her foster parents, Jonathan and Annette. They were okay but they weren't her parents. They didn't hug her or hold her tight. They feed her, gave her a place to live and give her meds.

Jade sat playing with her duvet. She wanted a hug, to feel safe. Tears slipped down her face, she wasn't a girl to cry but everything had gotten too much for her lately. She thought she had found her dad, well she had but he didn't want her. Their visit hadn't gone as planned. Maybe she was just unlovable. It hurt her to think that but it was try. She hated having this illness. For the moment, it wasn't too bad. She seemed like a normal girl though she did have to go into hospital every 3 months for 2 weeks but other than that she was normal. She had a stomach tube but it wasn't noticeable. She also sometimes had to use her neb but that was only if her breathing was being funny.

Shabnam pulled out her phone. She was about to type in a number when she remembered that she didn't know the number to call. She would have to see her dad. She stood up and walked slowly down the stairs to the living room where her father sat.

"I need a number" Shabnam said.

"What for?" Masood asked.

"The social worker" Shabnam said. Both Masood and Kush looked at her.

"What for?" Kush asked.

"I need to get my little girl back" Shabnam said. Masood looked between the two of them before leaving the room to find the number.

"You don't mind, do you?" Shabnam asked.

"Of course not, I promise to support you in whatever you choose" Kush said.

"I really want to work and get her back" Shabnam said and Kush nodded her head.

"We will then" Kush said. Masood walked back in with the number and handed it to Shabnam.

Shabnam nodded before walking to her room taking Kush with her. They headed up the stairs and sat on the bed. Shabnam put the phone on speaker.

"Hello, my name's Shabnam Masood and I am the biological mother of Jade Green" She said nervously.

"Oh hello, I heard a couple of months ago that you might be interested in meeting Jade but I haven't heard much since" The social worker explained.

"I know, I apologise for that. We have had a lot going on and after having a long think about it, we know feel we are in the position to get to know Jade and hopefully bring her back home" Shabnam said.

"Okay, well we will start with a couple of visits to see what is going on. Are you aware that Jade has an severe illness that is life shortening" The social worker asked.

"I am, I don't know a lot about it but I am willing to learn. I will do anything for her" Shabnam explained.

"Okay, well I will have a little chat with Jade and see if she is happy to meet you then I will get back to you" The social worker explained and Shabnam nodded.

"Of course, if you just call me back on this number" Shabnam said before they said their goodbyes.

20 minutes later and Jade was sat in her room still on her bed. The tears were still in her eyes, she wasn't sure why she was thinking about her mum so much but she was. She really needed her mum now. With everything that had gone on with her dad, it was making her think more about her mum. Why didn't her mum want her? It must be the CF, who would want a child that's lungs didn't work properly. Her lungs were meant to keep her alive but they were killing her.

She jumped hearing a knock at the door. She wiped her eyes but it was still obvious she had been crying.

"Jade, Susan is here" Jonathan said. Jade sighed, she didn't like Susan very much.

"Hello Jade" Susan said walking into the room.

"Can I sit down?" Susan asked and Jade nodded.

"So I have something to tell you that I think you will like" Susan said and Jade nodded.

"Well, I have just had your mum on the phone" Susan said "And she wants to meet you"

Jade nodded trying not to show how happy she was. She was scared that if she acted happy then something would happen and she wouldn't get to meet her.

"If you want, we are going to arrange a meeting. I will be there at first as it will be supervised and we will go from there. If it is a success, in the future once everything is sorted you might be able to go and life with her" Susan explained and the smile escaped from her mouth.

"I really want to meet her" Jade said. "As soon as possible, please"

Susan smiled, she hadn't seem this little girl smile like that in a long time.

"Of course, I'll call her as soon as I get to the office" Susan explained and Jade nodded.

They spoke for a bit longer before Susan left.

She arrived home and instantly called Shabnam.

Shabnam jumped as she phone rang. She answered it quickly. She listened to Susan as she spoke.

"So she wants to meet me?" Shabnam asked

"Yes, she is very excited about it" Susan explained and Shabnam was so relieved.

"Is she okay, is she happy?" Shabnam asked.

"She is as good as she can be. She can't wait to see her mum, it's just what she needs" Susan said.

"She likes to hide her emotions from people but we are hoping you will be able to get through to her" Susan explained and Shabnam nodded.

They spoke for a bit longer and arranged for Shabnam to meet up with Jade on Monday, it was currently Wednesday and Shabnam knew it was going to be a long 5 days but it would be worth it.

Hope this okay, it's just an idea that I came up with. Please review and tell me what you think about it.

All the CF information is knowledge that I know as my best friend through primary has CF so I know quite a bit about it.