Hello! :) I have already written this for Tumblr, I just expanded it.

She saw the blade going into his chest as her body went completely numb as darkness and despair overfilled her. Her heart did not beat as she saw him, his eyes losing their light, their innocence and their recklessness.

The air hung thick with despair, sadness and lost hope. She was going to lose him, there was no saving him this time. He was not going to return to her nor his mother. That pathetic orc filth stole him from fulfilling his promises, stole him from such a precious life.

She saw him through watery eyes as he tried to say something, barely a sound escaping his mouth. She then saw a tear escape from his eye, and that was it, she could feel her light being taken out of her. She drew in a sharp breath as she could see that he was losing his grip on life. She knew that he made an effort to stay breathing longer, but then he flew away as suddenly as he first came to her.

The sound of his voice, his mischievous smile and his warm dark eyes were gone. Kili, a young prince who still had so many more wonders to discover and so much more recklessness to bestow was truly gone.

She did not even tell him she loved him more than the stars, she did not tell him that yes, she knew what that meant, and he never got the chance to show her a fire moon.

She laid there looking up at the orc who had taken him away from her, away from everything he still had to experience. Pure anger filled her as the orc raised his blade with full intention of killing her too. But she leaped up and and hoisted herself around his neck and with a swift turn she tried to throw him off the ledge but everything happened so fast that they both fell down. Her aching body landed with a hard thump and she started to feel consciousness slipping away from her.

She wanted to get up, but the will to do so was just not there. She laid there and looked up to the sky as tears ran down the side of her face. She closed her eyes as the emotional pain became too severe. Her wounds were nothing compared to the desolation she felt inside of her.

Her sobs were shaking her body, and she fisted her hands. The pain she felt was familiar, but so much more intense. Losing her parents killed her innocence, but losing him, killed off everything else.

Love had no definition before, and now she could feel her soul and her heart aching. She could hear Legolas fighting the orc which killed her light, but she could not stand up and help him. Her weakness was far beyond her physical state.

She felt as if she laid in the cold landing spot for centuries, only the pain made her realize only a few moments have passed.

She stopped crying as her ears heard nothing. The ruckus from the battle seemed to have suddenly disappeared.

Or I'm dead, she thought. But that could not be as she could still feel the pain in her cheek, and the throbbing pain in her injured shoulder, and her broken heart. She carefully stood up, breathing in quick breaths as the white little clouds danced around her.

She looked up the hill which she had rolled down from. And she knew that he was up there. She froze, unsure of what to do. With tears already rolling down her cheeks, she sprinted around the small hill trying to find a way up. Jagged and slippery rocks were not helping as she had to use her leftover strength to be able to pull herself to the ledge, cutting her hands as she fought her way up.

And there he was. She sobbed as she slowly walked to him. The once happy and teasing dwarf laid still. Too still for a reckless dwarf.

His blood had stopped running from the fatal wound, leaving his tunic damped with red.

All the memories she had of him, his risky innuendos, his talks of fire moons, and his impressive sense of humor, were suddenly too painful to remember.

But the runestone she did suddenly remember! Still a few feet away from him, she took out the runestone which laid in her shaking palm. She caressed the smooth stone, as more tears frantically ran down her cheeks. She ran her thumb across the carved runes. She read it, out loud, return to me. She remembered what he had said about how reading the runes could curse anyone but a dwarf. She looked at his stilled form, and that was it. That was her curse: death.

"Return to me" she said out loud, her voice sounding so weak to her ears.

"Return to me... please I love you!" she shouted as she heard the echoes booming around the hill. Anger filled her as she shouted again. "Please come back to me!"

She then gasped, trying to desperately breath, as she clutched the stone close to her.

"Please! say my name, please.. open your eyes.. Kili" she finally whispered.

Her whole body shook as she walked over to him, sitting down. She needed him close, his warmth, his anything. She then regretted not saying anything at the shores of Laketown. She wished she would of said everything that was running through her racing mind. She wished she would of been brave enough to hug him even if Legolas saw it all. She wished she could of kissed him, she really did yearn to kiss those pink smooth lips of his. She wanted to taste him, and his mischievous smile. She wanted him to repeat what he had told her. She knew what it meant, even if the dwarven language was an intense and sharp language, in his voice it sounded like pure honey. When he said it to her, she could feel her heartbeat accelerating as her hands begged for her to touch his cheek, his hair, anything!

But now it was too late, she looked down at him. He did not deserve this. He was too young, too innocent for such a horrible death. He had too many years left to live. Why is life so unfair?

Why is love such a tragedy?

She had not saved him. Tauriel saved him so many times, that now not being able to do so this time further shattered her heart. But he had saved her, gave his last breaths for her.

She was about to take his hand, as she heard someone approaching. Her stance relaxed as she saw him.

Legolas looked at her, not saying anything. His eyes were dark but apologetic. She looked at him with such a distant and pained look that he had to look away. He had never seen her so broken before. She suddenly looked so weak and fragile, which she was always the opposite of.

Tauriel then grabbed Kili's hand and placed the stone in his palm. It was not hers to keep she realized, it belonged with him. His promises now laid broken as she was.

Legolas did not try to talk to her nor comfort her. The heartbreak and loss she was feeling could not be taken away. He looked up and gave her a smile, one that did not reach his blue eyes, she stared back, as he walked away. It was clear. That was the last time they would see each other. She sighed, as more tears rolled in. She looked at Kili and wished he were sleeping.

She so desperately wanted to hear his voice, to see him smile. To tell her that he was there. But now his usually warm body was cold and lifeless.

She heard other, too familiar footsteps approach her. She knew who it was.

"I want to bury him" she breathed, barely a whisper. She knew she had to find someone of his kin to do it, if anyone was left. If there was no one, she would do it herself. Tauriel knew the dwarfs buried their death, as foreign as the idea seemed to her, she wanted to see it done.

"Yes" Thranduil murmured, as tears surfaced in his eyes. The scene in front of him was all too familiar. He had also lost someone important. He knew how it felt like to feel everything good taken out of his body. His heart hurt for Tauriel, knowing that she would never recover from such a loss.

"If this is love, I do not want it!" she painfully demanded, her voice sounding too distant and dead.

"Take it from me! Please!" she cried, as her voice begged overfilled with sorrow. Her pain made the air around him stand still. Her eyes looked so lost that he wanted to run to her and hold her, as he had done so many times when she was young.

"Why does it hurt so much?" she half cried, as the pain inside her made it difficult to breath.

And then ke knew of what to say, some words which coming from him, would make her pain at least become bearable.

"Because it was real" he assured, trying to keep his voice from shaking, she slowly looked up at him. She saw that he was not lying, she thought of the meaning behind his words. Realization came to her eyes, as she knew of what real love meant. She looked down at Kili and leaned down, kissing him on his lips. She would have given everything for him to be able to kiss her back.

But she pushed that thought out of her less clouded mind. She smiled knowingly.

"I will see you again, my love" she confidently said. She hugged him and she touched his cold cheeks. He will get to show her a fire moon after all.

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