Hi my darlings, first time publishing something big in FF, hope you guys like it so I can continue. I've already posted this on other sites so bare with me BTW its a naruhina story and I Don't own Naruto, Kishimoto sempai does.

Also for the record, if you don't like it, please dont say it.

~ min- chan

It had been a year already he thought, the now 20 years old blonde haired ninja with azure eyes and whisker's like marks on cheeks thought. He was walking through the streets of konoha while grey clouds were surrounding the now pacific village. It was incredible just after the great war how everything remain the same, except for the loses many have gone dead and great clans dissapeared but the peace remained and that matter at least to some. Today was really early there were just a few shinobi out in the streets, so no one could see him while he was reaching to the cemetery again, a bouquet of purple lilies in his hand. He finally came across to the place where his beloved one rest. He walked slowly until he finally reached the one he had been looking for. In the grave stone read: A dear person, a dear friend and my dear love. He had made it himself because it was the only way his heart would ache a little less.

"Hello Hinata-hime *he sobed, it was how their conversations started nowadays* I´ve promised myself to start focusing on being a hokage again, dattebayo" He put a fake smile on his face and the wind came through his hair, he felt to his knees "Kami, why you had to go too?!" he shouted to no one in particular "Why?, when I was getting to being happy to have you, to kiss you, to be with you". He clenched his fists and started smashing the ground, until they began to bleed, not that he cared. After a while he regained his composture "You know Hinata- hime, I still wonder why you're not here, but I still need you to calm me down, damn you always knew what to say" he said in a soft voice while leaning closer to the grave to change the lilies from yesterday. He stood up and whispered a last "I still love you" before he left.

It has been like that for a year now. Since that October

(Flashback)

Some of the ANBU where gathered for an important ambush that they were going to perform in one of the big gangs of Rogue ninjas. Naruto was sitting on a branch tree with a blushing Hinata on his lap. They have been dating soon after the village was rebuilt and Naruto love it, he didn't think he could ever been so blind to not look at the beautiful and smart woman that was now on his lap. Even though they already had two years together by now, her blushes hadn´t dissapeared and he wouldn´t have it otherwise. "Ne hinata-chan, do you know what day it's tomorrow?" he said with his head on her shoulder. "Of course Naruto-kun" she giggled. "Is that so?" he said teasing and caressing her cheek with his thumb, while looking in those peaceful and welcoming lavender orbs. "Hai, it's Naruto-kun's birthday" she said softly, he loved that sweet voice of her. He chuckled to himself, feeling lucky of having such a wonderful girl with him. "Ano, Naruto-kun?" he awake and answer "Hmm?, "What do you want for your birthday?" she asked with curiosity. "I don't know" he leaned closed to her face mere inches away while keeping her cheek cupped in his hand, "maybe you could help me with that?" and soon their lips met, and they share a soft quick kiss. This little prove of their affection was considered really cute for almost the whole village, except for Naruto fangirls, when they first started dating it was awkward and they didn't even know when was appropriate but now they could consider themselves masters of such a wonderful gesture.

She blushed a little more when they broke apart, soon he took something of his vest's pocket it was a small purple box and put it in Hinata's hand. "Would you like to open it?' He asked her. Slowly she nodded and opened the box to reveal a silver necklace with a flame locket, she gasped when she opened. "I choose a flame because that's my love for you, endless, warm and beautiful in it's own way" he whispered in her ear "and it's the konoha will of fire, that keep us fighting" he added while smiling sheepishly. Looking closely you could tell that has their initials on the back and a message when you opened it: "Young love says: I love you because I need you, while our love says: I need you because I love you". She hugged him "It is beautiful Naruto-kun, but I was supposed to give you something for your birthday" He chuckled "Well now that I have you, I don't need anything else, except for maybe a few more kisse…" he was cut off by her lips, not that he minded neither, her hands in the back of his neck and his hands running in her back to her sides, while their tongues fight for the dominance in an joyful dance. After they broke apart he moved her hair gently to place the necklace in her neck and after finishing it, kissing it and said "I love you my hime". "I love you too Naruto-kun"

That was the last of the very moments they had together, before the damn mission that changed all.

They were walking hand in hand to the place where they supposed to gather. Hinata was wearing her necklace although thinking that she should have keep it for special occasions, Naruto had asked her to wore it always during missions so he could always bring her back to him (he should had add hiraishin maybe, but hey in this story he still doesn´t know about it). Cliché maybe but this was a real thing for both of them, because Hinata is part of the ANBU assassination division and Naruto is part of the ambush division, so must of the time they would be having missions that not were allowed to stay together. Some of their friends are part of the team too. The whole group 8: Kiba, Akamaru and Shino worked with Hinata, while Sasuke (That finally have returned, after Naruto beating senses in his thick skull), Sai and Neji were in Naruto's division. This made Naruto less concerned knowing that the guys were going to protect Hinata, not that a professional assassin will need it.

During the meeting Naruto would stole glances now and then of the beautiful kunoichi, her long lavender hair that reach above her hips, was tied in a ponytail during missions, her soft pale skin, her well-toned curvy body, oh he didn't want to be a pervert but he could find himself lost in her view, even less aware of his surroundings. "HUSHH" a kunai went close to his face, luckily he was able to dodge it, leaning back. "Looks like captain Baka will finally pay attention to the plan" said Sasuke, everybody now turned to Naruto and he answered "I was, dobe" while paying attention to my hinata-chan he thought. The meeting ended and Hinata peek on Naruto's cheek before putting her mask on, he did the same and poofed away to their positions.

The mission was simple get to where they hide and killed the 3 leaders, but they weren't counting with their jutsus. Maybe if Shikamaru hadn't been in Suna during the period of this mission they could have guessed it and prepared themselves,but that wasn't the case. The ninjas attacked the ANBUS with earth jutsus, you could listen to the kunais crashing in the air, and Naruto's Kage bunshing taking over the place, soon the young ANBUS find were the leaders were, the 4 of the assassins made their way in and the walls of the cave began to fall apart, lucky for them Hinata activate her barrier keeping themselves from danger, they reasume their position, to start the assault.

On the outside Naruto and the others kept on fighting with the thousands of ninja that looked infinitive until Sasuke sharingan saw it "Dispell" he shouted they were trapped in a genjuntsu, the others saw this and try it too, but it didn't go away. "Our kekkai genkai allow us to maintain a gengutsu under genjutsu, so you will never get out" said a distant voice. Naruto had fought against Itachi sharingan and his illusion, so he stab his leg with a Kunai more than 5 times until he passed out then he could see them, "Kage bunshin no jutsu" he shout more than 20 Narutos ran over them to see that they were just mere clones, suddenly he realized "Hinata" and the other team were supposed to eliminate these guys, the other part of his team were out of the genjutsu because he eliminate the clones that keep it on.

A crash was heard, the cave finally broke down, they rushed to the cave to take the other team out. "Katsuga" was heard and Naruto knew that they were fine but only Kiba, Akamaru and Shino came out. He looked at them for an answer and saw that thay were looking at the ground not able to meet his gaze. "What happened?" he shouted at Kiba getting him by his collar "You were supposed to kept her safe" He hit Kiba and fell to his knees, Kiba kept silent. Soon he called his bunshin and start digging in the cave, the others doid the same, you could heard the earth jutsus, Neji was using his bakyugan everyone looking for the fellow kunoichi until Kiba spoke "We couldn't save her, she protect us we were getting out, we killed 2 of those guys, but the other caught her in a getjutsu, the cave was falling apart we need to get out… we couldn't-t-t it was our fault" Naruto didn't listen and continue looking for his Hinata.

It was early in the morning and he was in the same spot, Sasuke and Neji have gone to Konoha for reinforcements to keep on looking. With the reinforcements and the Hyugga guard they keep on that during a hole week, then it was only Naruto and the Hyugga guard after two months of searching they have already cleaned the cave but they haven't found a body, the inside of the cave was burned with a gentjutsu so it could make sense that they only found ashes. After that time they declared her death and prepared a funeral.

It was beautiful for a funeral, thousands of lavender colored flowers and almost everyone in the village that knew her attempt, Hiashi was devastated a few months ago he had already decided that Hinata was going to be the head of the clan, that she had proven herself and now it was all gone. Her sister was all tears, she refused to believe it, and finally she had found a bond to her and now this down. Neji kept his stoic self but now and then you could find him hiding behind Ten-ten to shed a few tears. The all Konoha 13 (well now 12) felt a pain in their chests for a kind and lovely fellow that was now down. The Hokage said all the good things about Hinata as a kunoichi and so there were others, but one missed.

The number one umpredictable ninja was near the park sitting on a bench looking at the clouds, trying to remember all the little details about his beloved one, all the things he did love. The times she used to prepare ramen in his apartment with a gentle smile, when she stayed over and she had to use one of his huge T-shirts on her delicate body, their first kiss, how she always made him calm down, her sweet fragrance, how she love nature, flowers, she… every single part of her. He just felt like crying and he did, alone in the forest. He didn't want to share anything about her with anyone, didn't want to hear everybody saying they awere sorry, cause they were but it wasn't their fault, it was his. He loved her damn it, he supposed to know there were traps and got there faster and took her out, but didn't and now he had to live with it. "Gomen Hinata-chan" he sobbed near a tree in the middle of the forest.

(End of flashback)

The memory of those months were still fresh in his mind, how he stop eating at Ichikaru's cause that was the place of their first date and didn't have the courage to stay without remembering. He forgot about being Hokage since the moment she passed away, he didn't need to protect anybody else or better say he couldn't, not anymore. He didn't go out with the others, wasn't himself anymore and everyone notice. Even when Tsunade give him a month without missions so he could get better he did not. The only things beside missions were the spares he did with Hiashi Hyugga just to keep himself from hitting himself with his bunshin until passed out. Hiashi will now and then spare with him because he too need it, to get away that feeling and didn't want to hurt Hanabi or Neji, plus Naruto healed faster.

Every day you could see his muscular body in thick black cloth, he refuse wearing orange since that day and became more and more adept to high level, almost suicidal solo missions and they were really easy to get. A lot of the other ANBU's denied them because of the danger even though they were well remunerated with which he could afford a new 3 bedroom apartment. He only used one of the bedrooms, the reason why he moved it is because he couldn't sleep in the old one because he saw her face in everywhere, now he only sees it during sleep, but is something. Sometimes he sees her in a kimono telling him to come near and at that moment he rushed toward her and she disappears. Other times he could find himself saying in his sleep "I'll bring you back" but it was all, she had gone and he still suffers.

This is my story and I plan to continue it

ja ne

~min- chan