Anything you recognize is not mine.

†

This is it. Everything I've given up for, fought for will finish. My life is at it's end, Albus can no longer use me and Lord Voldemort will be no longer after tonight.

After my grand exit from the great hall, here I stand in front of Voldemort.

I know I'm dying tonight, I will finally get to see my Lily.

How will I die, who's to know but when the Dark Lord is done talking to me I will search for the Potter brat to tell him what the manipulative old codger wants him to do.

At least when I die and see Lily she will also be reunited with her son. I will finally have my peace, away from Albus and away from everyone I hate and everyone who hates me. I have nothing left to give, no one to miss me. I just have to get away from Voldemort.

"You've been a good and faithful servant, Severus, but only I can live forever."

Wait. What.

Before I knew it I was in immense pain. Nothing could have had me expecting this kind of death. He got me and that damn snake too.

He's left me!

How will I tell Potter of his duty!

But... I will finally see my Lily!

And then there he is, in front of me. The gods must have been listening to me! I can barely move what can I do… memories! I have my memories I can give him! I try to get straight to the point, to what he must do, but thoughts of Lily are coming out as well.

"Ta- take them." Damn, that burns.

"Look… at… me..." Lily, I'm coming back.

As Potter stands I just know they will be gone any second to leave me to die in peace.

"You go on Harry, I have to try and save him." is that the Granger girl?

"What! You can't just want to save him! He's a Death Eater 'Mione. Leave him to rot!"

Yes, thank you, Weasley. It's not like I am here, dying in your presence.

"You know what Ron, we had our moment but it's moments like this that completely remind how much of an idiot you can be! Go with Harry to a pensieve… GO!" She says in anger.

Wow. They actually left.

I felt her near me, I was paralyzed and I'm trying as hard as I can to get her away from me but the venom keeps burning inside me.

She's rummaging in her bag and then I hear her sniff.

Is she crying?

"Professor Snape, I'm going to shove this Bezoar in your mouth okay." That's not going to help. I left my antidote in my office.

"I-I don't know how else to help." she sobs out.

Why is she crying?!

The venom seemed to flare once more when the Bezoar gets inside.

Well I know that isn't going to help me at all.

She gets closer to my neck and suddenly I feel her lips on the bite. WHAT IS SHE DOING!

I feel some of the Venom actually receding.

She's sucking it out!

But… It's too late. There is too much venom inside me.

She spits it out but as she grabs my wrist for a pulse she knows it's weakening.

"Prof- Severus. I can't, I-I've tried… Please… please don't leave me." she cries out. Leave her?

"Please don't go. I-I never… Oh god, please don't die." My vision blurs but I feel her upon me.

"You can't leave me Severus don't go! I know! I know everything!"

What does she know?

"You were on our side the whole time. Why else would you waste your time saving us. Your memories. It all just clicked! I've been so stupid. I should've trusted my gut the whole time."

She knew about my loyalty…

"Please don't go. I-I… I have so much to say. Don't leave me Severus! Don't go."

She holds onto me stronger, "DAMNIT SEVERUS I LOVE YOU! PLEASE DON'T GO!"

She what.

She loves me?

She picks this moment. This exact moment.

I try to look at her and so she grabs my face.

"I-I'm sorry."

Hermione's face full of tears knowing I'm leaving her.

"Please don't." She whispers close to my face.

My eyes finally close. I'm tired of fighting, this is it. I'm sorry Hermione.

I feel some last bit of warmth on my mouth.

She kissed me.

Me.

The evil git of a dungeon bat.

She loves me.

She loves the cruel man I am.

And I've left her.

I could have had more. More of this trust. More of this love. Her love.

†

I feel no pain. I feel revitalized.

"I didn't expect for you to be here this early Severus."

I'm in hell. I don't want to see him. I can't. I-

"Look at me my boy." I snap my eyes to him.

"Don't 'my boy me' Albus." I sneer out.

"You know I thought it'd be years until I'd see you on your way to the other side."

"Well looks like your chess board doesn't work that way you know. Real life has it's own way of thinking. Besides, you have to at some point kill the most loyal to have your way. And I'm talking about both you and Tom." I spat bitterly.

I realized I was at what looked like King's Cross Station.

"Why am I here Albus?" I ask.

"Well this is where you get aboard to your next adventure." He says calmly and with a twinkle in his damn eyes.

Before I knew it on both sides of the train tracks, trains arrive and stop.

"Wh-why are there two?" I ask Albus confused.

"It seems they want to give you another chance."

"Albus, who's they? What do you mean another chance?"

"They are our creators. Another chance to redo your life." He said, I could see he was jealous.

"Yes well, where exactly will it take me?" I ask suspiciously.

The train across from you will take you to the other side of the veil. The one behind you will take you back in time."

"Back in time?" I ask in awe. I can stop so many things from happening. "Wait, what's the catch? What do they want?"

"Nothing, Severus, my boy. You've given back so much already. This is your reward."

"Either choice I can see Lily again." I say to myself mostly.

Albus seemed to brighten at my words. That weird cog.

"Yes and you can finally have the lovely relationship you've always wanted with her."

At this I can't help but feel bothered.

If I go back I can't be the nasty git I am now. She won't like me getting interested into the Dark Arts. I'll have to completely change 39 years of myself. She won't understand me being crueler than how I was. She won't… she won't be like Hermione. She loved me and my cruel self. Lily won't love me for being me, she barely liked me back then.

Unlike Hermione.

"I'll do it." I finalized. Albus seemed to like my decision a lot. "I'll go back in time. Finish this terror before it begins."

"Yes, yes good my boy. Before you go let me tell you about the horcruxes."

"I know about that, no thanks to you Albus. I know about the Slytherin's Locket at Blacks, the Hufflepuff's Cup in the vault, Ravenclaw's Diadem in the Come and Go room, his Diary with the Malfoys, and the Gaunt ring. The boy will no longer be a Horcrux nor Nagini. When I finish him, I will permanently finish him." Albus was surprised at how much I knew. I'm a spy what does he expect?

I can bring peace to all bloods. Hermione will be safe from almost all the prejudice.

"Yes Severus my boy, I'm sorry for not telling you. I couldn't risk Tom finding out if he went through your mind, you know that my boy."

Can he stop with my boy. I'm a master Occlumens, that's a terrible excuse.

"Yes well I will see you once again in the past, although we will no longer be the colleagues we once were." I don't think I'll ever want to talk to him to be honest.

"It's okay my boy, when you come back as a Professor at Hogwarts we can rekindle our friendship and Lily will be happy at your side." As I walk to the train doors behind me I scrunch my nose.

I turn back before I step into the train, "I'm not doing this for Lily." Albus looked startled, confused, and a little scared.

"I'm doing this for Hermione." I step into the train and watch Albus sprinting towards me in anger.

"She wasn't supposed to tell you! No stop!"

But before he could continue the doors shut closed and began to drive away.

He was still trying to control my life. Even while dead. Well not this time Dumbledore.

All your manipulating will be over.

For Her.

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not sure if one-shot or should continue tbh.