And Now the World Ends

By spheeris1

Pairing: Anthy/Utena

Warnings/notes: Anthy POV, post movie-verse (then back again), fear, longing and death

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Did I tell you?

Maybe I forgot to…..

This is the end of that world. This is our world.

And we've been together since I don't know when.

We kept on walking, kept on running, kept on moving…

….till our feet wanted to plant roots.

Watching things grow at a normal speed. No beautiful buds blooming overnight,

But opening slowly. Deliberately.

I know your face.

I know your touch.

I know the words before you say them.

You built a fence.

I grew a garden.

You swam the river

And I licked the water running down your back.

This is our world.

Feeling the muscle move under your skin, like the ripple of silk…

That first kiss was so apropos, yet

All the others that followed seemed so shy.

Until too many nights passed by us, moonlight casting sensual shadows upon the walls.

And we fell down.

Down and down in each others' arms.

I know your laugh.

I know your smile.

I know the lines on your fingers.

You fed me ice cream, French vanilla and a plastic spoon.

I read you fairy tales just to make you smirk.

You cried out my name and

I tried to bury myself within you.

Nightmares of the past no longer haunt me. Visions of the castle do not chase after me now. But I wake up sweating sometimes….for the future scares me.

I grip your silent hand, making sure…

….just making sure….

You are still here. We are still here. This is our world.

Our world.

I love the silver that touches your pink locks.

I love how dark your eyes have become with age.

I love how you have such knowledge yet still sound so very young.

You walk by yourself sometimes.

I linger too long by cemeteries.

You speak of traveling again, seeing new lands

And I stare into the swirling depths of my tea.

We look through pictures in our mind, of green fields and dirty streets.

Of tall cityscapes and riverbanks, of cabins buried in snow and just a towel on the beach.

What more is there to see? I ask.

But you just smile.

This is our world…..but is it fading?

I stopped counting my years so long ago. But will you do the same? Or will you merely pass on in slumber, leaving me behind?

What then?

Sell the home we've made. Tear the garden down. Never eat ice cream again. Never hear you walking the hall again. Never….again.

Maybe.

Maybe not.

The future scares me. It frightens me to the core of my being.

But I will ignore the gnawing doubt, for now.

For now we have so much time.

I see our world in your eyes as the pavement rushes past my head.

I see love on your face as just a few bits of metal keep us off the ground.

And I think I have lived a lifetime with you in a matter of minutes.

Before I forget, before the future becomes the present, before our kiss can begin….

Did I tell you?

I love our world.

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END