I do not own sons of anarchy or the characters just the unfamiliar ones.

Pre season 1

December 2006

Tara made her way out of Chicago Presbyterian late at night exhausted from pulling a 36 hour rotation for her residency. Assisting the great Dr. Wilson herself in one of the most hardest surgeries she had ever imagined possible, she took note in the techniques used and how delicate a little human life just was.

She inhaled the breeze whipping past her as she stepped out into the cool Chicago air and wrapped herself in her warm jacket. She headed home for the night in hopes to get much needed sleep from pulling the long shift. As her legs walked in front of the other she looked out into the darkness and couldn't picture her life anywhere else right now. She enjoyed her studying loving what she was doing. Helping sickly babies with a better start in life was just what she wanted to do in life.

A few blocks away from her home she sighed looking out to the passing cars. She smiled to herself knowing she'd never have this life if she never left Charming. She hated that place with a passion. Her smile faulted however when she remembered the good times she had there. Her time with Jax. Every happy memory she had there was with Jax, her best friends Donna, Leah and Opie too.

She couldn't help but sigh in sadness as she made her way up her driveway. All she wanted was a hot shower and then bury her head in a soft fluffy pillow. That was exactly what she did.

When she woke up the next day in the darkness. She furrowed her brow and yawned as she checked her time. It was going on 9pm that night. She saw her phone go off and checked it. It was a message from her friend Kerry.

Hey babe, just checking in to see if you wanna go clubbing tonight?

Tara shook her head as she chuckled and replied. Sure. When and what time will you come pick me up?

Tara laid back down and within minutes had a text. Great. I'll be by at ten. Be ready.

Tara rolled her eyes and got out of bed. She walked into her closet and looked around deciding what to wear. She chose a creamy backless top with matching bitch heals and dark blue skin tight jeans. She pulled out her hair curler and brushed her hair out before curling it. She heard a knock at the door and smiled from ear to ear.

"Babe? Where the hell are you? Ready yet?" The voice boomed from the lounge.

Tara smiled and got up after puffing her hair up. "Almost. Won't be long."

Tara applied a little make up and gloss before she changed into her outfit. She smiled making her way into the lounge where she spotted her friend Kerry.

"Like?" Tara asked giving out her best pose with her weight on one hip as her hand landed there too.

"Love it. You look beautiful babe. Lets head out." Tara kissed Kerry before they headed out.

They met up with a few others in a packed club downtown. Tara glanced over her shoulder constantly having that gut feeling that someone was watching her. She tried enjoying herself on the dance floor rubbing up against some stranger but she couldn't shake that feeling. As she got another round she spun around too fast and knocked the man and her drinks to the ground.

Jax was on a current run with a few nomads. He was sent with them to deliver a large shipment running across the states. They stopped in for the night at a downtown motel hoping to have some peace but the club pumping up the road had Jax thinking other things.

"I'm headed out for the night. Boys wanna join?"

Happy smirked thinking the exact same thing. "You took the words right outta my mouth VP." He stated firmly. The other nomads smirked having the same idea and took off in the direction of the club.

They spoke about the strippers on the polls having good game and the crowd going wild. There was a stage at the far end with a performer doing her thing. Happy tapped Jax' shoulder throwing his head in the direction of the stage. Jax nodded and headed for the bar.

He looked around the club spotting a few nice women but nothing of his type. He took a swig of his beer leaning back on the counter just randomly looking around when someone bumped him causing his beer to spill along with the tray she had all over his shirt.

"The hell?" He stated pulling his shirt away from his skin. He looked down then up to the person who bumped him and came face to face with her. The one and only woman who's ever held his heart. Standing before him was Tara Knowles.

He stood bug eyed as she inhaled sharply. The wet shirt forgotten and the tray dripping from the spillage. They both glanced into one another's eyes never believing they were standing in the same presence as the other.

Jax swallowed hard but before he could think she was on her heal heading in the opposite direction of him. He blinked a few times and studied her swaying hips before his mind adjusted and he was following swiftly behind her. He lost her in the crowd slightly before her small figure appeared as he looked towards the exit. He pushed past the crowd heading towards her before she stood outside trying to will herself to breathe. Her hands to her knees and chest as she tried pulling at the front of her shirt.

Jax stopped midway before he saw her crouching slightly. He could tell this was indeed Tara. A clear sign of his crow on her lower back proved that. He swallowed hard again before he closed the distance between them. Each step was with anticipation. Every further second away he got taking her in was something he never thought he'd get back. Slowly and lightly he ran a hand over his crow and inhaled sharply as the simple touch caused goosebumps.

Tara slowly stood back as Jax ran a hand over the tattoo and she sighed. He closed the distance between their bodies and she could feel his breath on her shoulder causing her to shudder slightly.

"You kept it?" He whispered over the blaring music of the club but she heard.

"Why wouldn't I?" She asked turning around to him. She smiled sadly looking into his deep ocean blue eyes.

"Thought you would've…" He smiled in return. One hand found the familiar place on her hip as the other found her face. His fingers skimmed her jaw slightly before their foreheads met.

"I would never have done that Jax. You meant a big thing to me back then… Still do now" she whispered as she closed her eyes. "Even after all these years."

She heard Jax gasp and fisted her hair. "Really?" He asked, his voice breaking slightly.

"Yes Jax…" She opened her eyes and saw a wave of emotions flood through him in seconds. "…I'm sorry I left without saying goodbye… I just- I knew it was gonna be hard." Jax shook his head not wanting to hear anything and shut her up with a kiss. A needy one. She stood stunned for a moment before her hand flew to his hair and deepened it. Their tongues danced in each other's mouths as his other hand pulled her closer by the hips. He bit her lip slightly causing her to smirk and pull away.

"Shit Tara" Jax stated holding her in place.

"I see I still have that affect" she stated grinding against his hard member.

He growled and pulled her towards his bike. Without needing to say anything she reached out as he offered his helmet. She got on after him and wrapped her arms around his waist. She slightly teased his groin as he took off.

Five minutes later they were parked up at his motel. He pulled her up the stairs and reached for his key card but she stopped him. She spun him around knocking him back against the wall with a thud. He smirked that famous Teller smirk that made her weak in the knees and she smashed their lips together. She tried her best fighting for dominance but he was more powerful. He had her against the wall in seconds with her hands flying above her head as he grind into her. He reached for the card in her hand and opened the door before lifting her up. She instinctively wrapped her legs around him and he walked them inside. As the strong assault on one another's mouths continued he had discarded her backless top and she had his cut and damp shirt off in seconds. She explored his hard chest kissing anything she could before he had her flat on the bed hovering over her.

He smirked and continued his assault on her plump lips. They managed to strip one another from their clothes before he was grinding up on her again. He took a moment to gaze at the stunning woman before him and sighed with content. He brought his lips to hers softly taking it slow. Before he could control the kiss she had him on his back.

"Ride me babe." She smirked and placed herself over his throbbing member before she sunk down on him which caused them both to grasp. She slowly rose before sinking back down again. She clawed at his chest as she rode him hard and good. He couldn't control his grunts. She slowed waiting for him to compose himself before moving again with a smirk. With the help of Jax, he helped the movement. He loved when she rode him back in high school. He could see her full frontal. He watched on as she played with her aching breasts but wouldn't have that. He sat up causing her to yelp before she giggled. He pushed her hands away from her breasts while his mouth replaced them. At the same time he moved her hands around his neck. She took the hint and brought his face closer as she continued her ride.

Tara could feel her climax coming and picked up the pace. He stayed sitting as he thrust up into her. She held herself up by her arms firmly wrapped around him before she was coming.

She laid on top of him as she came down from her exhilarating ride. His hands leaving invisible trail marks wherever he touched. Skimming up and down her back before he held her close.

He flipped them fast and with a scream from her he smirked. "Turn over babe. I wanna see my crow." Tara smirked mischievously and got on all fours. Her but high in the air waiting to be tended to. She heard him moving around and then felt him skim her core with his perfect tongue before he adjusted himself behind her. In one swift move he was inside of her and pounding slow. He picked up the pace pounding into her harder as he watched his crow almost flying. He laid above her before reaching around bringing her closer to a climax. He continued his assault on her clit waiting for the vice like grip she had around him and came with a loud grunt and laid over her completely spent. Slowly, he flipped them and held her over his chisel torso.

Jax felt her trying to get off of him but he smirked and held her in place. As he kissed her shoulder blade he felt her shudder.

"I'm cold Jax." Jax chuckled knowing she got cold easily. How he remembered shit like this he didn't know but things as little as this ached in his heart when he slept with nothing but used pussy. They found themselves out of breathe just skimming the others skin as they laid content before sleep over took them.

When Tara woke up she thought she was dreaming. She felt a welcoming pain between her thighs as someone hovered over her. As her eyes adjusted to the light she smiled wrapping her arms arounds Jax. He peppered kisses down her neck slowly taking his time

"Jackson." Tara stated causing him to look into her lustful eyes. He smirked as she did and swiftly parted her long legs. He teased her for a moment watching as her eyes shut in anticipation before he swiftly entered his world of heaven. He watched as she gasped filling her up slowly.

"Shit babe." He rasped gripping the sheets above her head. She moved beneath him with need and desire.

"Move Jax" she moaned as she gripped his hip and wrapped the other hand over his tattooed back.

He gripped the sheets as he began his dying need to feel all of her in a slow way. He set the pace for himself hoping to last a while but her thrashing below him had his mind thinking other plans. He sped up his thrusting causing him to grunt with want and the power to control. She thrived under his every touch. As their lips met once again he cupped one breast in his hand while he kissed down her jawline to her neck. He sucked lightly at his favorite place and began marking her. She didn't care as he sucked her neck. She clawed at his back marking him which was sure to show in the morning. As his thrusts became stronger she could feel her climax coming. She gripped him as he dove deeper and pulled all the way out before driving back into her. She cupped his face and smashed their lips together again before she came around him. He bit on her bottom lip causing the intensity of her climax to grow stronger.

With all his will power and control, he couldn't hold out any longer and came along with her once again. He drove himself deep inside of her letting himself spill as he came.

"Shit babe. Your so tight." She held him in place kissing his scruff that tickled her neck slightly not being used to his scruff.

As they came down from their highs Tara smiled to herself. He caught the grin on his shoulder and smirked also. He rose up on all fours and took in her flustered body.

Leaning all his weight to one side, the free hand brushed her hair out of the way. Still being inside her he kissed her softly as he thrusted slowly once again this time hopefully to take it slow.

He'd never been this emotional with someone else besides Tara. As he conquered half of the crow eater population, he always pictured the girl below him. It was her face he always saw at night. No one else's.

After the long festivities of the morning, a hard banging to the door caused Jax to groan and Tara to chuckle.

"Jax… We're headed out in twenty." Jax sighed deeply as Tara peppered kisses along his muscular chest before she got up.

"Where you headed?" With a raised brow and a grin of anticipation she faced him.

"Shower." She scurried towards the bathroom as he smirked and leapt out of the bed.

After the round in the bathroom Jax wrapped Tara in a towel and lead her back into the bedroom. He sat back watching as Tara looked at her odorous top and huffed.

"See what you made me do Jax." He joked raising the top. He reached for his duffle bag and pulled out a few shirts and a hoodie handing her his spare top.

"Wear this." It was one of his dark blue SAMCRO shirts. She thanked him and put it on tying it at the back.

She put her jeans back on seeing they weren't as bad as the top and then shoes. Jax watched sadly as she changed knowing this was probably gonna be the last time he would see her.

"Promise you'll come back once your finished? Even if it's just for a holiday?" He asked sadly holding back tears as he did.

Tara was feeling that familiar emotion she had when she left Jax the first time. She sighed sadly and lowered her head.

"I'll try. But I won't promise anything Jackson."

He nodded and looked down to his hands. "Let's hurry up. That asshole won't stop banging until we're out." Jax stated after hearing Happy bang again for a third time.

Tara chuckled as she got the rest of things before heading out the door with Jax close behind.

They held one another's hands as Jax led her to his bike but she held back. He stopped and looked at her with confusion. "What?" He asked.

"I can find my way home Jax."

Jax sighed sadly and pulled her closer wrapping her in his arms protectively.

"Let me take you home babe. Please." Happy and the other nomads watched with a grin.

Jax handed his helmet to her and got on roaring his bike to life. He smiled with content as she got on behind him and they drove off with the others soon following.

Jax got the hint when she would tap on his right or left side indicating the direction of her home. He rode as slow as possible and she was glad. Tears slowly left her eyes and cascaded onto his cut. She held him tighter seeing the last of shops before her home. Finally she pulled him back before he stopped at the end of her driveway.

She wouldn't let him go for a moment until he pulled her arms away. Tara got off holding her head down feeling the emotions she once felt hit her like a ton of bricks. She glanced at the guys behind her before looking back at Jax who was getting off.

With slumped shoulders he took off the helmet and straightened out her messy hair smiling sadly.

"It was great seeing you again Tara." His voice cracked under the weight of his words and she smiled a tear stained smile.

"It was great seeing you too Jackson." He pulled her in for a hug inhaling his scent on her for the longest of moments.

At least now I can say goodbye this time he thought as he placed a kiss to her forehead.

"Don't ever forget me Jackson."

"How could I not. I love you Tara." Before she could respond he pulled her in for a kiss. A soft, loving yet undenying and unspoken words of love. They could feel the hot tears on one another's face as they cascaded down.

"Hurry up brother." Happy stated. Tara tore her mouth away from Jax and glared at Happy with daring eyes causing him to hold his arms up in defense.

"I'll see you round babe." With one last kiss to her forehead Jax was on his bike and heading in the opposite direction of Tara. She stood rooted to the spot as the others took off after him. She slumped back as tears fell freely. She could no longer see the retrieving backs of the leather clad men and fell to the ground clutching herself.

She didn't know how long she was sitting there until a small chill had her attention. She wiped her eyes and clutched her clothes as she got up. She fidgeted finding her keys before they dropped out of her hand she couldn't bring herself to care. She fell to the ground again sobbing into her chest.

It must've been midday the next time she was looking up. She never heard the car pull into her driveway or the person reaching out for her until she clearly looked up.

Clenching her fists again she sobbed out into the open air.

"Tara what's wrong?" A soft innocent voice asked.

Tara looked up too see her friend and work colleague Jasmine looking down on her. "Jazz."

Tara couldn't control her tears as they fell.

"Yeah Tara. I'm here. Let's get inside." Tara couldn't feel her feet as she stood. All she could feel was a massive part of her life gone again.

Jasmine got the keys and unlocked the door before she picked Tara up. Jasmine got Tara onto the couch and covered her with a throw over.

After a long afternoon and night of crying the next morning Tara didn't have the energy to get out of bed.