Journal of Piper Wright #7. Entry #27. No flashy title this time.

It's been a while, hasn't it? Sorry about that. Life has a funny way of taking over sometimes.

One minute you're on top of the world and next, you're lucky not to be six feet deep under it. Don't I know that more than ever now.

Since I last updated this thing.. it's hard to even know where to start. We were on the road, blue and I. She took me to this crazy place full of robots and yeah, well, I kissed her.

I don't know what took over me. But she was there and I just.. I wanted it so much. I needed to have it. So I did.

I thought it was the biggest mistake I'd ever made. Turned out, it wasn't.

She wanted it too. Blue... Sarah, she wanted me too.

Now I'm blushing again. Damn it. This certainly isn't the time for that.

And so we kissed again. And I was so happy. We went back to Sanctuary Hills, her home before the war. And it… it…

Why am I doing this?

Fuck.

It was so promising. People we working together to create something special. The Minutemen were.. they were... pulling together. Helping their fellow man. To see that on this scale, outside of Diamond City, was amazing.

I got to meet those who had helped Blue. They kept her going after everything and made sure she got to Diamond City.

To me.

The Vault was creepy. To know that it felt like just a couple of months since she'd gone down there, with her family. I was honored she allowed me to come with her. To see the place that had saved her life, but also took away the biggest part of it.

She was so strong at the funeral service. I was so proud of her for speaking, for putting herself across that way. I don't know if I could have done the same in her position. No. I know I couldn't have. She's stronger than I am. Stronger than anyone I've met before.

Foolishly it felt like the start of something new. Something better. I should have known.

And then it happened. I still can't get my head around it. One moment and.. it all changed. We were attacked. I still don't know who. Raiders? Mutants? The Institute? I just knew I had to get her to safety. She's too damn important.

Sturges led the way through the clearing. There was hardly any of us following him. Paul. Blue. Dogmeat and Codsworth. We left so many behind.

So many took a stand to protect us, to protect her. Like Preston. I'd only just met him, but I could tell straight away that he was a man who'd lay down his life to do what's right.

I wish that it hadn't had to be, though.

We reached a junkyard. It had a dead sentry bot inside. Blue asked if Sturges could get it working, get it on our side. She was furious. Those were her people being… slaughtered. For nothing. She wanted to head back there and get them out.

Sturges said he couldn't. They'd already tried before, when looking for potential escape routes and found this place. But in their error, they'd destroyed it.

We could see the fires burning. I could see the same fire burning in her eyes. She wanted to go in guns blazing, to fight, to protect. It was her nature.

I tried to calm her but she didn't want to hear it. I.. it was hard, seeing her like that. I know she wasn't cold on purpose. But I'd never seen that side of her.

I can't blame her. I want to find those people too. To hurt them for what they've done.

But a suicide mission isn't the way to go.

She was silent for so long. Thinking. Analysing.

But then she said one word.

It caught me so off guard.

Now, at a time like this, Blue? You want to dance?

She shook her head.

Not dance.

Danse.