This came to me ages ago after watching a movie and then Surrender Benson and never left my mind unfortunately and it just continued to grow from there that I ended up having to write this story a slave to my thoughts.

It is starting out as T but will move to a higher rating later as it progresses .

I was trying to figure out where to put it in, so it is at the beginning of season 15 Olivia went through the ordeal with Lewis, has just moved in with Brian Cassidy, Captain Donald Cragen is still the captain and the team remains the same.

There will be other characters and they are not mine but from another TV show called Rush that used to be filmed in Australia but I have I changed it that they are from Darwin and not Melbourne, other than that all other characters are mine.

It will get pretty dark so be warned before reading it and if you do start you are forewarned that it will get a lot worse but I will warn you in each chapter .

Hope you enjoy reading it and review if you do

P.S I haven't stopped my other fanfic just having a break from it and this has been in the making for 16 months or so so though so thought I would finally post it.

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SVU DOWNUNDER

Looking at the notice board another photo there now Olivia Benson was going to catch this rapist if it was the last thing she did the frustration that there had been no clues or DNA or anything that would help them he was becoming a serial rapist and murderer one that was leaving no clues or anything, he was careful using condoms and no traces for them to follow nothing in one month

"that makes four now this girl though is in a critical condition, he didn't get to kill her like the others but the same MO, we think it is the same guy"

Hanging up the phone Nick Amaro turns to Olivia "She is being operated on now, if she pulls through she has severe injuries, she is badly torn from the rape and some internal bleeding and once she is awake the hospital will call but they don't know when that will be, she is in a critical condition"

"What injuries does she have? How did she manage to escape, he doesn't want to be found, he's always been so careful how did he let this one escape, is he over confident now?" Rollins asked them her eyes on the board, had they missed something from the previous cases

"Stabbed, a rape kit is being done one she is stabilised and before they get rid of the evidence, but it looks like a condom was used again, the area is being searched now to see what they can find" Nick replied

"Amaro, Benson head over there" looking up seeing their Captain Donald Cragen walk out of his office towards them ordering them all

"He's getting careless, over confident?" Fin replies his eyes looking at the board, at the photos wondering, hoping they would give them something, an answer anything to catch the bastard

Olivia was determined this time to find out who this killer was, he was getting over confident which hopefully meant he would start to stuff up "This time he was interrupted we have a brief description of him, the witness Peter Mills will be coming in to give his statement he is shaken up from it all"

"don't blame him, this guy is a serial killer Peter easily could have been killed too" Nick replied to Olivia as he picks up the keys to the car

"He still could, this guy has been so careful in the past and now two people may be able to identify him, do we have a police guard on the girls room?" Fin asked the Captain "what about the witness?"

"There will be a police outside her room, the media cannot get hold of this, or where she is. Mr Mills is shaken up, I have to get onto 1PP" Cragen replied walking back into his office.

"Fin, Rollins see if we can get a photo of this guy anything, description we need something, Amaro you and I will head to the scene then onto the hospital once she wakes up" Olivia orders them all picking up her bag following Nick out to the car.

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"Melinda find anything to give us a clue on who he is" Olivia asked with some hopefulness, they needed a break to catch this guy to stop him

"Nothing so far, the blood seems to be a match for the victim, we will know more once we get back to the lab, same as before he doesn't leave anything behind, he has to have done this before, he is careful he doesn't want to be caught, no condom around, packet nothing" Melinda replies looking up at them
"He will get over confident they always do, then they make mistakes, there has to a way to link all three, when she wakes up, we might get some answers then" Olivia replies her eyes scanning the area, hearing her phone ring

Hanging up her phone turning to Amaro "head to the hospital she is out of surgery and awake, Melinda let us know if you find anything"

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Walking over to the bed "I'm Detective Benson and this is my partner Detective Amaro" Olivia tried to keep her voice soft, calming and reassuring

The look in her eyes she was scared afraid and confused "I don't know what happened, I ended up in hospital and being operated on, my legs are sore and there is a throbbing down there between my legs it is painful and bruising, and…."

"Claire, we think you were sexually assaulted, raped the bruises on your leg is the attacker forcing your legs apart" Olivia replied the empathy in her voice

Her eyes wide open looking frantically around the room "raped, wouldn't I of remembered that happening, I don't remember" her voice panicing "why can't I remember"

"This is not your fault, Why don't we focus of what you do remember" Olivia's voice was trying to soothe her

Her voice was so soft and scared "It's all a blank, all I really remember is waking up here, do you think he raped me?"

"Yes I do, You need to tell me everything you can remember, anything, even if you think it is minor" Olivia asked her, her voice firm but gentle

"I was meeting a guy I met on an internet dating site I was a bit nervous so agreed to meet him in a safe place where there would be people around. I made it to a restaurant that is all I remember, do you think he was the one who raped me?" she asked Olivia her body trembling

"do you remember the name of the restaurant Claire?" Nick asked

Nodding "it was nothing flash, Rockfellows, I arrived about 7.30 met him there and that's all I remember, sorry, then I remember waking up here, I don't even know how I got here" the confusion and anger was in her voice

"You have nothing to be sorry about Claire, this isn't your fault you are here and now that is the important thing" Olivia replied leaning down towards her "We are going to try to find this guy, if you remember anything, even if you think it is small let us know, here is my card call me anytime day or night"

Watching Olivia and Nick leave "How could I be so stupid, I thought I would be safe meeting someone in a public area … why can't I remember what happened who did this why?" she asked tears spilling down her face

"Claire" Olivia's hand gently holding hers, her fingers running up and down her hand slowly "don't try to force it to come to you, he could of drugged you, you did everything right" Olivia moved her hands up slowly higher "this is not your fault, do not blame yourself bad things just happen"
"Yeah to me bet they don't happen to you" Claire replied bitterly

"You'd be surprised Claire, there are some bad people out there and we are going to try to catch him" Olivia replied

"Welcome home Detective Benson,…. We will find it…one move lights out" taking a deep breath she wanted those thoughts out of her head the nightmares the flashbacks

"They happen to me too" she replied softly

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Facing the team her voice commanding pointing to the board "She met Dean Leighton if that is his name on a dating website hotnheavy they went out to dinner at Rockfellows Restaurant and onto a bar that is all she can remember"

Listening as the captain takes over "Fin and Rollins take the photos to the bar and restaurant see if you can get anything, go through any CCTV footage they have, Liv and Amaro we need to get the address of hotnheavy see if the other girls were on the website if Dean goes via any other name, find out anything you can I want to nail this bastard, John go back to the other states see if his MO fits any of the rapes there"

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"Claire I need you to have a close look at these photos, and tell us if you see the guy you went out to dinner with and met on the dating site"

Her eyes closely examining the photos before handing it back to Olivia nodding "Yes this one, he seemed so nice, he had a lovely profile and didn't seem as sleazy as others. You're saying he was the one who assaulted and raped me"

Nodding her head leaning down towards her "we think so"

Tears in her eyes choking back the sobs "Why didn't I fight back or anything, I should of scratched him and got some DNA, I should of fought back"

Reaching out to touch her arm "you cannot blame yourself, this is not your fault Claire if you have fought back you might not be here now"

"I remember bits and pieces now but not much like holding me down, ripping my clothes, I should of done something" her voice distraught

"we think you could have been drugged, that's why you couldn't do anything, why you can't remember anything, we are waiting on the tox screen now, Claire don't blame yourself you will get through this I promise" Olivia voice gentle cradling both her hands in hers

Her tear stained face looking up at her "you are going to catch this guy"

Her voice filled with determination "we are going to try, you have my number call me anytime you need to"

"How could I have been so stupid, I thought a safe place with many people around I would be safe, and I could leave any time if it didn't seem right, it was stupid. My friends all had boyfriends, it was like I was missing out, having someone in my life. I was happy by myself but no I had to listen to what people said, that I should try a dating site, do you have a boyfriend? It's not that important if you don't…" the tears falling down her face

Olivia moved her hands over gently encircling Claire's "You are not stupid, you did everything right going to a place with people around. I do have a boyfriend I had been by myself for years and I was happy single, and an old friend came back into my life, there is nothing wrong wanting to be by yourself, you have nothing to be ashamed off Claire. We are gathering video evidence at the moment, we are going to catch this guy. You will get through this, I know it might not seem like it now but believe me and trust me you will it will take time but you will get there. Call me anytime you need to. There is police right outside your door"

Watching as Olivia and Nick leave "I don't know what is worse not remembering your attack or not being able to stop thinking about it and forget it, at the moment all I can do is try to remember it think what happened"

"It might come back over time Claire, just take one day at a time" Olivia replied gently

"The flashbacks nightmares, the bits and pieces I would rather know what happened than have these flashbacks of what could of happened, the bits I do remember, will they ever stop" she asked Olivia tears forming in her eyes

Cupping her hands in hers "Believe me the nightmares and flashbacks will get less, not as often. It might come back to you, one day you will be able to go a day without having them, then a week, until you hardly have them at all" Olivia replied softly.

She knew all too well about the flashbacks, the nightmares. Waking up in a sweat shaking, bolting upright from a dream that seemed so true her eyes darting around the room sure that Lewis was there with her still. Her hands around her knees rocking back and forth as her mind would go back to the beach house, the drive there what she saw. Trying to convince Brian that she was ok and he could go back to sleep, Brians arms around her until she fell back to sleep that over time it was not as often that she would wake up screaming, shaking.

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Looking up as FBI agent Dean Porter walks in "Congratulations Olivia on becoming a Sergeant"

Nodding her head looking at him her voice questioning "what are you doing here?"

She could still remember the last time they met and how it all ended she didn't want to believe it at first but it all added up they had grown close. The night when she had kissed him in her apartment for a moment she forgot what it was about all she felt was the kiss, something she had wanted to do, she was hurt afterwards that he had betrayed her, she didn't want to believe that he would cover up a double murder .

He couldn't blame her for the way she felt if he could take back part of the last time they met, the last thing he had said to her "our feelings don't matter" he had liked her spark and more about her "your captain in?"

Her eyes and head moving towards his office "in there"

He couldn't blame Olivia for the hostility towards him he had a job to do, he mightn't like what he had to do but he had to do it.

"Olivia" the door to the captain's office opening

Her eyes moving around the room as she heads towards his office hearing Fin calling out "nice knowing you"

"close the door behind you" Capt ordered her

Her eyes moving to Donald and back to Dean "I'm not going undercover for you again, going to pin something on my brother again, I haven't seen him in a while you or going to cover up more murders…."

Interrupting her "It has nothing to do with Simon this time Sergeant, This is about the case you have been working on Dean Leighton, his real name is David Winters and he is from Australia , we have being looking into the investigation"

"Why this is an SVU case, why is the FBI involved" accusation in her voice was he going to take it off her again "Going to get another murderer rapist get off" she asked him sarcastically

"It's a much bigger case now, with the murders and the rape we started looking into it, Winters we found out caught a flight back to Australia two days ago, his flight had landed before we realised. The address we were given the one on his passport"

"let me guess it was a fake no one there?" looking at the captain "why did you call me in here then, if SVU isn't on the case anymore"

Watching as Captain opens his door calling out "Amaro"

His eyes moving around the room first Olivia now him and FBI had they done something wrong.

"Liv and Amaro, is your passport up to date, as both of you along with Agent Porter will be flying out tonight to Australia"

Her eyes wide open "your kidding"

Seeing her captain shake his head the seriousness in his voice "flights are being booked now, we will give you all the information that you need when you get back here, go home and pack then come back here at 5 pm to be briefed your flight leaves at 10 pm tonight"