This is my first story. Bella will not exactly be the same as in the books. She will have a back bone.

This is Bella/Tanya.

Not for Edward or Carlisle fans. I do not like either of them, but definitely can't stand Edward.

Please let me know what you think.

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or anything associated with the books or movies. They all go to Stephanie Meyer.

Sometimes I think fate hates me. I never really believed much into fate, until now. I seem to be a walking target, a clumsy, awkward one at that. We finally have peace. We defeated Victoria and there were no longer any more threats. Luckily enough, Laurent decided he wanted no part of Victoria and her thirst for vengeance. He had found his mate in Alaska, with Irina from the Denali coven, and he wanted to remain peaceful and continue to try the animal diet. I've never been more grateful for the Denali existence for that. Victoria had created a new born army, and with the help of Riley Biers, planned to attack the Cullen's and myself. My best friend Jacob Black and his pack of werewolves decided to join in and help. With more numbers than we had originally, we defeated Victoria and had suffered no causalities. The Volturi had showed up towards the end, and mentioned how I was still human. The date was set; I was going to be turned. I had the feeling that was not good enough when they left. Now here we are, planning an extravagant wedding to Edward, one that I didn't really want in the first place. I love Edward, but marriage was never something I had been interested in. I had seen enough fighting in a marriage to last me a lifetime. I am now sitting on the steps watching Rosalie and Emmett decorate the wedding outside. Watching Rosalie carry a huge tree trunk is sometimes such a shock to me, even knowing they were all vampires. It seems I have let myself go in my thoughts and a lot has been done to prepare for the wedding.

As Alice reached the bottom of the stairs she suddenly stops.

Once she was out of the vision she looks at me, "The Volturi are not happy with us. Aro is tired of waiting for Bella to change, and he is wary of how powerful we are and how large of a coven we are becoming. He wants to capture me, Bella, Edward, and if possible Jasper." Alice said with fear in her eyes.

I am not really surprised they want Jasper; he is an excellent fighter and had fought in a war with the Confederate army. I quickly stand up, and Edward is by my side immediately. Alice walks off and I can tell she is on the phone with Carlisle telling him to come home.

"Why can't we just go ahead and change me, I can be of help as a newborn" I asked.

Edward immediately shakes his head and huffs as if the thought was really that despising.

"Edward, she needs to be changed, she can be of help and maybe when Aro see's she is a vampire and turned he will turn away, " Emmett said.

Edward and Emmett start arguing as I wonder off. I just don't understand why Edward is so against me becoming one of them. I thought mates were supposed to want to be together forever but every time it is mentioned Edward shuts it down. I hear Carlisle pull up in the driveway and everyone is going into the living room. I make my in that direction and can already hear Edward stating that I cannot be changed again. I hear Alice say it should be my choice as it is my life, and Edward responding that it's not my life but ours. Sometimes he can be too possessive. Jacob always says that I have blinders on when it comes to him and his family. I have had enough.

"Edward, I will be changed. This is no longer your decision and I will not be part of the reason the Voluri want us gone. This is my life, and I should get a say in what I can and can't do. You are not my father. You are my fiancé, we should be making decisions together. Not you making them for me" I say. I almost hate how I sound like I'm begging him to live forever with him.

"She is right Edward", Carlisle speaks, "She must be changed. That may sway Aro, I'm not certain of that but it is worth a try. She has wanted this since she knew of us."

There is no vote, the leader of the family has spoken and I will be changed. I decide to go home and spend some time with Charlie and let Jacob know what is going on. I'm downstairs making dinner for Charlie when Alice calls me and lets me know that I will be changed tomorrow and that they need to think of a way to plan my death where they do not seem suspect.

Charlie is home and we are watching football. I made the famous fish fry and decide to go clean up. I know I need to go ahead and make my way to the Cullen's house but I'm not quite ready to say goodbye. He has been there for me in the short time I've been here than Renee has my whole life.

It is time to say goodbye though.

"Hey Charlie, Alice called and she needs me to come over and try on some wedding dresses. Not sure when I will be back." I said.

"That is fine Bella, just be careful, it is starting to get cold and the roads are already wet." Charlie yelled back still watching the tv.

It's time, I will finally be changed. For some reason though, forever doesn't quite seem to be in my grasp.