For You

Disclaimer: I don't own Love Live, that much should be obvious already.

A/N: Before anything else, I'm sorry if you're following me and expected that FT fic I told you about, but I get distracted REALLY easily, and well...there had been a LOT of those since then. Add in my moodiness, and I switch from reading various fanfics, watching different anime (a lot more of Yuri; I got really hooked to Yuri for some reason) and trying to write a number of fanfics. (I've typed/written some of them already, but I make sure not to upload it if I don't have a solid outline of it in my head first, or have it completed already.) TL;DR - I'm sorry, but I write what I like and I like different things depending on my mood. Again, I'm sorry.

A.A/N: ANYWAY, This is a HonoMaki fic. I just...IDK. I was a NicoMaki shipper but then these HonoMaki fanarts made me see the error of my ways :D Without further ado, Enjoy. :)

I wish she'd just cry it out.

The others might not be noticing it, or maybe they just don't mention it, but I could see the sadness in her eyes. It's not her usual standoffish self. Though I only started to notice it a few days ago, and she seemed to be better than the first time I remember her acting a bit weird. I tried asking her about it then, but she just said it to be nothing. I wish she'd rely on me more, or anyone of her friends – there's Rin or Hanayo, or maybe even Umi or Kotori.

Maki and Nico had been going out a few weeks after they had joined μ's. No one was really sure how, but everyone just knew. They didn't also tell us, but it's not like they had to – it was kind of obvious, and we understood that maybe Maki was still new to relationships, so we didn't want to pressure her on it. Nozomi would openly tease them about it though, so maybe they also knew that we knew and understood their situation. Regardless, we were happy for them. And we could also see that they're happy with each other. Then the third years graduated.

It wasn't easy for them, which was obvious since Maki was still in school while Nico worked as a professional idol. Nico said that she had applied and auditioned after we had decided to disband. I think they were fine at first, then Nico's schedule got busier, and Maki was worried about her future career. We didn't know more though – Nozomi and Eli were busy in college, and Maki wasn't really that open about herself. So it came as a surprise when Nozomi sent me a message asking how Maki was doing. When I asked why, she told me that Maki and Nico had just broken up. And of course, as their friend, former leader, and student council president (at least before Nico had graduated), I was worried, so I tried to ask them about it, and maybe comfort them or give advice. They just told me that it was nothing and needed time to themselves.

I've told Nozomi about what happened – also to ask her for an advice on what to do. She told me that she'd try and talk to Nico, and if ever, I should worry more for Maki, since she tended to keep things to herself. I readily agreed. Which I admit wasn't because of the purest of intentions.

I've liked Maki too.

Since the first time I heard her piano, I've had a crush on her. She had a beautiful voice that matched how cute she also was. I became her fan right away. I invited her into becoming a school idol not only because I wanted her to compose for us, but also because I wanted to spend more time and get to know her. I didn't really know why though, so I asked Kotori about it. She excitedly told me that I might have a crush on her. The term wasn't alien to me, just that it was the first time I've felt like that for anyone. And I felt happy about it. That someone as amazing as Maki was my first crush.

It was saddening that we weren't advancing much with being school idols, especially when Eli was still trying to stop us, but we couldn't give up, so I asked Maki one last time to compose for us. When it seemed like I was bothering her too much, I promised not to bother her again if she really didn't want to compose for us – of course with the condition of still being able to listen to her sing. I truly did love her singing voice. Thankfully, Umi's lyrics were able to convince her. After that, she joined μ's. I found out more about her – how she kept most things to herself, that she's going to be inheriting her family's hospital, and how she's dating Nico.

I wasn't really upset though. They were my friends, and I was happy for them. We were still part of the same school idol group, having fun together, dancing together, singing together.

We were doing student council work when I asked Umi if I could take a short break. Despite how strict Umi was, I know that she does so for my own good. She allowed me ten minutes – enough time to buy something to drink and rest. I passed by the music room, and peeked if Maki was in.

She was. And she was crying.

I entered the room as quietly as I could, and sat beside her on the piano stool. She was slumped on the fallboard. (Maki had once given me a lecture about the piano when I was listening to her play.) She must've noticed since she jolted a bit when I sat down. Since she didn't ask me to leave, I assumed that it was ok for me to be there, so I placed my hand on her back, patted her, and said things that I couldn't really remember. I was a little bit out of it too. All of a sudden, she just sat straight and glared at me. I wondered if I said something I shouldn't have. I was about to apologize for whatever I might have said when she spoke first. "Like you're to talk."

I wasn't really sure what I said, so I asked her to explain.

"Should you really be telling me all this?" She said, this time louder. She was still looking at me angrily. I didn't really get what she meant. It was all I could do to avoid getting her madder at me if I asked her to repeat what she said again. "Huh?"

"You keep on telling me to go and talk to her. Saying that it was simply a misunderstanding. That we were simply not saying what we want. How about you? It's not like you're doing what you're telling me!"

"I-I don't really get what you mea-"

"You're in love with me, aren't you? You think I wouldn't notice? I do admit that I thought that it was just so like you to admit that you love my singing voice. You're smarter than you let out – I had it all under you being brash, but then I'd notice you stare at me from time to time; how you'd hold your eyes on mine when I'd catch you staring; how you'd cling to me, and get touchy-feely; or how you-"

"You're wrong."

"Ha? I'm-"

"I'm not in love with you. Kotori said that it's only a crush. I guess I finally know why." I stood and headed for the door. As I was going out, I paused for a moment and looked back at her. "Good day."

I don't really know what got to me to say those things. Maybe it was because of what she was saying. Maybe it was the way she was saying them. Or maybe I simply didn't like it and wanted to say something back. Either way, she had said what she did, and I did too. There was no point in thinking about it more.

"Honoka? What's wrong?" It seemed that Kotori was looking for me – maybe Umi was getting peeved (and worried) that I haven't returned yet.

"Huh?" Before I knew it, I felt tears running down my face. "Hahaha, I wonder why I'm crying." I let out weakly, wiping the tears that continued to appear.

"Honoka…" Kotori called once more as she wrapped me in a hug. I couldn't stop crying.

"Kotori, why does it hurt? Are crushes meant to hurt this much?" I managed to say in between sobs.

Kotori simply hugged me tighter.

A/N: What do you think of this pairing? And I'm sorry if they're OOC. I tried my best...I think.