With Or Without You Part 1

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Title: With or Without You

Author: Mary

Date Written: August/September 1999

Synopsis: Six months after their marriage, Lee and Amanda deal with the reality of their secret relationship and a conspiracy that

threatens to destroy what they have built.

Rating: PG

WITH OR WITHOUT YOU

PART ONE

"SLEEP NOT, DREAM NOT"

CHAPTER ONE

The dark haired man took one more look around the dimly lit room, taking a final inventory of its contents. He smiled slightly, exposing a row of teeth discolored by too many cups of coffee. Everything was set.

"You ready?" his partner asked, throwing the last of his tools into a small black bag.

"Yeah, c'mon, let's get out of here," the dark haired man answered, moving quickly towards the door.

As they left, he bent over to set the timer on the small, oblong device attached to the base of the furnace. Straightening up, he smiled smugly to himself.

"Show time," he whispered softly, rubbing his hands together.

"Let's go. This gives me the creeps."

"I'm right behind you. Did you clean up everything from the meeting?"

"Yeah," his partner replied. "Everything's clean."

"Okay, we're outta here." Making one final sweep with his eyes, the dark haired man moved as quietly and efficiently as possible across the room. Still grinning, he followed his partner up the stairs and out the door.

"Too bad we're gonna miss all the fireworks," he said as they furtively left the building.

"Yeah, it should really be something." His partner tossed him the car keys. "Here, it's your turn to drive."

The dark haired man grunted, unlocked the door to the blue sedan, and slid behind the wheel. He waited for his partner to fasten his seat belt, then slowly he eased the car into the street, disappearing into the Washington traffic.

Lee Stetson woke to the smell of slowly cooking bacon. Momentarily disoriented, he glanced around the room, briskly taking in his surroundings. It took only a few short seconds to realize that he was in Amanda's bedroom at 4247 Maplewood Drive. Smiling, he recalled last night's events – the sudden storm and their impulsive decision to stay at Amanda's instead of making the drive to Lee's D.C. apartment. Glancing at the clock, he saw that it was only 7:30 in the morning…Sunday morning, at that. Definitely too early to be up. He could hear sounds of cooking emanating from the kitchen downstairs. Lee smiled in resignation – even after six months of marriage, he was still unable to convince Amanda that he really was not much of a breakfast eater.

Stretching his long limbs, he rose from the bed, grabbing the robe he kept hidden in the back of Amanda's closet. It was becoming increasingly difficult to keep their "real life" and their "secret life" separate. No matter how hard they tried, lately the lines just seemed to blur. For convenience sake, they each now kept a supply of clothes at each other's houses, sometimes with disastrous results. Lee grinned ruefully when he recalled his conversation with Amanda's mother a few months ago when his argyle sock had appeared in a load of Amanda's wash. Even harder to explain were the boxer shorts that turned up a few days later. Luckily, Amanda had been able to intercept those before her mother found them. Not that Lee didn't think Dotty couldn't guess what was going on between them...it simply brought up a whole set of questions that neither of them were prepared to answer just yet.

Entering the kitchen, Lee paused a moment, surreptitiously watching his wife. She was totally absorbed in putting the finishing touches on a breakfast tray and didn't hear him come in. Quietly, he crept up behind her, encircling her waist with his arms.

"Good morning, Mrs. Stetson," he said, nuzzling her neck.

"Oh, gosh…Lee. You scared me." She turned to him with a smile. "Although I should be used to it after all these years."

Lee looked into her expressive eyes, then slowly touched his lips to hers. "I missed you when I woke up," he said huskily.

"I was going to surprise you with breakfast in bed," she answered, leaning closer to her husband. "You know, a special reward for last night."

"You didn't have to do all this…you know I'm not much of an eater in the morning."

"Oh, I think you'll like this breakfast. I've got bacon, toast, jam, strawberries…and whipped cream," she finished playfully.

Lee looked over at the tray and then back into his wife's brown eyes. "What time are your mother and the boys due back?"

"Not until 11:00. We have almost the whole morning to be Mr. and Mrs. Stetson."

"Well then, what are we waiting for, Mrs. Stetson?"

"Nothing at all, Mr. Stetson." Picking up the breakfast tray, she started towards the stairs, adding innocently, "Oh, Lee….don't forget the whipped cream."

* * * * *

Lee and Amanda lay quietly together in her bedroom. The rain that had come so suddenly last night had started again, making a soft patter on the roof. Lee sighed contentedly, drawing Amanda tighter into the protective circle of his arms. Amanda glanced briefly at the clock…not quite 10:00 a.m. She pulled away slightly, starting to get up.

Lee held her back. "Not yet," he whispered.

"Mother and the boys…"

Reluctantly, Lee released her and rolled over, staring at the ceiling. "Amanda, this is getting harder instead of easier," he said sadly.

"What is?".

"All this…you, me, your mother, the boys…living apart. I don't know…when I said we could make this a "mystery marriage"…maybe we were both just kidding ourselves."

"You knew what it was going to be like, sweetheart. I know we haven't been together much recently, but that hasn't been entirely my fault."

"What do you mean?" he asked with a slight edge to his voice.

"I realize how hard it is to hide our real relationship from mother and the boys and everyone else, but sometimes I feel like you don't treat me like your partner at work anymore, either."

"I don't know what you're talking about."

"These days, I get the feeling that you're trying to keep me out of the loop…and lately it seems like you've been working with Francine more than with me.

Lee turned away quickly and began pulling on his clothes. "Francine has never been my partner, you should know that."

Amanda chose her words carefully. "Ever since I was shot in California, whether you realize it or not, you've been turning to Francine more and more at work. First, you refused my help on the Brody case…"

"Amanda, I don't know…."

"Then you wouldn't let me help you or Francine when you were set up in that Russian sting operation, even though what happened affected me, too. And there's that whole business with Harry Thornton and the Kruschev list." She paused momentarily, considering her next words. "And now, Senator Holstein's cocktail party last night."

"I promised Tom I'd stop for a minute and I didn't want us both to get stuck there all night."

"Lee, I know there was more to it than just catching up with an old friend. Was Francine there?"

Lee finished dressing and walked over to the bed, taking Amanda's small hands in his larger ones. He looked down to the third finger of her left hand, tenderly rubbing the place where her wedding band should have been.

"No, Francine was not there." He was silent for a moment. "You're the only partner I've had since Eric…there's no one I trust more than you. If I've been distant or distracted at work recently, it's only because hard work seems to be the only thing lately that takes my mind off of our current living situation."

"Lee…"

"I know we agreed to keep our marriage a secret to protect our family. But Amanda, no one but the two of us even knows it's 'our' family. Sometimes I feel like I'm still just looking in at all of you from the kitchen window. I'm just not sure how much longer I can do this. I love you," Lee said, cupping her face with his hands. "And I'm tired of not knowing when we'll be able to spend time together. I'm tired of waking up alone most mornings. I'm tired of being a part-time husband."

"I understand what you're saying, but…"

"Amanda, are you home dear?" Voices rang out from downstairs.

"Mother…" Amanda said, a note of panic in her voice. "Lee, you've got to get out of here!"

She quickly drew on her robe, shooing her husband towards the window.

"Amanda, it's still raining out," Lee hissed. "Besides, maybe it's time we told your mother the truth."

"Lee, I'm not about to explain to my teenage sons what you're doing in my bedroom."

He gave her a pained look.

"Please, just go. I'll talk to you later."

Lee and Amanda both heard footsteps coming up the stairs.

"Amanda, are you home dear?" Dotty's voice came closer and closer.

With a grimace, Lee opened the window and carefully started down the trelice. "We haven't finished discussing this."

Amanda quickly tossed the breakfast dishes under the bed, smoothed the rumpled sheets as best she could, and jumped back under the covers. Her mother knocked once and slowly opened the door.

"Darling…."

"Yes, Mother? I'm sorry, I was resting and didn't hear you come in. You're back early."

"After the rain last night, the campgrounds were all soggy. We were up to our knees in mud, Amanda. So, we packed up and got an early start home," she said, raising an eyebrow quizzically, "You're sleeping awfully late this morning. Are you all right?"

"I just have a headache," Amanda lied. "I'll be up in a few minutes. Did the boys have a good time?"

"They had a wonderful time, as always. Although, you know, I'm getting far too old for these overnight campouts. I think I'll take a nice hot bath and try to recover from the weekend."

"That's a good idea, Mother."

Dotty gave her one more look, started to say something, then obviously thought better of it. She shut the door with a small sigh, softly adding "Amanda, you'd better close that window, it's raining in all over the carpet."

Amanda lay back down on the bed, listening to her mother's retreating footsteps. She turned over slowly, hugging the pillow close to her. She could still smell a hint of Lee's aftershave on the pillowcase. The morning, so happily begun, slowly disintegrated before her eyes. She walked over to the window and looked out, searching the distance for…something.

"Oh, Lee, I miss you, too. And I wish you'd tell me what you're really up to." She reluctantly headed to the bathroom to take a shower and begin the day.

CHAPTER TWO

The two men sat calmly in the car a safe distance down the street. To the average passerby, they appeared to be two businessmen casually waiting for a friend to begin the morning commute. The dark haired man spoke tersely into his car phone.

"No sign yet, Team Three."

His partner scanned the street, cautiously checking the rearview mirror. He looked over at the dark haired man, shaking his head.

"Okay, we'll give it a few more minutes. Phoenix Team Two-out."

The two men settled down to wait.

Amanda Stetson walked into the kitchen where her mother and two sons were eating breakfast.

"Good morning, Mother, hi, guys," she said cheerfully.

Philip and Jamie King smiled at their mother as she sat down at the breakfast table. "Hey, Mom," Jamie answered, sneaking a Coca-Cola out of the refrigerator.

"Jamie, sweetheart, you know you're not supposed to drink soda with your braces," Amanda said, starting to skim the morning newspaper. "Besides, it's too early in the morning for that junk."

"Okay," Jamie grumbled, putting the soda back in the 'fridge with a bang.

"You should see what he drinks at baseball practice," Philip said, grinning.

"Shut up, jerk," Jamie yelled, shoving Philip in the arm.

"You shut up, geek," Philip pushed back.

"Boys, stop it and sit down and eat your breakfast," Dotty ordered, breaking up the scuffle. Jaime reluctantly obeyed, still glaring darkly at his brother.

"Amanda, is that all you're eating this morning? You know breakfast is the most important meal of the day."

"What did you say, Mother?" Amanda replied absently, her attention caught by an article buried in the back page of the paper.

"Breakfast?" Dotty glanced down at the newspaper article, reading over Amanda's shoulder. "'No clues yet to latest explosion'...what a world we live in. It really makes you wonder sometimes."

"It says this latest incident was at a friend of Senator Holstein's," Amanda thought out loud.

"Now you'd think that would light a fire under the police. I hope no one was killed this time."

"They don't say, Mother." She folded the paper and quickly changed the subject. "Fellas, what are you up to today?"

"We've got practice this morning," Philip replied. "Remember, our first play-off game is tonight. You will be there, won't you, Mom?" Philip and Jamie both looked at their mother expectantly.

"I wouldn't miss it, sweetheart. Did you remind your father about the game?"

"Yeah, I called him last night," Jamie said.

"Mom, do you think Lee will be able to come?" Philip asked, downing the last of his orange juice.

Amanda quickly turned her attention to the newspaper. "I don't know. I'll be sure to ask him today."

Dotty sat down at the kitchen table, stirring her coffee and staring thoughtfully at her daughter. The 'clink – clink' of the spoon in her cup was interrupted by a honking horn. "There's you ride, boys," she said. "Don't forget your stuff, Jimmy's mother said she'd drive you to practice from their house."

"We've got it, Grandma," Philip said, heading into the hall to get their baseball equipment. Jamie hung back for a moment, watching his mother finish reading the paper. "Mom, I'll see you tonight at the game," he said quickly. "Dad said he'd be there."

"Okay, sweetheart" Amanda answered. "See you tonight. Have a good day, stay out of trouble," she called to Philip.

"Bye, Mom," Philip answered. The sounds of the boys' noisy departure filled the air for a few minutes before the front door closed with a bang and Dotty and Amanda were left in the relative peace of the late August morning.

"I guess I should be going, too," Amanda said, hastily rising from the table.

"Is Lee picking you up this morning?"

Amanda hesitated by the stairs. "No, not today."

"Is everything all right with you and Lee?" Dotty probed.

"Yes, Mother, everything is fine." She headed swiftly for the door.

"I don't mean to butt into your life, Amanda," Dotty continued, following her daughter through the hall. "But you know I worry about you…"

"Mo-ther honestly, there's nothing to worry about."

"We haven't seen too much of Lee lately." Dotty watched her daughter guardedly.

"I told you, Lee's been busy with some new projects for IFF," Amanda lied glibly, grabbing her purse. "I've got to get going or I'm going to be late for work. See you tonight."

"Amanda, dear, I need to talk to you," Dotty shouted to the retreating figure of her daughter.

"Later, Mother."

"I need to talk to you about Jamie. That girl," Dotty finished under her breath, "Run, run, run, run, run. I guess I'll just have to corner her tonight." As she closed the door, Dotty failed to notice the dark blue sedan that followed Amanda's Jeep Wagoneer down the street.

* * * * *

Lee Stetson sat at his desk in the Q Bureau, feet up, drinking his coffee and perusing the morning newspaper. Placing his coffee cup haphazardly on his desk, he absently rubbed his right temple while he finished reading the small article that caught his attention. Lost in thought, he didn't hear the door open or see Amanda watching him unobtrusively from the doorway. Without warning, Lee sneezed loudly behind his newspaper.

"God bless you," Amanda said, walking over to her desk and putting her purse in the bottom drawer.

Lee abruptly removed his feet from his desk and stood up, hurriedly shoving the newspaper into the top drawer. "Good morning," he said, closing the distance between them.

Amanda put a smooth hand on his forehead. "You're not coming down with something are you?"

"Well, I don't know…someone did push me out a window into the rain yesterday."

"I'm sorry about that," Amanda began.

"Hey, I'm just kidding. I'm fine, Amanda, really." He smiled down at her.

"Can I make it up to you?" she asked, returning his smile.

"What did you have in mind?"

"Well..."

They were suddenly interrupted by the sound of footsteps outside the office door and parted, slipping back into their professional personae.

"Lee, I finally got those figures you've been waiting for," Francine Desmond said, forcefully entering the Q- Bureau office.

"Thanks, Francine," Lee responded hastily, motioning towards Amanda with his eyes.

"Oh, Amanda. I didn't notice you there."

"Good morning to you, too, Francine," Amanda caustically replied. "What figures are those?" She looked speculatively at Francine and her husband.

"Oh, nothing, really." Francine casually closed the folder and passed it off to Lee. "Just some follow-up notes for the case Lee and I wrapped up last month."

"Uh-huh. Whatever you say." Amanda sat down abruptly at her desk and opened the top drawer, pulling out a thick manila folder. She busied herself by flipping through the pages of the first report.

Lee dropped the folder on his desk. "Thanks, I guess this will just about take care of it." He abruptly ushered Francine to the door of the Q-Bureau.

Desmond looked at him closely. "It was no trouble, Scarecrow. I'll see you at the meeting."

"Meeting?"

"Remember, we have that senior agent staff meeting for this morning? Ten a.m. sharp?" Francine prodded.

"Yeah, I guess it had slipped my mind. I'll see you there," Lee replied, closing the door on Francine. He walked over to Amanda's desk and perched nervously on the edge.

"Free for lunch?" he asked her casually.

"I don't know," she said, her eyes still on the folder. "I'll have to check my calendar. I think there's a freshman agent staff meeting today." There was an unmistakably sarcastic tone to her voice.

"Amanda..." He looked longingly at the unbending figure of his wife. He silently returned to his desk, retrieving the newspaper and the file. "I've got to go…I'll check back with you about lunch."

Amanda said nothing, purposefully studying her report. Lee hesitated for a moment, then headed out the door.

CHAPTER THREE

The dark haired man swept the contents of the room with a small electronic box, paying close attention to the constant 'beep-beep' it emitted.

"All clear," he said to his partner, carefully packing the instrument away into the small black bag.

His partner checked the last of the windows. "All clear on my end, too. We'd better make our status report."

The dark haired man took out a small transmitter/receiver and quickly dialed a number. "Phoenix One," a familiar voice replied.

"Phoenix One, this is Phoenix Team Two. Everything is set for tonight."

"All clear on both fronts?" the voice asked.

"She doesn't appear to be involved in this, Phoenix One. We're convinced he's working alone."

"Convinced or certain?"

The dark haired man nervously glanced at his partner. The man shrugged, as if to say "Your call."

"Certain…" the dark haired man replied. "Although, there is the matter of Desmond."

"Don't worry, Desmond knows nothing. He's our problem...a problem easily taken care of. Phoenix One out."

The dark haired man stared for a moment at the lifeless transmitter in his hand. Talking to Phoenix One always unnerved him. Unconsciously, he shivered. Placing the transmitter neatly in the black bag, he turned to his partner. "It's time," he said brusquely. "Let's get out of here."

With one final check of the small, black device on the furnace, they secured the area and left unobtrusively through the basement window.

Amanda sat in the bleachers at the ball field next to her ex-husband, Joe King. She twisted uncomfortably on the hard bench, trying to concentrate on Philip and Jamie's game, but her thoughts were elsewhere. Lee had never returned to the office after his meeting. Unsatisfied with the way they parted this morning, she waited as long as she could for him to return to the Q-Bureau or at least check-in. Finally, unable to delay any longer without disappointing her sons, she scribbled a quick note on a pad on his desk, left a message on his machine at home and headed for the park. She endeavored to put it out of her mind, but Amanda was vaguely uneasy about what Lee was up to. Although he hadn't wanted her as backup lately, she couldn't help but worry when she wasn't there to 'watch his tail'. Lost in thought, she didn't hear Joe trying to get her attention.

"Amanda, I said Jamie's on base," Joe chided, gently shaking her arm.

"Sorry, Joe. I must have been daydreaming. Did he get a hit?"

"No, he walked."

Amanda smiled to herself. Philip was the athlete in the family. Although the boys had been very close as small children, sharing an interest in the same activities, their different talents had become quite apparent in the past year. These days, Philip seemed consumed with sports, cars, and his latest girlfriend. This past spring he had seemed disinterested in academics, preferring to concentrate on the social aspects of school. She would have to find the time to talk to him about that since he was going to be starting high school in a few weeks. Jamie, on the other hand, was her "A" student. Quiet and sensitive, reading and photography appeared to be taking up more and more of his time. These days he preferred more solitary activities. Since the fourth of July, he had been lobbying to turn a corner of the basement into a small darkroom. His social skills seemed to be hampered suddenly by his glasses and his new braces. Amanda knew he had only stayed with the baseball team this summer due to Philip's urging.

"Good for you, Jamie." Amanda stood proudly cheering on her son. Jamie smiled shyly at her, seemingly embarrassed, but secretly pleased that his parents were at the game.

She sat back down on the hard bleacher seats.

"Amanda," Joe King asked tentatively. "Is something bothering you? You seem a million miles away tonight."

Amanda smiled to herself. 'No, not a million miles,' she thought, 'just a few miles away with Lee – wherever in D. C. he happened to be.' She took a deep breath, changing the subject. "I know Jamie's glad you could make it to the game tonight, Joe."

"I was glad to be here…It's been hard for me since Carrie and I broke up." He cast a sideways glance at Amanda. "I appreciate being able to spend so much time with you and the boys. It's helped."

"I'm happy to be able to help, sweetheart. You know you'll always be family."

"Amanda..." Joe began, but was interrupted by the cheering crowd. They jumped to their feet to watch Philip head towards second base with a stand-up double. Jamie held up at third.

"Way to go, Chief," Amanda heard a familiar voice call out. She saw Philip give an enthusiastic thumbs-up sign from second base. Turning, she watched her husband leave the backstop and walk over to the side of the bleachers where she was sitting with Joe.

"Hi, Joe," he said, extending his hand affably.

"Good to see you, Lee," Joe returned, leaning across Amanda to shake his hand.

Lee turned to Amanda and said, "Care to stretch your legs?"

Amanda silently put her hands on his shoulders as he helped her jump down from her seat in the stands. They walked over to the relative privacy of a large, shady tree, keeping an eye on the game from there. The next batter hit a long fly-ball, which was caught by the center fielder. Jamie, his gaze focused on Lee and Amanda, wasn't paying attention when his third base coach signaled for him to head for home plate. Late in leaving the bag, he was caught in a run-down between third base and home and tagged out.

Dejected, the team returned to the bench.

"I can't believe you did that, Moron," Philip told his brother as he came in from the field.

Walking over to the boys, Lee and Amanda caught the end of the exchange.

"Philip, there are still two more innings," Amanda reminded him.

"Your mom's right," Lee added. "It's not over yet."

Jamie stared at the ground, digging a hole in the dirt with his shoe. Joe joined them at the fence. "Good try, Jamie," he said sympathetically. Not much of an athlete himself, he identified with what his younger son was going through. "No matter what happens, how about, after the game, we all go out for pizza?"

"Great idea," Amanda seconded. "Lee?"

Joe glanced at him out of the corner of his eye.

"Sure," he replied, ignoring Joe's look.

Philip exhaled loudly, turning his full attention to the game. "At least we have last ups," he muttered, still glaring at his brother.

* * * * *

Lee and Amanda followed the boys into Amanda's house. Dotty sat at the kitchen table, studiously working at the computer on her latest simulation assignment for her aviation class.

"Mother, we're home."

Dotty glanced up at the solemn faces of her grandsons. "Did you lose the game? Oh, hi, Lee, I didn't see you there," she said with surprise as she saw Lee follow Amanda into the kitchen.

"Hi, Dotty. Still working on that pilot's license I see."

"Yes, and I've crashed twice into Lake Michigan on approach to O'Hare. At the rate I'm going, it will take me three times as long to become a pilot as it took me to get a driver's license."

She looked quickly from Philip to Jamie. "Don't look so sad, boys, there'll be other playoffs."

"Their team won, Mother."

"Yeah, no thanks to Jamie," Philip grumbled. "I still can't believe you got tagged out!"

"Well, I didn't ask to be on this team," Jamie said sourly. "You're the one who forced me to play."

"Yeah, well, I didn't realize what a stupid idea that was," Philip shot back.

"Boys, enough," Amanda said, trying to play peacemaker. "You won the game - that's all that matters. Let's not rehash every play. Now, both of you, it's late. Hit the showers and get to bed."

"Okay," Jamie said, his voice still subdued. He headed up the stairs without a word.

"Goodnight," Philip said, starting to follow.

"Philip," Amanda said, walking over to her oldest son. "Cut your brother a little slack. Even the best player can have a bad game, you know."

"But Mom, he never pays attention to what's going on."

"Maybe if you worked with him a little bit it would help. You know he looks up to you."

"I think he's hopeless," Philip muttered under his breath. Catching his mother's look, he said, "Okay, I'll try. Night, Grandma, 'night Lee."

"Goodnight," Lee said, watching him head for the stairs.

Dotty looked subtly from Amanda to Lee. "I think I'll call it a night, too. Staring at this screen is giving me a headache. Goodnight, Darling." Smiling at Lee, she followed her grandsons up to bed.

Exhausted, Amanda headed for the sofa. She silently extended her hand to Lee. He crossed the room and dropped down bedside her, pulling her close.

"Better?"

"Much." They sat quietly for a few moments, holding each other close and enjoying the peace. Finally, Amanda pulled away slightly and looked at her husband.

"What?" he asked apprehensively, seeing the look in her eyes.

"I missed you at lunch today. I thought you said you'd check in."

Lee sighed and ran his left hand absently through his hair. "Do we really have to talk about this now?" he said, trying to pull her back beside him.

"I guess not," she said, relaxing back into his embrace. They sat quietly together for a few minutes. "I just thought it was curious that the house where Senator Holstein held his cocktail party on Saturday night was burned to the ground yesterday. And I was thinking that maybe it had something to do with the mysterious case you've been working on with Francine."

Lee released her and sighed. Slowly, he left the sofa and began pacing the room.

"And disappearing for hours on end and forgetting to check in is starting to become chronic with you. That is, assuming Francine doesn't know where you are."

"Amanda, for the last time, I'm not working with Francine."

"You can tap dance around this all you want, but I didn't buy your little performance in the office this morning for one minute."

"Performance?"

"You, Francine, the meeting that so conveniently slipped your mind? Since when do you forget staff meetings?"

"Francine was just getting some figures for me, nothing more."

"That used to be my job, you know."

"I think you've got your hands full now right here," he said, trying to change the subject.

"You mean with Jamie. Why is it everything suddenly seems so complicated?"

"Maybe because it is." Lee moved back over to the sofa, sitting down beside her and tenderly taking her hands in his. "I know I've said this before, but now may really be the time to make our relationship public. I think all this sneaking around is taking its toll on all of us. You, me, the boys, your mother…even Joe."

"Joe?"

"I think Joe is interested in being more than just your friend."


"He's just been at loose ends since he broke up with Carrie…"

"And I also think Joe might have something to do with Jamie's attitude lately."

Amanda looked at him sharply.

"Just a theory," he answered quickly.

"I think Jamie's problems have more to do with the fact that he's fundamentally very different from his brother. When the boys were little, they were really inseparable - it was just Mother, the boys and me. And I guess there was Dean," she finished, smiling slightly.

Lee snorted at the mention of Dean's name.

"Now there are a lot more people to juggle in their lives. With their father's reappearance last year, their mother's new full time job this year, my being shot in California, our relationship…it's a lot for anyone to deal with."

"I realize that."

"That's why I'm not convinced that now is the right time to go public with our relationship," she put in reluctantly. "And what about the boys' safety? I thought that was the main reason we decided to keep our marriage a secret. And that doesn't even begin to cover the Agency and our working relationship."

"You know, sometimes it all comes down to deciding what's most important in our lives. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately…especially since you were shot last February. Has being apart really kept us out of danger? Sometimes, no matter what you do, bad things just happen. No matter what precautions we take, no one is ever completely safe in this business. As I said before, since we take all the chances, maybe we deserve all life has to offer. And that includes being together on a full time basis," Lee pleaded.

"Right now, I'd settle for having my partner back."

He broke her gaze, getting up and beginning to pace the room again.

"I'm well aware that things are not the way we thought they would be," Amanda continued hotly. "But I did think that even though I had to settle for having a part-time husband, I still had a full-time partner. There are times lately when I'm not sure I have either." Tears were beginning to form in her eyes.

Lee stopped pacing and turned to look at her. He started to speak, but was cut off by the ringing of the telephone. Amanda picked up the receiver reluctantly.

"Hello…he's here, just a minute." She turned towards Lee, handing him the phone. "It's Francine…for you." She walked through the back door into the August night, crossing over to the white gazebo beside the house. The air had a chill to it - an unwelcome reminder that fall was just around the corner. Amanda unconsciously shivered. After a few minutes, Lee joined her, coming up behind her and putting his arms around her waist.

"I've got to go." He kissed the back of her neck tenderly.

"Something come up on your non-existent case?" Amanda inquired sarcastically.

"Amanda, please believe me…for the last time, I'm not working on a specific case. Just…"

"Just?"

"Some loose ends I'm trying to tie up. It's probably nothing."

"Lee, why won't you let me help you?"

"I'm sure it's nothing. Trust me, if I need help, I'll yell."

"Have it your way. I'm through begging." She pushed him away in anger.

"I'll talk to you tomorrow."

"If you remember to check in." Turning her back on him, she silently traced the pattern in the latticework on the gazebo with her finger. When she turned to say goodbye, Lee was gone.

CHAPTER FOUR

The dark haired man and his partner watched as the last person filed into the red brick Georgetown house. Keeping one eye on the front door, they expertly scanned the perimeter, searching for a figure in the shadows. Satisfied, the dark haired man nodded to his partner and spoke quietly into his two-way receiver.

"All clear."

A black limousine pulled slowly down the street, coming to a stop in front of the house. The door slowly opened and a tall man emerged from the interior.

"Everything in place?" he demanded brusquely in the tone of one who was used to getting what he wanted.

"Yes, sir," the dark haired man quickly answered.

"Good. This will be the last time we'll meet for awhile. Things are getting too hot." He smiled cryptically at the last remark. Taking one final look around, the tall man continued emphatically, in a voice that brooked no disagreement, "Make sure your teams take care of business before you leave here. If you have any questions, ask them now…we won't speak again."

The dark haired man and his partner exchanged an apprehensive glance. "Everything is ready, sir," he reiterated.

"Good…for your sakes, for all our sakes, you'd better be right."

The tall man walked up the steps and entered the house. The dark haired man and his partner took one final look around. A rustling sound, almost imperceptible to the ear, caught the dark haired man's attention. He nudged his partner and pointed to the shadowy area to their left. Slowly, they worked their way to the side of the house, taking cover in the darkness. The dark haired man pointed to the basement window, indicating that security had been breached. Grinning, he poked his partner in the arm, heaving a sigh of relief.

"Looks like our fish is on the hook," he murmured, smiling with relief. "It's show time!"

Amanda made her way through the bullpen, heading to the small conference room next door to section chief Billy Melrose's office. She had spent an anxious night, unable to turn off her thoughts. Sleep had proved as elusive as her husband had and she steeled herself to face the coming day. Avoiding her mother, she left the house earlier than usual, heading quickly for Georgetown. But her precipitous arrival at the Agency this morning had done nothing to quell the uneasy feeling growing in the pit of her stomach. Now, sitting in the small, stuffy conference room, she still hadn't been able to shake it. She couldn't tell if this nagging dread was real or a product of her own overactive imagination.

She wished she'd been able to touch base with Lee. She had called him first thing this morning to put matters right after their conversation last night, but there was no answer at his apartment. The ringing phone only fueled her determination to get to the bottom of things today. All this secrecy had gone on long enough. She and Lee had enough things to deal with these days on the home front without adding work problems into the mix. Whether he liked it or not, Lee Stetson was going to accept her help before this day was out.

She sat down at the polished conference table and waited for the others to file in. She greeted the other agents with a quiet smile. These faces could belong to a group of ordinary businessmen, lawyers or accountants maybe, instead of men and woman who chose to make a living by routinely putting their lives on the line.

The discordant sound of someone's clicking heels broke into Amanda's reverie as Francine Desmond entered the room in a rush and took her seat, acknowledging Amanda with a nod of her head. Billy Melrose followed, carrying an armload of files. Amanda took a final look around. She half expected to see her partner's familiar form follow Billy through the door.

Melrose glanced at his watch a few times and shot her an inquisitive look. Amanda shook her head and shrugged her shoulders. Nervously, Billy cleared his throat and began.

"Okay, let's get started." He looked down at the pile of files on his desk, then back at the faces around the table. "As I'm sure you're all aware from the news, the police have been investigating a series of explosions in D.C. and the surrounding area over the past three months. These fires have resulted in at least four fatalities so far. Normally, we would leave this to the local police or even the FBI," he stated, pausing slightly before continuing. "Yesterday, this became an Agency matter. Senator Holstein, as you all know, has important connections in this town. His cousin's house was the latest target and the Senator himself had just left a party there on Saturday night. As a personal favor, the White House has asked Dr. Smyth to look into the matter."

In the corner of the room a chair began to pivot slowly, revealing a lean, taciturn man holding a cigarette holder in his right hand. He rose with affectation, casually greeting them all.

"Continue, Melrose," was all he said.

Billy acknowledged the Director of the Agency, Dr. Smyth, with a nod. Continuing, he said "There was another explosion and fire last night in Georgetown. Senator Holstein is missing."

A murmur of voices greeted this latest remark. "As you all know, the Senator has been a major player recently. The White House wants to get to the bottom of this before the trade conference scheduled for next month. People, we need some answers. This case now becomes an Alpha One priority." Melrose took a deep breath and continued. "Amanda, I see that Scarecrow attended the party for Senator Holstein on Saturday night."

"Yes, Sir." She was silent for a minute as all eyes turned on her speculatively, then continued, "It was just routine social duty, sir. Senator Holstein's aid is an old friend of Lee's."

"Okay," Melrose replied. "In that case, I want you and Scarecrow to get on this as soon as possible. Hit the streets, see what you can stir up, find out what, if anything, links these explosions. Then talk to the Senator's aid. Francine, make friends with the computer and get me a list of similar incidents in the past five years. Mason, you and Thomas act as liaison to the arson squad. See if there's an I.D. yet on the remains they found last night. Johnson, you and Crane cross-reference old cases, see if Senator Holstein's name pops up in any of them. Start with this year and work backward from there. Status reports to me A.S.A.P. Any questions?"

Melrose quickly scanned the room. The group shook their heads and started to leave.

"Just a minute, children," Dr. Smyth said abruptly. He paused, dramatically taking a puff on his cigarette holder. "And just where is the elusive Scarecrow this morning?"

"Sir," Amanda replied, "He had an urgent meeting with a source. I'm sure he'll be here soon."

Dr. Smyth looked her up and down with contempt. Amanda could feel the disapproval in his stare. "Well, then, if he's too busy to make this staff meeting, I'm sure he'll be relieved if Melrose gives his assignment to…" Smyth looked carefully around the room. "Mr. Mason and Mr. Thomas…why don't you two hit the streets?"

They automatically glanced at their section chief who nodded his head almost imperceptibly.

"Yes, sir," they answered in unison.

"I'm sure Billy can find something else for you to do, Mrs. King," Dr. Smyth added sarcastically, nodding at Melrose as he left the room. "Carry on."

The other agents turned to follow, silently filing out of the room.

"Mrs. King," Billy said, the strain evident in his voice. "And just where is Scarecrow, really?"

"I don't know, sir," she answered, tension becoming more and more evident in her voice. "He hasn't checked in this morning or picked up his messages."

"Is this some new habit?"

She hesitated. "Not really, sir. It's happened a few times lately."

"Well, when he does make an appearance, tell him I want to see him A.S.A.P.!" he growled in annoyance.

"Yes, sir."

"In the meantime, give Francine a hand with the computer. Then both of you check with the arson squad. You two can act as the Agency liaison."

She turned to go.

"Amanda, make sure I'm notified as soon as Lee checks in?"

Amanda nodded, that nagging feeling growing by leaps and bounds. She turned and headed up to the Q-Bureau.

* * * * *

Sitting stiffly at Lee's desk in the Q-Bureau, Amanda absently stared at the computer screen. After returning to the Q-Bureau, she'd placed a call to Lee's friend Tom, the Senator's aid, but was told he was out of the office for the day. The hands on the antique wall clock showed two o'clock -- and still no sign of her partner. Billy had phoned three times, demanding to know if he had checked in yet. This morning's simmering anger had grown into a full boil by the last call and he muttered something about suspension if Lee didn't check in by three o'clock. But she could tell by the tone of his voice that he was worried, too. He was Lee's friend as well as his section chief; he had bent the rules for both of them on more than one occasion. Dr. Smyth, on the other hand, had no love for Scarecrow, his sometimes unorthodox methods, or the "housewife turned spy" as he had referred to Amanda on more than one occasion. After the Stemwinder incident last fall, Lee had told her that Dr. Smyth never holds a grudge, but she still wasn't entirely convinced that was true in her case. She sighed as she tried once more to concentrate on the computer screen.

The door opened a crack and Francine poked her head in. "No word?" she asked, trying and failing to hide her concern.

"Nothing," she replied, shaking her head.

"Well, I've wrapped up my preliminary report for Billy – are you ready to head over to Metro?"

"Yes, let's go."

The two women walked down the stairs in silence, nodding to Mrs. Marsten as they left the building. Getting into Amanda's car, they pulled carefully out of the parking lot and headed for the Metro police department to check with the arson squad's special investigators. Amanda glanced sideways at Francine, who seemed lost in thought, absently twirling a lock of her blonde hair with her fingers. That was certainly unlike the perfectly coifed Ms. Desmond. She seemed uncharacteristically quiet this morning. Amanda's own thoughts were certainly not on the case at hand, but with Lee and whatever he had been secretly investigating. 'What do you know that you aren't telling?' Amanda wondered, casting a sidewise glance at Francine. After her phone call last night, Lee had left abruptly. She debated whether or not to broach this particular subject with Francine. Even though Francine had never been particularly supportive of her new career, she and Lee did go back a long way at the Agency. She appeared to be worried, too. Amanda decided to plunge ahead.

"Francine, what were you and Lee working on?"

"What makes you think we're working on something?"

"Yesterday morning, you brought him a folder in the

Q-Bureau and he disappeared with you to a meeting that had 'slipped his mind'. Last night, you phone him at my house, and he takes off without a word and no one has seen him since."

"Amanda, dear," Francine replied in a condescending tone. "You're not jealous, are you?"

Amanda rolled her eyes.

"Well, you seem to be implying that there's something going on between Lee and me."

"I'm worried. And so is Mr. Melrose. Dr. Smyth is just looking for an excuse to come down on him. The last thing Lee said last night was 'I'll talk to you tomorrow'. He hasn't checked in or picked up any of his messages. He wouldn't miss a staff meeting. I think he's in trouble. If you know where he is you've got to tell me," she finished emphatically.

They pulled into the metro lot and parked in a space marked 'visitor'. "Francine, I know you were gathering information on something for Lee. He admitted that much to me last night. I think he has this misguided idea that he's keeping me 'out of the line of fire'."

Francine hesitated for a minute. "If we were looking into something, don't you think you should respect Lee's wishes and stay out of it? Maybe he had good reasons for keeping it from you."

"He's my partner. I need to know he's okay."

Francine took a deep breath. "I honestly don't know, Amanda. I'm worried, too. We might as well go talk to the Metro boys and get it over with. Lee will probably have checked in by the time we get back to the Agency."

They entered the offices of the Metro police, flashed their badges and asked for the special investigation team. They were ushered into a small, private office and introduced to special investigator Lewis.

"Mrs. King, Ms. Desmond, have a seat." Lewis courteously pointed to the chairs in front of his desk.

"We've been assigned as special liaison to your department for the Agency," Francine began professionally, "Investigating the recent series of explosions."

"Yes, I received a top priority phone call concerning you this morning," Lewis smiled. "Our department is to give you every possible consideration."

"Detective Lewis," Amanda began, "What exactly do you have on the these explosions?"

"Not all that much, when you really get down to it," he shrugged. "But you're welcome to any of our information, however sketchy." He indicated the files spread out on his desk.

"Why don't you just summarize them for us?"

"This is what we know so far, and believe me it's not much. There have been six explosions in D. C. and the surrounding area since the beginning of July. Two warehouses, an abandoned office and an old apartment building in D. C., a house in Arlington belonging to Senator Holstein's cousin, and now this residence in Georgetown last night."

Amanda briefly scanned a red folder as Detective Lewis continued. "In the first five cases, we found evidence of a sophisticated device attached to the furnace in each building. That seems to be the cause of the explosions. We're still waiting for word on the Georgetown incident. In every case but one, human remains were found."

"Any idea as to who's responsible?"

Lewis shook his head. "Just a gut feeling. The remains have been identified as belonging to key members of two major crime families. I think we're seeing some kind of turf war here."

"Senator Holstein's cousin has ties to organized crime?" Francine inquired skeptically.

"That's the stumper. The cousin's house doesn't fit the pattern." Lewis admitted reluctantly. "And there were no fatalities."

Amanda looked up from the file she'd been scanning. "It says here that remains were discovered at the site of last night's explosion."

"Yeah. It looks like three people this time. We're still waiting for positive identification of the remains. The bodies were pretty badly burned and of course have to be identified through dental charts… well, you know the drill – it's a tedious process."

Amanda and Francine nodded in agreement.

"Care to hazard a guess as to who might have been in the house?" Francine queried.

Lewis shook his head. "We do know that they don't belong to owners of the house, the, ah…the Smythes," Lewis continued, consulting his notes. "The family has been out of the country since the beginning of June. I'd lay odds it'll turn out to be more of the same scum we've found at the other sites."

Amanda and Francine exchanged a look. "We appreciate your cooperation. You will, of course, forward copies of all your files to the Agency?"

Lewis nodded in Amanda's direction. "Already done. They should be there waiting for you."

"And you will give us a call as soon as you have a positive identification on those bodies?" Francine added, handing him her card. "You can reach me at this number after hours."

"I'll be in touch as soon as we have some word." Lewis escorted Amanda and Francine to the door.

The two women crossed the parking lot, heading for the car. "What do you make of that?" Amanda asked.

"That was a total waste of time. Either he's not telling us everything or they really know remarkably little."

Amanda paused, her hand on the car door. "Would you mind taking a cab back to the Agency?"

"A cab?" she answered with a wilting look.

"Yes, Francine, a cab. I want to drop in on T.P. Aquinas and see what he's heard about all this." 'And what he knows about Lee,' she finished to herself.

* * * * *

Amanda walked through the back door of her comfortable Arlington house. She sighed in exasperation. Her entire day had been one long exercise in frustration. Her visit to T.P. Acquinas had proved fruitless on both counts. T. P. had promised to dig up whatever information he could find on the alleged gang war, but if the easygoing antiquarian knew anything about Scarecrow's investigation, he wasn't saying. Amanda suspected that Lee had asked him to keep her in the dark. Feeling helpless, she tossed her purse carelessly on the kitchen table and sat down, unconsciously rubbing her temples with both hands.

"Amanda? Is that you?" Dotty asked, breezing into the kitchen. Glancing up, Amanda was relieved to notice that her mother was dressed to go out.

"Do you have a date, Mother?"

"Yes, well, I suppose you could call it that. It's just my regular meeting of the Rose Growers Association.

This is our annual potluck dinner." She pointed to the covered casserole on the counter. "I've made my seasoned new potatoes."

Amanda raised her eyebrows at this last remark.

"You know, Amanda," her mother countered, seeing the look, "That nice-looking Mr. Jeffries will be there. And you never know…"

"You're right, Mother, you never know," Amanda replied, the corners of her mouth turning up slightly.

Dotty observed her daughter closely. "Are you feeling alright, dear? You look a little pale."

"I'm fine, just tired."

"Well, Joe came by and picked up the boys around five – they went to get a bite to eat. They should be back any minute now."

"Okay."

"You know, Amanda," Dotty added speculatively, "The boys certainly seem to be seeing a lot of Joe lately."

Letting her mother's latest remark pass, Amanda rose from the table and rifled through the kitchen cupboard, searching for an aspirin. At the sound of a car horn, Dotty snapped to attention, grabbed her casserole and quickly headed to the front door. "That will be Mr. Jeffries now," she smiled to herself. "He's picking me up."

"Have a good time." Hearing the front door close with a bang, Amanda closed the cupboard and walked into the den. About to sit down, she heard the doorbell ring and veered instead towards the hall. "Did you forget your key again, Mother?"

Opening the door, Amanda found herself staring abruptly into the clouded eyes of Billy Melrose. His sudden appearance caught her off-guard.

"May I come in, Amanda?" he asked with care. "I waited until I saw your mother leave."

"Certainly, sir." She stepped aside to allow him to enter. Billy walked up and then down the short flights of stairs leading into the den, Amanda following.

He hesitated briefly before nervously clearing his throat, as was his habit lately.

"We received positive identification on those remains found in the Georgetown house last night." He turned his eyes down and studied the carpet for a moment, as if uncertain where to look.

"Sir?"

"We have conclusive proof, Amanda—there's absolutely no doubt," he continued, almost to himself. "There were three fatalities last night. Senator Holstein, his administrative aid, Tom Fellows, and…"

"And?"

"And an Agency operative. There's just no easy way to tell you this." Melrose paused again as if somehow, by not saying the words, he could change the course of events that took place not quite twenty-four hours ago in the red brick house in Georgetown. Turning a sympathetic eye on Amanda, he forced himself to say the words.

"Amanda, Lee was the operative killed in last night's explosion."

To be continued…