Hello Readers,

I don't know how to put this without Celran to help but... I feel like I've been pushing him away and it's unfair to ask him to help with this.

I've been battling depression, eating disorder and paranoia for the past decade. Right now I'm having a hard time with it. I suppose it hurts more because my life should be great right now.

I can't create in this state and I hate myself for it. I've become to critical of everything I nothing is getting done.

I've been distancing myself from the people I care about when what I want is to talk to them, but it's just unfair.

I've been like this before and I'll get better eventually. You don't need to worry about that, I've just left you hanging for long enough. You need to know that I don't know when I'm coming back.

See you eventually.

~Tristan.