It was just two weeks.

Not a long time generally.

But for me it felt like an eternity.

After Karamatsu Nii-san jumped, it took him two weeks to wake up. Doctors said it was normal, since he didn't get a life theratening wound, unlike what he tried to do .

When I told the news about his suicide, no one believed me at first.

I'm not sure why they didn't because I don't usually speak out of necessary.

Especially for Karamatsu.

Well,I think they believe it now, since I made sure that they believe me .

It was after two days of his suicide,first two days I stayed near him without thinking anything else so I didn't contact to anyone .Especially to mom. Because I was afraid of the worst.

I came home looking like a total mess and opened my bedroom door.

Osomatsu Nii-san was playing cards with Totty, Choromatsu Nii-san was looking at his boring magazines, Jyushimatsu was nowhere to be found, which is good, since he is the only one in my brothers I don't really wanna tell about this mess.

I made my mind up and took a deep breath.

"Karamatsu committed suicide. But he's alive and in coma right now ."

I was so calm and sounded perfectly normal that I was disgusted with myself.

I was expecting everyone to believe in me instantly and rush to hospital.

But that didn't happen.

I guess only one that believes in me is you, Karamatsu Nii-san.

Osomatsu and Todomatsu didn't even raise their heads. Choromatsu lowered his magazine and raised an eyebrow.

"What are you saying, Ichimatsu? It can't be real. I mean we're talking about Karamatsu."

I didn't gave an answer to Choromatsu . I just kept my death glare going randomly between three of them.

Finally Osomatsu raised his head and said his oh so clever thoughts.

"What's wrong Ichimatsu? Did you poisened him and now you're trying to get away with it? Don't worry, I'm pretty sure Karamatsu will forgive ya. Now, don't just stand there, come and tell me where were you for this two days? Nii-san got worried, you know?"

That's it,Ichimatsu thought.

This is my limit.

Ichimatsu launched at Osomatsu without even thinking. All the stress that piled up from all these months,from noticing his older brother's pain, from couldn't even do anything,was now overflowing.

He managed to land three punch and one headbutt before Osomatsu shook his shock off and easily blocked Ichimatsu.

Choromatsu and Todomatsu was freezen, both of them dropped their stuffs in a comical way but the matter at the hand was serious enough for Ichimatsu to not laugh at them.

Besides, he was too busy trying to beat the fuck out of his oldest brother.

But Osomatsu pinned him to ground and took both his hands and legs in control.

"What the hell do you think you're doing Ichimatsu?! Calm the fuck down or I will make you."

When Ichimatsu didn't answer and continued to trash around Osomatsu just tightened his hold more.

But he let his guard down once he saw the tears in the corners of his brother's eyes .

"Hey...What's wrong?Just tell me."

This just made Ichimatsu more angrier . He just telled them, for the god sake. Ichi took this chance and threw Osomatsu out of balance and got top of him.

Then he just lost it.

"WHAT'S WRONG? WHAT'S WRONG? LET ME TELL YOU WHAT'S WRONG. THE WRONG THING IS NEVER NOTICING YOUR YOUNGER BROTHER'S PAIN. THE WRONG THING IS PLAYING CARDS WHILE YOUR YOUNGER BROTHER IS IN HOSPITAL FROM SUICIDE. THE WRONG THING IS CARING ABOUT TRASH LIKE ME MORE THAN THE PERSON WHO CARES ABOUT YOU MORE THAN ANYONE . HOW CAN YOU CARE FOR ME AND NOT FOR HIM? HOW? WHY? WHY ?!"

Ichi quited down and started crying silently while holding Osomatsu's parka in his both hands.

Everything was quiet for a minute . No one dared to even breath. The only noise was Ichimatsu's silent crying.

Then he spoke up in a small voice between sobs.

"The wrong thing is...me being alive while he slowly dies."