hey i'm not dead. Also I will be blowing this shit up with updates to watch out. everything is going on the web.

The cold was always a bother. I preferred the warmth of a fire. I never experienced the comfort of the warmth of flesh, even as a prostitute I fucked I got paid and I was kicked out. No cuddling or anything of the sort. I had built a small fire in my hide out and I was dressed in almost everything warm I had. Even a few of my summer clothes just for layered warmth at this point. I never liked the cold and I was free. Lin was possibly at work yelling at someone, plus I was off probation so I had no reason to go to the police station of her house, maybe aside from my attraction to her, but then that would be weird as hell to just show up and no explanation. My apartment was still in shambles from that idea burning it down, so my hide out was all that's left.

At one point, I ran out of wood and the fire went out. I walked around, trying to keep warm till I "said" fuck it. I went out and began to walk around the city. It was dark out, meaning the grimy side of the city came out. The hookers, the thugs, the drug dealers, and all the other crooks or shits in the world. I passed by a short hair hooker that flashed me her tits and stood in my path seducing me and failing. Her eyes were green and I saw a glimpse of Lin.

"You alright?" She asked laying a hand on my chest.

I nodded and walked around her. I walked around the corner and into a door at the end of the alley. Inside, there's a bar with a tall strong woman behind it. She had red hair and blue eyes. Everyone refers to her as Big momma.

"Hey there what can I do for ya, sweetheart?" She said, leaning across the bar with little effort to wrap an arm around my neck and kiss my cheek affectionately.

I rubbed my hands on my arms to gesture I was cold.

"I hear you this winter is especially harsh. Here, have a cup of hot cocoa." She said and began to make one. I looked around to see a few homeless people sitting around warming up to the same thing or a cup of coffee.

"Yeah they came in begging to just stay out of the cold and they paid what they could for something warm to drink." She said setting the cup in front of me as I set the money on the counter.

"What happened to your place?" She asked as she wiped down her counter.

I balled my fists up together then threw them up like an explosion.

"Oh, my spirit, your house blew up." She said wide eyed.

I nodded and took a sip reveling at the warmth spreading through my body. she smirked and tended to other customers as I sat there thinking.

So, ok what is Lin to me? I like her obviously so what the hell? Make a move. Not that simple if I do she'll beat the shit out of me. Yeah, not a pleasant idea. If I try and woo her she'll just go along with it to make me feel better and to not feel guilty. Plus, she said I'm too young for her at the bar. Too young my foot you remember when you were patching her up at the island, she was all over you.

My thoughts were interrupted by a shot glass sliding into my hand. I looked at the direction it came from and saw a hot girl. I didn't recognize her but she was cute.

"It's on me." She said.

I nodded and downed the shot.

"Another for my new friend." Big momma shrugged and poured me another shot. Working better than the hot cocoa.

"What's your name?" I pulled out my pencil and notepad and pulled out the already written name on the first page.

"Tonrar. Cute, what brings you here?" she asked.

I wrote for a moment and showed her the message.

"My house got burned down and its warm here."

"Got no one to take you in?" She asked.

I shook my head. We sat there talking about random stuff as I drank more she began to look cuter and sexy. At one point, she asked if I wanted to go somewhere quieter and I nodded. She led me down the street through alleys until we got to her apartment. She pulled me in and kissed me. It felt off, but I didn't care as I began to peel layers off. She began to as well and I remember her pushing me on a bed but I saw her. Lin. I saw Lin Straddling my lap. Then, I blinked and she was gone. I bolted up, causing the girl to fall off onto the floor ungracefully. She yelled and threw things as I got dressed and ran out the door.

This wasn't right. I knew that now I wanted lin. No, I needed Lin. It took this for me to realize it. I didn't want her for sex I wanted her because she helped me at my darkest time and I helped her without a second thought I wanted to be there for her and I'd hope she'd be there for me because I knew I loved the chief of police.

I had memorized the address to Lin's house so it wasn't difficult to find her place. It had begun to snow hard and was starting to become a blizzard by the time I reached her door I peaked in a window to see her sitting on the couch reading a box. I was hesitant to knock but as soon as I stepped foot on her porch the door opened.

"Tonrar? What're you doing out here?" I took in her appearance with a tank and some sleep pants and bare foot.

I jerked my thumb behind me to show the blizzard.

"I completely forgot, come inside. I'll make you something to drink." She said walking to the kitchen when I grabbed her arm and shook my head. I pulled her to me, placing my hands on her hips and kissed her. I waited for a fist to hit my cheek but I never expected a hand to tangle under my beanie, pushing it off and her other to pull me closer. My foot nudged the door closed as I guided her back to her couch easing her down on it. I stripped off layers as I tried to keep my lips on hers for as long as I could. Her satin lips were much sweeter than strawberry wine. I inched my hands up under her tank top and found her skin was smoother than velvet. I broke the kiss and placed tender kisses on her neck down to her chest and my hands slipped under her tank top. Her chest bindings weren't even there which I was thankful for. I cupped her breast in my hand and felt the hard nipple poke into my palm. She hooked her leg around my hip and pulled me closer. I gasped as my erect penis pressed into her crotch and sent shivers through my body.

"Stop. Stop. Stop." She gasped. I backed off immediately thinking she was going to hit me. she panted for a few seconds, but her hand was still in my hair.

"Let's, uh, let's take this upstairs." She suggested. I smirked locking my arms around her as she wrapped her other leg around my waist. I pulled her up and carried her up the stairs. I kicked the door to her room open and shut it before Ty Lee could get in. she whimpered but walked back down stairs as far as I could hear. I laid Lin down on the bed and kissed down her chest before pulling her tank top off. And cupping her breast in both of my hands.

"Hold up, let's get this off." She said and sat up pushing my jackets off. I pulled my shirts over my head and she reached for my arm wrappings. I wanted to stop here but the look she gave me just stopped me. She unwrapped my hand and kissed the scars. I normally never felt anything on them, but I felt that, and it felt like pure ecstasy. I cupped her cheek and leaned in pressing my lips to hers trying to convey everything I have wanted to say into the kiss. I pulled away and looked her in the eyes.

"I feel the same way." She said, cupping my kiss as I silently chuckled and smiled a full grin. I tackled her in a kiss and pushed her down on the bed. My hand slipped under her back and pulled her to me. Lin attempted to get my pants off and I rolled off her and wrenched my boots off. I was unbuttoning my pants and pushing them off when a pair of sleep pants and underwear go flying over me onto the other side of the room. I pull my pants off and turn to the very naked Lin laying beside me. She climbs onto me and straddles my waist, biting her lip as she takes in the sight. I don't look down or even away from her face. I try to memorize every detail of her face just incase this is a dream. She scoots back and grabs my fully erect penis in her hand and my eyes roll to the back of my head as my back arches.

'oh spirits. Please don't be a dream.' I thought as she began to stroke slowly but gently.

"You like that, big boy?" she asked with her trademark smirk. I shot up, wrapped my arms around her before flipping our positions and pinning her to the bed. I pecked her lips before I trial kisses down her neck, then her chest. I glanced up at her face.

She was in heaven. I smirked as I took her nipple into my mouth and swirled my tongue around. She gasped and arched her back into my mouth. I gently suckled and used my free hand to caress her other breast.

"Tonrar! Stop teasing me." she said.

I chuckled letting her nipple go and traveling further down her body, trailing kisses as I went. I felt my erection become painful at the touch of her taunt skin over her abs. I reached her small neatly trimmed bush and I began to blush.

I've gone down on other women and girls before, many paid a pretty penny for it, in fact. I have experience, but I've never thought of going down on her.

"Tonrar? You don't have to." She said.

I shook my head and placed a kiss above her gray bush. I planted a kiss on her nether lips and gave a flat lick, covering it. She was tasted sweet, and I happily licked for more. She was more then content to sit and let me treat her. I hooked my arms around her legs and pulled her up closer and dove my tongue in. She tangled her fingers in my hair and encouraged me to keep going. She began to moan more and more and I made a very wise decision to give her little bundle of nerves some attention. She yanked my hair and wrapped her legs around my shoulders.

"TONRAR!" She screamed and shook as more juices flowed from her sweet folds before she relaxed, sweating and panting.

"Come here." She whispered with a smile, holding out her hand to me. I kissed my way back up her abs and between her breast before pecking her lips.

She reached between us grabbing my penis, but I stopped her.

"Tonrar I want to return the favor." She panted but the exhaustion was clear in her eyes.

I shook my head and nudged her on her side before pulling her to my chest. I noticed she fit into me perfectly. I reached to the foot of the bed and pulled the covers over us both.

She tiredly grabbed the notepad and pencil off her nightstand and handed them to me. I grabbed them both and wrote on the notepad in front of her.

"Sleep. I will be here when you wake."

"morning sex then?" she asked.

I silently chuckled and snuggled my nose into her hair. She sighed, and I felt her heart beating against her ribs on my arm tucked under her breast with our hands intertwined again.

To be honest I was scared. Not to have sex with her but to share my feelings. I think she understood but I'm not sure if she knows.