Hi all, hope you enjoy! please read the A/N at the end of the chapter :)

Alas i do not own fairytail

Relighting Starlight

Chapter 1

It was a glorious moment when Natsu found her, a moment that gave her such happiness and lead her to all she had ever wanted, a family. Sure things got bad, sometimes, well most time they were worse than bad but they had always pulled through. Together. That's what made them the people they were, that's what gave her this impossible light that she was so often praised for. Her forgiveness came from love, the love for the family that gave her the home she had always so desperately wanted, the love they all so welcomely enveloped her into.

A family.

She gasped for air as she sank into her chair, her body shaking, so many emotions, too many, how was one person supposed to understand so many feelings, they cut through her slashing and chipping away at the light. She watched as her shedded tears splashed onto the letter, its ink starting to softly run. She felt as though the ink had jumped off the page and wrapped its dark tendrils around her heart. She felt herself starting to crumble, so many cracks from so many things. She knew she never healed, not fully, sure she forgave it was her very nature and she never held a grudge but could she say she wasn't haunted, haunted from being so weak, from nightmares of clocks and gates, from dolls and prophecies they constantly hung in the stale air around her and her family.

Her family.

Her stomach churned at the heavenly light that bloomed beside her, she felt the inky tendrils squeeze harder a crack tearing its way through her heart, she felt sick as a soft hand touch her knee. Turning her chair slightly so he could see her face. She kept her head down her eyes fixating on a spot on the floor, that was all she allowed her world to consist of her and the spot.

Loki knelt down, at a loss of what to do he reached out softly touching her leg pulling her to face him, he could feel it, they all could, feel her falling so deeply into a darkness that they wouldn't be able to reach. He cursed which ever god did this, cursed whomever wrote his Princess's fate. She didn't look at him, didn't grace him with even the pretence of happiness within this moment he doubted she even remember what happiness was. "She's okay Princess-"

"Go." She clenched her fist when her voice broke. broke like the world around her, like her family.

Her Broken Family.

"But Lucy-"

"Leave Loki"

"Princess you can't-"

"Force gate closure." She couldn't face them. She didn't have the right to face them, to call them family or friends. The world was so far from her now, she was a distance spectator lost to everything around her, she couldn't feel couldn't react, the world could burn around her and she doubted she would even flinch because to her the world had already burned, her world, her life, gone. Gone like Aquarius, Gone like Fairytail, gone like Natsu.

Her Family Gone.

A crazed laugh bubbled up from deep inside her. Fairytail was a family, Fairytail was supposed to be a family but family's don't break, families don't abandon each other. Natsu had abandoned her after everything, every time she stood beside him, every time she was always there enver faultering in her unbridled trust, but he still betrayed her, just like she betrayed Aquarious.

She looked at her keys, the gold and silver shinning slight, she could feel them feel Loki attempting to break through his gate feel Aries worries and constant apologies, she could feel all of their pity and it drove the tendrils deeper, further into her self-doubt and hate further into the darkness.

"Mama" she whispered to the painfully empty room. "Mama, Father, I can't feel the sun anymore. What do I do?" the glaring silence dulled the last of the light and a moment laid heavily upon the room. Shaking she let go of a breath she didn't realise she had been holding as the last tear fell. In a corner of her mind, Lucy let herself remember Natsu's smiling face before she raised her arms and fell backwards into the darkness.

Back in her room she numbly stood up, her body simply doing no longer governed by any emotions She grabbed a pair of scissors walking towards the bathroom mirror no longer recognising her reflection she roughly started to cut away at her blonde locks letting them fall like golden feathers around her till there was hardly 2 inches left. Her head tilted to the left as she took in her dead brown eyes, gone was the depth, gone any form of a spark.

"No more. No more family, No more hope. No more Lucy light of Fairytail." Her voice didn't shake as she grabbed her keys. Her body held no sign of its brokenness as she scavenged all the money she had. Her steps never betrayed her numbness as she walked away from her house, her guild and her Magnolia.

A/N: Hi all i hope you liked this first chapter, i'm looking for a beta well more like praying to Mavis for a beta, if your interested please pm me!