ALRIGHT! it's been exactly around ummm...*starts counting* 5 years since I published a story! It's weird for me to write a fanfic since it's been sooooooooo long! heheheh! anyway! Obviously as you have noticed i recently watched and completed "Boku no Hero Academia" and I am hooked! XD I already finished the manga as well so i'm really up to date! I can't wait to watch for season 2! What's that? Villain! Izuku Midoriya? why yes my dear reader. It's sad actually that there isn't much villain!Deku fanart and fanfics around the fandom, so to add up to those Au i have decided to make this fic! bwahahahahah! i wanna see what kind of villain deku will be if he were to be driven into a corner! *squeal*

Before we start here are some warnings and notes:

bullying

suicide

intense feels

the timeline is set between Izuku's younger years to his 2nd year in middle school.

cursing (kacchan's fault)

ahem! anyway! Enjoys the fic (as well as the feels that are to hit you! ^_^)

Chapter 1: Unfortunate To Be Me

Little Midoriya always wanted to be a hero. His mom, especially, knew that more than anyone. Everyday, Izuku would come running to her after dinner, asking her to play the same video of All might, his most loved hero, rescuing 100 people from a burning ruins, and with each time he did, she can't help but smile every time she saw the look of pure admiration shine through his eyes as he watched his hero say his lines.

All Might was his greatest idol, letting him know that the moment a hero arrives, there will always be hope, heck All Might himself was the very symbol of peace and hope for young Midoriya, that's why he can't wait to have his own quirk, once he finally has his own quirk then that will be one step closer to becoming a hero. Will he be breathing fire like his dad? or maybe he'll be like his mom, a quirk that can pull anything towards his direction. The young child can't help but grin in excitement just thinking about having his very own quirk soon.

Sadly, that day never came. Not long after his birthday, his mom took him to the hospital where the doctor told him he is unable to have a quirk due to an extra bone in his toe. Izuku was devastated about the news, how was he suppose to become a hero without a quirk?

After the check up, Izuku stayed in his room, doing nothing more than watching the same video of All Might over and over again. His mom tried her best to cheer him up but the moment she saw him turn to her, eyes filled with tears and a forced smile on his face, she knew how devastated he was about his quirk. She cried and hugged him, repeatedly apologizing, even though she hasn't done anything wrong.

Izuku said nothing as his mother cried, one thing only ran to his mind as he silently cried along with her 'Why did this happen?'

If only he knew the events that were to come next.

News about him being quirkless spread like wild fire across his school. For days he was constantly teased and bullied by other kids who were able to attain their own quirk. But no one enjoyed teasing him more than Bakugou Katsuki, Iuku's llong time friend and neighbor. Bakugou took delight in the thought of being better than the useless quirkless. He teased, insulted, and even tried to burn Izuku several times. For weeks the bullying continued, Izuku would come home covered in dirt and scratches, at first he would just shrug it off figuring they'd stop after a few more days, but they didn't. Things got worse when Bakugou thought it would be funny to throw Izuku's All Might action figure into the river.

"What can someone like you who is quirkless do?" Bakugou mocked as he snatched the toy away from the small child.

"Kacchan, give it back!" Izuku reached for the toy but stopped when the hot head brought his other hand near the toy, smoke rising from the tiny hand.

"Huh?! You defying me deku?!" Bakugou scowled "If you want this back then go get it!" He threw the toy over Izuku, who watched in fear as the toy flew into the river.

"Kacchan why would you?" he said as he ran into the river and began to look for the toy.

"Look at him go!" He heard one of Katsuki's friends laugh. After a few minutes, Izuku pulled out his toy from underwater, he turned and started walking towards the playground. As he stepped on dry land, Katsuki quickly snatched the toy away from him while his other two friends held back the smaller child, who watched in horror as the hot head used his quirk to burn the surface of the toy.

"Kacchan! Stop! Please!" Izuki begged as tears began to form on the corner of his eyes.

Katsuki sneered "Oh yeah? What can a useless deku like you can do against me? huh?!" he walked forward and shoved the smaller child with his other hand. Izuku held back a whimper as the blonde kept shoving him until he lost his balance and landed on his rear. before he could get up, he felt Katsuki pull him down by his cheek before he felt the his hands getting warmer and warmer "I want you to remember this moment the next time you would even think that you are even more than just a useless, quirkless deku!" with that he let go of his face with a sharp shove and threw the ruined toy right next to the green-head.

Izuku slowly sat up as he listened to the bullies laugh and walk away. He turned to his All Might before picking it up. Silently, he tried to wipe the burned marks away but as he tried more tears began to fall from his eyes. He tried to wipe them away but more and more tears began to fall. He didnt really know why Kacchan was so angry at him, or what exactly he did to enrage the blonde but deep in his minds, he knew he Kacchan was only trying to protect him from the cruel reality of his dreams but one thing was for certain, kacchan was right, what can he do without a quirk? he could'nt even defend himself from Kacchan and his friends. Izuku could not hold back his tears anymore and began to sob.

'Why was this happening to him?'

By the time Izuku turned 8 tragedy after tragedy seem to follow him wherever he goes, the next tragedy happened when he just got home from school, he was just a corner away from his home when he heard sirens. Sirens from an ambulance. He felt a lump in his throats as he got nearer and nearer his house. he turned the corner and his eyes widened in fear as he saw a police car, and an ambulance parked right in front of his house, his mom was standing outside, sobbing into her handkerchief while a police woman was trying to comfort her.

His feet felt like lead with every step he took near his house "Mom? What's going on?"

Inko looked up, eyes swollen in tears "Izuku!" she cried before she knelt down and hugged him as she sobbed "Mommy is sorry, she is so sorry!"

Izuku was confused, why was his mom crying? Was there a break in? the house didn't seem destroyed, so why was she crying?

Then it hit him, he looked around looking for his Dad. The lump in his throat came back he swallowed before he asked in fear "Mom, Where's dad?"

Inko flinched not expecting him to catch up so quickly, she opened her mouth to say something but uncontrollable sobs only came out, her hug around him tightened as she tried her best to tell his son about his father.

"I'm sorry Izuku, I'm so sorry..." she sobbed. Izuku hugged her back wanting to comfort his sobbing mother before he noticed two paramedics reeling out a hearse with a body covered in a blanket through their front door.

To make matters worse, a sudden wind blew off the blanket that covered the body and Izuku saw something that made his blood ran cold. There was his father's body, pale as snow, his face was covered in burned mark and a rope like mark around his neck. Paramedics quickly covered the body as fast as they could before taking the hearse into the ambulance. Izuku as well as his mom watched in devastation as the ambulance drove away, it's siren turned off, which only meant one thing.

His father was dead.

The funeral came and many of their relatives as well as closest friends came to give their condolences to the family. Katsuki and his mom also came to visit. At first, Katsuki was hesitant to approach the small boy, who was sitting at the front row. but approached him anyway after he was threatened by his mom and urged by Inko herself.

"Deku." he called but was met with silence. This irritated the blonde "Oi, did you hear me, Dek-" he stopped mid sentence when a sob suddenly broke out from the small boy before he heard him plead "Kacchan, please. Not now." Izuku chocked as he struggled to keep a straight face.

Katsuki didn't know what to do in this kind of situation, sure he was used to seeing Izuku cry after getting beaten by him, but to see him cry in absolute grief and hopelessness was something he was not used to see him doing. As izuku sobbed and cried, Katsuki could do nothing but stare and look at him like a reindeer stunned by a car's headlights.

2 weeks passed since the funeral, Katsuki has not heard from Deku ever since. He would pass by their house and, at some point, he would see Inko drying out some of their clothes. With a kinds smile, she would politely waved at him before he dashed towards his school.

after a few weeks of absences, Izuku finally came back. Much to everyone's shock he acted as if nothing happened. As if his father never died, he grinned and laughed with everyone and acted as if he's been with them the entire time.

This got Katsuki irritated. How was Izuku able to bounce back so fast? and what the hell was he grinning about? Did he not grieve for the death of his father? or was he still in denial about the entire incident?

After school, when every one got home, Katsuki cornered Izuku in a classroom where he growled at the cowering boy "L-look kacchan, if you want me to do your homework it's fine, you can just give me your n-notebook and I can-"

"Shut your trap, Deku!" the blonde interrupted making the other flinch in surprise "What the hell was that?!" he yelled as he gritted his teeth "What are you smiling and grinning about?! didn't your dad just die a few ago, and you're fucking acting as of nothing fucking happened! What are you some kinds of damn robot?! or are you actually happy he's gone?! Is that why?!" when he heard no response Katsuki grabbed the front of his uniform "Oi answer me you fucking deku!"

"Kacchan..." Katsuki's scowl slowly disappeared as he watched Izuku slowly lifted his head to show tear filled eyes and a forced smile as he spoke "Give me a beak already..." he chocked "I'm really trying my best here, but I have to be strong for mom. The least I can do is smile for her, that's what All Might would do as well."

There he goes again, All Might this , All Might that, was he still thinking he can be a hero without a quirk? bullshit!

"Dammit..." That was the only thing the blonde could say before he stormed out of the classroom while yelling "Do what you want you useless deku!"

Why his father committed suicide was never known, but ever since then Izuku tried his best to help his mother in every way he can, he never forgot to smile and laugh for her. She's the only family he has left, he'll do everything he can just to keep her safe and out of harm's way. That's why he must hurry and become a hero, that way his mother can be safe from anything and no one can ever hurt her ever again. For now the least he can do is keep his mom happy, like today.

It was his mother's birthday and Izuku wanted them to spend her birthday in the mall. It was a normal day, they had lunch at Inko's favorite restaurant, went shopping for clothes, and watched a movie, the day was going great. Until the PA was suddenly activated, instead of the normal robotic voice that announced several things, a voice, that sent chill down every shoppers spine, spoke. The villains have taken over the mall, and worse, a bomb was planted somewhere in the building.

Everything happened so fast, Izuku was tied and gagged with a tape along with his mother, but what scared him the most was how they placed a live bomb behind his mother's back. This wasn't happening! He wasn't going to lose his mom too! Not her!

Izuku's muffled scream was ignored as he tried to crawl towards his mother. Inko shook her head and desperately tried to tell him to stay back.

"Oi, heroes..." the villain said through the mic "None of you move or the bombs I've strapped into 3 of the hostages will activate and all of them will go splat! ehehehehe" he laughs darkly "If you want to save the hostages then bring All Might here! Surrender him before I blow these damn people into bits!"

The very thought of All Might surrendering was laughable, but Izuku was too worried about his mom to think about All Might and his own safety.

After minutes of nothing but painful waiting, there was a mild shake before Izuku saw the villain grin "He's here..."

There was silence before the door to the emergency exit was thrown across the hall, All Might was standing in the doorway, his infamous grin plastered across his face.

"It's fine now. Why? Because I am here!" he said. If Izuku wasn't so scared he's be in cloud nine right now.

What happened was a blur, all he remember was All Might knocking the shit out of the villain, in the end, the villain was too weak to even raise his fist against the symbol of peace.

All Might turned his back away from the villain and began to call for reinforcements as he untied the hostages. Bog mistake.

"Y-you think I'm done?" the villain choke"You think, I'm just going to go down without a fight?" he laughs darkly. Suddenly the timer behind Inko started to make a beeping sound. Izuku looked behind her to see the timer set to 10 seconds. The small child nearly forgot how to breath as he began to squirm against his restraints. All Might started working and began to carry every hostages outside in lightning speed.

5 seconds left, All might was came back and carried more of the hostages.

4 seconds, All that was left was those who were strapped with the bombs and 10 more people including Izuku. Inko struggled against her restraint as All might walked over to her with a bunch of the hostages on his back and arms.

Izuku yelled against his taped mouth. He yelled for All Might to save his mother instead of him. Inko struggled as well, the tape loosened around her mouth before it fell off.

"ALL MIGHT! I'M BEGGING YOU! PLEASE SAVE MY SON! TAKE HIM AND GO! PLEASE SAVE HIM!" she begged the hero as tears began to pour from her eyes "I'M BEGGING YOU PLEASE! PLEASE SAVE MY SON!"

All Might stood stunned for awhile before he nodded and went to the boy next to the lady "Boy, we have to hurry." he said as he picked up the small child. Izuku struggled more, he wasn't going anywhere without his mom. He shook his head and tried tried to struggle.

"Izuku please! please save yourself! go with All Might! Please, I'm begging you! Please just do this for me one last time please" his mother pleaded. Izuku shook his head, his vision began to blur as tears began to form.

"I'll be back for you three." All Might said as he jumped outside the window. Izuku could only watch as his mother disappeared from his sight, the last thing he saw of her was her lips moving, trying to tell him something.

2 seconds left. All Might placed them down on a safe distance where other heroes began to untie them. Izuku watched as the gigantic hero sped back towards where his mom was.

1 second left. As soon as he was untied, he ripped the tape from his mouth before he made a dash for the building "MOM!" he yelled.

"Stop that child! He's going to kill himself!" a random hero said. Izuku was almost past the police tape when a police suddenly tackled him to the ground and began to pull him away from the building.

0 second left. There was a flash of light before a deafening sounds rang across the area. Izuku covered his face with his arms as a heatwave surge through them. The bomb exploded and All Might still was inside the building.

Izuku could only watch in horror as the flames consumed the building. No!No!No!No!No! Mom! where was she? Where was All Might and the remaining hostages?

The heroes began to work, sirens were blared, and water was poured into the fire. Izuku being held back by an officer as he struggled to ran to his mother in the burning building "Let me go! My mom's still in there! She needs help! I have to save her! Let me go!" Izuku kept struggling against even as they began to over power him.

"All Might!" a random citizen said, the green haired boy stopped as he saw All Might come out of the fire, his grin long and in his arms were two of the remaining hostages. Izuku's face paled and his heart stopped beating a few seconds when he realized that none of those in All Might's arms were his mom. He watched the symbol of peace give the two hostages to a paramedic before he turned and walked over to Izuku.

Izuku could only look with wide eyes as he watched the hero tower above him, he swallowed the lump in his throat before he spoke "Where's my mom?"

All Might flinched at the monotonous voice the small child had, he knelt down until he was eye level with Izuku "I'm sorry, my boy..." as he said that he took Izuku's hand in his gigantic and placed something on his palm.

Izuku looked and saw his mom's light green handkerchief, dirtied and had a few droplets of blood, in his hands. It didn't take a genius to realize to know what happen to her.

All Might watched the child, he waited for a reaction. But it didn't came "My boy, I-"

"Why didn't you save her?" Izuku suddenly blurted out, it didn't matter if he was being rude or impolite, if his mom was here then she would have scolded him. but she wasn't, she was gone, dead, she was with dad now. and he was here, breathing, and still alive. He was alone. He doesn't have a family anymore. They were all gone.

Izuku lifted his head and All Might could feel a shiver run down his spine as the child looked at him with cold, hateful eyes "Why didn't you save her? You're suppose to save her, You're the hero. You were suppose to save her!" as his voice grew so did his temper.

"You're a liar! You said you'll come back for her!" As his fist clenched on the only remaining object from his mother, he felt pain surge through his chest and his breathing became erratic. He couldn't tell what happened next, all he felt was being placed on a bed and his vision blurring. The last thing he saw was his mother's warm smile before she faded and in her place was All Might. It was his fault! this was all All Might's fault! If he just saved his mom like he told her then she would still be alive. He wasn't a hero! He was a fake! And this was all his fault! He'll make him pay for what he's done! He'll make All Might pay! HE WILL PAY!

Those were his final thoughts before everything went dark.