Day I don't even care anymore:

I'm starting to see why all the angels I've actually met don't actually seem to have any real feelings or why all the reapers just look at the world as a joke or something they're not actually a part of…

Feelings are terrible.

It has to be at least a month since I had to permanently erase Ryota and it all still just hurts. On top of that, the Game just keeps going and I have to watch as people struggle and fight for their lives and if they're lucky maybe a pair manages to make it back but they're changed and sometimes it becomes a question if it's really worth it to go back when everything just seems so worthless after going through hell. And it just happens again and again and again and again and again.

I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it all.

It's ripping me to shreds and I can't even do anything about it. I'm an angel trapped in Hell and I refuse to believe otherwise, no matter what Mr. H may say. It's not getting better. I'm not getting used to it, and I refuse to accept this is what I will have to deal with for all of eternity.

…I'm just so tired…