Trying to break out of a bit of a writing slump. Monster is rich with stuff to get ficcy about, so here we are :)

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My dearest Doctor Tenma,

If you are receiving this letter, you doubtless know what has become of me. I assume you will be rather worried, but please don't be.

I don't know how much my words can comfort you, but for what it is worth, I can assure you that I will cause you no more trouble. I am finished with the unpleasant work that led you to so doggedly pursue me; the monster inside me seems to be sleeping. I don't think it will ever wake again.

Where I will go from here, I don't myself even know. I feel much like a lost child, and I confess that I hate this feeling. I cannot hope to right the wrongs I've done- not for the people I killed. Not for the Shuwalds or for Lotte Frank. Not for Anna.

And not for you, dear Doctor.

No apologies or well meaning can possibly undo the damage I have caused in the time I have been alive. Even if I were executed, it would not fix anything. This is all I can do.

I am in no position to ask you for any favors. Yet I must ask this one of you.

Please look after Anna. She alone is the most precious thing in the world. I failed her; I wronged her in ways that cannot be undone. I cannot in good conscience speak to her or show her my face again. I do not belong in her divine presence anymore. There is nobody that I can entrust her to but you. Please make sure she is happy and loved. My beloved sister deserves that much.

We will most likely never meet again in this lifetime, Doctor Tenma. It's better off this way; I could not bear to face you or my dear Anna the way I am.

I must ask that you do not come looking for me. If by some trick of fate, our paths cross again, I would ask you to simply pretend not to see me. If you can manage, it would be best if you pretend I never existed at all.

Thank you, Doctor. Thank you for bringing me back yet again, though I was the very last person in the world who deserved it. Thank you, for protecting Anna when she needed it. Thank you for never giving up, even when it doubtless seemed hopeless.

Thank you, Doctor Tenma, for stopping me.

For all my apology is worth, I regret all the trouble I have caused. I hope, despite my troublesome behavior, that you are able to live a happy life. I wish nothing but the best for you, because you certainly deserve nothing less.

I do not fear what lies ahead. Though I'm not sure what fate holds for me now, I will attempt to face whatever it is with the same courage you have. I will always treasure that name you called me when you brought me back to life.

-Johan