Chapter 1

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A/N: well this is another idea. Not for Kushina haters because Naruto will still love his mother.

Kushina Uzumaki after she was brought to Konoha, it was hard for her but she came along. She admitted to the academy and after an incident fell in love with her classmate Minato Namikaze. Later a dream developed in her heart and it was to be Hokage of Konoha. So she trained and trained so hard that she became the strongest Kunoichi in all elemental nations. There wasn't any field of battle prowess she wasn't master of.

Later when she was eighteen years old she got pregnant with her lover's child and nine months later she gave birth to a blond baby girl. They both were ecstatic. They loved her more than themselves and anyone else for that matter.

They named her Kiriha Namikaze.

In these nine months she didn't train heavily. She did train in one or two month but later stopped doing it.

She did light training till Kiriha was two year old and then she again started to go on missions but she made a schedule for going on one mission in one month and spent whole other days with her daughter.

When Kiriha was three years old, Minato and Kushina lost in carnal bodily pleasure and she got pregnant again. Kushina again was ecstatic to unknown limits and she even decided name for the baby after three months of pregnancy. She even decorated room for her soon would be born son. When she was asked how she knew that it was a boy she smiled and said, ''It's a mother's intuition''.

Minato hadn't been so ecstatic, he was happy but not as much as when Kiriha was born and it was because he doesn't wanted another child for some more years. He was more than happy with Kiriha and he had already started to make plans for her future. Like her training, clan heir and her career and then marriage. He decided that he would make her husband stay at Namikaze clan house.

Another child would through a loop in his plans but he didn't say anything, he decided to don a smile for his wife but he won't do anything special like ignoring his duties for would be born child and won't let anyone else ignore their duties for the child.

Kiriha was happy just like her mother. She couldn't wait to see her little brother and hold him in her hands.

So nine months later another child was born in Namikaze Household but a tragedy fell over the village and Kyuubi was freed by a masked man and Naruto was made the Jinchuriki of the yin part of Kyuubi and Kiriha was made the Jinchuriki of yang part which was much calmer version of Yin and it didn't create problem for Kiriha.

Both Minato and His sensei Jiraiya were able to achieve that feat.

Now the news was leaked to the village by unknown and it was said that the power of Kyuubi was sealed in Kiriha and the soul, the evil part in the newborn of Namikaze couple. And so started the attempts to kill the newborn and later Minato had to make a S-class rule, if anybody tries to attack the Jinchuuriki, they will be punished by death and the attack were stopped altogether, maybe because they were shocked that their dear Hokage was siding with the monster but they forget that the monster was his son and it doesn't matter if he didn't like or love the boy but he was his son. He could do that much for his son at least.

Kushina was on cloud nine when she first held the baby and she named him Naruto and gave him first kiss to his forehead and started to feed him.

Kiriha was almost four and now she was aware about the yang part inside her. She was also giddy from happiness when she saw her brother and she jumped in joy.

Minato didn't come. He said he was busy with the village after the destruction.

Time went on and one year later Kiriha realized that her brother was getting all of her mother's attention and love and now that Naruto was a toddler, she also had to share her toys with him but the thing that made her resentful towards her brother was that now she had to share her mother's love and that didn't sit well with her. She was happy to have a little brother but she didn't expect to share her parents love with even her brother and a burning jealousy feeling developed in her and she too started to avoid playing with Naruto.

When Kiriha was five years old, Minato decided to start her training and he asked Kushina to do this since he was busy with village duties.

Kushina started to instruct her training while holding Naruto in her arms.

Kushina now happy with her two child and she had almost forgot her dream, just some lingering thoughts which came now and then but nothing serious. She trained Kiriha while holding Naruto or supporting him to stand with her finger.

As time went on Kushina more and more indulged in her motherly duties ignoring her Kunoichi duties and Minato didn't like it he decided it was time for her to be active again.

Naruto was five years old now and Kiriha Nine years old, Kushina again became an active Kunoichi. Minato now send her all S-class pending missions. And she always stayed out of the village. She knew Kiriha was old enough to take care of herself and she was also in her 3rd year of academy and already stronger than any other child of her age like Anko, Itachi, Yugao and Kurenai who were in fourth and final years of academy. Naruto still had two years to cover before being admitted to academy.

But like his sister he wasn't lucky to get training from his mother. Kushina was busy in her missions and when she would come back, Kiriha would not leave her alone, not giving Kushina any chance to talk to Naruto. Kushina would give a big hug and Kiss to Kiriha and Naruto if they both were at home on her return but then Kiriha would grab her hand and took her to her room and then they would spend hours in catching up leaving Naruto alone and when Kiriha would leave her in evening it would be time for Minato to come back, then they would spent some time.

Then they would have dinner and Kushina would be so tired and exhausted that she would eat dinner with closed eyes and finishing it she would go to bed.

In morning she would woke up early and Minato and she both would go to Hokage office and there Minato would sent her on a new mission.

Kushina in the back of her mind knew she wasn't giving time to Naruto but Minato kept her sending on mission after mission. She only stayed at home for barely a week in a month. And that week was full of catching up with Kiriha and her husband. She also noticed the resentment Kiriha held for Naruto but she couldn't understand why. She always thought she would spend time with Naruto when she would return from mission but every time she returned her daughter and husband wouldn't leave her alone and till night it would skip from her mind because of tiredness and exhaustion. She would have a quicky with her husband which always left her unsatisfied. After that they both would go to sleep.

Kiriha's training was taken over by Minato whenever he would have time.

As time went on Kiriha's jealousy turned into hate towards Naruto even if he didn't do anything. That's why she always tried all the time to show Naruto that only she was loved not him.

Two more years passed by like that. Naruto was seven years old and was ready to be admitted to the academy. He was lying on his bed reminiscing on last few years. His mother was on a mission as usual. He didn't know how long has it been since he had last seen his mother. He knew she was on missions and it was important for the village to go on missions. But why didn't she spend time with him when she was home. She was always busy with husband-wife and mother-daughter bonding whenever she was home. He only saw her when she would return from a mission and give him and his sister a hug and kiss and after that no sight of his mother and even if he did find her, then she would either be training Kiriha or chatting with her. Didn't she saw that she also had a son who also wants a mother-son bonding? Why did she give all her attention to his sister? He envied her for it. He was angry with her mother now, no he didn't hate her. He loved all his family and he wasn't sure about his sister and father but he knew that his mother also loved him but then why didn't she showed him that love. Couldn't she saw he was hurt, she was hurting him by not loving him but did she love him, didn't she feel love for him anymore? Nah, whenever she glanced towards him he could see the love for him. Then why, why doesn't she show it physically by hugging him and kissing him and spending time with him. She didn't even train him in anything and his dad was just always tried to stall him saying he would train him later and that later never came.

He thought to go outside to see if someone could train him but he feared that he would lose the moment with his mother when she returns from the mission so he stayed at home doing some exercises which he read in a book. His mother had taught him how to read when she used to stay home.

He couldn't remember the last time his birthday was celebrated. Whenever his birthday came, his mother was on a mission and other two just didn't care about him but he remembered a grand party thrown on Kiriha's birthday. She was even given a toad summoning contract and lots of gifts. He didn't even know what a chakra was.

He often heard his sister say to him that, ''Mom and dad don't love you. They love me''. He heard this line everyday but he ignored it till two day ago when his seventh birthday was.

He was eating dinner with his dad and sister. They always eat the dinner in silence if they eat it together.

The table was silence but then Kiriho scooted her chair near to Naruto and started to talk, ''Hey Naruto, it's your birthday today'' she said and looked at him. Naruto didn't say anything.

''Ah...you must be sad since no one is celebrating your birthday. Mom's not home and dad's busy. Tsh, it's so unfortunate'' She said mocking him but Naruto kept hearing her.

''Don't tease him Kiriho'' Minato muttered with a mouthful of rice.

But Kiriho continued, ''But Mom threw a big party on my birthday and on your birthday she isn't even at home let alone celebrate it''

She spat and leaned close, ''That only show that mom and dad don't love you. They love me. And you know one more thing; I am going to be the Namikaze clan heir. Dad talked to me about it and mom too will agree with it. Then you are out and I will live with mom and dad alone'' she hissed from gritted teeth and leaned back and continued her eating.

Naruto sat for a minute then stood up, ''Thanks for the food'' he said and backed away from the tabled and started to walk towards upstairs. He stopped at the first stair and looked back at his father's head, 'why was he listening. Why didn't he stop her from saying those things? Is he...like Kiriho...' He thought and went upstairs.

That event made Naruto think. How long it would go like this. How long his mother would continue to go on missions and ignore him. How long he could stay calm. No, not anymore but he would give them one more chance.

Next day Naruto found himself standing at the gate of academy with a form in his hands. He didn't know what to do now. He was standing there like a lost child. And passerbies were avoiding him.

He sighed and looked up when someone put a hand on his head. It was a woman with purple hair coming down to her lower back and a sword in her hand. Naruto recognized her as Yugao.

''Hey Naruto what are you doing here'' She asked and took the form from his hands and read it.

''So admissions huh'' she muttered and Naruto nodded.

''Where's your mother and where is Hokage-sama'' she asked and Naruto looked down.

Yugao's eyes widened, ''Oh my god'' she put a hand on her mouth. How could they could be so careless and Kushina she knew Kushina, where was she.

Yugao remembered that she was getting late but now she couldn't leave him alone like that. He looked around and found her friend passing from there, ''Oi, Anko'' she shouted and Anko looked at Yugao and a grin formed on her beautiful face, ''OH Yugao what are you doing here, are you going to the academy again'' Anko teased her fellow chunnin.

''Shut up Anko'' Yugao said.

Anko's eyes then fall on Naruto, ''Oh Little Naruto is here too. What are you doing here kid'' she asked in her cheerful tone ruffling his hair.

Yugao handed her the admission form. Anko took it and read and looked at Yugao, ''Admission, what's the problem then and where Kushina-san is'' Anko asked and looked at Yugao but Yugao just shook his head.

All emotions from Anko's face disappeared. She looked at Naruto, he was looking down.

Anko closed her eyes and her fists clenched, ''What kind of parents they are'' she hissed with venom in her voice.

She opened her eyes and looked at Naruto, she kept looking at him for a moment then grabbed Naruto by his waist and ran inside, ''Don't worry about anything when your big big big sis Anko is here'' she exclaimed.

''Wow, without my saying anything'' Yugao muttered with a smile and went to her destination.

One hour later, Anko came out with Naruto, ''Okay it's time for party'' She exclaimed with a large grin and taking his hand in her started to walk.

''What party, Anko-chan'' Naruto asked.

Anko looked at him, ''You got admitted in the academy and is going to be a shinobi. It's time for a celebration'' Anko said with her usual cheerful smile but Naruto stopped. His red bangs foreshadowing his eyes. Anko looked at him wondering what happened, ''Naruto what happened'' she asked but Naruto didn't say anything.

Anko sat on one knee leveling her eyes with him. She saw he was trembling and tears drop on the ground. Anko immediately hugged him to her chest tightly and he cried. He never cried but that little interaction with Anko was so warm that he couldn't control himself.

He cried for a long time and when he stopped, he fell asleep in her arms. She sighed and stood up lifting him with her and shunshined to her apartment.

Naruto woke up on a soft bed. He stood immediately and went out of the room. He saw Anko in the Kitchen cooking something.

He sat on the sofa looking at her.

Anko looked at him and smiled. She brought two large bowls of ramen and put them on the table in front of Naruto. She took one bowl and gave other to Naruto, he too started to eat.

''Tell me what happened and why your mother wasn't with you'' anko asked and Naruto started to tell her everything from the start.

Anko put the bowl on the table and sat near to Naruto and hugged him, ''I am sorry for you. I don't understand how Kushina-san can do this to you'' she said kissing his head.

Naruto didn't say anything; he just snuggled in her bosom to feel the warmth.

''You know what, you can come to me whenever you want or if you have any problem'' Anko said rubbing his back.

Naruto pulled back in surprise and looked at her face, ''Really, I...I wouldn't want to be a burden on you'' Naruto whispered in a low voice.

Anko hugged him again, ''You aren't a burden. You don't know but the first day you called me sis, I can't describe how happy I was. You are my only family so you won't ever be a burden and if you want you can spend the night here with me. I wouldn't mind'' she said and they both became silent.

''Can I stay tonight'' Naruto asked and Anko answered immediately, ''Sure''.

From that day Naruto, started his academy and started his training with Anko. Naruto trained with Anko daily in the morning for hours in the forest of death. He started to spend more nights at Anko's home whenever she was there. He couldn't sleep there every day since Anko also went on missions. But she was with him around ten days in a month. They slept in same bed.

Naruto now lost his mothers hugs and kiss completely may be sometimes she caught him at home but whatever he didn't regret it. He had more of his stuff at Anko's apartment than Namikaze residence.

And like this three more years passed. Naruto was ten years old now. He wasn't prodigy but he was medium in his class so most of the kid was above him in grades.

Naruto was in her room lying on his bed thinking. He had given them one more chance and they lost it. Now he decided to leave the Namikaze residence and live with Anko permanently.

He saw his mother two day ago when she returned from her mission and after giving him hug and kiss she was taken by Kiriha to her room. Then she was in her bedroom with her husband.

He decided that it was time to announce his decision before his mom goes on a mission again. But he knew it wasn't going to be easy but he would make it by his lie detector seal. He had used sixty percent of his time on seals and other forty on Taijutsu, kenjutsu that Yugao trained him. But he focused on seals and in just three years was he was above medium level and just a little back from jounin level. But he created the seals which were used for daily purpose.

Tomorrow was his birthday and it was first time that his mother would be at home. He glanced at the watch and saw that it was 12 AM.

''Happy Birthday Naruto Uzumaki'' he said to himself in an empty voice. He stood up and went to the Kitchen and drank some water. He stiffened for a moment when Kushina walked in the Kitchen but then shrugged. It didn't matter if she was there or not and it was first time they met like that in the night.

Naruto put the glass in the sink and turned to walk back to his room. He walked past Kushina, not even acknowledging her presence.

Kushina felt awkward at his behavior. Shouldn't he have asked or say anything to her. She turned back and looked at Naruto's back going upstairs, ''Naruto, what's the matter honey'' Kushina said expecting a good answer but he turned around facing her and just shrugged, ''Nothing why did you say that'' Naruto asked raising his eyebrows.

''You just neglected my presence like I am not here so I thought something must have been wrong'' Kushina asked again knowing he was lying.

Naruto closed his eyes and then his eyelids parted a little, ''Like you are neglecting me for all these years'' He said with a blank voice.

That felt like a hard slap to Kushina that made her mouth shut.

Naruto shrugged again, ''It doesn't really matter to me, If you are here or not because you were never here for me...right'' He said with same hollow tone.

Kushina's eyes were wide and tears started to well up, ''Well you are like a ghost to me who shows herself on special occasions like her daughter's birthday or her marriage anniversary but never shows on her son's birthday. But you know what I don't care anymore. It's your house, It's your life, it doesn't matter if someone needs you or not but your missions are everything for you'' He said in a calm voice but with a hollowness.

Kushina's mind was a tornado or different kind of emotions which were getting out of control. Her legs wobbled and she lost her balance and fell down to her knees. Tears were streaming out of her eyes.

Naruto decided to let all the pent up emotions come to surface. He walked downstairs and stood in front of her form. He grabbed her shoulders and helped her to stand up and ushered her to the couch.

''When was the last time we talked more than two minutes. When you returned from the mission you always spent your whole time with your daughter and your husband. Where was my share of your time? Didn't you see that I was the one who need you most? I also wanted to spend some time with you. I also wanted to develop a mother-son bonding but I think I was just an extra member in this family'' Naruto said walking to and fro in front of Kushina who was a wreck now. She occasionally opened her mouth to speak but couldn't. What could she say; anything she would say would be pointless and won't hold any meaning.

Naruto looked at his mother and he felt sad. He loved her and he still love her but he wanted her to know what he went through. He wanted her to feel that hurt and pain. It would surely hurt him too but when he was already hurt so much then a little more won't matter. He continued, ''You know, I always waited for you to come in my room and tuck me in bed and say good night but You went in your husband's room after that. I waited you every time but you never came and in the morning when I woke up you would be already gone.

Then a thought occurred to me, why it was happening. You don't love me. You don't want to see my face. And it broke my heart or should I say shattered. And Kiriha's daily comments like mom doesn't love you, dad doesn't love you that's why they don't spent time with you and don't celebrate your birthdays. And you proved it true when you threw a large party at her birthday and were absent on every b'day of mine. This proved the fact that I am unwanted here. And one day at dinner table, Kiriha tells me that she was chosen as Namikaze clan heir and at that time too she said that mom and dad loves her not me that's why they chose her clan heir and all that time she verbally threw garbage on me, dad were eating his dinner like it was the most peaceful day for him. And that was it. I decided I would leave this house which was just a building for me without any care and love. But I thought to give you guys a chance but you all failed at that'' Naruto told her, what she and her daughter did and what he felt.

Kushina had both of her hands on her face and crying her eyes out. Naruto wanted to go and hug her but he steeled himself. He won't forgive her that easily.

Naruto sat down on the couch and leaned backward, ''I wanted you to be there with me when I was standing in front of the academy holding the admission form like a lost child alone. You can't imagine how I felt when everyone had their mother with them, holding their hands. I looked at my hand and thought where my mom's h...hand is'' Naruto stopped. He felt like crying now. His emotions were getting out of his control but he decided to let them.

''you trained Kiriha when she was five years old and here, me, I didn't even know what chakra is until Anko-chan explained it to me and I was seven years old at that time, behind every student of my class. I was below than everyone since everything was new to me. I got beat up every day because I didn't know anything about taijutsu.

You know I treasured your hug and kiss which you gave me after your return and I didn't go out just so that I won't miss that hug and kiss but in the end it was all a waste'' Naruto said and wiped his eyes and took a deep breath.

He didn't look at his mother in fear to loss his wits and just hug her.

''Anyway today at the dawn I will move out and I am sure no one cares what I do. And your daughter and husband would even throw a party'' he stood up and started to move and as he took one step ''Naruto'' Kushina called and Naruto stopped but didn't turn. She wasn't crying now but her voice held many emotions like sadness, regret, remorse, frustration, anger and hurt and pain.

''Please sit with me'' Kushina implored. Naruto understood that she was about to put her part in front of him. He sat on his previous place and looked at her red and puffy eyes.

She started, ''I now understand, I now understand it all. Minato's denial to see you after Kyuubi incident, his idea of training towards your sister, and when I was started to feel happy with you two staying at home, he decided to make me an active Kunoichi again. His giving me mission after mission. I asked him why he was giving me so much missions and he said you are the only one and when I remind him that we have two kids to take care of, he said they are well taken care of. I never thought to refuse to go on a mission. I always thought everything was fine and -'' Naruto cut her, ''You thought but never made it sure'' He said with a chuckle full of sadness.

Her eyes watered again, ''I...I am so...sorry'' she said and broke down again, ''I...I never thought Minato and Kiriha would do this to you and like I said I thought you were living happily'' Kushina said and Naruto stood up angrily, ''Don't give me that crap. You knew better. Didn't you know I needed you when you were on your missions and when you came back? You just spent your whole time with them, didn't it ever crossed your mind that you have a son too to see, hug, to know how he is doing but no all your concern was directed towards your daughter and husband. I went to sleep after waiting for you to come'' Naruto said gritting his teeth. How could she just assume that he was happy without making it sure?

Kushina's tears had stopped falling. But she was still crying inside in regretting her decisions, for giving priority to her missions in place of her children. Why couldn't she refuse her husband, why? The dream to be a Hokage, maybe that's why she went on missions but now that she was confronted with the truth, all she did didn't seem worth the loss her children has, her little Naruto has. And now when she was enlightened, her past actions and decisions seemed that of an idiot.

She stared at ceiling and then at Naruto's back, he had turned his back towards her, 'If only you could give me one more chance then I will show you how much I love you...but it seems I am too late to get another chance' Kushina thought. She stood up and moved closer to Naruto and falling down on her knees bend downward and touched her forehead to the floor, ''Naruto...'' She called.

Naruto turned and when he saw her kneeling in front of him his eyes widened. He immediately leaned down and grabbing her shoulder lifted her upper body from the floor, ''What are you doing. Don't do this, please'' whatever she did, he loved her and his mother kneeling in front of him in that position was the degrading thing a mother could ever do in front of her son and he wouldn't let her do this. He couldn't see her like that.

Kushina looked at his face closely and lifted a hand to touch his cheek but stopped mid way and retracted it back.

''Naruto, I know you won't forgive me even if I would ask you to. No, my sin towards you can't be forgiven that easily. And you won't even give me another chance. So only one thing remained and that is Punishment. I am ready for any punishment'' she said looking at him with regret, remorse and pain and most of all love.

Naruto closed his eyes for some moments. He then ushered her to stand up and then sit on the couch.

''You are right. There isn't any forgiveness or second chance or third chance since second I have already given. The only thing left is punishment and the punishment is...'' Naruto said and looked at Kushina's fearful eyes.

''I am leaving this house and moving in with Anko-chan'' Naruto finished and tears streamed down her face. She looked down, ''I...I accept...'' she croaked and looked up," but I will wait for your forgiveness desperately till I die. I will wait desperately for your return to me and I will do anything for it'' she said with determination.

''Do whatever you want but I am sure about one thing, I am never coming back in this house'' he said and flopped down on the couch and closed his eyes to complete his sleep and in a matter of seconds he was snoring.

Kushina came close to him and looked at his face, sleeping calmly. She caressed his cheek and ran her hands through his hair. She smiled, ''What I was doing till now, I was a complete stupid. I am sorry Naruto but I am going to make it up to you. I am going to do anything to repent for the big mistake I have made'' Kushina muttered and keep rubbing his scalps making his sleep deeper. She sat down by the couch on the ground; she didn't care if it was cold. Now the only thing that mattered to her was her son, Naruto.

She decided it was time to talk to Minato, enough is enough. He was playing with her life but not anymore. She decided to turn her life completely.

It was dawn already, about 6 o'clock. Minato wake up and saw that Kushina wasn't there, 'must be in the bathroom' he thought and decided to go downstairs. As he descended the stairs he saw the scene and annoyance feeling welled up in him.

Kushina had her head above Naruto's while sitting on the floor. Naruto was sleeping soundly without a care. His mother's warmth and hand in his hairs might have done the trick.

Minato walked over to Kushina putting a hand on her shoulder tried to wake her up, ''Kushina, Kushina'' he repeated and Kushina stirred, ''Sshhh...Baby will wake up'' she mumbled in sleep.

''What...'' Minao exclaimed incredulously.

Kushina opened her eyes but didn't lift her head, ''Speak low, can't you see Naruto is sleeping. You will wake him up'' She mumbled again and closed her eyes. Minato narrowed his eyes in annoyance, ''Kushina stand up, we are getting late. We need to leave'' Minato said barely holding himself from lifting her head from above Naruto by himself.

After some seconds Kushina lifted her head and stretched her legs on the ground in front of her, her back resting against the couch. She lifted her hands above her head and stretched them upwards with a long yawn.

Minato drank a glass of water and came back, ''You are still here Kushina. Get up and get ready'' he said in disbelieve.

Kushina looked at him for almost a minute then yawned, ''It's you who is leaving, I am not going on your missions anymore. You can send someone else'' Kushina said in a non caring way but she was totally serious inside.

Minato's features became serious. He could see the affection in her eyes for Naruto, ''Kushina, You know how much Important those missions are for the village and you are the only one suitable'' Minato again tried his usual trick.

Kushina closed her eyes and smiled, ''You know, I have done enough important things for this village and its time that I do something of importance for my family ...for my son'' she said still smiling and Minato could see the dangerous woman behind that smile. But he couldn't give up.

''Kushi-'' before he could continue Kushina was in front of him with a killing look in her eyes, ''If you tried to say any more word about mission I will resign from my ninja job and you will lost my other ninja services in the village as well but I am not going on anymore missions...Understood'' Kushina hissed through gritted teeth and he nodded. He knew if she got angry he would be in hospital.

"Good" she said and again sat on her previous place beside Naruto. She looked at Naruto, 'That's a start' she thought.

A/N: So read and tell me if you liked it or not in your reviews.