THIS IS MY FIRST BNHA FANFIC! I'M A BIG FAN OF BNHA AND I DON'T THINK I'VE SEEN ANYONE AS CRAZILY OBSSESSED WITH IT AS I AM. I DECIDED TO CREATE THIS FANFIC BECAUSE I HONESTLY CAN'T STAND THE LACK OF IZUOCHA FANS! THE PAIRING IS CANNON, BUT YET EVERYONE'S JUST BUSY SHIPPING KATSUDEKU, TODODEKU, BAKUSHIMA AND SO ON, ALTHOUGH I HAVE TO ADMIT I LIKE KATSUDEKU JUST A TEENY BIT BUT THAT DOES'NT MATTER.

THIS FANFIC IS JUST A BUNCH OF ONE-SHOTS WITH INTER-CONNECTED STORIES, MOST OF THEM INVOLOVE IZUOCHA OF COURSE AND OTHER SHIPS TOO.

I'M SORRY IF THERE ARE ANY GRAMMATICAL/SPELLING ERRORS, PLEASE FEEL FREE TO CORRECT ME OR CRITICIZE ME WHEN NECESSARY, BUT PLEASE KEEP THE HARSHNESS TO A MINIMUM.

WOW THIS IS A LOT OF BLABBING, ANYWAY PLEASE ENJOY THE STORY!

I DO NOT OWN BNHA, ALL RIGHTS/CREDIT GO TO KOHEI HORIKOSHI!

Falling Into Despair

Ochako sighed in frustration as she saw her husband lying down uncomfortably in his sleep, tossing and turning on the bed. Judging by the disturbed look on his face and the dried up tears on his on his cheeks she could deduce that the symbol of peace had cried himself to sleep, again.

She had a sad look on her face. "Oh Deku…" she yawned and stretched, then she climbed on the bed and lay down next to him softly running her fingers through his curly, messy green locks of hair.

"When… are you gonna learn that it's just not possible to always save everybody…" she softly whispered softly before drifting off to sleep.

A few hours before the sunrise, the said symbol of peaces' eyes shot open, he panted hard as he sat up stretching out his left hand towards mid-air, Izuku glanced at his digital alarm clock.

'4:32…'

He groaned as he ran his fingers through his hair, he couldn't sleep even if he wanted to, because the pain of failure would swallow him whole, plus he was used to having sleepless nights.

He opened and closed the palm of his left hand, examining it for no reason whatsoever and pulling it close to his well-built chest. Over the years, Izuku had grown very lean and muscular, not too muscular like All Might, but just enough to get the public's attention. Being the symbol of peace at age 27 made Izuku very popular, especially among the young female audience much to Ochako's dismay.

He continued to roughly drag his fingers through his hair as he muttered some incoherent words to himself, he tuned to look at his wife peacefully sleeping beside him, he rubbed her back softly. Izuku tried to fight the lump in his throat but it was no use, he couldn't fight the tears that were streaming out of his eyes, he felt the pain of despair and failure hit him again. About two days ago, around noon, there was a strange villain with a bunch of lackeys who attacked some office firm; the villain had a quirk similar to Bakugou's; an explosive type. Of course taking him and out was no big deal, but Izuku couldn't shake the feeling that something was wrong, after saving the people who were taken hostage by the villain's lackeys, one of the workers rushed to him and told him that the lead villain with the explosion quirk got a hold of her close friend and she was missing. Izuku dashed through the whole building in less than no time he found the villain on the top floor and cornered him, forcing him to tell him where the woman was. The villain had this sadistic grin on his face and pointed towards the direction of a corpse, as Izuku's eyes made contact with the corpse, he knocked the villain out in a sheer fit of rage.

He slowly walked closer to the lady, fighting back the tears and trying with all his might to believe that she wasn't dead, but of course that didn't work. As he approached her, he felt his legs grow weak causing him to kneel down beside her. Her hands were twisted in a painful position; she had a big stab wound in her shoulder. Her head was lying about 3 inches away from her, hair sprawled all over her face, blood on her mouth, and tears on her cheeks surprisingly though her eyes were closed.

"What…" he couldn't even find the right words to say, because he simply did not know what to do. He entangled his fingers with her own, holding her bloody hand firmly. It's not like he knew her or anything but he just felt the urge to scream, and he did, he let out a large shout in despair and in a matter of minutes the police had surrounded him. That same day, the dead woman's friend brought the sad news to her family, crushing their hearts to pieces and the office firm scheduled a memorial for the woman.

The next day the case already reached the media, but the information on the woman who was killed did not reach the public. Izuku hated when the media did that, they would tell the whole world about his victory but never mention the little boy he couldn't save, or the innocent civilians who drowned or those people who were buried in a landslide, but it's not like Izuku could broadcast to the public about all the people he couldn't save, also the media as well as the rest of the pro heroes couldn't have the people's trust wavering in him.

A single person losing their life was enough to make Izuku feel worthless and depressed… really depressed, and once he fell into depression there was nothing anyone could do about it besides wait for him to get over it which would take days, or weeks, and sometimes months. Most of his close friends and his mom would talk to him about it. Ochako would nag him, Shouto would scold him, Iida would lecture him and Bakugou would insult him and call him a loser.

"I never saw All Might cry! Not even once! You're supposed to be stronger than him aren't you?! But yet you cry like a fucking weakling you damn loser!" Bakugou would say that to him on a normal basis.

But he was right wasn't he? Of course he was a loser, how could he call himself the symbol of peace if he couldn't protect a single woman? A woman, who had a job, and a family who were currently mourning for their death. Why was he so worthless? There were so many people who depended on him but yet…

"Damn it, Damn it!" he cried as he bit his lips, allowing his tears to run down his face.

"Some symbol of peace I am… hey All Might… is this what you had to go through too? Why?"

"Deku!" Ochako exclaimed. Izuku was a bit startled; he wiped his tears and gave her an apologetic look. "Sorry honey, I didn't mean to wake you up"

She held his hands and gave her a serious look in the eye. "Why do you…? No, how long are you going to keep doing this? How long are you going to keep beating yourself up?"

"Huh?" he gave her a questioning look.

"Deku, you're a hero! The symbol of peace! Despite that... you're still a human being! I know it's sad but… sometimes there will be people that you just can't save! Why won't you get that into your head already? I've said this like a thousand times already Deku!"

He took her hands off his face and held them to his chest, still silently sobbing.

"it's not like I want to be sad… but this pain I feel… it feels like it's piercing my heart, how can I call myself the symbol of peace if I can't even save one woman, if I just came a little earlier I could've… saved her"

Ochako groaned and pulled her hands away from him. "You see you're doing it again! That right there! It's not bad to mourn for the death of innocent people, but even still! You can't let someone's death eat at you like this every single time! If you keep up with this depression… you're only going to get weaker, and soon you'll even be too depressed to be a hero!"

"I…"

"Aren't you the hero that saves everyone with a smile? Also you have your fellow pro-heroes by your side… and you have me... although it doesn't really feel like that anymore"

Izuku tilted his head sideways in confusion. "What do you mean?"

"I can't take it anymore Deku, you're always so down in the dumps, it's not only affecting you but me too, you're not fun anymore and you hardly eat, and there's a whole bunch of new things that I learned how to make from Tsuyu that I wanted to cook for you. You don't really talk much and you're always secluding yourself in your office… and you never want to do anything with me as a husband. I really try to consider your feelings as a hero, but as your wife, I'm worried and lonely… all in all, I miss you Deku"

Izuku's sadness immediately faded away and was replaced by guilt he never even considered her feelings. Izuku gave her a small smile and cupped her cheeks. "You're words… always seem to cheer me up, I'm sorry, I've been making light of your feelings, I didn't know you felt that way"

She placed her hands on his smiling happily. "It's okay Deku… I know it hurts"

Izuku kissed her lips softly, Ochako was a bit surprised but nevertheless kissed him back missing his warmth. Izuku deepened the kiss and wrapped his arms around her back, realizing that he missed her more than she missed him. After about 20 seconds they pulled away from each other. He rested her forehead against hers panting a little.

"I miss you too, and I love you" he said.

"I love you too"

"Hey, wanna try for a baby?" he whispered against her lips.

Ochako smiled and wrapped her arms around his neck, "isn't it late? Or early rather" she said glancing at the clock.

'4:49am'

"Yeah, but I'm kinda awake now… plus I miss your body" he whispered the last part of the sentence in her ear.

"Deku…" she said happily. He took off his shirt then both of them fell on the bed, and well you know what happens from there.

FINALLY DONE! THIS WAS A LITTLE LONGER THAN I EXPECTED, I HOPE YOU ENJOYED IT, SORRY IF IT WAS TOO LONG OR BORING!

CHUBBYOTAKUGIRL16!