I am deeply sorry for the extreme delay in updating but I've been through a lot lately. I had to deal with some family issues and then my brother died, and I lost interest in writing after that, well lost interest in a lot of things. Now I feel so much better and remembering where I wanted to take this story I can continue to write it and finish this story, I just hope you guys are still willing to give this story a chance. Linstead901 thanks, you inquiring about the story, is what helped me to want to continue this story and finish it and remember why I love writing and posting on here, so thanks. Well on with the story enjoy.

Chapter 7: Confrontation

The next morning found Olivia standing in the elevator with Starbucks in hand and her eyes closed as she tried to get her mind set for work, but she could not get her mind off last night's conversation with Trevor and the nagging feeling about her squad. They all were acting strange with her at the scene and Rollins kept giving her a look like she wanted to ask her something but never did. The elevator dinged singling that she had arrived at her floor, taking a deep breath Olivia opened her eyes and made her way towards the squad room where she found Fin sitting at his desk typing away. Setting her purse in her chair and throwing her jacket over the back of it she made her way over to where Fin was and set in the chair that sat beside it.

Fin looked up when he saw Olivia making her way over to his desk before taking a seat. "What's up Liv?" Fin asked.

Olivia let out a little laugh, "If only you knew." Olivia said with sad eyes.

Fin nodded in understanding, "I think I have a clue." Fin said seeing the questioning look Olivia was giving him, "Trevor," Fin simply said. "Look I saw the way you two were acting with each other when he first walked in. I knew that it was probably the first time you two saw each other since the divorce." Fin paused as he watched Olivia hoping she would give it up and tell him that they never got divorced. He could see that she was struggling with something. Fin stood up and set a hand on Olivia's shoulder, "Follow me." Fin said before making his way towards one of the empty interrogation rooms with Olivia right behind him. Once Olivia walked into the room Fin closed the door and locked it. "Talked to me Liv."

"Trevor and I talked last night about us," Olivia sighed deciding she might as well tell him, because he'll find out eventually. "Trevor and I never got divorce, he never signed the papers…" Olivia paused as she made her way over to the table and sat on the edge of it.

Fin didn't say anything, wanting to allow her to get what she needed out, even though he wanted so badly to tell her that he knew about her never getting the divorce finalized. Fin doubled check to make sure the sound was off before moving over to the adjacent wall and he leaned on it as he waited for Olivia to continue.

Olivia watched Fin for a minute before finally taking a breath, "I sent the papers to him, but he refused to sign them. Trevor didn't want to give up on us that easy, and he hoped that once I got over the lose of Mason that I would change my mind and come back to him."

"But you didn't, you went on with your life with Haden, then Cassidy." Fin said interrupting Olivia. "You acted like you were divorced, even though you knew that you weren't." Fin said as he watched Olivia move towards the window refusing to look at him. "Liv, how come you didn't tell me about you and Trevor?"

Olivia turned to look at Fin and sighed as she saw the hurt in his eyes. "Honestly… Fin I never told you or anyone else that I was divorce, the only thing I said to you guys was that I sent divorce papers to him…"

"Come on Olivia, don't try that, you knew that we all thought that you were divorce."

"I made a mistake ok, I get that." Olivia yelled as she ran her hand through her hair. "Trevor's mad at me, you're mad at me, and let me guess the entire squad is mad at me." Olivia took a deep breathe before letting it out slowly as she move back over to the table sitting on the edge of it. "I knew I sense something was wrong last night at the crime scene." Olivia watched Fin's body language that confirm her suspicion. "How did you find out, no one knows about me and Trevor never getting a divorce." Olivia questioned.

Fin sighed, "Veronica came by our place yesterday to visit and hang out to distract herself. She knew you and Trevor were meeting up for dinner to talk. We were looking at some pictures and Casey mentioned how surprised she was that you guys gotten divorce. Veronica was shocked and said that the papers were never signed." Fin explained.

Olivia nodded, of course Veronica would know. "I'm sorry, I should've told you guys. I guess I knew that if I said it out loud then I couldn't ignore it, pretend that I could move on with my life, to…" Olivia was interrupted by a knock at the door.

"Occupied," Fin yelled, the door was locked they should've known that it was occupied.

"It's Manda," they heard her yelled through the door.

Fin sighed before walking over to the door and opened it, "What's up?"

Amanda glanced over at Olivia who was sitting on the edge of the table, "Sorry to interrupt but Murphy is looking for you Liv."

"Tell him to give me a minute," Olivia replied.

Amanda nodded as she looked at Fin who just gave her a look saying don't asked before she headed back towards her desk.

Fin closed the door and locked it again. "Liv…" Fin waited for her to acknowledge that she heard him but got nothing. "Liv," Fin repeated as he moved towards her to stand in front of her to find her silently crying. "Liv," Fin said softly, "I'm not mad at you, I get you not wanting to turn the divorce into a big mess by taking Trevor to court, especially with losing Mason still fresh." Fin moved to sit next to Olivia on the table. "Honestly, Trevor is to blame too, he put you in that situation by refusing to sign the papers." Fin wrapped an arm around Olivia as she laid her head on his shoulder.

"I could've confronted him about it though, try to talk to him, convince him to sign the papers, but I didn't." Olivia wiped the tears from her cheeks before lifting her head and turning to face Fin. "Dr. Lindstrom helped me to see that I never confronted Trevor about the papers because deep down I still loved him." Olivia admitted

"Do you still love Trevor?"

Olivia nodded, "When I finally accepted that, I felt even guiltier for being with Brian."

"What would've happen if he wanted to get married Liv?"

Olivia shook her head, "I knew Brian would never commit to marriage, he was just satisfied living together. But after a while I realized that I couldn't keep living a lie with Brian, so I broke up with him." Olivia glanced up at Fin, "Me and Trevor talked for a while last night, we're going to try and work on our relationship or marriage I should say."

Fin gave Olivia a small smile, "I'm glad to hear that Liv. Truthfully, I always thought you and Trevor belonged together. The love you two had for each other was pure and raw, and at that time I wish and hoped that one day I would find that type of love."

Olivia nodded, "But you did, with Casey." Olivia said seeing the smile on Fin's face grow even bigger. Olivia stood up, "I guess I should go and see what Murphy wants." Olivia moved towards the door opening before turning back towards Fin, "Thanks Fin." Olivia added before making her way towards the Captains office.

Olivia glanced at Amanda as she walked towards Murphy's office. Olivia knocked and when she got permission to come in she opened the door and walked in, "I heard you were looking for me." Olivia said as she closed the door behind her and made her way over to one of the chairs and sitting down.

Murphy looked up at her from his laptop, "fifteen minutes ago." Murphy stated letting her know that he was slightly annoyed that it took her fifteen minutes to see him.

"Sorry, I had to finish up something." Olivia said apologetically

"Look I just wanted to let you know that we'll be charging little Tino with the murder of Ellie Porter." Murphy said knowing that Olivia wouldn't be to please with the charges.

"Why, little Tino is covering for someone." Olivia argued

"There's nothing we can do, we tried to pressure him, offer him a deal but he's not budging. If he wants to go down for her murder let him."

Olivia shook her head, "What about Ellie, she'll never get justice and what about her son Noah, when he grows up and find out that his mother murderer was never prosecuted, was able to get away with it."

Murphy sighed in defeat, "If you want to continue to investigate this case that's your prerogative. As of tomorrow, you'll be the commanding officer of the unit again."

Olivia narrowed her eyes at him, "Where are you going?"

"Back undercover, they called me yesterday and I agreed. I recommended you to the brass and 1PP to take over while I'm gone." Murphy said

Olivia nodded, "You'll be missed around here Murphy." Olivia said

Murphy nodded, "I been meaning to ask you about Amaro, he made bail, I know you may not believe it but I glad. Amaro is a good cop, but he is a loss cannon, and that's dangerous for a cop. If he can't control his temper, he'll end up in jail."

"I know, but sometimes with this…"

"This job is hard to handle, trust me I get it and I understand," Murphy said interrupting Olivia. "But if he can't learn to control his emotions in this unit he needs to transfer to one where he can." Murphy added firmly.

Olivia knew he was right, nevertheless she just hoped that his time in jail and this whole situation would cause Nick to realize that himself and make some effort to work on his issues.

"Do you know what's going to happen with Ellie's son Noah?" Murphy asked.

Olivia shook her head, "There's a hearing later this morning, I was planning on attending it to find out." Olivia said as Murphy phone rang. Olivia gave him a nod before leaving the office to give him some privacy.

Olivia made her way over to her desk and as she sat she could feel Amanda's eyes on her. Olivia sighed before looking up at the blonde detective. "Just say what you want to say Amanda." Olivia said throwing the blonde off a little for being caught.

Amanda got up and moved towards Olivia's desk before sitting down. "You and Trevor," Amanda simply said. Fin had warned her not to be to hard on her when she did question Olivia about her relationship with Trevor. She assured Fin that, that wasn't her plan.

"Yeah, it's complicated." Olivia said with a little laugh

Amanda laughed a little also, "Trust me I get it, well not the entire thing, but, I do get the complicated part."

"I'm sorry I lied to you earlier about Trevor and me, I just…"

"Didn't want to talk about it, I know. Liv you don't have to explain everything to me."

Olivia eyed Amanda for a second, "How much do you know?" Olivia asked curiously

Amanda bit her lip before responding, "Just about everything. I know about you two being married and…" Amanda paused not wanting to bring up painful memories, but the look Olivia was giving her told her it was ok. "And Mason. Olivia, I don't know how you keep going, with everything that has happened to you. You're the strongest person I know."

"Sometimes I wonder that myself, how I can keep going, but talking to someone about it has really helped actually." Olivia admitted.

Amanda nodded in understanding before standing up, "Just a warning Nick knows too." Amanda said apologetically but laughed when she heard Olivia say 'great' under her breath as she headed back over to her desk.

Later that morning Olivia made her way towards the courthouse to find out what happens with baby boy Noah. Olivia doesn't bother to take a seat but just stands right at the entrance leaning on the wall as she watches the hearing.

"It appears" Judge Linden starts, "that we found Baby boy Noah's mother, but she was killed last night." Judge Linden says looking at Pippa.

"That right," Pippa replies.

"And there's no other living relative that could be a proper guardian for this child?"

"No, your Honor," Trevor replies as he makes his way into the courtroom but gives a quick glance at Olivia who watches him moved towards the front of the courtroom.

"And you are?" Linden asked

"Trevor Langan, I represented Ellie Porter the deceased mother," Trevor says as he lays his bag on the table. "She did not know who the birth father was, nor, does she have any living relative that we know of. But I do know she loved her son and I am here to be of service to Noah Porter as his representative, to help him any way I can." Trevor finishes as he takes a seat at the table.

"I see," Linden says as she looks up and catches Olivia standing in the back. "And Sergeant Benson, you're here again?"

Olivia nods slightly, "Yes, your Honor."

"As the birth mother is deceased, and no father or other relative has come forward, I officially declare Noah Porter an orphan and ward of the state of New York. He shall continue to be cared for in an A.C.S. facility F-, unless… Sergeant Benson you rescued the infant, isn't that right?" Linden asked pointing at the Sergeant with her pen.

"Yes, your Honor," Olivia replies again standing up straighter and off the wall.

"And you're the only one who's taken a consistent interest on his behalf. Is there any chance you might like to become a foster mother to this baby?" Linden asks as Pippa and Trevor turns to look at a shock Olivia Benson in the back.

"I'm sorry. Excuse me, your Honor?" Olivia asked in disbelief.

"I have a feeling about this, Sergeant Benson. Call it a judge's hunch. If you agree, I will order Noah Porter into your care as custodial parent for one year, at which time you'll be given the option to permanently adopt him. Do you agree?" Linden asked with a little smile on her face as she watches the Sergeant.

Olivia doesn't know what to say, she's speechless, that's when she catches Trevor looking at her with a smile on his face and his eyes sparkling. She remembers that sparkle, it was the same sparkle that was there when she told him she was pregnant with Mason. "Um, can I have a minute your Honor?" Olivia asked

Judges Linden nods knowingly as she watches the Sergeant and Langan stare at each other. "Let's take a 30-minute recess, shall we." Linden says before standing and leaving the courtroom.

Trevor immediately jumps up and makes his way over to Olivia setting a gentle hand on her arm. "Liv," Trevor simply says.

"I want to… to do this." Olivia says biting her lip before they curl up into a big smile.

Trevor returns the smile, "Why didn't you say that then?"

"I want to do this, but I want to do it with you. I know…"

Trevor holds up a hand stopping her before guiding her into the hallway and into an empty conference room. "Liv…"

"I know we have work to do, but I spent the entire night thinking back on our conversations and I want us to be together again. I made a mistake by even thinking about divorcing you at that filing for it. I been thinking about us and I was going to call you after court this morning to tell you that, that I'm ready to come home." Olivia said as tears slid down her cheeks. "I know you're mad…"

Trevor pulled Olivia into a tight embrace, "I'm not mad at you Liv. I think it'll take time for us to get back to normal but," Trevor pulled back from the embrace to look Olivia in the eyes, "Like I said last night, I want to work on our marriage. I want to bring you home." Trevor says as he blinks back the tears that had formed in his own eyes and threaten to fall.

Olivia intertwined their fingers, "I know it may not sound logical to bring a kid into the equation, but I think we can do this together. We can be a family." Olivia says looking at Trevor hoping he'll agree with her.

TBC

Will Trevor agree to become a family with Olivia and Noah? What will everyone else think, especially Veronica? And Olivia and Nick have a conversation. Don't forget to leave a review.