Her sensible shoes clicked softly against the cement floor. She kept her eyes forward. She was usually one to be scared whilst walking through maximum security prisons, but today, she had something else keeping her safe from fear; there was something inside of her trying desperately to keep her warm, before it burned her alive.

She stepped into the visitor's room, and looked down the aisle, searching for the woman he was hear to see. She spotted her and she walked slowly over. She sat down across from her and picked up the phone, putting it to her ear as the prisoner did the same.

"Kara Danvers," the woman smiled, while Kara looked stony.

"Lillian Luthor." She said tartly.

"I have to say," Lillian sat back in her chair, "you're quite the last person I was expecting to see here."

"Well you got a notice beforehand, so I doubt it was really a surprise." Kara snapped, her nose twitching.

"Well," Lillian smiled, "what can I do for you?"

Kara gripped the phone tighter, "You know why I'm here." she growled.

"No, I'm sorry," Lillian leaned forward, close to the glass, "you'll have to tell me."

Kara banged her phone against the glass, making Lillian jump, "Don't play games with me!" Kara hissed, bringing the phone back to her ears, "Tell me where he is."

Lillian smiled that wicked smile again and leaned back in her chair, "Who'd have thought you'd come crawling back to beg me for some useless alien freak."

"He's not a 'freak'" Kara snapped, "Now tell me where you've got him hidden and maybe I can make your life a bit more comfortable in here."

"Hm…" Lillian thought, "no."

Kara breathed in heavily, and held her forehead in her hand. "But perhaps if you did me a little favor-"

"-No." Kara interrupted, "I will not be doing anything for you."

"Then you'd better kiss your little Daxamite prince goodbye." Lillian snapped, leaning close to the glass and spitting the words violently at Kara.

"Goodbye." Kara said, eyes welling up.

She stood, hanging up the phone aggressively. She stormed away, but she could still hear Lillian Luthor's voice in her ear saying,

"I know you can hear me," the smile evident in her voice, "so, if you change your mind, I'll be here, awaiting your response on the edge of my seat."

Kara brushed past the guards and ran out the front door. She walked out into the heavy parking lot, the sun kissing her skin gently, making the wisps at the edges of her hair glow in heavenly light. She sprinted across to her car, feet hitting the pavement heavily. She fumbled with her keys and slid into her car.

Tears sprung heavily to her eyes, and she couldn't hinder them. She put her head against the steering wheel and began to cry. She suddenly remembered the first time she'd been with him in a car; all the silly questions he'd asked, and the bright look in his eyes as he observed traffic signals and the buildings above his head.

The phone buzzed in the cup holder next to her. She jumped away from the steering wheel and closed her eyes, leaning back against the headrest. She snatched up the phone and answered, hearing her sister on the other end of the line.

"Kara?" She asked gently.

Kara sniffed and wiped her nose, "Yeah,"

"How're you doing?" Alex's sympathetic voice should've been soothing but it wasn't; not this time.

"It was another dead end."

"Oh, Kara-"

"-It's fine," Kara said, "we'll just-we'll find another lead-we'll find him-"

"-We will." Alex said, "Don't give up on him, Kara, not yet."

Kara nodded, forgetting her sister couldn't see her. "Okay." she said, her voice cracking slightly and her brows furrowing to try and keep from crying again.

"Okay." Alex said softly, he sorrow heavy in her breath and in her voice, "Come home and we'll talk more okay?"

Kara nodded again, "Okay.

She hung up and started the car, pulling out of the lot and past the guard with ease. She drove down the empty dirt road for a long time. The trees looked peaceful and calm above her head. She pulled onto the highway and sped up. The pavement raced under her tires. She gripped the steering wheel tighter.

She pulled into National City and looked up at the tall buildings above her. She loved looking at them from different perspectives. Today, she had no will to fly above them. She almost wanted to melt into the city and forget about her alter-ego, but she knew she couldn't.

She flew away from a crime scene as Maggie pulled up in her cruiser, and she soared up into the sky. And after successfully defeating yet another armed robbery, she floated above the city and then stopped abruptly. She'd caught her reflection in a tall building. She hovered in the air and looked at herself. Her blonde hair floated around her, and her cape hung lazily in the breeze. She looked into her eyes, back and forth between the right and left, trying to puzzle something out.

She didn't know what she was supposed to do. She looked at herself, and she didn't see the responsible adult she saw before; she saw a scared kid in a grown-up's body. She couldn't even keep the people she… cared about safe.

"Kara?" Her sister's voice came gently through the comm in Kara's ear.

"Oh-yeah?" Kara broke out of her haze.

"You okay?" Alex asked.

"Yeah," Kara nodded, still staring down her own blue reflection.

"Go home okay?" Alex said gently, "You need to rest."

Kara yanked her eyes away from her own reflection and shook her head, "No, I can't."

"Kara-"

"-We have to find him." Kara said urgently, "I can't just sit around and wait for him to show up."

"But we have no leads! We have nowhere to look!" Alex said, "You need to rest for when we do find one!"

"I'm going to help you find one." Kara said, flying towards the DEO building.

"Kara-!" Alex pulled the headset out of her ear and turned to her sister as she landed inside the government agency, "Kara! You need to stop!" She stood in front of her sister and blocked her from going any further into the building.

"No, I need to-"

"-Find him, yes I know!" Alex said, "But you can't like this."

"Just let me help," Kara said dejectedly, "please, Alex."

Alex sighed and stepped aside, "Alright-but you need to listen to me when I tell you to go home and rest, okay?"

Kara nodded gratefully, "Okay."

They walked into the hub, and Alex sat down in between her and Winn at the computers.

"Hey, Kara." Winn smiled, "I, uh, I've got satellites all over National City looking for him."

Kara nodded, thanking him silently, whilst watching Alex as she began to do other work for the DEO. They sat there for hours. She crossed her arms and rested her chin on them.

They've been doing this dance, on and off for weeks; they spend a long night looking for him, and then the next day, Alex tells her she shouldn't stay with them, and then she eventually gives in.

"What if he's not even in National City anymore?" Kara asked and they both turned to her.

"Cadmus is based primarily in National City," Winn said thoughtfully and Alex nodded.

"But we have no idea just how far they stretch." Kara said and the two agents looked at each other.

"It's worth a shot." Alex said, rubbing Kara's shoulder, and turning back to Winn, "Why don't you widen the search to the desert and see what we come up with."

"Only the desert-?"

"-We'll widen it more later." Alex said, "We can only scan so much at a time, Kara."

Kara nodded and then put her head back on her arms. Her eyelids felt heavy. She'd just close them for a minute, and Alex would wake her if anything changed. She sat up a while later, looking blearily around. The room was deserted.

She straightened slowly. Someone had wrapped her cape around her shoulders like a blanket, and it slipped softly off. She turned and looked around. It was still night time out. She couldn't remember ever seeing the DEO empty like this; they had to take shifts or something.

She turned to the back of the room and looked up at the steps and saw a figure standing there. She stood carefully and watched them. They had their hands in their coat pockets and they were staring at the moonlit city outside. She jogged up the steps and then walked slowly around them to see their face.

"Mon-El?" she breathed and he turned to her.

He smiled, "Hey, Kara."

She threw her arms about his neck and pulled him close. He laughed heartily, putting one hand on the small of her back. She pulled away and then stood there for a long moment; looking into his eyes and reveling in the ghostly feeling of his arms about her. She suddenly realized what she was doing and she pulled away awkwardly, looking around to see if anyone had seen.

"How did you-I mean," she blinked, looking him up and down, "how are you-"

"-I'm not." he said and she frowned,

"What-?"

"-Kara, I don't have much time." He said, putting his hand back in his pocket, "You're going to wake up soon and then you're going to have to come find me."

"I-" She stuttered, looking down at their feet and then back up at him, "I don't understand-"

"-This isn't real." He said and she furrowed her brows even further than before, "I'm missing in the real world." he said with a gentle sort of harshness, "Don't let this dream fool you."

"No," she shook her head, "No! You're here-" she grabbed the lapels of his jacket, shaking him, "-you're right here!" she felt herself beginning to cry.

"No," he said, grabbing her hands and stilling them on his chest, "I'm not."

Her breath hitched in her throat, "But… you have to be…"

He shook his head slowly and rubbed the backs of her hands with his thumbs. "You have to find me."

He let go of her hands and took her head in his, bringing her close to him. He pressed his lips against her forehead, and the motion would've been comforting had she been able to really feel it.

He stepped past her and walked to the balcony. She stood with her back to him, watching her tears as they hit the cement floor.

"Wait!" She turned suddenly and he looked back at her as he stood on the ledge. "I have to tell you something!"

He shook his head, "It's too late for that." He said, "You can't say it until you find me."

"But you're right here," she stepped closer, "maybe I can just practice with you, and then tell the real Mon-El when I see him-"

"-No." He said, "You don't need to practice."

She looked down at her clasped hands and nodded solemnly, "You can do it, Kara."

She looked up at him and a tear brushed her cheek gently. "Go on." He said, and she was suddenly pulled from her slumber by her sister.

"Kara, it's almost three in the morning," she said tiredly, "Winn's promised to call if they find anything."

Kara nodded drowsily. "Come on," Alex rubbed her shoulder, "I'll drive you home."

Kara stood and Alex offered her a hand. Kara smiled sadly and took it, leaning into her sister. They walked out to Alex's car a while later, Kara having changed back into regular clothes. She plopped down in the passenger seat and Alex sat gracefully in the driver's side. She started the car and glanced at Kara wistfully. Her sister only rested her temple against the ledge of the car door, just under the window.

They were stopped at an intersection, cars all around them, people going about their business with no knowledge of anyone else around them. Alex looked at Kara out of the corner of her eye again.

"Kara," she said, looking at the road and adjusting her grip on the steering wheel, "You know it's not your fault right?"

Kara didn't answer.

"Mon-El didn't get taken because of you." She continued gently, fearing her sister would yell at her, "Cadmus took him because they're terrible people, not because you did something wrong."

Kara swallowed and nodded silently. Something felt heavy in her chest, and she thought it must be her heart in there, telling her she's done something wrong.

She looked up at her sister and told a half truth, "I just want him back." She said hoarsely.

Alex smiled sadly, "I know you do." she said, "I just don't want you to feel guilty about something that was beyond your control."

Kara nodded, "I know." She said, "We'll find him."

"Yeah," Alex beamed, rubbing her sister's shoulder for the umteenth time, "We will."

She turned back to the road and pulled through the intersection. Kara's insides felt even heavier than before. She knew it was her heart, and she knew why she felt so damn guilty.