Authors Note: Obviously I own nothing, and thanks to Ravenclawgirl-18 for beta reading my story so you won't have to wade through all my spelling mistake! It might also be of interest that I did finish writing this story and all chapters are with Ravenclawgirl-18 and the first 5 are already back and I'll update them if possible daily until those are up and then whenever I got more and had the time to read them over again and possibly ad an Authors Note.

Warning: This will be slash! Why? Because I love it! So if you hate it, don't read it! Thanks!

Dear Me

Chapter one

Harry is walking through Diagon with the Weasleys and some other order members to shop for his fifth year at Hogwarts and has to stop at Gringotts and get some money first. The order wanted to get everything for him and keep him locked up and safe but Harry had whined until they decided that a bit of fresh air might be good. Harry wonders if they really think that or only fear that he'll run of without permission otherwise. If they did, they had a point he had already tried to talk Hermione and Ron to go with him and been about to go on his own when they changed their minds.

It also explains why he has a 'dog' with him. Probably to make sure that said 'dog' won't get bored out of his mind all cooped up in the house with everyone else gone. He'll also be able to keep an eye on the ally while they are in a shop since he won't be allowed into those.

It's two days since the hearing and Harry wonders if going here was such a good idea after all. With a sigh Harry goes into the Bank glad that he'll get away from the prying eyes while he is down in his Vault.

It's planed that Harry will go down alone since he's most likely safe around there and the order will stay in the lobby to keep an eye on everything that might be planed while they otherwise would be down. That way Molly can also go down with another Goblin at the same time to get her money.

Harry walks up to a Goblin while Molly goes to another and he says, "Hi, I'd like to go to my vault."

The Goblin looks up and summons some papers to his head. "Since you turned 15 this year we'll need to do a test as we do with everyone who is past that age." The Goblin starts to write some things on the parchment, "I'll just need to ask some questions and take a hair of yours first, the test on that will be done by the time the questionnaire is done."

Harry eyes Moody who is close by and nods so Harry sighs now knowing that he probably really does have to go over this. "Fine." He replies and reluctantly hands over a hair.

After that the Goblin asks many questions including favourite subject and colour as well as favourite stone which gets Harry sort of in trouble since he never even thought about favourite stones. He tries to answer everything honestly like hobbies and things like that but sometimes just guesses since he has no bloody idea how often he had an outburst of accidental magic during his childhood or picks one nearly at random, like with a stone. Since he doesn't really have a favourite stone he chooses Amber remembering to have heard Hermione and Ginny talk about jewels with stones once and what they like. He remembers that one of them liked it and it isn't as flashy as a ruby like the other liked. He doesn't remember who liked which one though but due to that those were the first to come to mind at all.

Harry is looking towards Moody a few times to see him grin and assumes that he's remembering his own annoyance when he had to go through this. And possibly remembers feeling just as clueless since Harry doubts that Moody ever thought about stones or flowers.

A grin spreads on Harry's face when the questioning finally ends and the Goblin says, "I'm surprised the result for the hair isn't back…oh."

"Oh what?" Harry asks and looks where the Goblin looks and sees two more walking towards them, one of them holding a file in his hand.

"We have a match." The Goblin with the file replies. "Make sure to compare the answers to this." He hands a paper from the file to the Goblin before looking at Harry. "Mister Potter, if you'll follow me I'll talk to you about the result on your way to your vault. At least I assume that's what you came for, right?"

"Yeah." Harry answers and looks towards Moody who looks a little worried.

The Goblin notices the eye contact and explains, "You are free to take whoever you wish with you but I suggest to choose wisely since the information is rather delicate." Harry is about to eye Moody again when the Goblin adds, "You shouldn't let anyone influence you on this one. It is private and delicate but I can assure you Mister Potter that you'll be more than save while you're in this bank."

Harry looks at the goblin for a moment but then sighs and asks, "Can I take my dog with me? He's very protective and I'd feel a lot saver with him."

The Goblin seems to consider it for a moment before he nods. Moody then nods towards Tonks who walks out to get Snuffles. Once the dog is next to Harry the Goblin just rises an eyebrow looking up at the big grim like dog. "No worries." Harry assures, "He's a very gentle dog and would never hurt anyone."

"I'm sure." The Goblin drawls. "Follow me please Mister Potter."

Harry does as asked with Snuffles right next to him. Once they are in the cart, which the so far silent Goblin stirs, the Goblin that holds the file finally speaks again. "You probably wonder, like most do, what those questions and the hair test are about correct?"

"Yeah." Harry mumbles. "To be honest, they felt kind of random and pointless."

"They are far from pointless." The Goblin replies clearly upset, "They are for our studies of a wizard's soul."

"Of the soul?" Harry asks, "And what does it tell you about my soul that my favourite flower is a Lily which to be honest I only said because I hardly know flowers and it was my mother's name."

The Goblin grins, "Nothing."

"So the questions are pointless after all." Harry grumbles.

"No." The Goblin insists, "They might not tell us anything about your soul but so far 95 percent of reincarnations had the same interests and often favoured something within those interests. It is also rather interesting that in one of those not interested areas you chose to be inspired by your deceased mother since in your last life you picked Amber as favourite stone because it was the name of your mother in that time. It is also interesting that in that life you also choose Lily as a favourite flower even though according to the file it was because a friend liked it."

"Reincarnations?" Harry asks and wonders if he should mention that he picked Amber because of a friend too. He sees Snuffles ears perk up and a curious look in the dog's eyes and decides not to interrupt further to get more information from the Goblin faster and rather asks. "What do you mean with past life?"

"What I mean, Mister Potter, is that we, on very special occasion and under very strict rules, offer to do a soul spell that ´while it kills a wizard will ensure that he's reborn." The Goblin replies, "Since the spell kills them one of the rules for being offered that spell is that the wizard or the witch in question has to be dying from a disease or other cause."

"And then he or she gets a second chance?" Harry asks.

"A second chance to get what they hadn't gotten in their previous life." The Goblin agrees, "Because we also only offer this to someone who never had a long-term partner nor has a suitable heir that he or she is actually related to."

"So, this is sort of a second chance to find love?" Harry questions, "Which means in my past life I was alone?"

"Yes." The Goblin replies, "There had been a prophecy about you in that life and all your life you worked towards that goal and seemingly forgot to listen to your heart and never found the right person. Or rather," The Goblin opens the file to look inside before saying, "Your past-self stated that he assumes to know who would have been a good match but that he alienated that person during his teenage years because he was too focused on preparing for that prophecy that he never noticed that the tension was rather sexual than anything. By the time your past-self noticed however it was too late and the person married with children."

"So," Harry mumbles, "To have someone in this life I should focus on that more than any prophecies?"

"If there are any," The Goblin replies, "Then that would seem to be the advice you gave yourself."

Harry sighs and then asks, "But it doesn't really have to be the same this time, does it? I mean how often did a person that wanted to have that second chance not find the right person?"

"About half of them." The Goblin replies, "And we are only able to do this once with a soul."

"Guess that means no third chances huh?" Harry mumbles. "Oh well. If that's all?"

"Not really." The Goblin says while the cart is still rolling and Harry wonders if it's because of their topic or anything else that he has the feeling that this cart ride takes much longer then the last ones. "Since there never was an heir for any of the cases we made it our policy to, take care, of the persons belonging and return them to the soul sort of making them their own heir."

"Oh." Harry replies, "So I also get some old stuff and a bit of gold?"

The Goblin grins and then says, "That would be the usual outcome yes. We also always show the vault to the new owner which is why we're heading there before we go to your old one if you still wish to see it since you can take whatever you need from the one we're heading too."

"That's fine I guess." Harry replies, "I see if I still need to see the other one after I know what's in this one."

"In that case I'm reasonably sure that you won't need to visit your other one." The Goblin replies as they finally stop and move through a dark tunnel. The Goblin that accompanies them, and seems to be an assistant to the one that had explained everything to Harry, must keep a dragon at bay with a noisy clanker twice on their way towards a small looking door that seems to be made of some stone or metal, Harry isn't sure. The Goblin moves his hand over it and then the door opens and Harry's jaw drops to the ground and the Goblin is surprised to see that the dog also looks way to shocked to be a dog and assumes it to be an animagus.

The vault is huge and Harry wonders if halve of London is under-tunnelled if a single vault can nearly have the size of a small village! Maybe even more since Harry isn't sure where the end is past the piles of gold. But that isn't all he sees. There are multiple tapestries along the walls and treasure chests filled with jewels in form of rings, necklaces or bracelets and belts and he even sees tiaras and a few crowns. A few other chests are filled with huge gems, pearls or even gold nuggets. He can see multiple swords staffs and armour. There are golden and silver plates, cups and even utensils. There also are some other vessels out of Gold as well as little figurines out of gold some of them also with some gems in them.

A whole corner is filled with multiple bookcases that are so full of books and scrolls that there are a few more piles of them in front of them. There is also a podium with one book open on top of it. The amount of books Harry sees would make Hermione jealous. Hell, it might make Madam Prince jealous.

There also are some amphoraes with different paintings on them and other things that look like particularly old artefacts and sculptures. After looking around speechlessly for a short moment Harry picks up one of the cups that is close by and very pretty. It looks like it's made of glass at first glance but feels a little different and has lots of gems in it and quite a bit of gold in it too. It seems to glow even though there is little light apart from a few torches around the walls and their reflection in everything shiny in the vault, which is rather a lot.

"Ah I see you noticed one of the two most valuable item in this vault if not the most valuable one." The Goblin praises once again opening the file for further information. "It's mostly made of one huge diamond with other gems and some gold inlaid into it. It was created by a royal elf named Aintithenniel. During the great times where Muggles still lived in peace with magical beings, it was known by wizards as well as muggles as the holy grail."

"The holy what?" Harry squeaks.

"The holy grail." The Goblin calmly repeats and Harry stares at him for a moment before gently replacing the cup to where it was.

"What is the other valuable item you mentioned to be about as valuable." Harry wonders out loud. How can anything be even close as valuable as the holy grail.

"That would be a sword also made by a royal elf but I'm afraid no one was able to find out which one. We do know however that is it made of a crystal and that it is infused with powerful magic partly coming from the runes that are engraved in it. Said sword is only slightly older then the grail and was still known as well as used in a time where Muggles were permitted to use magical artefacts. It was known as Excalibur." The Goblin replies.

"Excalibur?" Harry mumbles, "By Merlin."

"That would have been your former name." The Goblin stats drily and Harry stares at him before he suddenly drops in a faint. The Goblin looks at the now whimpering dog that sniffs around the boy's face and adds, "Since you seem unwilling to reveal yourself in front of us we'll leave you alone and wait just outside. Just knock when you'd like us to open the door and let you out."

The Goblins leave and the dog turns back into Sirius and uses an enervate on his godson. Harry slowly opens his eyes and looks around before letting his head drop back on the ground, "Oh no, this wasn't a dream. How do I always get into such a mess?" Harry questions.

"I wouldn't call this a mess." Sirius tries to calm him. "You're a kind young man and now you have enough gold for ten lifetimes and really valuable items on top of it. I bet you're more loaded then Malfoy now. Probably twice as loaded or more." Sirius grins at him. "Not that you weren't rich before since James was but Harry, it doesn't change who you are. There might be some things that are the same for both of you but I bet there is also a lot that is different. You'll be just fine and will find someone to love you in this life time I'm sure of it and no one deserves it more then you."

"I bet Merlin had deserved it too and guess what, he didn't get it." Harry grumbles but then sighs. "Guess this is another thing I just have to live with though."

"I fear so." Sirius replies and hugs his god son. "But hey, somewhere around is Excalibur, mind if I search for it for a bit?"

"Go ahead." Harry sighs and then walks over to the book on the podium and wonders if it's Merlin's magic book. With a glance toward all the others he sighs thinking that it's probably one of many.

He looks into the opened book and sees that there is a spell on that side that helps find someone's family and according to the notes was created by Merlin and known by no one else at least at the time. There is also a folded and sealed parchment on the page. The elegant script on it reads 'For my next life!'

Harry opens the letter and reads,

'Dear me.

I never thought I would start a letter in such away, but I'm very glad for this chance. I won't trouble you with my memories or worries or everything wrong I did in my life. The way I'm already treated by most in my time I fear you've heard my name if you ever studied history but rest assured, I'm by no means all-knowing and made more mistakes in my life then I like to admit so I'm just as normal as I assume I'll be in my next life. I did however pester the Goblins for days on end before doing this to find out a bit about how much of my old life could also happen in my next.

According to their studies, it will most likely be some time until you read this since even though I'm far from wise I do have some power that however I didn't learn to fully excess until I was about 15 so don't worry about feeling powerless at times if you're younger than that. I learned to use most of that after I found that a person I saw dying and didn't manage to safe was my brother. I did try to save him but to this very day I wonder if I had put more effort into it, could I have saved him? I think I could. I only tried half-heartedly because I always fought with his best friend. It was my best friend that killed him. He didn't mean to, but he still did.

I was considering to decline the offer when I found out that it seems like fate enjoys messing with a certain soul in a certain way. It seems like everyone who had some form of hardships during their childhood had to go through the same but the same goes for the up side. The Goblins muse that to be the low chance of actually finding love in the second life. Since that is the goal so to speak most try much harder than normal to reach it once they learn of this and hence have a small chance of screwing fate around on that one. But it's still only about half.

However, my childhood hadn't been the best and I'm sorry to make you go through the same for I doubt you'll be exactly like me. But do remember that while we might share the same soul and experienced some things that are painstakingly similar, you are still yourself, don't ever forget that.

I mostly write though to warn you. If your life is as much like mine as the Goblins seem to assume it will be, then there are secrets being kept from you. Some of those that you might have to find out to stop yourself from making the same mistakes I did. Due to my carelessness my own brother was killed and I was personally responsible for some of my family's murder and that is what I truly want to change, more than finding love for myself. I know I can't change my past, but maybe this is a way to repent for some of my wrong doings.

If you do the spell, then you'll find one person from your family and it will be a key person to find out about the rest. Trust that person for it will be one that means well for you and help him or her to safe whoever is part of your family if you're at all able to do it. I fear that you've been born right into the middle of a magical war just like I was in my youth which is why I eventually left most of that life behind and searched for friends and a second chance in the Muggle world. I found my peace with my friends and a boy named Arthur who's like a son to me and if I hadn't known that he's well of I would have left my riches to him rather than go through with this.

I hope that whatever comes, you will find your peace too and do the test, for I was never who I thought I was. I was taken from my home and loving family to others that had need of me to replace a child that could be part of a prophecy only to hide that it must be the other that fit it. I then became that prophesied child since it seems those don't make a different between a true born son and a replaced one. Sadly, those people who were at least kind and loving died and I was left with their relatives that were horrid to me. I fear it all sounds too familiar to you and only hope that at least your godfather was more inclined to care for you then for revenge and thus risking his freedom and leave you to fend for yourself.

I hope that by the time you read it you found at least some people that truly care but be careful some of them are keeping those secrets to protect you from further harm while some only think of their own safety. Be careful, dear me, and never forget, you might be more who you thought, but you are still the same person you were this morning. Just like after every day, you'll rest tonight with a little more knowledge and experience. And even if there will be a little more of both then on an average day, it's still the same.

And now take care of yourself,
Your Merlin.

Harry stares at the letter and reads it over two more times while he hears Sirius rummage through the vault somewhere in the back of it. After that Harry reads the page with the spell more closely and wonders if he should do it or not. He's not at Hogwarts and still underage. In the end, he refolds the letter and places it in the book he nearly randomly takes a few more and places them with it and decides to take them with him to Hogwarts and do the spell there. Maybe that one part had been different. It was enough the same to have one of those different, wasn't it?

Even if he dearly hoped it was, he had to make sure, he refused to have this warning and still risk to fight his own family in this war. He must do this spell and soon. Harry considers temporarily to just ask Sirius but fears that he'd lie to him and so doesn't ask and rather waits for the spell.

"I found it." Sirius replies and returns with a splendid looking sword. He moves it and the sound of the sword cutting the air is nearly like a melody. Different from what Harry remembers the Sword of Gryffindor sounded but he doesn't comment further and only forces a smile on his face.

"Cool." Harry replies, he looks at it for a moment but after awhile says, "I fear the others are getting worried soon. We should head back, could you shrink those books and scrolls that I piled there they look interesting and I'd like to take them to Hogwarts with me and show Hermione at least some of them."

After that Harry quickly takes plenty of coins so he can buy something nice for his friends and is glad that he had gotten an extendable walled from one of his friends for his last birthday, that way he could have carried around one of those huge piles of gold if he wished. He also places the books and scrolls into it once they are shrunken.

On his way back to the others Sirius is once again an oversized dog and looks rather pleased waggling his tail. Harry watches him for a moment in silence and then says, "Don't tell anyone yet please." The dog looks up at him and then nods. "Thanks snuffles, you're the best."

"If you wish to keep it quiet I assume you rather not have us inform everyone that is currently renting one of your residences."

"I beg your pardon?" Harry mumbles, "I never knew I even had any."

"It comes with the vault." The Goblin explains and takes out another sheet from the file. "Those are the buildings names, location and the name of the current tenant. We had an agreement with Merlin to oversee the renting of all of them until his reborn soul is found to ensure that they don't decade from disuse, the rent was to be split evenly in thirds, one going to the bank for our trouble, one going to the Vault you just visited to increase your wealth and one to social projects for poor, sick or orphaned children."

After looking at the sheet Harry mumbles, "Malfoy Manor is mine? How on earth?"

"One of the Malfoy Lords started to rend it after moving to Britain and ever since it has been used by the family. It used to be called Wiltshire Manor since it is the biggest one of yours in the area and that still is the official name unless you wish to change it. It is usually called Malfoy Manor by now since they lived there for generations. As far as I know the Malfoy's wish to buy the Manor for a few generations now and probably pay a rather hefty fortune to get it permanently. They inquired about it once a year at least and we just informed them that it currently isn't possible to be bought by anyone and that we'll inform them should there be an option to buy it but they still keep pestering."

Harry stares at the Goblin and goes further over the list and then mumbles "Half of diagon belongs to me too?"

"Yes, mister Potter," The Goblin replies, "Merlin was famous in the Muggle world but before that he was a wealthy wizard with a lot of power that had defeated the most dangerous dark wizard in his time before leaving the magical world."

"Guess that raises my odds to beat good old snake face again." Harry mumbles to himself when they finally reach the end of their cart ride back. "If anyone but the Malfoy's asks for that Mansion, let me know. Oh, and let Malfoy know when he next asks about it that the owner might sell it, but not to a death eater and since he is marked, he's not getting it in this life time."

They enter the Lobby after that and Moody is next to him in a heartbeat, "What took you so long boy." He grumbles.

"Sorry, Snuffles wanted to snuff something out in my vault." Harry grins happy to have the excuse and grins even more at the complaining whine from the dog and mumbles "Sorry." But doesn't really sound sorry at all. A little later Harry and Ron are pressing their noses against the Quidditch shop and stare at the brooms and other stuff in it. They don't stare for long because a little later Harry is inside and buys out nearly the entire shop and gets Ron and the twins their own firebolt's before they even buy the school supply. Molly keeps chiding him for wasting his money but Harry constantly assures that he can spare it and that the love she and her family showed him the last few years is worth so much more and that he just wants to give a little back. He asks her for wishes but she refuses to reply anything claiming that he spend enough money on making her sons happy and what could be better for a mother then to see her children happy and that she considered him one of her sons anyway which is why she'll keep chiding him for wasting money.

Harry also buys for new robes for all the Weasleys including Molly but she refuses her one insistently and Harry sees himself forced to make a deal with Madam Malkin and gives her more money than he has to and in return she promises to give Molly plenty of discounts on everything until the money he paid in advance is out.

While they finally bought their books Harry is grinning from ear to ear when Lucius is walking into the shop shortly after them and drags his son out with the words, "You have to come to Gringotts with me now."

"Why?" Draco who apparently had been shopping with his mother while his father did some business with the Goblins and due to that had been in the shop before Lucius came whines, "I don't even have my own vault yet so why should I go there?"

"You're not marked. I'll explain there." He whispers just about loud enough in his anger to be overheard by Harry who is on the other side of the book aisle just like Ron and Hermione.

"I wonder what that was about." Ron muses. "But it's good to know that the ferret doesn't have his own vault yet."

Harry just grins certain that the Goblins won't sell them anything without talking to Harry about the details so Malfoy Junior won't be able to get anything for his father.

Authors Note: Who wonders who his parents are? If you do, you don't know me! I guess those are obvious but if you agree with that, there is a little detail in this that will shock you and that WILL be a big surprise and not quiet as obvious, or at least, I hope it won't be! Maybe you can already guess all the family members until everything is out in the open and I'll let you know if anyone is still missing at the start of every chapter! That way I'll know if I'm too obvious on that one too!