Always In My Heart ch. 1

Hey everyone, I know that I haven't post a lot recently and things have been getting a hectic as well as I kinda lost my will to write but I am going to finish my other stories, I promise. This one isn't going to be that long. Roughly five chapter give or take.

I didn't want to do this but I had to no matter how much it hurts. She's gonna leave me for New York in a few weeks to live out her dream to teach while I'm still at Barden. I knew that this was gonna happen but I didn't think it would hurt so much fuckin much although I should've seen this coming cause everyone leaves me eventually. They always leave me behind and she's no different from the other that claim that they wouldn't but it's always the same. I'm not worth staying and I knew this which was the reason I built my wall around myself to protect myself yet she knocked them down like they were made out of paper. I fell for Chloe and she made me believe that I didn't need to hide between my walls but I was blindsided when she was offered a teaching gig in New York.

The redhead hasn't given them an answer yet but I know that this is something she was to do and there's nothing left for her so I'll make the decision for her a little easier. I walked up to her door, knocked on it with our special knock so the other knows that it's us and the door opens to see Chloe standing behind it with a smile that rivaled the sun as I told in her appearance to notice she's wearing a black tank top and a pair of sleeping shorts that looked like booty shorts. Her hair was tied back into a messy ponytail and her face was clear of makeup, making her like even more beautiful as I realized that she's not wearing a bra as my member twitched in appreciation. My face was lifted as my eyes locked onto a pair of baby blues that I've come to love and adore as my girlfriend looked at me with a smug look on her face before kissing me on the lips.

"See something you like, hm Becs?"

"Chloe, we need to talk"

Chloe's eyebrows furrowed in confusion, stepping aside to allow me in her room as I sat down on her bed and she settles down next, lacing our fingers together. I sigh slowly trying to get my thoughts and the older Bella doesn't rush me which I'm grateful for cause I'm about to do is the hardest thing that I've ever done.

"I think that you should go to New York and take that teaching job"

"But Beca, I-"

"No Chlo, I know how much you love teaching and I think you should go" I said swallowing around the lump in my throat.

"What about us? Do you… do you want to break up? What does mean for us?"

"You should worry about yourself and this is a great opportunity. I want the best for you but just know that I love you and you're the best thing that ever happened to me" I said kissing her lightly on the forehead.

"Beca please, don't do this. I love you" Chloe said grabbing fists full of my flannel shirt.

"Chloe stop, we need to breakup. I'm sorry" I said easing her hands from my shirt.

"I don't want a future without you in it" Chloe said tearfully. "Please don't leave me"

I felt like my heart was breaking in two and smashed into pieces as I went into my room, crying myself to sleep that night. I was making the right decision for the both of us and hopefully Chloe'll forgive me for leaving.

I jolted out of the dream that I was having… more like a memory from a long time ago, running my hands down my face when I rolled onto my side to realize that one stand had left with a note on my nightstand.

Last night was amazing and if you want to meet up for a coffee or something. You know where to find me. See ya around, Beca.

-Dianna

It's been six years since the last time I seen or heard anything from Chloe… that's not necessarily true, her face or name is plastered over billboards, the internets or the television when I bother to watch anything. Instead of becoming a teacher like I expected her to, she become an actress and America's sweetheart and from what I heard she's started back dating that Tom or Brad or whatever his name was again. He plays for the Falcons and I also heard that the dumb jock's trying his hand at acting too but I'm bothering to keep track of what that asshole's doing but I can't believe that Chloe's dating him of all people. I can't for the life of me figure out why the older woman would consider going back to him but I guess that it's really none of my business since I'm the one that broke off our relationship. I didn't get to think much about my memory when the door of my bedroom is opened loudly and a sudden weight is forced onto my stomach as my view is blocked by a mop of messy brown hair.

"Mommy!"

"How's my sweet girl? Did you have fun with Auntie Stacie?" I asked kissing the top of my daughter's head.

"We play games and eat lots and lots of ice cream" Sammy said grinning.

Kasey's my four year old daughter from another stab at trying to pursue a relationship but it didn't end well if my memory is correct. Claire Underwood was an model that was at the club that I was playing at that night.

The club was jumping with people dancing on the dance floor, drinking with me at the booth until I looked up to see a tall blonde woman with fair skin, hair cascaded in waves to her shoulders, and green eyes that had this predatory look behind them. She was wearing this skin-tight red dress that suited her curves as she orders something from the bartender before excused herself from her friends, headed towards the VIP section of the club. The bouncer made a motion towards the woman and I nodded to let her in as she made her way to where I was work, setting the extra off to the side and I displayed an nonchalant vibe.

"So DJ Titanium I presume" She said smirking.

"You presume correct and you are?"

"Claire. Claire Underwood" Claire purrs.

"So Ms. Underwood, can I assume that there's a reason that you're here?" I asked raising an eyebrow.

"Yes, I am. I came to check out the place and the hot new DJ that everyone seems to be talking about" She said pressing her body up against my back. "I also heard that your sexual prowess is astounding as well as leaving your conquests wanting for more. Is that true or just a rumor?"

"You shouldn't listen to rumors… unless they're true" I smirk.

"I'm not one for listening to baseless rumor as I like to do very, VERY thorough and extensive research" Claire nibbles on my ear. "What do you say? Are you up for a little experimentation?"

"Well you're in luck as my shift is almost over and this is for research" I mused.

Claire didn't stop touching me and by the time my shift ended, I nearly ripped her dressed off of her body as the night, we got hot and steamy and by the morning, I surprised myself by not leaving as soon as the deed was done. Something stopped me from leaving that morning. We tried our hands at dating and the press got wind of it as we never had a moment's peace after that but the relationship fell apart as soon as it started when I realized that the model wasn't as in to me as I was her. We picked fights with each other over petty things followed by not speaking for few days then made up with angry sex and she would get so jealous especially when I hung out with Stacie. I told her the model on multiple occasions that's nothing between us and we're just good friends.

"Why are you with her if you know she's not that into her?" Stacie asked frowning.

"The sex is amazing I guess" I shrugged.

"Ew I'm sorry I asked but seriously Beca, you know that I'm all for having a sexual relationship but Claire's not the one for you. She's a conniving bitch"

"Look Stace I know that you're just looking out for me but I'm not looking for relationship with the hand-holding and romantic gestures anymore. What Claire and I have is solely based on sex and that's it"

"Maybe if you dropped the Wicked Witch of the West and talk to Chl-"

"Stacie, we're not talking about her okay" I glared at her.

"Okay, okay fine, we won't talk about her but I know that she misses you"

I opened my mouth to stay something when the door's forced opened loudly when we looked up to see the heated glare that Claire shots us and Stacie quickly made her way out. Before I could ask what the matter was, I'm forced onto my back and the model kisses in a bruising way as she had her way with me as I haven't the slightest clue as to what brought this on.

"I'm pregnant" Claire whispered.

"What?! You're pregnant. Are you sure?"

"No, I said just to see your reaction" Claire said rolling her eyes.

"So what do we do now?" I asked running my hand through my hair.

"We don't do anything, this is my problem and I'm gonna fix it" Claire said putting on her shirt.

"You're not gonna get a…" I trailed off.

"I don't know but I can't keep it. I don't even want kids, I have my career to think about and this could ruin me"

"This is my child too and I know that this is your body and your choice but at least listen to me" I said sitting up. "You may not want this kid and we didn't plan this but you can still have your career. Give the kid to me and you don't have to hear from either of us"

"You're okay with raising the brat on your own?" Claire asked raising an eyebrow.

"I make good money and the kid'll get plenty of love" I shrugged.

"Thanks Beca" Claire smiles softly.

After Kasey's birth was the last that I heard from Claire but it's better way as thankfully I didn't have to cut back on my hours at the club as Stacie offered to watch my daughter on the nights that I had to work. It also helped that the leggy brunette's my manager. I'm grateful to her because she didn't have to help yet she chose to help me navigate motherhood and I love it as when I look into those beautiful green eyes, I knew that I made the right decision in fighting for her. Claire and I may not have right for each other but we made one beautiful child together and she's my heart as there's nothing I wouldn't do for her. Kasey's going through her Disney phase and she's in love with the movie Frozen. She's especially excited when she heard that Disney's doing the live action version of the animated movie and belting out the songs even more than usual as her favorite character is Princess Anna.

"Mommy, I want pancakes" Kasey said pulling me out of my thoughts.

"Okay kiddo, let me get dressed and we'll go to Phil's"

Kasey raced to her room to color when Stacie walks into the room and she looks around the room with a disapproving look on her face.

"Don't say anything. I don't want to do hear it" I said stretching my arms.

"I wasn't going to say anything your hookups but I have good news"

"What?" I asked looking through my dresser.

"Disney Studio called me this morning and they want you to do the music for their movie"

"Disney huh? Which movie?"

"Frozen"

"Seriously? Kasey's gonna flip when she finds out" I said shaking my head slightly.

"Do you want to do it?" Stacie asked already knowing my answer.

"Do I really have a choice?"

"Not really which is why I called them, telling them that you would do it"

"Thanks Stace, wanna join us for breakfast?"

"Thank but no thanks. Tell mini Beca that I'll see her tomorrow" Stacie waves goodbye. I quickly got dressed, combed through my sex hair, making sure that I have everything before I leave the apartment as I carry Kasey on my back to the local diner ran by an elderly man by the name of the Phil. When I was just I came to LA and trying to make my name as a DJ, I would come here to grab a quick bite to eat and I got to know rather well as his wife Mina would make sure that I was doing okay. They were super support of my dream and picked me up when I thought I wasn't good enough of a mother as they became like the grandparents that I never had growing up. I met their son Richard who's in college getting his PhD and his daughter Lilly who's two years older than Kasey and the two are almost inseparable. I walked through the door to see Lily sitting one of the stools when she hops down, running full speed at my daughter and it wasn't long before they started talking about everything and anything when Phil pats me on the shoulder.

"How our favorite little DJ, eh?" Phil asked wrapping his arm around my shoulders.

"I'm good, Phil. We'll take the usual" I said sitting on one of the stools.

"Pancake special and for the mini-me" Phil said gesturing to Kasey.

"Same"

"Beca, can me and Kasey have a sleepover at my house?" Lily asked curious.

"Please Mommy, pretty please" Kasey said giving the puppy dog pout.

"It's fine with me as long as you make sure that your Dad is okay with it okay, Lily" I said caving in.

Kasey and Lily cheered before high-fiving each other and I couldn't help but smile at their excitement although I froze in my seat when I looked up to see who walked through the door.

Chloe.

~Nicole The Dragon Rider signing off

End of ch. 1